!! synopsis: you don't need help. ever. then you fail a class and get stuck with jake sim the campus fuckboy, and your new tutor. he's cocky. he's in your space. and you're about to learn that fuckboy's tutor best.
!! warnings: smut (mdni), dom jake, sub/bratty reader, oral, fingering, pet names, dirty talk, spanking, piv, unprotected sex (dont!), praising, semi public
!! wc: 9.5k
!! a/n: pics of jake always awake something in me, sry this took forever i debated hard on the flow of this story so sorry if it feels rushed, ENJOY!
The red F on your midterm was actually offensive.
Not because you'd worked hard. You hadn't. You'd skimmed the readings, showed up to class hungover twice, and submitted a study guide you'd filled out while watching a movie. The F was fair, the problem was it bruised your ego.
Professor Lee didn't even wait for the rest of the class to leave. She caught you at the door, hand on your arm, voice low enough that only you could hear.
"A word." You followed her to her desk, she held up your exam."38 percent." she said.
"I know, I'll study harder."
"You've been skating by on charm and curve points, and now the curve can't save you." She slid a piece of paper across the desk. "Peer tutoring. Mandatory. Twice a week until your average is above a C."
You picked up the paper. One name written in blue ink.
Jake Sim.
"Jake Sim?" you said.
"He's the best tutor I have. Top of the class last semester. Top of the class now.
You knew Jake Sim. Well, you didn't know him. You knew of him. Everyone did. The guy who showed up to every party with a new girl and left with whoever he wanted. The guy who never raised his voice but always got the last word. The guy who'd held a door open for you once and looked at you like he was already bored.
"He's a fuckboy," you said not thinking she heard.
Professor Lee didn't blink. "He's also the only reason six people are passing this class right now. You start Monday. His schedule is at the bottom."
You walked out of that office with your 38 percent and a new low.
Karina and Giselle were waiting for you outside, perched on a bench, phones in hand, looking like they'd been there for hours.
"Your face says disaster," Karina said.
"I have a tutor."
"Okay?"
"Jake Sim."
Giselle's head snapped up. "Jake Sim?"
"Unfortunately."
Karina burst out laughing. "The Jake Sim?"
"Yes."
"The one who went through three sororities in one semester?"
"Yes."
"The one who corrected Sunghoon's drink order at a party and then made out with his date an hour later?"
"Karina." you screamed.
"I'm just saying!" She was grinning now. "Damn. Not Jake."
"I know."
"But also..." Giselle tilted her head. "Damn. Jake is kinda hot."
"I don't care if he's hot. He's a walking red flag with good bone structure."
"And he's your tutor." Karina wiped a tear from her eye. "This is the best thing that's ever happened to me."
"I'm going to fail."
You sat down between them and put your head in your hands. "He's going to be insufferable. You know he's going to be insufferable. He's going to sit there with that stupid smirk and explain basic statistics like I'm a child and I'm going to have to pretend I don't want to throw my textbook at his head."
"Or," Giselle said, "you could just let him be hot and enjoy the view."
"I'm not going to enjoy anything."
"You've never even talked to him."
"I don't need to talk to him to know I hate him."
Karina patted your back. "That's the spirit."
Jake was mid-bite into his sandwich when Sunghoon kicked his foot under the table.
"You got assigned a tutoring student?"
Jake chewed. Swallowed. "Yeah."
"Who?"
"Does it matter?"
Jay leaned forward. "It matters cause we are nosy."
Heeseung was already scrolling through his phone. "Professor Lee's class? She sent out the list this morning."
Jake took another bite. He'd seen the name. He'd read it twice. He'd spent maybe longer than necessary staring at it.
He knew who you were. Everyone did. The girl who walked into parties like she owned them. The girl who never asked for help. The girl who'd looked at him just once across a crowded room, and then looked away like he wasn't worth a second glance.
"You're being weird," Jungwon said from the end of the table.
"I'm not being weird."
"You're not talking. That's weird for you."
Jake set his sandwich down. "It's Y/N."
Silence.
Then Sunghoon choked on his drink.
"The one who told Professor Kim to his face that his lecture was boring?"
"That's her."
Jay whistled. "She needs a tutor? I thought she had everything figured out."
"Apparently not."
Jungwon shrugged. "She's going to hate it."
"She's going to hate me."
"Probably."
Jake thought about that. Thought about your face the one time you'd looked at him. You hadn't smiled. Hadn't blushed. Hadn't done any of the things girls usually did when they looked at him.
You'd just looked. And then you'd walked away.
"I don't know," Heeseung said slowly. "She's hot. Like, really hot. Independent. People come to her for help. This might be interesting."
"Interesting how?" Jake asked.
"I don't know. Just... interesting. She's not going to fall all over you like everyone else does."
Jake picked up his sandwich. "I'm not trying to make her fall all over me."
"Sure you're not."
"I'm just tutoring her. That's it."
Sunghoon snorted. "Famous last words."
Jake didn't respond. But he couldn't stop thinking about your name on that paper.
Y/N.
He wondered if you'd text him first or if he'd have to reach out.
He wondered if you'd show up on Monday with that same look on your face like you had nothing to prove to anyone.
He wondered what it would take to make you look at him twice.
Three days before your first session, Karina dragged you to a party.
"I need to get out," she said.
"You need to get out. I need to study."
"No babes you need to drink."
The party was at some guy's house you didn't catch the name to and you didn't care. The music was too loud, the cups were sticky, and within twenty minutes, you'd lost Karina to the dance floor and Giselle to a guy who looked like he played club sports.
You were on your third drink when you saw him.
Jake.
He was on a couch in the corner, and there was a girl in his lap.
Not sitting next to him. Not leaning against him. Fully in his lap, her legs draped over his thigh, her lips hovering near his ear. His hand was on her waist. He wasn't kissing her but it was clearly heading there.
You recognized the girl. Wonyoung. She was in your psych class. She'd spent the entire semester batting her eyelashes at every guy within a ten foot radius.
Of course it was Wonyoung.
You looked away. Drank. Looked back.
His hand had moved lower.
"Ew," you said to no one.
Karina appeared at your elbow. "What?"
"Jake Sim. With the one and only."
Karina followed your gaze. "Oh. Yeah. That's Wonyoung. She's been trying to get his attention for weeks."
"He's letting her."
"That's what he does." Karina shrugged. "He's always like that. A different girl every week. Sometimes every night. It's his whole thing."
You took another drink. "I have to let him teach me statistics."
"Poor you."
"I'm serious. How am I supposed to sit across from someone who acts like that?"
"You could try not staring at him."
"Shut up."
Karina grabbed your hand. "Come on. You're too sober. We're dancing."
She pulled you onto the floor. The music shifted something with a bass you could feel in your chest. You let yourself move. Let yourself forget about the F and the tutoring and the way Jake's hand had looked on Wonyoung's waist.
A guy found you. Tall. Dark hair. Cute in a forgettable way. He smiled at you and you smiled back because why not, and then his hands were on your hips and you were dancing with him.
It was fine. It was nothing.
But across the room, someone was watching.
"She's here," Sunghoon said.
Jake didn't have to ask who. He'd seen you the second you walked in. The way the room shifted when you entered. The way people looked at you like you were the main character and they were just extras.
"Yeah," Jake said. "I saw her."
Wonyoung was still in his lap. He'd forgotten she was there until she shifted and pressed closer. He should focus on her. She was pretty. She was interested. She was easy.
But his eyes kept finding you.
You were dancing with some guy now. Some random guy who'd probably never talked to you before tonight. His hands were on your hips. You were laughing at something he said.
"Why is she dancing with him?" Jake asked.
Sunghoon looked. "Because she's at a party? Because he asked? Why do you care?"
"I don't."
"You're staring."
"I'm observing."
"Heeseung called it." Jay appeared on Jake's other side. "He said you'd be interested."
"I'm not interested."
"You've looked at her twelve times in the last ten minutes."
Jake pulled his eyes away. Wonyoung was looking at him expectantly. He'd missed something she'd said.
"Sorry," he said. "What?"
"I asked if you wanted to go somewhere quieter."
The implication was clear. A month ago, he would have said yes. A week ago, he would have said yes. But tonight, for some reason, the word stuck in his throat.
"I have an early class," he said.
Wonyoung's face flickered. "Oh."
She didn't look convinced, but she got off his lap. Walked away without looking back.
Sunghoon raised his eyebrows. "You just let her go."
"She's not going anywhere."
"She's going to find someone else."
"Good for her."
Jake stood up. He needed water. Or air. Or something that wasn't watching you dance with someone else.
He pushed through the crowd toward the back of the house. The hallway was quieter. The bathroom door was cracked open, light spilling out.
He was about to walk past when you stepped out.
You nearly collided with his chest.
"Oh-" You looked up. Your eyes were glassy. You were tipsy. Maybe more than tipsy. "You."
"Me."
"I was just thinking about you."
"Good things?"
"I was thinking about how much I don't want to see you on Monday."
Jake leaned against the wall. Arms crossed. Calm. "That's funny. I was thinking about how much I'm looking forward to it."
"You're lying."
"I don't lie."
"Everyone lies."
"Not me." He tilted his head. "You're drunk."
"I'm tipsy. There's a difference."
"You're going to be hungover on Monday."
"I'm going to be fine on Monday."
"We'll see."
You stepped closer. Pointed a finger at his chest. "You're my teacher now. That's so weird."
