La belle vie.

- what do you feel?

- nothing

- what are you thinking about?

- I get angry over EVERYTHING. No matter how small or “not a big deal” something is, I will blow up and act like it’s the biggest thing in the world.

- I stop responding to messages.

- I will stare off into space for a long period of time and not seem mentally there.

- I will stop smiling and laughing as often.

- I tend to be really emotional and cry over the smallest things.

- I will sleep a lot.

- I will forget to eat or not have an appetite at all.

- I will stop showering as often as I use to and wear the same clothes over and over again.

- I won’t wear makeup like I use to everyday and I won’t care what I physically look like in public anymore.

- I won’t do the things that use to make me happy aka reading, writing, playing video games, socializing with friends, etc.

- I won’t have any energy to do school work even though I really need to do it.

- I become really quiet

Mikalojus Konstantinas Čiurlionis, Mergelė (“Virgo”, from the Zodiakas cycle)

And then a couple minutes later I still had hiccups and she walked by on her way out and she said "I wasn't going to scare you you know" and I said "you weren't?" and she said "no -- I have a way I can cure hiccups" and I was like "well what is it?" she's like "theres something about me that when I talk to people their hiccups just go away. i just chat or maybe tell them a story and after a minute or so their hiccups are just gone" and I thought she was like definitely on some pseudoscience shit so i kind of laughed and joked like "you should expect a call from the X-Men soon then" and she said "no. For real. I bet your hiccups are gone now aren't they?" and sure enough my fucking hiccups were gone. They stopped while she was speaking to me and didn't come back all night