capri with her thoughts

i found you and i’m not letting you go

for all things that you decide, more specifically the crucial ones. I hope you enjoy what you choose, obviously not always but most of the time.

Not once I think that God has granted my prayers. Maybe many times He does but I only count the big ones. The place where I am right now is one of His answer for what I always mentioned in my prayer after salat. It’s so much better for me physically and mentally. When things get hard, just remember to live day by day. When the thought of it ambushes me, which happens often, I’ll try to make a shield by making a list of statements playing in my head. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. 

“everybody’s blind when the view is amazing”

From all the people who passed by, I think I should thank you most (eh or not, you're after J). You brought me to my low point and He gave me one thing to replace my pain in the right time. Now I can say I'm back on my feet and trying to be fully myself again. Hope things are okay for you too. We will never know what future brings. If one day our paths cross again, I hope it's for something good. If not, then it means we are happier in our own way.

SEMANGAT for new things ahead in this new place N!!! Congrats you've levelled up your life!

It's almost two years but somehow feels like yesterday when I read what my last post was. Things have changed. Not so big changes, well life comes with surprises, doesn't it?

I'm glad to see myself doing alright. I know you are not completely okay, but hey who ever think they are completely okay anyway lol.

At the moment my heart says yuk bisa yuk, however my brain says yaudahlah ya. A part of me deep, very deep down here must have said here you go again while laughing in the most annoying way.

I remember once Kak Kenny said

Fall in love, get your heart broken, then fall in love again because it's all worth it.

I'm not Taylor Swift who can make billions dollar from being brokenhearted (I wish I were!)

Probably when I don't write for a long time on here later, it means I would be living my best life (hopefully, insyaAllah). But if I made another writing, I hope it's not that painful :)

Because you simply listen to me and that’s why you matter.

I like you lots!

You don’t live someone’s life. That has been my mantra for a couple weeks. People say you’re doing great, you become such a handy person, and they are very thankful for what you do. The truth is I never feel I do enough for them. Is it Capricorn’s nature to blame themselves for anything happening in the first place? God, if so then I hate being a Capricorn. 

Don’t be too hard on yourself, okay?

(I’ll try, but it’s not easy like I need time, well I think I can, but I would still feel a little bad, but maybe I will be okay in the end)  << What being Capricorn is like.