"I'm your tutor. Not your teacher."
"Same thing."
"Different thing."
"You're correcting me already?" Your eyes narrowed. "We haven't even started."
"I'm just preparing you."
"For what?"
"For me."
You stared at him. He stared back.
"I hate you," you said.
Jake smiled. Slow. "Monday. Library. Third floor. Seven o'clock. Don't be late."
"I'm never late."
"You were late to Professor Kim's lecture three times last semester."
Your mouth opened. Closed. "How do you know that?"
"I pay attention."
You blinked at him. Then you shook your head and pushed past him, stumbling slightly on your way back to the party.
Jake watched you go.
He was definitely looking forward to Monday.
You showed up at 6:58 because you weren't going to give him the satisfaction of being late.
The library was mostly empty on a Monday night. Third floor was silent except for the hum of the vending machine and the squeak of your shoes on the floor.
Jake was already there. Of course he was.
He was sitting at a table near the window, laptop open, textbook out, pens lined up perfectly. He looked up when you approached.
"You're early," he said.
"I'm on time."
He gestured to the chair across from him. "Sit down."
You sat. Dropped your bag on the floor. Crossed your arms.
"So." He closed his laptop. "Show me your exam."
"No."
"I can help you by explaining why you failed."
Your jaw tightened. "I didn't fail. I got a 38. That's not technically failing. That's... adjacent to failing."
"38 is failing."
"It's a soft fail."
"There's no such thing."
"There is if I say there is."
Jake leaned back in his chair. Studied you. "You're going to be difficult, aren't you?"
"I'm not difficult. I'm particular."
"Same thing, different font."
You almost smiled. Almost. "Fine." You pulled the exam out of your bag and slid it across the table. "There. Happy?"
He picked it up. Read it. Didn't react. "Okay," he said. "Here's the problem. You don't know how to study."
"I know how to study."
"You know how to memorize things the night before and hope for the best. That's not studying."
"It's worked so far."
"Has it?" He held up the exam. "Because this looks like your luck ran out."
You opened your mouth. Closed it.
"Here's how this is going to work," he said. "You're going to stop pretending you're too good for this. I'm going to stop pretending you're not smart. And we're both going to get through this without killing each other."
"That last part isn't guaranteed."
He almost smiled. "Deal."
He stood up. Walked to the whiteboard the library kept in the corner. Picked up a marker.
"Come here."
You didn't move.
"I'm not going to bite." He looked over his shoulder. "Unless you want me to."
"Enough with the games Sim."
"Then come here so I can actually teach you something."
You stood up. Walked to the whiteboard. Stood as far away from him as possible while still being able to see.
He drew a curve. Labeled it. Started explaining. And he was good at it.
Not condescending. Not slow. Just clear. He asked questions and waited for answers. He didn't fill the silence when you were thinking. He let you struggle until you got it.
A hour in, you understood p-values.
"This shouldn't make sense."
"But it does."
He capped the marker. "Same time Wednesday."
"Yeah."
"Try not to be so angry next time."
"I'm not angry. You grabbed your bag. Walked toward the stairs.
"Hey," he called. You turned.
Jake was leaning against the whiteboard, arms crossed. "You're not stupid. You just don't like being bad at things. There's a difference."
"That's like the second time you've said that."
"Because you keep needing to hear it."
You left. But you thought about it the whole walk home.
The sessions blurred together. Two weeks. Four sessions. Then six.
You stopped fighting it somewhere around session three. Not because you'd given up but because you'd started to actually get it. The material made sense when Jake explained it. He had a way of breaking things down that didn't make you feel like an idiot.
He was still cocky. Still insufferable. Still looked at you like he knew something you didn't.
But you weren't snapping at him anymore. You were learning.
"You're different," Karina said one day at lunch.
"I'm not different."
"You smiled at your phone. Three times. In a row."
"I was looking at memes."
"You were texting Jake."
"I was texting Jake about homework." You threw a fry at her.
Giselle watched the exchange with amusement. "She's not wrong. You've been in a good mood lately."
"I'm in a normal mood."
"You failed a midterm and you're being tutored by a fuckboy. You should be miserable."
"Maybe I've accepted my fate."
You were mid-bite into your sandwich when a shadow fell over the table.
"Hey."
You looked up. Jake was standing there. Holding your jacket.
The jacket you'd left at his apartment two days ago after a session that ran late. The jacket you'd completely forgotten about until this exact moment.
"You left this," he said. "You keep leaving things at my place."
"I don't do it on purpose."
"Sure you don't."
He set the jacket on the table. His fingers brushed yours. Too long to be accidental.
Everyone was watching. Not just Karina and Giselle, who had both gone completely still. But the tables around you. The people walking past. The girl at the fountain who'd been trying to get Jake's attention for weeks.
Wonyoung. She was standing near your table, coffee in hand, eyes locked on you. On the jacket. On the way Jake was looking at you.
"Thanks," you said, pulling the jacket toward you.
"See you Thursday," Jake said. He walked away.
The second he was out of earshot, Karina slammed her hands on the table and screamed.
"What the fuck was that!?"
"Nothing."
"That was not nothing. That was something. He brought you your jacket. He remembered your jacket. He came to find you to give you your jacket."
"He's polite."
"He's not polite. He's a fuckboy. Fuckboys don't return jackets. They keep them as trophies."
Giselle was staring at you. "You've been to his apartment."
"For tutoring."
"You're lying."
"I'm not"
"Y/N." Karina grabbed your wrist. "Look at me. Are you sleeping with him?"
"No!"
"Are you going to sleep with him?"
"I don't- I haven't- I don't know."
Karina and Giselle exchanged a look.
"Oh my God," Giselle whispered. "She likes him."
"I don't like him."
"You like him."
"I tolerate him."
Across the courtyard, Wonyoung was still watching.
She found you after class two days later.
You were walking across campus, earbuds in, not paying attention, when a hand grabbed your arm.
You spun around. Wonyoung.
"What the hell?" you said, pulling your arm back.
"Sorry." She didn't look sorry. "I need to talk to you."
"About?"
"Jake."
You sighed. "I don't have time for this."
"It'll take two minutes."
You looked at her. She was smaller than you remembered. Prettier, too, in a polished, intentional way. Her nails were done. Her hair was curled. She looked like she'd stepped out of a magazine.
"Fine," you said. "Talk."
"What's going on with you and Jake?"
"Nothing."
"He brought you your jacket."
"He's my tutor. He was being nice."
Wonyoung's eyes narrowed. "Jake isn't nice."
"Then why do you want him so badly?"
The question caught her off guard. Her composure cracked, just slightly.
"I've been trying to get his attention for months," she said. "Months. And he's never looked at me the way he looks at you."
You didn't know what to say to that.
"I'm not trying to be mean," Wonyoung continued. "I just want to know. Are you together? Is that a thing?"
"We're not together."
"But you want to be."
"I didn't say that."
"You didn't have to."
She stepped back. Crossed her arms. "Fine. Whatever. Just... don't waste him. If you're not serious about him, let him go."
"I don't think Jake Sim is the kind of guy you need to protect."
"Maybe not." Wonyoung turned to walk away. Then stopped. "But you're not the only one who sees something in him."
She left.
You stood there for a long moment.
Then you pulled out your phone.
You:Â Some girl just cornered me about you.
Jake:Â Which one?
You:Â Wonyoung.
Jake:Â Ah.
You:Â That's all you have to say?
Jake:Â She's harmless.
You:Â She wants you.
Jake:Â A lot of people want me.
You:Â Cocky.
Jake:Â Honest.
You:Â Same thing.
Jake:Â Different font.
You almost smiled.
Jake:Â See you Thursday.
You:Â See you Thursday.
You brought it up during your next session.
Not on purpose. It just slipped out.
"So Wonyoung," you said, not looking up from your notebook.
Jake didn't look up either. "What about her?"
"You two have history?"
"Define history."
"I saw her at that party cuddled up with you."
He paused. Then set his pen down. "That was before we started tutoring."
"So?"
"So, nothing. She was there. I was there. It didn't mean anything."
"It looked like it meant something."
Jake leaned back in his chair. Studied you. "Are you jealous?"
"I'm not jealous."
"Your face is red." Jake smiled. Slow. "You're jealous."
"I'm not jealous. I'm... curious."
"About my romantic history?"
"About whether you're going to keep doing that while you're supposed to be tutoring me."
"Would it bother you if I did?"
You looked at him. Really looked."Yes," you said.
The word hung in the air.
Jake didn't smile. Didn't tease. He just looked at you, and something shifted in his expression. Something softer.
"Good," he said.
"Good?"
"Good that it would bother you." He picked up his pen. "It would bother me too. If it were the other way around."
You didn't know what to say to that. So you looked back down at your notebook and pretended to study.
But you could feel him watching you. And for the first time, you didn't hate it.
It happened after a late session.
You'd been studying for three hours. Your brain was fried. Your eyes were tired. And Jake had been looking at you all night like you were something he wanted to eat.
"You're staring," you said.
"I'm thinking."
"About what?"
"About how you bite your lip when you're concentrating."
Your pen stopped moving.
"Don't," you said.
"Don't what?"
"Don't say things like that."
"Why not?"
"Because we're supposed to be studying."
"We've been studying for three hours. Take a break."
"I don't need a break."
