ft. the works closest to my heart (updated sporadically as my grad work allows :’D)
(all dividers by daisy at @firefly-graphics, edits thrown together by me)
rule 34 & however long I stay --
(a Date Everything duology, Hector x non-binary plus size reader)
rule 34: Reading some of Hector's work leads to you requesting he leaves the safety of the attic to come visit you in your bedroom. (18+, 15.5k-ish.)
however long I stay: Hector, missing you terribly after a longer absence from your life than intended, shows up at a Goth Night event in hopes of seeing you. what follows is perhaps a more complex reunion than he intended. (post-Realization, 19k-ish)
phantom of the archive --
(Date Everything human/grad school au, archivist!Hector x non-binary/plus size reader, 18+)
You are a grad student in your last semester of research, preparing to present the project that’s taken years of your life. Due to a serendipitous accident in scheduling, you find yourself with unfettered access to Hector Valentino Earnesto Castillo: a sweet, poetic archivist who can and will find literally anything you need for your work – so long as you don’t try to see what he looks like.
The months-long flirtation between the two of you comes to a head one stormy afternoon.
the fic itself
finally, my guide for filtering/avoiding reader fics, for the weak those who insist.
I also have ongoing tags for both my to-be-read list (as I tend to reblog first now so I don’t forget) and fic recs - those are definitely worth checking out for wonderful works by some very talented people!
older/on hiatus works below
from sokovia with love -
Just you, your dissertation research on a country that no longer exists, and Baron Zemo twisting your arm to help him with his latest master plan as the pair of you flee the authorities (and Captain America) across Europe. Really, in a world where half the population can appear and disappear in the blink of an eye, what could go wrong?
The Fic Itself, currently standing at eleven chapters out of fourteen
oneshots set in the same universe as from sokovia with love:
…and everything’s very strange (zombie!au of my own fic, which still needs one of its endings)
mutual frustration (18+, the proof-of-concept sketch that inspired the larger story)
delight in your sweetness (18+, body positivity story for plus size/non-binary reader w/ skin picking issues)
their heartache and their reasons (grief fic, Father’s Day)
bedside manner (sick fic)
covetousness (18+, Zemo and reader are fully in their possessive era)
and he told me I was holy (18+ for violence, rescue fic)
the urges we can’t admit -
You’re an experienced practitioner of the sadistic arts at Mrs. Williams’s upper crust establishment of pleasure and pain. Dr. Laszlo Kreizler, renowned Alienist, has sought your services on a word of advice from his former patient. What was intended to be just a working relationship blossoms into something much more - but his latest case raises the stakes for both of you, especially as you try to keep it a secret from prying eyes. (Most of this story is 18+, just fyi.)
The Fic Itself, which has been long in progress.
oneshots set in this universe with the same reader:
hold me tight as I tell myself that you might make sense (18+, Reader and Las talk through a boundary in their relationship
bring me to my knees, make me testify (18+, body worship for Laszlo)
la vie en rose (Laszlo indulges in nice weather, brings you flowers.)
we’ll get away with everything (18+, You and Laszlo have been married 20 years. A night out is… eventful.)
servatis a maleficum (once again, a zombie!au of my own fic. fight me.)
look alive, sunshine -
(looking for the source on the needlepoint in this edit - if you know it, could you lmk?)
A totally self-indulgent modern grad student!au, which at this point has only be a stand-alone fic - but could do with a continuation or two.
The Fic Itself. (18+ for confessions-of-feelings sex.)
the headcanons that inspired it
the playlist
thanks to everyone who’s read/still reading these fics, I definitely wouldn’t be making this list without y’all 🖤 this is half an accountability list of some things I want to work on during my free time, and half just me remembering some of my previous work I really love 🥰
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the thing about female characters and marriage and motherhood and other societal expectations is that if you actually spend time examining their relationships to those roles you can get really interesting results! but people aren’t doing that! why is this character married for the finale? because she’s a woman and that’s what they do!
Actually Steven Moffat is basically just this sentiment given human form.
A version of this happened with The Magicians, tbh. Though instead of expectation: men, reality: women it was expectation: smug nihilists, reality: mentally ill queer folks.
Arguably Game of Thrones.
If we broaden it outside of television…I think Star Wars falls into this, at least the sequel trilogy. Maybe the MCU as well. And I can’t help but think of every band that’s ever complained that their fanbase is mostly women. 5 Seconds of Summer comes immediately to mind.
In general, most white male creators seem to have this massively entitled mindset where they want–and think they deserve–the time, attention, and enthusiasm that creative fandom (i.e. the side of fandom more dominated by women) is known for.
They want our eyes for ratings, our word-of-mouth for free publicity, our metas for social media buzz, and our spending power for merch and cons. But they don’t want us. And they don’t really want the responsibility of telling a story to a thoughtful, engaged audience, regardless of that audience’s demographic makeup. They just want to be praised for whatever schlock they cough up.
And like any other spoiled brat, they will break their toys before they share them.
It goes all the way to the top for kids shows. Toy sales will crash a show. Makes sense, but if those toys are gendered for boys instead of the female viewers, they won’t usually switch up the marketing and move them to the girl aisle. They cancel the show outright.
