Toxic Angel

After the concert

”Thank you SO MUCH!” Bill shouts in his microphone. The entire band gathers around in the middle of the stage, take each other’s hands and bow to the audience. You and Nicole scream from both happiness and sorrow. Happy over the fact that you’ve finally seen Tokio Hotel live, after years of waiting. But you’re sad that the time went by so fast, and now the concert is over. The arena slowly gets emptier and when you get out on the streets of London, it’s raining. The cars recklessly drive by, and the streetlights reflect in the water puddles. You start walking towards the hotel. “They where amazing!” you say, still incredibly enthusiastic. “Of course they were! It’s a shame we didn’t get seats closer to the stage…” Nicole mutters. “I didn’t really mind that, but sure it would be cooler to stand closer to them,” you say and look at the ground. You pass by Starbucks and you stop. “I’ll just go in there and buy some coffee,” you say. “Coffee? Now? It’s 11 pm,” Nicole says. “I haven’t even started on the English assignment that should be done by Monday. If I don’t start with it now, I’ll never make it on time,” you say and roll your eyes. “Oh well, I’m off to the hotel ‘cause I’m not gonna stand here waiting for you,” Nicole says and waves before she disappears. You stumble into Starbucks and see a very cute guy at the counter. “A regular coffee to go,” you say and start digging for money in your purse. The guy smiles at you and quickly gets your coffee ready. “Anything else?” he asks. “No, that’s all,” you answer and pay him. You’re way too shy to start any further conversation with him. When you get out the door the rain has decreased a bit. You start walking towards the hotel. Maybe you’ll catch up with Nicole, if you’re lucky. The streets are almost empty, only a couple of cars drive by now and then. A red Audi drives up next to you and slows down. Surprised, you look through the car window that has been cranked down. ”Excuse me, my brother is kind of a nuthead and can’t find the way back to our hotel. Do you know where Scandic is?” a very familiar voice asks. You almost choke on your breath when you realize it’s the Kaulitz-twins sitting behind the wheels. ”Uhm I…Well, we…I’m staying at the same hotel. It’s to the right after this road and then you just continue straight forward until you see Scandic,” you explain. ”Well, then let us drive you there! You look cold,” Tom says and smiles. For a moment you actually believe you’re going to faint, but you manage to get into the backseat without any further problems. You close the car door and put your seatbelt on. So… you’re in Bill and Tom Kaulitz’ car. They’re going to drive you to the hotel. Is this happening for real? ”So what’s your name?” Bill happily asks. You wake up from your thoughts and lightly shake your head. “I’m ______,” you answer. “I like that name,” Tom says. ”I’m Bill and this is my brother Tom,” Bill says. ”I like that, Bill and Tom,” you answer. Guess you have to pretend that you have no idea who they are. ”We are musicians, and we come right from a gig!” Tom says. ”Now, don’t brag about that Tom!” Bill says and hits Tom’s arm before he presses a little harder on the gas pedal. ”Have you ever heard of a German band called Tokio Hotel?” Tom continues. ”Well yeah, I’ve heard of it sometime,” you answer as innocent as you can. ”Yeah Tom, you can stop it now! Come on, she doesn’t wanna know our entire background in less than 5 minutes!” Bill says and drives into Scandic’s parking lot. Oh, how you love their accent. ”But I can’t remember that the members of Tokio Hotel looks like you,” you carefully say. Bill laughs. ”Bill is changing his looks 7 times a day. I’m basically the same now as I’ve always been.” Tom says. ”Yeah, you’re boring.” Bill says and laughs. He turns off the car and stretches his arms. ”We’re here!” he says and gets out of the car, closely followed by Tom. On two really unstable legs you get out of the car and run after them. You can’t help but wonder how you look like right now, with wet hair and wet clothes. You wouldn’t be surprised if your make up has started to stream down your face too. Bill rises up in front of you and shakes your hand. ”I don’t think we said hello properly before.” He says and smiles. Tom has already started walking towards the entrance. ”Come on!” Bill says and you start running to catch up with Tom. You enter the lobby and get into the elevator. Right then you realize you haven’t had a single sip of your coffee, so you carefully drink a bit. ”Oh, can I have some?” Bill asks. ”Sure,” you say and hand him the cup. He takes a sip from it and hands it over to Tom, who probably also needs a bit coffee now. In silence you go up the elevator and take turns with the coffee. ”How far up are we going?” you ask. ”Oh sorry! Maybe you have your room further down?” Bill asks. ”On the 4th floor,” you say. ”Well, we’ve passed that.” Tom says and sneers. ”You can spend some time in our room, I’m too excited to sleep anyway!” Bill says and gives you a big smile. ”Oh, okay,” you say while trying to somehow push away the happiness that bubbles up inside of you. This is not the time to start fangirling, not when you’ve come this far. You get out of the elevator and you find yourself on one of the top floors. The further up you get, the more luxury you can afford. Bill unlocks the door and shows you in. Right, this room is a thousand times better than the small one you and Nicole share. Nicole! You had totally forgotten about her… But why would you care about her now? She wouldn’t care about you if she were in the same situation “Have to do some big business,” Tom says and strolls into the bathroom. Bill turns around and looks at you. ”Excuse my brother, we prefer to use the term ”special” to describe him,” he says. You manage to let out a nervous laughter. ”Maybe you want some dry clothes or something? Come here!” he says and leads you to the bedroom. He pulls out a white t-shirt and a pare of grey sweatpants. ”You can keep them,” Bill says and smiles. He walks out of the room and leaves you alone. You look around while you’re taking off your wet clothes. Bill’s warm shirt caresses your body in the smoothest way, and smells just like him. When you’ve put the pants on you sneak out into the living room. Bill and Tom sit by a window with only their pants on, and Tom with a cigarette in his hand. You wrinkle your nose. ”You know that’s a disgusting habit?” you say and sit down beside them. Tom does a dramatic gesture out in the thin air. ”And there goes the last fuck I gave,” he says. You laugh at his attitude, and you can’t help but gaze down on their bodies. “You two are like…. really beautiful,” you say before you can stop yourself. They both start to laugh. ”You’re like really beautiful too,” Bill says. These guys are truly something special, just like you had imagined. You wonder why Nicole haven’t texted or called you yet, but you figure that she’s probably already asleep. ”You look tired,” Bill says and puts his bottom lip. You sigh. ”Maybe I’m a little tired… just a tad,” you answer. ”Come here,” Tom says and puts your head against his chest. Before you close your eyes you can see how Bill gives Tom a certain look. A look you don’t really know how to interpret.

You wake up when someone lifts you up and carefully lays you down in a soft bed. You can hear the twins whisper something in German to each other, and it sounds like a pretty serious discussion. But you’re too tired to care. You feel that someone lays down next to you and tucks you in under the blanket. ”Gute Nacht, Bill,” Tom says and closes the door behind himself. A couple of seconds pass by. ”_______, are you asleep?” Bill whispers. You’re too exhausted to make a sound, so you don’t. He spouses a bit closer to you and turns off the night light.