"You do." He stood up. Walked around the table. Leaned against it, right next to your chair. "You've been tensing your shoulders for the last hour. You haven't blinked in thirty seconds. You need a break."
"I need to pass this class."
"You will. But tonight you need to relax."
You looked up at him. He was close. Too close.
"And how do you suggest I do that?"
Jake's hand came up to your face. Slow. Deliberate. His thumb brushed your lower lip. "Let me," he said.
"Why?"
"Because I want to."
"That's not an answer."
"It's the only one you need."
You should have said no. You should have packed your bag and walked out and gone home and thought about this in the morning. Instead, you kissed him.
It wasn't soft. It wasn't tentative. It was hungry and frustrated and tasted like every argument you'd been having for weeks. His hands were in your hair. Your hands were on his chest. He pulled you up from the chair and pressed you against the table.
"There she is," he murmured against your mouth.
"Shut up."
"Make me."
You kissed him harder.
He laughed. Then his hands were under your shirt and your hands were in his hair and you had never wanted anyone the way you wanted him right now.
"Bedroom," he said.
"Yeah."
He took your hand.
His bedroom was dark. The sheets were rumpled. It smelled like him, clean, with something underneath that you couldn't name. He pushed the door closed and turned to look at you.
"Last chance," he said.
"For what?"
"To change your mind."
"I'm not going to change my mind."
He kissed you again. Slower this time. His hands slid under your shirt, palms flat against your ribs, thumbs brushing the underside of your bra. You gasped against his mouth.
"Tell me what you want," he said.
"I want you to stop talking."
"That's not how this works." He pulled back. Looked at you. His eyes were dark. Serious. "I need to hear you say it."
"Say what?"
"Say you want this. Say you want me. Not because you're stressed. Not because of the tutoring. Because you've been thinking about this as much as I have."
Your heart was pounding.
"How do you know I've been thinking about it?"
"Because you're here. Because you kissed me first. Because you're looking at me right now like you want to climb inside my skin." He tilted his head. "Am I wrong?"
You grabbed his shirt and pulled him close.
"I want you," you said against his mouth. "I've wanted you since the party. Since the first session. Since you said good girl like it meant something."
"It meant something."
"Then show me."
He took his time. Unhurried. Every touch deliberate. Every kiss slower than the last. You tried to rush him. You grabbed at his belt, tugged at his shirt, tried to flip him over. He caught your wrists. Held them above your head.
"Not yet," he said. Voice low. Firm.
"Jake-"
"I've been waiting for this." His lips brushed your ear. "I'm not going to rush. You're not going to rush. You're going to take what I give you. Understood?"
You glared at him. "You're not the boss of me."
"Tonight I am."
"That's cute."
He squeezed your wrists. Not hard. Just enough. "You want to test me? Go ahead. But you're not going to win."
"You're insufferable."
"You keep saying that."
"Because it's true."
He smiled. Then he released your wrists and his mouth was on your neck, your collarbone, lower. He kissed down your stomach, your hips, your thighs. He took his time there too, mouthing at the sensitive skin, breathing hot against you.
"You're so tense," he murmured.
"I'm not tense."
"You're shaking."
"I'm cold."
"You're not cold."
He looked up at you. Held your gaze. Then he lowered his mouth where you wanted him most.
You gasped. Your hands flew to his hair.
"That's it," he said against you. "Hold on."
He worked you slowly, deliberately, watching your face the whole time. Every time you got close, he pulled back. Every time you whined, he smiled.
"Please," you finally said.
"Please what?"
"Please don't stop."
"Good girl."
He didn't stop.
His mouth was everywhere tongue flat against you, then pointed, then circling exactly where you needed him most. He groaned against your skin like he was the one getting pleased, like tasting you was his reward, not yours. His hands pinned your hips down when you tried to squirm away, holding you open for him, taking his time. He wasn't in a rush. He wanted to watch you fall apart.
When you came, you came hard, back arching off the bed, his name falling out of your mouth like a prayer. He didn't let you recover. He kissed up your body, slow and lazy, like he had all the time in the world.
You reached for him, pulled him up, tried to flip him onto his back.
He didn't move.
"Not yet," he said.
"Jake-"
"You think we're done?" He pressed his forehead to yours. His breath was hot. His voice was low. "We're just getting started."
"Then what are you waiting for?"
He smiled. Slow. Dangerous.
"Pop quiz."
You blinked. "What?"
He pulled back. Sat up on his knees. Looked down at you spread out beneath him flushed, wet, still shaking from your orgasm.
"You've been learning a lot in our sessions," he said. "But I want to make sure you're paying attention."
"To statistics?"
"To me."
He reached for his belt. Unbuckled it slowly. Pulled it free from the loops.
"This is a different kind of lesson," he said. "But the rules are the same. I ask a question. You answer. If you get it right, you get rewarded."
"And if I get it wrong?"
He folded the belt in half. Tapped it against his palm.
"You get punished."
You moaned, your stomach flipped. Heat pooled low in your belly.
"What kind of questions?"
"We'll start easy." He leaned down, kissed your neck, bit softly at your collarbone. "What's the formula for a confidence interval?"
"You're joking."
"I never joke about education."
You stared at him. He stared back. His eyes were dark. Serious. Waiting.
"Sample mean," you said slowly, "plus or minus the critical value times the standard error."
"Good job."
He kissed you. Deep. Rewarding. His hand slid between your legs, fingers finding you already wet, already ready.
"That's one," he said against your mouth. "Want another?"
"Yes."
"Then pay attention."
He flipped you onto your stomach. Pulled your hips up. The belt was still in his hand.
"What's a Type I error?" he asked.
"False positive," you said quickly. "Rejecting a true null hypothesis."
"Good."
He pushed into you from behind. No warning. No slow build. Just full, deep, stretching you open. You cried out, fingers gripping the sheets.
"Jake- fuck"
"That's one point." He pulled out almost all the way. Held there. "What's a Type II error?"
You couldn't think. Couldn't breathe. He was barely inside you, just the tip, and you could feel yourself clenching around nothing.
"Jake, please-"
"Wrong answer."
The belt came down on your ass. Not hard enough to bruise. Hard enough to sting. You gasped.
"Type II error," he said calmly. "False negative. Failing to reject a false null hypothesis." He pushed back in, slow, torturous. "Try again."
"Type II-" You couldn't focus. He was moving now, shallow thrusts, not enough. "Type II is false negative-"
"Full sentence."
"Type II error is failing to reject-Â fuck- failing to reject a false null hypothesis."
"Good fucking girl."
He snapped his hips forward. Hard. Deep. You moaned into the pillow.
"You want another question?"
"Yes Jakey please"
"What's the difference between a one-tailed and a two-tailed test?"
You knew this. But he was fucking you now, really fucking you, and every thrust pushed the answer further out of your brain.
"A one-tailed-" He hit a spot that made your vision white out. "A one-tailed tests in one direction- two-tailed tests both-"
"Both what?"
"Both directions-"
"And when do you use each?"
"I don't-Â fuck, Jake- I can't-"
The belt came down again. Harder this time.
"Incorrect," he said. His voice was colder now. Disappointed. "You're not even trying."
"I am trying-"
"You're distracted." He pulled out. Flipped you onto your back. Stared down at you. "You're so fucked out you can't even answer basic questions."
Your face burned. From the sex. From the shame. From the way he was looking at you.
"I'm sorry," you whispered.
"Sorry isn't good enough."
He grabbed your chin. Forced you to look at him.
"You wanted this. You wanted me. Now you're going to take what I give you and you're going to earn it."
"Yes Jake"
"Shut up."
He pushed back inside you. Harder than before. Faster. His hand closed around your throat not squeezing, just holding, just reminding you who was in charge.
"I've been patient," he said, fucking you with each word. "I've been nice. I've let you be bratty and difficult and act like you're too good for this. But right now? Right now you're just a girl on her back, taking my cock because she can't handle a few simple questions."
Your eyes watered. From the sting. From the heat. From the way his words were making you feel things you didn't want to name.
"Say it," he said.
"Say what-"
"Say you're mine. Right now. In this bed. You're fucking mine."
"Mmm I'm yours-"
"Louder."
"I'm yours Jake, all yours."
He kissed you. Bruising. Claiming. His hand moved from your throat to your hair, pulling, tilting your head back.
"One more question," he said. "Get it right and I'll let you cum."
"Okay-"
"What's the probability that I'm going to stop until you've cum at least three more times?"
You blinked at him.
"That's not a real question-"
"Wrong answer."
He pulled out. Flipped you over again. Pulled your hips up and drove back in, one hand fisted in your hair, the other gripping your hip hard enough to leave marks.
You came without warning. Without permission. Your body just broke, clenching around him, sobbing into the pillow.
He didn't stop.
"That's one," he said. "Two more to go."
"Jake- I can't-"
"You can. And you fucking will slut."
He fucked you through it. Through the oversensitivity, through the tears, through the way your arms gave out and your face pressed into the mattress.
When you came again, it was on his command. His voice in your ear. And your body obeyed.
"You're learning," he said.
He pulled out. Rolled you onto your back one last time. Stared down at you all wrecked, crying, completely undone.
"One more," he said.
"Fuck I can't-"
"You can."
He pushed back inside you. Slow this time. Gentle. His thumb found your clit and circled softly, coaxing, not demanding.
"Look at me," he said.
You looked at him.
His face was different now. Softer. His eyes were dark but not cold. He pulled you on top of him while watching you like you were something precious.
