"Will you be able to ever forgive me?" No, she did not deserve Hanzo's forgiveness and yet here she was, asking for it. Trying to fix things, trying to make up for the harm she had done. However, would he be able to forgive her? Could he find it within himself to do that? "What I did has no excuse, but.. I still want to make things right. I still want to be with you."
Ā Ā Ā When the young woman spoke, Hanzo stops for a moment ā his fire-colored eyes searching for hiscompanionās r u b y hues. There wasnāt anger in his eyes. There wasnātfrustration. Honestly, there was confusion more than anything.
Ā Ā Ā Hanzo was a man who was used to being left behind. Before heādbegun to get used to the LUKE-WARM atmosphere of Ueda, he was used to the c o ld ā he was used to living a life where people could drop out of it any moment.Ether by being hired or killed, he lost many people. He was used to that life.However, heād grownā¦ spoiled, byUeda. Heād grown accustom to people returning. Somehow, that rag-tag team hadmanaged to stay together. Always, somehow, showing back up. Until, finally?
Ā Ā Ā . . . they didnāt.
Ā Ā Ā And neither did she. āā¦Iām not mad at you, Yuna.ā Hanzoās voice was calm ā almost s a d, thoughā¦ the sound was most wistful then anything. Heādlost some of his connections to his emotions since returning to IGA. He had to.That was how things w o r k e d thereā¦ but? He could feel some phantom of them tugginghim still. āYou keep asking forforgiveness, but? Iām not angry. I was sad. Iām stillā¦ a little sad.ā Hanzoāswords died a little on his lips once heād paused.
Ā Ā Ā He didnāt even know howto be sad anymore. But he could feel a soft ache in his heartā¦ he could feel anexhaustion that was unique to t h i s moment. āI spent my whole life learning notto open up to people, Yuna. Andā¦ I opened up to you. To us. And thenā¦ you died. Thatās what I heard. And that washard enough to accept, then to have to hear nowā¦that you left. On purpose. And you chose not to tell me.ā He could feelthe a c h e again. He could feel his chesttightening. Hanzo was accustomed to manipulating people for his own personalgain ā that was what being a SHINOBI was, often times. He was used to playingwith peopleās emotions. And after losing e v e r y t h i n g, it was easy toreturn to the state of NUMBNESS heād been near-famous for.
Ā Ā Ā && feeling emotions again? Feeling this? Had neverbeen part of the plan. . .
Ā Ā Ā āIām not mad, Yuna.But, you abandoned me. Youā¦ hurt me. Iām relievedā¦ to find that youāre alive. Iāmtruly, honestly, grateful that youārealive.ā Heād never spoken these words aloud. Heād never admitted, even whenasked, that he was hurt ā but losing her, then losing the BRAVES, had left himin a unique state of PAIN && LO S S, that heād never been prepared to handle. He was a shinobi. He was usedto those things ā but he wasnāt used to being human. Or truly suffering a loss. āIām justā¦ lost. I canāt understand why you wouldnāt tell me. Why you wouldnātā¦at least tell me in person that you were leaving. I canātā¦ I donāt understand.ā He stops for a moment - choking a little on his words. They hurt, he hadnāt been this honest in a while - and the strain was difficult.Ā ā... I want you here, Yuna. That hasnāt changed. Iām just... Iām confused. Donāt take it badly. I want you here. Iām glad youāre here. I just... I guess Iām unsure how to express it.ā
