sometimes i feel like this world is cruel. not being down on myself or being negative. it feels like i am Amine alone on an island with my blunt.
i feel like, i make ten steps forward and as soon as i get closer to my goal, i’m pushed 20 steps back. one time, i had a friend falling out and she told me that i was regressing in any progress i made for myself a few years ago. that really stuck with me because i try very hard to make progress on myself and be self-aware.
sometimes i think objectively about situations and often times i do not understand why i get treated the way i do. not even just human interaction, but really how the world interacts with me.
maybe its wrong to think that people in general just have innate bad / malicious intentions, but thats what i think. i think energy can be transferred and stored and i think throughout the years, people werent able to take accountability or do the shadow work to work thru their traumas to “cure” that dark cloud.