"Cum for me," he said quietly. "One more time. Nice and slow."
You came apart rolling your hips, letting it wash over you. He followed right after, buried deep, forehead pressed to yours.
Neither of you moved.
His hand came up to your face. Wiped your tears.
"You did good," he said.
"I hate you."
"No, you don't."
"No," you agreed. "I don't."
He pulled out. Pulled you against his chest. Wrapped his arms around you.
"Same time tomorrow?" he asked.
"For tutoring?"
"For whatever you want."
You laughed. It came out weak.
"Yeah," you said. "Same time tomorrow."
After that first night, something shifted.
Not dramatically. Not with words or labels or awkward conversations. It just happened. Slowly. Naturally.
Tutoring sessions still happened. Twice a week, sometimes three times. Jake still explained statistics with that infuriating calm, and you still rolled your eyes and snapped at him when he got too cocky. But now, when the session ended, you didn't leave right away.
The first time you stayed, it was because you were tired. Really tired. You'd been up late studying for a different exam, and when Jake finished explaining p-values for the third time, you put your head down on the table and didn't pick it back up.
"You can't sleep here," he said.
"I'm not sleeping. I'm resting my eyes."
"You're snoring."
"I don't snore."
"You're snoring right now."
You lifted your head just enough to glare at him. He was smiling with a shine to his eyes.
"Come on," he said. "The couch is more comfortable."
That was the first night you fell asleep on his couch. He threw a blanket over you and sat on the floor next to you, grading papers by the light of his laptop. When you woke up at 2 AM, he was asleep sitting up, head tilted back, mouth slightly open.
You should have gone home.
You didn't.
You pulled him down onto the couch next to you, and he wrapped an arm around you without waking up, and you fell back asleep to the sound of his heartbeat.
After that, it became a thing.
Some nights you slept together the real kind, the messy kind, the kind that left you breathless and sore and smiling into the dark. Other nights you just watched movies. He liked action. You liked horror. You compromised on thrillers and spent most of the time arguing about the plot.
He made you popcorn on the stove, not the microwave, because he was "not a savage." You made fun of him for it. Then you ate three servings.
You never talked about what you were.
Not once.
You were tutoring. You were sleeping together. You were cuddling on his couch at 1 AM, his fingers tracing patterns on your arm, your head on his chest.
But you weren't together.
Or maybe you were. Neither of you said it.
Karina asked. Of course she did.
"So," she said one day at lunch, "are you guys like... together together?"
"I don't know."
"How do you not know?"
"Because we haven't talked about it."
"You've slept together multiple times."
"I'm aware."
"You cuddle?"
"...Yes."
"You text him good morning?"
"That's private."
"That's a yes." Karina leaned back. "You're together. You just haven't admitted it yet."
"We're not not together."
"What does that even mean?"
"It means I don't know what it means."
Giselle snorted. "That's the most non answer I've ever heard."
But they weren't wrong. Something had changed. You felt it every time Jake looked at you. Every time his hand found yours under the table. Every time he said good night like he meant stay.
You just didn't know how to name it.
Neither did he.
Jake's friends noticed before he did.
Or maybe they noticed first. He'd been different lately. Softer. He laughed more. He checked his phone more. He left parties early without explanation.
"You're whipped," Sunghoon said.
"I'm not whipped."
"You left Jay's party at 10 PM because she texted you."
"I was tired."
"You've never been tired at parties."
Jake didn't have an answer for that.
They were at their usual table on campus, halfway through lunch. Jay was picking at his food. Heeseung was scrolling on his phone.
"So," Jay said, "are you going to ask her out or what?"
"We're already... doing things."
"Doing things isn't dating."
"We watch movies."
"That's not dating either."
"We sleep together."
Jay raised his eyebrows. "Okay, that's closer. But still not dating."
Jake ran a hand through his hair. "I don't know what we are."
"Then ask her."
"It's not that simple."
"Why not?"
Because he was scared. Because he'd never done this before. Because every time he looked at you, he felt something he couldn't name, and naming it made it real, and real meant he could lose it.
"Because," he said.
"Great reason."
Heeseung looked up from his phone. "You like her."
"I know I like her."
"Then do something about it."
Jake was quiet for a moment. Then he stood up.
"Where are you going?" Sunghoon asked.
"To find her. She has class in twenty minutes. I'm going to walk with her."
Jay cheered. "That's adorable."
"Shut up."
"You're blushing."
"I'm not blushing."
Jake flipped him off and walked away.
Behind him, he heard Sunghoon say, "Told you. Whipped."
He didn't turn around.
You were sitting on a bench near the science building, Karina on one side and Giselle on the other, when the topic of Jake came up.
It always came up lately.
"So," Karina said, kicking your foot, "have you guys talked about it yet?"
"Talked about what?"
"About what you are."
"No."
"Why not?"
"Because I don't know what to say."
Giselle leaned in. "You could start with 'I like you.'"
"I don't even know if he wants that."
Karina stared at you. "Are you serious?"
"What?"
"He cuddles you. He makes you popcorn. He walked you home in the rain last week. He looks at you like you hung the moon."
"He looks at everyone like that."
"He absolutely does not. I've seen him look at other girls. He looks at them like he's deciding what to order for dinner. He looks at you like he's already eaten and he's still hungry."
Giselle nodded. "She's right. He's down bad."
"He's not down bad."
"He texted you good morning every day for two weeks."
You laughed. "You guys are insane."
"We're realistic. You're the one who's in denial."
"Fine. Maybe I like him."
"Maybe?"
"Okay. I like him."
"And?" Karina prompted.
"And... I don't know what to do about it."
"You could start by not hiding it."
"I'm not hiding it."
"You literally just whispered 'I like him' like it was a secret."
"It's not a secret."
"Then say it louder."
"I like him," you said, normal volume.
"Louder."
"I like him!"
"And?"
"I like Jake Sim!."
"And?"
"And I want him to be my boyfriend!."
The words echoed across the courtyard.
You froze.
Because standing ten feet away, right at the edge of the path, was Jake.
He had his hands in his pockets. His head was tilted. And he was smiling.
"Is that so?" he asked.
Your face went red. Karina and Giselle dissolved into giggles behind you.
"Jake-" you started.
"I like you too, by the way." He walked closer. Stopped in front of you. "And I want to be your boyfriend."
"You heard that?"
"Everyone heard that."
You looked around. A few people were staring. Someone was openly filming.
"Oh my God."
"Yeah." Jake was still smiling. "So. Boyfriend?"
"Shut up."
"Is that a yes?"
"It's a shut up."
"I'll take that as a yes."
He leaned down and kissed you. Right there. In front of everyone. Karina whooped. Giselle clapped.
When he pulled back, your face was somehow even redder.
"I hate you," you said.
"No, you don't."
"You're right," you agreed.
"Good. Now walk me to class."
"You walk me to class."
He laughed. Took your hand. Pulled you up from the bench.
"See you later," he said to Karina and Giselle.
You didn't look back. Jake's hand was warm in yours.
"So," he said. "Boyfriend."
"Don't push it."
"Too late. I'm pushing it."
"You're insufferable."
"Your insufferable boyfriend."
You stopped walking. Looked at him.
"My boyfriend," you said.
"Yeah."
"Like, officially?"
"Like officially."
You kissed him again. Quick. Soft.
"Wow that was easy hmm okay," you said.
"Okay?"
"Okay, boyfriend."
He grinned.
"Now walk me to class," you said.
"Yes, ma'am."
He didn't let go of your hand the whole way.
You were exhausted.
Not because you hadn't slept. You had. But you'd slept with Jake, which meant you'd stayed up late talking, then not talking, then talking again. By the time you actually fell asleep, it was almost 3 AM.
Now you were in Professor Lee's lecture, and your eyelids were winning the war.
You rested your head on your hand. Blinked. Blinked again.
Your eyes closed.
"You're falling asleep," a voice whispered.
Jake. He was sitting next to you. He'd started sitting next to you in every class you shared, which was three. He said it was "strategic." You said it was "clingy."
"I'm not falling asleep," you murmured. "I'm resting my eyes."Your head slipped off your hand. You caught yourself just before it hit the desk.
Jake laughed quietly.
"Go away," you mumbled.
"No."
"Then let me sleep."
"You can't sleep in class."
"Watch me."
You put your head down on the desk. Your eyes closed. The professor's voice faded into background noise.
You were almost there. Almost asleep.
Then you felt it.
Jake's hand on your thigh.
You didn't move. Didn't react. Maybe he was just...
His hand slid higher. Your eyes opened.
"Jake," you whispered.
"Shh."
"What are you doing?"
"Keeping you awake."
"This isn't keeping me awake."
His fingers found the button of your jeans. Your breath caught.
"Stop," you whispered.
"Do you want me to stop?"
You didn't answer. He took that as a no.
Jake's fingers worked the button of your jeans open. Slow. Deliberate. Like he had all the time in the world.
You should have stopped him.
You were in class. In the third row. Professor Lee was ten feet away, droning on about statistical significance. There were people on either side of you. People behind you. People who could look up at any moment and see exactly what was happening.
You should have stopped him.
You didn't.
His hand slipped inside your jeans. Past the waistband of your underwear. His fingers were warm, fingertips rough against your skin, and he moved with the confidence of someone who already knew exactly where to touch.
"You're wet," he murmured, so quiet only you could hear.
