DaddyOfOne2017

It never came. But I'm still saying

All my life I've been searching for something

To break these chains

To break these chains

Pull me out from this darkness

It's so hard for me to see the light at the end of the tunnel

If it's a war you came to see

You will never see a waved white flag in front me

I can't end up dead, I won't be misled

I'll keep singing this song inside my head

A phoenix rise? Or your demise?

Do I have to put your name on this grave?

Or give you one more shot?

This addiction came like a freight train

You're coming off of the rails again

This world has no meaning

And after all that I've done

After all of my pain

After all that I've become

Will I disappear, disappear

Like a ghost in the breeze?

Like fading memories

Like the world you left was only just a dream

Until my final breath escapes

Gazing upon this world

Until it fades

Fall with me into the other night

We can go beyond the horizon again

Fall with me until we're out of time

Let the current swallow

These whispers keep clawing

Your mind is dissolving light

Sink while you bathe in hallucination

Accept this descent into the night

Releasing your grasp to induce separation

Plunged into the shadows

Lost in sensation, we're free falling down into the everblack

Can you feel it? These pins and needles

Trapped in sensation

See what you have found here

You fell into the dark

Release your grip and face the tide

Accepting this damnation

Relinquish flesh temptation

Of the body and soul

The ebb and the flow, nothing confessed

Put me to rest

Azrael

Guiding me beyond the veil

Obitual

Free me from this mortal shell

Enter into the darkest night

I will sink where I lie

Through the sands of time

Through the angel's eye

My final breath

Still clearly I can hear you say

Don't leave, don't give up on me

Two weeks and you ran away

I remember don't lie to me

You couldn't see that it was not that way

Swear I never gave up on you

I wanted nothing but for that trust again

And brick by brick you would take it

You feared of phantoms and none exist but you

It's often foolish pride that tells us we're not wrong

I hear your voice you tell me that you'll never go

And I believe it, I believe it

And if you're thinking I might

Might be led astray

Just remember this one question

What if I was nothing?

Unsure of what may come

What have I done to bring this down on me?

Helpless to make this undone

All in due time

See the world through different eyes

All in due time

The shadows will give way to light

How much more can I give of myself

As these walls close in on me?

As I slip down into this despair

There is nothing to attain

What victory?

When my soul is weak

How did I find myself to be so pitiful and vulnerable

And I lay my head upon an empty heartbeat

I'm alone and I'm miserable

It's just the way that it is and it's hopeless now

I'll never leave the prison inside my head

No one will ever understand the way it feels

To shut out the emotion that drives me back to you

Is that your voice that I hear

Is that the touch that I had once feared

Is that the way that you look now

Is this what we are

Cynical ole me, beckoning for company

An illusion that I dream of in a nightmare

What do I care if you're here and there's nothing left

Inside of your hollow shell

I'm still alone, I'm still miserable

Is there hope somewhere in this case of flesh we call our home

I don't feel it

Mother, father please go back to sleep

I can't bare to see you barely alive

We're all alone, we're all miserable

Forget my voice

Forget my eyes

All they harness is light

Where there is love there is hate and all the things that coincide blind

Our eyes and take over our minds

I am hate you are hated, I've created you've created

Now get it through your fucking head, we create hate

Perfection is neglected now it's rough around the edges and the lesson that

We've learned; we have neglected ourselves

Another day wishing to find myself with both feet in my grave

My darker thoughts are born again

It's not ok to have a knife in your chest and still be able to breathe

When will the air not feel so cold

And I dread December

I crave the summer days when we were young

But summer came with more of the same

The same old song that cuts so deep

It's sad to say, I crave my grave

Dead and gone

But my wounds still bleed the same

And I just won't die

I've tried everything but I feel no pain

As my body swings

I still feel the cold air rushing through my lungs

History is a silence that's so deafening

Misery how beautiful you look tonight in this shallow grave

It's not deep enough

What's it like to be where the grass is always green

Remind me, I can't remember

I only hope he pays attention

For far too long I played the victim

Hoping someone would pay attention

Too much too soon

Or is that simply my excuse?

Too much too soon

For everything I did to you

Too much too soon

Or is that simply my excuse?

Too much too soon

For everything I did to you

All of my mistakes

There's nothing I can do to fix it now

I just wish you could understand

I'm sorry that I ever hurt you

And that your trust in me was worthless

And now I know what the fucking truth is

But I can give you more than you're expecting

And we ain't got the time to second guess it

Yeah I could f*ck you right and be your best friend

All I need is just a minute

I can tell you how I'm feeling

Yeah I swear that I can sit here with you all night

I can see you catching feelings

From the mirrors on the ceiling

And I'm liking what I'm seeing, ah

All I need is just a minute

That I'm still standing

Splitting at the seams as you desecrate the hive

The cancer's in your heart the poison's in your mind

You better watch your back

I got an axe to grind, a crooked mind

You better watch your back

Sick validation, gut full of pills

Self-medication, it's making me ill

Attention, attention, it's all eyes on me

I'll burn at the stake while you ache for the kill

A single breath I could take

I'd trade all the others away

The blood's on the wall

so you'd might as well just admit it

And bleach out the stains

commit to forgetting it

You're better off empty and blank

Than left with a single pathetic trace of this

Smother another failure, lay this to rest

Console yourself, you're better alone

Destroy yourself, see who gives a fuck

Absorb yourself, you're better alone

Destroy yourself

I'll chain you to the truth,

for the truth shall set you free

I'll turn the screws of vengeance and bury you with honesty

I'll make all your dreams come to life

And slay them as quickly as they came

Smother another failure, lay this to rest

Console yourself, you're better alone

Destroy yourself, see who gives a fuck

Absorb yourself, you're better alone

Destroy yourself

Is it not enough to love and to be loved?

Nothing lasts forever

Nothing lasts forever

Nothing lasts

Superstition rules in the land of the weak

Nothing lasts forever

Superstition rules in the land of the weak

Fear, in the face of the unknown

Born to die in a lonely world

Hostility, breeds within the void

Left by the loss of understanding

Hatred, the true face of ignorance

Force-fed to the masses with the promise of salvation

Knowledge controlled, power withheld

In the name of one, let all blood, all blood spill

There is no god

There is no god