Mind you it is perfectly possible to make the switch in marketing, but execs would rather throw it all out than have something that doesn’t perform well with male viewers. For example the Rey merch was not expected to be popular, for some reason, there had to be public outcry to get merch of one of the main 3 protagonists. A PROTAGONIST. The fact that she wasn’t a huge part of the 1st launch says a lot already.
And what happened when female fans got too invested in the Sequel Trilogy? The entire writers room didn’t necessarily lash out, but they sure forgot how to behave.
Young Justice
Paul Dini: Superhero cartoon execs don’t want largely female audiences
#WhereIsRey (initial)
#WhereIsRey (ongoing)
The older, male generation of 'Star Wars' fans may be losing interest in the franchise, but female fans are stepping up.
Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker was designed to be the opposite of The Last Jedi
#SONS OF ANARCHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!#LITERALLY SONS OF ANARCHY IS THE BIGGEST EXAMPLE OF THIS LIKE EVER#kurt sutter wrote that show for MEN and ended up with an overwhelmingly female audience#because he’s actually a good writer and knows how to develop characters well and wrote excellent female characters#but once he realized that his audience was almost entirely women he literally took it out on tara and gemma in the show#but like tara specifically#he resented her character for being a huge draw for female viewers so he tore her development to shreds and killed her#in the most brutal gut wrenching way possible#kurt sutter you will pay for your crimes#i actually wrote a manifesto about this on one of my old blogs i should try to find it sldkjsldfjsdljf#long post (via@m-oonknight)
OMG YES. I LOVED Sons of Anarchy, especially the women and then I got to season 6 and it was like - everything was just tossed in the trash? And like, why did Sutter hate that Tara drew tons of attention? That should have been a good thing! He should have been like “Hey folks, this girl’s getting us more viewers, let’s put her in more scenes!” It just doesn’t make sense to me. MEN don’t make sense to me.
The 100 too. I’ll never forget how Jason Rothenberg would attacked female fans on Twitter and mock them in interviews, and then post links to male fan discussions on Reddit to praise and thank them. In his goodbye letter to the show he SPECIFICALLY thanked Reddit and it was so disgusting.
Star Trek from TNG on was also a boy’s club, even though the TOS fans were mostly women. Women, in fact, who literally created modern fandom with their zines. But after TNG it was all, “Women don’t understand Star Trek, only smart men hur dur.”
(though it could probably start to make some sense if you follow the money past audience bases to maybe a couple of investors or like a rich patron … 🤔)
Stooooop I just wrote a masters thesis on this shit. Media creation and distribution is a means by which dominant power structures consolidate their hegemony. Dominantly situated creators get upset when the audience they attract isn’t the audience they wanted, because they view the whole creation and sharing of the fiction as an exercise to sustain kyriarchal conditions that benefit themselves. When the audience is Other, they see it as a failure of those efforts and lash out.
Simply, they’re trying to assert a particular worldview via fiction, and upon getting confronted with something else, begin foot stamping. It’s not just men wanting male attention and gatekeeping. It’s that the fiction in the first place was an attempt to curate dominance and whoopsie! they miscalculated.
(anyway if anyone wants to read 35k words of philosophy about this, hmu)
Hey folks, for anyone that was interested in the thesis (firstly thank you so much for reaching out I really appreciate the interest) the following is an open access link to download it. Please let me know if it doesn’t work for some reason. Comments are now restricted so can’t put it there, but I hope you see this if you were interested!
I’d also love to hear your thoughts, as I literally wrote it for communities like ours to read, so, thanks.
Fictions are a cornerstone of human cultures: they are created, shared, discussed, modified, and valued. Yet, philosophical accounts which p
i swear to god if people don't start understanding that responding to doylist critique of a piece of media with watsonian exonerations is not an actual rebuttal
somebody saying "hey i don't like that the only gay man in this story is a weird pervert and it portrays gay sexual promiscuity as a moral failing and character flaw" cannot be rebuked by arguing about how the character's backstory or personality traits explain their behaviour. the choices made by a writer are all fundamentally mutable; somebody saying an author's choices should have been different is not going to be persuaded by an argument that takes those choices as immovable fact
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it is p funny that texts that place a particular emphasis on deconstructing black and white thinking and moral absolutism tend to have the most agonizingly moralizing fanbases oat that r very fixated on engaging with these fictional characters exclusively through the lens of morality powerscaling
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one of the most annoying ripple effects of fandom culture is the way so many people can’t seem to keep it in perspective that at the end of the day they’re just talking about art. it feels like i am trapped between people who are like “if you dare criticize the thing i like you are basically personally coming into my house and stealing my dog and shooting my jewelry” and people who are like “global communism is being stopped from succeeding because steven universe is on the air.” and call me a centrist but i don’t think either of those things are true
"this is an inaccurate adaptation" okay but is it good "this didn't happen in the book" does it make sense in the context of the new work though "they totally changed the plot" and is the new one good or bad "it's completely different" not what I asked "they changed all the stuff I like" then I get why you wouldn't be into it but I'm asking about its own artistic merits "this character is meant to be blonde" I couldn't give less of a fuck
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it’s so special to me that so much of fan culture is textual analysis for the love of the game. like thank god there are people in my phone who are also thinking about this thing i love so much that they are writing transformative fiction as character studies and setting clips of the show to music with theme-relevant lyrics and writing long text posts analyzing every line of dialogue like!! yay!!!
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