"Jake."
"You've been thinking about this?"
"No."
"Liar."
His finger circled your clit. Once. Twice. You bit your lip to keep from making a sound.
"Look at me," he said.
You turned your head. His eyes were dark. Focused. That stupid smirk was gone, replaced by something hungrier.
"Don't make a sound," he said.
"I won't."
He slid a finger inside you.
Your hand flew to your mouth. You pressed your knuckles against your lips, breathing hard through your nose. The professor kept talking. No one looked back. No one knew.
Except Jake.
He added a second finger. Curled them. Hit a spot that made your vision blur.
"Jake," you breathed.
"Shh."
"Someone's going to see."
"Then you'd better be quiet love."
He pumped his fingers slowly, deliberately, watching your face the whole time. His thumb pressed against your clit with every thrust. You were gripping the edge of the desk so hard your knuckles were white.
"So tight," he murmured. "You're going to cum already?"
"No."
"You're close. I can feel it."
"You can't-"
"I can feel everything." He leaned closer. His lips brushed your ear. "I can feel how much you want this. How much you want me. You're dripping down my fingers princess."
Your face burned. Your body burned. Everything burned.
"Please," you whispered.
"Please what?"
"Please don't stop."
He didn't.
His fingers moved faster. Harder. His thumb pressed down. You were shaking, legs trembling under the desk, teeth sinking into your knuckle to muffle the sounds.
"That's it," he whispered. "Cum for me. Right here. In class. With everyone watching."
It ripped through you, sudden and violent, your back arching, your eyes squeezing shut. You bit down so hard on your hand you left marks. Jake's fingers kept moving, working you through it, prolonging it until you were nothing but static.
When you finally opened your eyes, he was smiling.
"I hate you."
"You just came on my fingers in the middle of class."You're going to thank me later."
He pulled his hand out of your jeans. Slowly. Deliberately. And then still watching you he brought his fingers to his mouth and licked them clean.
One by one.
His eyes never left yours. You forgot how to breathe.
"Jake," you said. Your voice came out strangled.
"Yeah?"
"We need to leave."
"Class isn't over."
"I don't care."
"You don't?"
"No."
You stood up. Grabbed your bag. Your legs were still shaking. Jake watched you with that infuriating calm, like he knew exactly what was coming next.
"Y/N," he said.
"Get up Jake."
"Where are we going?"
"Bathroom. Janitor's closet. Your car. I don't care. Get up."
He stood. Sling his bag over his shoulder. His hand found the small of your back as you walked toward the door. Professor Lee didn't even look up.
The second you were in the hallway, you grabbed his wrist and pulled him toward the stairwell.
"Impatient," he said.
"Shut up."
"You dragged me out of class."
"Shut up."
"You must really want-"
You pushed him against the wall of the stairwell and kissed him. Hard. His hands went to your waist. Yours went to his belt.
"Someone could come in," he said against your mouth.
"Then you'd better be quiet."
He laughed. "Learning from me?"
"You started it in class."
"I was keeping you awake."
"You think you're funny," you said while dropping to your knees.
Jake's breath hitched.
"Oh," he said.
"Yeah. Oh."
Your hands found his belt. Unbuckled it. Pulled it open. His jeans came next, then his boxers, and he was already hard, already leaking, already looking down at you like he couldn't believe this was happening.
"You've been thinking about this," you said.
"Every day."
"Every session?"
"Every single one."
You wrapped your hand around him. Stroked once. Twice. He groaned, head falling back against the wall.
"Shh," you said. "Be quiet."
"You be quiet."
"I'm not the one who's going to make noise."
"You're about to be."
You leaned forward. Took him in your mouth.
His hand flew to your hair. Not pushing. Just holding. Just feeling.
You started slow. Teasing. Tongue flat against the underside, then pointed, then circling the tip. He tasted like salt and soap and something else you couldn't name.
"Jesus," he breathed.
You pulled off. Looked up at him.
"If I can be quiet during class," you said, "you can be quiet in a stairwell."
"That's different-"
His grip tightened in your hair. "You're evil," he said.
"You like it."
"I hate it."
"No, you don't."
You took him again. Deeper this time. He groaned, low and rough, and you felt it in your chest.
You set a rhythm. Slow. Deliberate. Every time he got close to the edge, you pulled back. Let him cool down. Started again.
He was a mess in your hands. Leaning against the wall, head back, jaw slack, breathing in short, sharp gasps.
"You're killing me," he whispered.
You took him deeper. Swallowed around him. His hips jerked.
"Fuck-"
A door opened above you.
Footsteps. Echoing down the stairs.
Someone was coming.
Jake's eyes flew open. He reached for your shoulders, tried to pull you off.
"Stop," he whispered. "Someone's-"
You didn't stop.
"Y/N-"
You looked up at him. Didn't let go. Didn't slow down.
His face was going through all kinds of emotions. Fear and pleasure and something darker, something hungrier. He was frozen, torn between pushing you away and holding you there.
The footsteps got closer.
Jake clamped a hand over his own mouth.
You smiled around him.
The footsteps passed. A door opened. Closed.
Silence.
Jake pulled you off by your hair. Not hard. Just enough.
"You didn't stop," he said.
"And?"
His eyes were black. His chest was heaving.
"You're going to regret that," he said.
"No, I'm not."
He grabbed you by the jaw and pressed you against the wall, back to concrete, his body flush against your chest.
"You think you're in control," he said into your ear.
"I know I am."
"You're not."
His hand fisted in your hair. Tilted your head back.
"Open," he said.
You opened your mouth.
He pushed inside. Not gentle. Not slow. Rough and deep and exactly what you'd been waiting for.
"You wanted to play," he said, thrusting into your mouth. "Now you're going to finish what you started."
His hand held you in place. His hips snapped forward. He fucked your mouth like he'd been holding back the whole time and he had finally snapped.
You gagged. Tears pricked your eyes. You didn't pull away.
"That's it," he groaned. "That's my girl."
He was messy. Sloppy. Spit dripped down your chin. He didn't care. Neither did you.
"I'm close," he said. "You're going to take all of it like a champ right?"
You looked up at him. Nodded as best you could.
He came with a choked sound, buried deep in your throat, and you swallowed everything. Didn't miss a drop.
He pulled out. Stepped back to admire you.
You wiped your mouth with the back of your hand. Looked up at him.
He was wrecked. Hair a mess. Chest still heaving. Looking at you like you'd just ruined him for anyone else.
"Good girl," he said, voice hoarse.
You stood up. Fixed your clothes. Fixed his.
"We're going to be late for class," you said.
"I don't care."
"You should care. You're a tutor."
"I'm your tutor." He kissed you. Soft this time. Almost sweet. He took your hand. Led you back toward the door.
"Same time tomorrow?" he asked.
"Same stairwell?"
"Same stairwell."
You laughed. Pushed the door open.
The hallway was empty.
No one knew what had just happened.
That was the best part, it was yours and Jakes dirty secret.
Parties weren't your thing anymore. Or maybe they were, but you'd rather be on Jake's couch, wrapped in his hoodie, his fingers tracing lazy patterns on your skin while some terrible action movie played in the background.
But Jake had asked.
"Come with me," he'd said, tugging on the sleeve of his black button down. The one that made your brain short-circuit.
"Why?"
"Because I want to show you off."
"You want to show me off?"
"Yeah." He said it like it was obvious. "You're hot. I'm hot. We're hot together. People should know."
So now you were here.
The music was loud enough to feel in your teeth, and the lights were low enough that you could pretend no one was staring.
But they were staring.
Because you walked in with Jake's hand on your lower back, his fingers pressed into the curve of your waist, and everyone noticed.
That's Jake's girl.
Damn, they look good together.
You danced with Jake. You drank something sweet that he handed you. You met his friends properly met them, not just the passing introductions from before.
"I'm going to grab a drink. You want one?"
"Yeah. Same thing."
"Be right back."
He disappeared into the crowd.
That's when she found you.
"You think you're so special."
You turned. Wonyoung.
She was standing a few feet away, drink in hand, eyes sharp. She looked good she always looked good but there was something brittle about her tonight. Something desperate.
"Wonyoung," you said.
"Don't say my name like you know me."
"I don't know you. That's the point."
She stepped closer. "You think you've won."
"I'm not playing a game."
She stepped closer. Close enough that you could smell her perfume. "He's going to get bored of you," she said. "He gets bored of everyone. You're not special. You're just the one who said no first. That's all this is. A challenge. Once he wins, he'll move on."
"You already tried that line."
"Because it's true."
"It's not."
"How do you know?"
You tilted your head. "Because I'm here. And you're not."
Her face twisted. "You're such a bitch."
"And you're obsessed with my boyfriend. Which one's worse?"
"You're not even-"
"I'm not even what? His girlfriend?" You smiled. "I am. He asked. I said yes. Sorry you had to find out like this."
Wonyoung's face went red. Then white. Then red again.
"You're lying." She looked like she wanted to throw her drink in your face. You almost wished she would. At least then you'd have an excuse.
But before she could move, a hand landed on your waist. Jake.
"I leave for five minutes," he said, voice calm, "and you're already causing trouble."
"I'm not causing anything. She started it."
Jake looked at Wonyoung. His expression didn't change, but something behind his eyes went cold.
"Wonyoung," he said. "We've talked about this."
