Joaida

Today was college decision day and I keep seeing everyone posting about how they chose which college they’ll be going to and it honestly made me cry. Never in my life did I imagine being where I am now , I take care of a baby all day and don’t even get paid (it’s my nephew I’d feel bad if I was paid) I’m not in school don’t even have my GED because my mom’s too busy working to take a day off to go help me enroll (I’m 17 so I need her to come with me) I don’t get to go out with my friends since I dont “deserve” to go out after leaving school which was a really hard choice for me to make and I just feel so damn alone I never wanted to be put in a situation where my punishment for leaving school was taking care of my own blood to help out (my mom said she hoped it would make me go back to school). The only reason I left school was because they were trying to make me leave to another school and Idk if you guys know but my school was shit but it was ranked in the top like 15 i think in Queens and they were trying to make me go to a school I’d never even heard of that was entering the Ave (if you’re from Queens,NY you’ll know where I’m talking about when I say the Ave). It’s been so hard for me and I can’t even talk about it because I know my moms will get all mad and tell me I shouldn’t have left. I don’t know why I’m posting this but I just wanted to.