"Have we?" She laughed. "You've been ignoring me for weeks. You don't return my texts. You don't even look at me anymore."
"Because I have nothing to say to you."
"You had plenty to say before."
"That was before." He stepped closer to you. His hand stayed on your waist. "Before her."
Wonyoung's eyes flicked to you. Filled with something ugly.
"I'm going to say this once," Jake said. "Stay away from her. Stay away from me. If I hear about you coming near her again, talking to her, texting her, even looking at her I'm going to make sure everyone knows exactly what you've been doing."
"You wouldn't."
"Try me."
Wonyoung stared at him. Then at you. Then back at him.
"I loved you," she whispered.
"No." Jake shook his head. "You wanted to win me. There's a difference."
She didn't respond instead she turned and walked away.
Jake's hand was still on your waist. "You okay?" he asked.
"Yeah, she's not worth my energy."
He watched your face for a long moment. Looking for cracks. Finding none. You let the silence stretch. Let your heartbeat slow. Then you looked up at him.
"I've been meaning to tell you something."
"I got a 95 on the test."
Jake blinked. "What?"
"The exam. The one you've been tutoring me for. 95 percent."
"You're lying."
"I'm not."
"Show me."
You pulled out your phone. Opened the grade portal. Turned the screen toward him.
95. Right there. Jake stared at it. Then at you. Then back at the screen.
"You did that," he said.
"We did that."
"No." He shook his head. "You did that. I just explained things. You did the work."
"Jake-"
"95 percent." He was smiling now. The one that made your chest ache. "That's my girl."
Your face went warm. "Don't."
"My girl with the 95."
"Jake."
"My girl who's going to pass the class with flying colors because she's smarter than she gives herself credit for."
"Okay, okayyyy"
"My girl."
He kissed you.
Not hard. Not desperate. Soft. Slow. Like he was memorizing the shape of your mouth. When he pulled back, his forehead rested against yours.
"I'm proud of you," he said. "Like, really proud."
"I know."
"Like, I'm going to tell everyone how proud I am."
"Please don't."
"Too late. I'm already texting Sunghoon."
"Jake!"
He was already typing. Grinning. You laughed. Hit his chest. He caught your hand and held it.
"Same time tomorrow?"
You looked at him. The cocky tutor who'd gotten under your skin. The guy who remembered your coffee order and mopped on Mondays and looked at you like you were the only person in the room.
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pairing 𢼠âÂ°Ë spiderman!jake x f!reader ââ .⌠fluff, rom-com, angst, slowburn, miscommunication!trope, classmates to lovers ft. guy-in-the-chair!sunghoon
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synopsis 𢼠âşââ§ keeping his secret identity...a secret? easy work. hiding his raging, massive, all-consuming crush on you? not so much. sim jaeyun has a lot on his plate: high school, late-night crime-fighting, a history final next week, and a painfully massive crush on his chemistry lab partnerâyou. and things are finally starting to look upâduring the day, jake bonds with you over caffeine-fueled study sessions and at night, spider-man walks you home. but then you drop a bomb: you've got feelings for someone else. and that someone is...spider-man. and now, somehow, someway, jake is in a love triangle. with himself. turns outâfalling for your lab partner and your friendly neighborhood hero? easy work. realizing they're the same guy? not so much.
warnings đ˘Ľâš ࣪ Ë mentions of violence, blood, wounds // mild cursing // multiple kiss scenes bc jake is just so kissable whoops // slowslowburn // jakehoon bromance keeps me alive // jake pines & yearns & longs & yearns.. // concept of 'casual' dating // superhero & mcu elements & easter eggs :3 // jake is a loser but spider-man is a smooth-talker heh
°Ëâ´ .á 𢼠addie ââ FINALLY !!! i have finally, finally finished a full fic for the first time in literal forever and i'm actually so excited for this one bc i freaking love mcu & spiderman & jake so freaking much you guys dont understand...spidey was my first ever childhood crush i think i literally made a post abt it somewhere here on my blog ages ago...so my reaction when i got this anon request for this fic?? i cheered. ę(ËľË á ËËľ) ty for being patient with me and for all the words of support & encouragement & love throughout the process <333 if you've been here some time and read my other works you know i literally get myself way too indulged into the whole process,,,but i really did have so much freaking fun writing this so i really hope you guys like all 25k words of spidey!jake :3
sim jaeyun has a lot of secrets.
like the fact that heâs secretly (but not so secretly) a giant nerd and, frankly, a genius with the probable IQ of someone who can calculate pi to the 500th decimal in his head just for fun. or maybe the fact that heâs definitely smart enough to hack into the schoolâs database and find copies of the finalsâ answer keys under ten minutes flat.
but he doesnât. because again. sim jaeyun is a genius (and because heâs scared of getting caught. but mostly the genius thing).
sim jaeyun pours his milk before cereal. he sleeps on his stomach. he doesnât separate his white socks from his colored ones. heâs terrified of cats. he loves rom-coms. heâs spider-man. he canât fall asleep without his favorite build-a-bear. and he doesnât know how to ride a bike.
but his most important secret?
he has the biggest crush on you.
so big that heâd say itâs more top-secret than the fact that he uses 5-in-1 menâs soap and being the cityâs web-slinging, crime-fighting, red-and-blue spandex-wearing superhero.
and in all honestlyâ
itâs not like the latter is even that secret anymore.
because another thing about jake?
he sucks at keeping secrets.
he figured this out about two weeks into accepting his new life post-radioactive-spider-biteâright around the same time he decided yeah, sure, i can totally handle having powers and a double life. and not freaking out every time he accidentally shot a web out in his sleep.
he figured this out when park sunghoon, his longtime best friend, accidentally found jakeâs suit in his room. and by accidentally, we mean jake justâŚleft it lying out. on his bed. in plain sight. because he forgot to put it away the day sunghoon came over to share his history notes.
that was the day sunghoon declared himself jakeâs âguy in the chair.â
so yeah.
jake sucks at keeping his spidey secretâŚa secret.
but his crush on you?
oh yeah.
that oneâs highly classified (except from sunghoon. because againâguy in the chair).
âyou should probably stop staring before it gets creepy.â
jake blinks.
he stops staring at youâacross the cafeteria, laughing with your friends, completely unaware of how heâs most definitely about five seconds away from writing your name in bubble letters with a pink glitter pen on his notebook cover.
he turns his head toward the voice.
sunghoon, of course.
âactually, too late. itâs creepy,â sunghoon adds before casually chewing on the cafeteria pizza thatâs always a little too suspiciously rubbery but no one ever questions it for their own sake.
jake sighs, his eyes going back to your figure across the busy room. âyou think sheâll talk to me in chemistry today?â
sunghoon doesnât even blink.
âshe has to talk to you. you guys are literally lab partners.â
âthatâs different,â jake mutters, chin in his hand, eyes never leaving you once. âi mean, i could ask what her favorite color is or somethingâŚâ
sunghoon stares. jaw slack. full deadpan.
âthatâs a joke, right? please tell me thatâs a joke. because i donât know what funnierâthe fact that you have the pick up lines of a first grader, or the fact that even i know that you know you donât have the guts to say anything to her thatâs not directly related to ionic bonding.â
jake whips his head to his best friend, the look in his eyes being nothing less than betrayed, âi so totally can!â
âjake,â sunghoon says slowly, voice lowering, âyou broke the test tube in your hand last week when she asked what your weekend plans were.â
a pause.
âthen you ran out of the room. without saying anything.â
jake groans. drops his head into his arms on the table. âokay, i specifically remember saying we would never bring that up ever again.â
a brief silence falls over the table as jake lifts his head up in despair. he goes back to probably-definitely-not-so-subtly watching you from across the cafeteria.
âyou should justâŚyâknowââ sunghoon nudges jakeâs side. ââget your lil buddy to help you out.â
jake freezes.
turns to his best friend in horror, âmyâŚlil what now?â
sunghoonâs palm smacks the side of jakeâs head before his voice drops to a whisper, âyour alter ego, idiot.â
jake rubs the side of his head, staring at the way sunghoon is casually sitting there like this is a perfectly reasonable suggestion.
âyou heard me,â sunghoon continues when jake makes no sign of responding, the look on his face enough to tell sunghoon he thinks heâs probably borderline psychotic. âgo up to her as spider-man. be mysterious. say something cool. i bet sheâll be super impressed and instantly fall in love with you.â
âthat is literally the worst idea you probably couldâve ever thought of.â
âis it?â sunghoon shrugs, smug as he leans back in his chair. âbecause seeing as your track record so far is either a) breaking glass around her, or b)âŚactually, no. yeah, thatâs it. thatâs all i got. your track record sucks, bro.â
jake groans for the nth time and lets his head thunk onto the table this time with a soft clunk. âi hate it here.â
âyouâre not even going to consider it?â
jake lifts his head just enough to glare his eyes at sunghoon, âdo you hear yourself? you want me to flirt with herâŚwhile wearing spandex. in full mask. while i talk like thisââ his voice drops to the deeper, definitely-not-as-disguising-as-he-thinks-it-is tone he uses while saving the city at night. ââhey. i know iâm wanted by, like, a hundred bad people out there, but also, whatâs your favorite color?ââ
sunghoon grins. âadd a little web trick and shoulder touch and boomâsheâs yours.â
jake deadpans at him, his voice returning to normal, âdo you even like me? are we even friends?â
sunghoon shrugs. pops a fry in his mouth. thinks for a second. âyouâre entertaining.â
jake groans again. slumps dramatically into his seat, staring at the too-bright fluorescent lights in the ceiling above him. âi canât flirt as spider-man me,â he mutters. âthat sounds like a nightmare. i canât even talk to her as me me.â
âduh. thatâs kinda the entire point.â
âand then what, huh?â jake dramatically throws his hands up. âi take her on a date while web-swinging through the city? and if i drop her?â
âi dunno,â sunghoon takes another unbothered bite of his rubber pizza. âuse two webs? youâre the one with the sticky powers, i donât know it works!â
jake lets out an exasperated sound.
sunghoon pats his back, attempting to be the supportive friend he is. âface it. itâs the only way sheâs ever gonna know youâre slightly even remotely cool and do anything more than read books on likeâŚi donât knowâhow physics makes the earth spin or something.â
jake pouts. âi am cool!â
âyou own a build-a-bear named woofy.â
âheâs a comfort object!â
âexactly. thatâs why spider-man has to take the wheel from now on.â
jake stares at sunghoon, shakes his head, and starts packing up his completely untouched lunch.
âwhatever. iâm going to chemistry,â he mutters, swinging his backpack around his shoulder with a huff, despite the fact that class doesnât start for another twenty minutes.
and itâs not like he needs to get to class early to ask the teacher questions or get extra help on the homework or anything normal and productive like thatâdonât be ridiculous.
because hereâs the thing. jake getting to class early means one very important thing: he gets to his seatâthe one next to yoursâbefore you do.
which means you have to acknowledge him first. which is crucial.
because if the roles were reversedâjake does not trust himself to be able to acknowledge you first and say hi without choking on his own air or probably knocking over a glass beaker that wasnât there before but would somehow magically appear because thatâs just jakeâs luck in the process.
regardless, it works. the system works. heâs perfected it by now. because itâs about half way through the school year and without fail, every time you walk into class and jakeâs already sitting thereâbusy pretending like heâs reading some article on his laptop when in reality his senses are going haywire over being overwhelmed by your entire presence that he already felt from down the hallwayâyou always greet him first with the same airy, cheery tone in your voice, bright smile, hair flowing, perfume floating in the airâ
"hi jake!"
jake's soul ascends.
he looks up (too fast), catches himself (too obvious), and tries to play it cool with a little nod and smile that definitely looks a little more like a grimace (too tragic).
"hey." nailed it.
you smile casually as you plop your backpack down on the lab table you share with him and start pulling out your notebooks for the day. and jake just stares ahead like a soldier at war. his hands are sweating. his feet are bouncing. his entire nervous system is screaming at him to say something, anything.
and as if the universe decided to play a casually cruel trick on himâ
"...so what's your favorite color?"
"so, any fun weekend plans?"
both your voices overlap.
you both freeze.
turn to each other at the same time.
blink.
"ohâ"
"âsorry, you goâ"
"no, you firstâ"
"okayâwaitâi, i forgotâ"
silence.
you hold back a smile.
jake wishes to melt into the earth and hopes he never reincarnates.
"i was just gonna ask," you say, a small smile still playing on your lips that it makes jake's brain actively start doing 360s, "if you're doing anything this weekend."
jake short-circuits.
say something. be mysterious. be cool. be normal. channel spider-man. but maybe...not spider-man when you talk to him. spider-man when he talks to everyone else. "i'm...uh." he clears his throat. tries again. "probably just, y'know. working."
you tilt your head, eyes sparkling with curiosity, "working?"
"yeah," jake nods, too quickly for his own liking, then stops himself. "likeâside gig."
if a side gig came with at least two new bruised ribs some nights and meant saving a city from criminals, but yeah, okay. sure. side gig.
your brows raise. "that's cool! what do you do?"
jake freezes.
panics.
what does he do.
he can't say spider-man.
he also can't say he has the molecular build of an eight-limbed arthropod and can stick onto walls with only his bare fingers.
and he definitely can't say i spend 70% of my free time thinking about you and the other 30% swinging off buildings.
"...delivery." he says it like he's mysterious. cool. totally normal.
you blink. as if waiting, as if expecting him to elaborate.
he blinks back at you.
"delivering...what?"
"...pizza."
(and he did once deliver a stolen pizza order back to its rightful owner after webbing the thief to a lamppost. that totally counts.)
"oh," you nod slowly, giving him a genuine smile. "that sounds fun!"
jake gives a thumbs up.
mentally smacks himself in the face repeatedly.
but then, his brain suddenly catches up to the situation at hand and before he can stop himself, he blurtsâ
"waitâuh, why do you ask?"
and then you break eye contact, glancing down at your notebook, and jake pretends not to notice your fingers suddenly fidgeting with one of your many too-colorful pens.
"well," you start, and jake is trying his very, very best to ignore the fact that his senses can pick up on your heart beat. "we've got the final coming up next week, and i don't knowâyou always seem like you know what you're doing in class, soâ"
she thinks im smart? oh my god. she notices me? even when iâm not breaking glass? oh my god oh my god oh myâ
"âi was hoping maybe we could study together?" you look up at him again, your eyes wide. "or go over the study guide one last time or something. but it's totally fine if you're busy working! and that makes sense, you probably don't even need to study, you're, like, uber smart and stuff, soâ"
"no."
your words come to a halt and your mouth is left slack.
jake smacks himself. mentally. again.
and again.
"...oh, umâ"
jake coughs suddenly, a little too loud, a little too forced. "sorry! i meanâno...no, i'm not busy. yes, i'm down. down. to study. together. yeah."
he takes note in the way your shoulders slightly relax and the way you release a breath of what sounds like relief and amusement at the same time.
then, a soft smile makes its way to your face again, "okay! okay, cool!"
jake doesn't know if he should scream, sob, or launch himself into the sun.
he smiles back. "cool."
there's a pause.
"waitâbut what about work?" your head tilts slightly, a soft crease forming between your brows.
shit.
"oh. right," jake mutters, clearing his throat as his hand casually brushes through his hair as if he thought this one through (he, in fact, did not).
quick, lieâwait, no. casual lie. lying is not cool. don't lie to the girl you like. you're simply protecting her. be mysterious. be cool. be normal.
"i'm...sure the pizzas will be okay for a night! yeah. they have flexibility. my job, i mean. not the pizzas. my manager's chill."
your smile brightens at his answer and jake decides launching himself into the sun is dramatic. in fact, he thinks the sun came out today just for him.
"okay, yay!" you're beaming. "sounds like a plan."
jake also thinks his heart just tripped over itself.
"here, let meâ" you rip off a corner of your notebook and start scribbling something down with one of your pens before sliding the slip of paper over to his side of the table, "âgive you my number and you let me know when and where works best, yeah?"
and jake is simply a guy.
a guy entirely entranced.
it's the way you lean a little closer to the desk, tongue peeking out at the corner of your mouth in concentration. the way your hair shifts when you tilt your head, the gentle swish of it brushing over your shoulder. the way your bracelets softly clink together when your hands move. the way you smoothly push the small slip of paper with your number and name signed with a small smiley face towards him like it's no big deal.
jake stares at the paper like all those nights of manifesting finally paid off and this small slip of notebook paper is first proof that a manifestation journal really does work.
your name. your number. a tiny smile doodled next to it.
it's the cutest thing he's ever seen.
he looks at the note. then at you. then back at the note.
how did this happen. what did he say? was it the pizza lie? no, it couldn't have been the pizza lie.
"cool," jake eventually says, but he realizes he's said cool one too many times and it comes out so high-pitched, he's genuinely unsure if he said it out loud or just squeaked like a mouse.
and you just simply smile back at him, soft and sweet and light, and jake decides to revisit the potential idea of self launching into orbit.
and when the teacher enters the classroom, immediately starting the lecture, jake turns back to the front of the class, trying his very best to focusâ
"pink."
it comes out as a low and soft whisper. jake's head jerks slightly towards you, and you're leaning in, just slightly enough for your shoulder to brush against his.
"...iâwhat?"
you smile, your eyes crinkled at their corners as you look at him, "my favorite color. it's pink."
then, you turn back to the whiteboard, already scribbling down your notes like you didn't just change the entire trajectory of jake's future.
jake doesn't move.
jake, in fact, doesn't hear a single word of whatever the teacher is saying about the synthesis and characterization of something-something-carbene-molecular-something.
all he knows is:
he's seeing you this weekend.
your favorite color is pink.
and tucked into the back of his phone is now a piece of corner notebook paper with your number on it.
and, of course, it's written in pink.
jake doesnât know what heâs going to tell sunghoon about firstâthe fact that the favorite color pick-up line potentially worked, or that he has an actual study date with yâ
wait.
âdo you think itâs a study date?â jakeâs voice is muffled by a peanut butter protein bar, his legs dangling off the edge of some random apartment building he deemed clean from bird poop to sit on.
thereâs a long beat of silence from the other end of his phone thatâs perched beside him on speaker, before sunghoon finally answers.
âi think itâs your chemistry lab partnerâŚwho needs to study for an examâŚwith her super genius bench partner,â sunghoon pauses. âbut yeah. itâs definitely also a study date.
jake fist-pumps the air. âright?! thatâs what iâm saying!â he leans back on one of his palms, staring down at the blur of streetlights and car headlights below, watching the tiny dots of normal people go about their normal people lives after their normal people days.
âgod, iâm gonna say something dumb. i always say something dumb. iâm gonna probably tell her my favorite element is, like, carbon, or something. thatâs not even a fun one,â jake sighs as he watches the sun slowly set along the skyline in front of him.
thereâs a long, suffering sigh from the phone. âplease, for the love of God and everything He created, do not tell her what your favorite element is.â
jake frowns, even though he knows sunghoon canât see it. âyou donât think itâs charming?â
âremember what happened in the sixth grade when that girl asked for a pencil and you gave her an entire lecture on valence electrons and then she never spoke to you ever again?â
jake makes a face. âokay, but she didnât specify what kind of lead she neededââ
âjustâŚbe normal,â sunghoon cuts in. âbe jake.â
jake goes quiet.
because thatâs just the problem, isnât it?
because jake isnât normal.
ânormalâ and âjakeâ havenât belonged in the same sentence since he woke up one random morning with super strength, freakish reflexes, and abs (not that heâs complaining about the abs. but still. he knows his two-day-a-week gym habit and occasional protein bar didnât cause them).
normal isnât waking up in the middle of the night because your fingers literally fused to your bed frame. normal isnât learning how to navigate puberty while also learning how different wrist angles shoot out different types of webs. normal isnât lying to your mom about why your laundry always smells like burnt rubber and concrete dust and weirdly enough, hot dogs.
and normal definitely isnât sitting a hundred feet above the city at 10PM on a friday night with your best friend on speaker and your spandex suit hidden under a hoodie, trying to decide if your biggest life crisis is:
a â the rise of petty city crime
or
b â the way your ridiculously pretty chemistry partner smiled at you and made you question your entire being in 0.2 seconds
but when he thinks about you?
when jakeâs with youâheâs just jake. no suit, no webs, noâŚfear of potential death.Â
he feels like a regular teenage boy. the kind who worries about history finals and likes stupid memes and builds lego sets with his best friend on saturdays and has a crush on the cute girl in his chemistry class.
with you, he doesnât feel like a science experiment. or a secret. or an accident waiting to happen.
he just feels likeâŚjake.
âi justâdude. i didnât even have to pull the spider-man card!â jake sits up a little, legs now swinging. âlike. at all. she said i was smart! jake-smart. i didnât need to save a cat or catch a bus orââ
ââinstead,â sunghoonâs monotone voice cuts in, âyou told her you deliver pizzas for fun and somehow it worked.â
âyouâre the worst guy in the chair.â
âand yet, here we are. youâre still callââ
âwaitâ jake freezes. sits upright. his head tilts slightly. âhold on.â
something in the air hits him.
his senses prick. muscles tense. tingling. sounds slow, scents sharpen. the world zooms in all at once.
âi gotta go,â jake stands up, his voice muffled by shoving the rest of his protein bar into his mouth, already slipping his mask over his head.
âduty calls,â sunghoon replies casually, like this is the third time this week (it is). âbe safe!â
âlove you, bye!â jake says before the hanging up and shoving his phone into his backpack and thwipping it to the rooftop wall in one motion. itâll probably still be there later. hopefully.
on most nights, it is still right where he left it, waiting patiently after the hours of his city-saving. but right now, jake couldnât care any less about his belongings. heâs already airborne, swinging building to building with smooth, practiced ease. he follows the tug in his chest, the sense of something being slightly off. a scuffle. somewhere just a block or two away.
and on most nights, youâre careful. youâre observant, aware. you know how to check left, right, then left again before crossing the street. you stick to the well-lit sidewalks, donât take shortcuts, avoid the sketchy alleyways your parents used to warn you about growing up.
and you also know, deep down, that you probably shouldnât have stayed at this library this late. but here we are.
youâre barely a block from the bus stop you just got off at when it happens. a shadow movesâquick, low, but intentional. heâs stumbling. smirking. slurring.
your stomach drops immediately.
âhey, pretty thing,â he calls out, âwhere you off to this late?â
ânot interested,â you mumble, clutching your bag closer to your body, steps picking up faster.
âoh, come onnn,â he draws. you hear his footsteps behind you. too close now. âjust a little chatââ
you turn over your shoulder just in time to see his hand land slightly on your shoulder, just where your bag strap sits.
but before you can even reactâ
THWIP.
it happens before you can even blink.
the guy disappears. yanked off his feet. with a yelp, heâs slammed against the nearest parked car on the street with a heavy thud, followed by a line of white, sticky substance trapping his sides.
and suddenly, another one hits his hands.
then his ankles.
then his chest.
until itâs all around him and heâs stuck to the car like a decal himself.
you freeze, not knowing what just happened or what the hell youâre supposed to do now. your heart is racing, your brain playing catch-up, your breathing paused.
and as youâre staring at the man-shaped cocoon, wondering if this is what finally wills you into full-blown psychosisâ
a figure drops from above. with absolutely zero subtlety. and lands directly in between you and said webbed-up guy in a crouch.
dressed in red and blue. head to toe. and so much spandex.
spider-man.
âwow,â he says deadpan, turning to point at the man-turned-car-decal. âokay. that was, like, a solid ten out of ten on the creep scale. wouldâve been a nine, but then you touched her. so. automatic point deduction.â
the guy groans beneath the webbing. âwhat theâwho the hell are you?â
spider-man throws his arms up in exasperation, gesturing to himself like itâs obvious.Â
âspider-man, dude. the webs? the spider logo on my chest? keep up.â
he then turns to you, brushing off the imaginary dust from his hands. âyou know, if i had a nickel for every time some scuffy guy tried the whole grabby in an alley thing this week, iâd have likeâŚfour nickels.â
a beat.
youâre still frozen. eyes wide. jaw slack.
âwhich isnât a lot. but itâs weird that it happened that many times. should probably do something about that. or i guess thatâs my job.â
the man groans from behind him, squirming, âget this shit off me manââ
âshhh,â spider-man shushes him, raising a hand. âdonât speak. weâre in a delicate moment of justice here.â
then, he turns back to you, head tilting. the eyes of his mask dilate as they squint at you.
his voice softens. âhey. everything okay?â
and youâre still frozen.
because there are many things you donât believe in. you donât believe in narwhals. you donât believe that tarot cards can predict your love life. you donât believe in flushing ice down the toilet to make it snow the next day, and you probably, maybe, sometimes donât believe in birds being government spies.
but spider-man? you didnât know if you believed in him or not. sure, youâve seen the headlines. heard the rumors, watched the blurry phone footage. but never with your own eyes. until now.
âuhâŚâ you nod quickly, eyes still wide, mouth still slightly ajar. âi...yeah. thank you. for that.â
and jake tries his best to keep his cool. exhales behind the mask, trying to not completely lose it.
to not completely combust when the literal crush of his life is standing in front of him, somehow glowing even under a dim, flickering street light. to not think about the very real fact that he just saved you from whatever-he-refuses-to-think-about that he just saved you from.
so he gives a casual shrug.
âthatâs what they pay me for.â
you blink. âyou get paid?â
jake stills. âuh, well. no. not technically. emotionally, yes. and sometimes sweet old ladies buy me churros.â
you blink again, but this time, your lips twitch slightly. ââŚokay. right.â
jake clears his throat, straightening up, placing his hands on his hips all awkward again and then putting them down when he realizes he probably looks like a cheap superhero mascot like that.
this partâthis partâheâs usually good at. web the creep. leave a note for the cops. call them in. thatâs how it usually goes.
what doesnât usually happen isâŚthis.
saving the girl he likes. the girl who doesnât know sheâs the girl he likes. the girl who definitely doesnât know he sits next to her in chemistry and pretends to read when she walks in.
the creep behind him groans again. jake spins around on his heels and double thwips a neat string of webs over the guyâs mouth.
âaaaaand silence,â jake mutters, nodding to himself. âlook at that. instant peace. shouldâve probably done that twenty seconds ago.â
he turns back around. and youâre smiling now. itâs small and slightly shaky, but itâs there. jake notices. of course jake notices.
âare you sure youâre okay?â his voice dips again, gentler now.
you nod. âyeah, i think so. seriouslyâŚthank you so much.â
and jake hesitatesâheart thumping, nerves sweating, because you are literally standing in front of him and he has the mask of spider-man on right now but the confidence of jake from chemistry. but still, he manages, "get home safe, yeah? you shouldnât be walking alone this late. cityâs full of creeps andâŚmen in spandex.â
you let out a quiet laugh. ânoted.â
âcool,â jake lets out, throwing up an awkward thumbs up and he makes a mental note to stop using the word âcoolâ and to stop using thumbs ups as a defense mechanism.
he clears his throat and takes a casual step back as you watch him, still unmoving, as if youâre still trying to convince yourself heâs real.
âalright,â jake says, pointing his hand up to the building behind you before saluting you goodbye with the other. âspider-manâŚaway?â
he fires. latches perfectly. but the fact that he actually, out-loud, said âspider-man awayâ gets to his head and so he doesnât time the swing quite right and his foot hits the top of a recycling bin on the way up. and he really hopes you didnât see it happen (you did).
he lands on the rooftop above you, immediately crouching down out of view, chest heaving as his brain catches up to his body, still processing what just happened. heart still hammering, fingers still tingling.
then, after waiting a few seconds, he peers his head carefully over the line of buildings down the street and watches your figure walk away. head down, bag hugged close, pace quicker now.
and of course, because heâs jakeâand spider-man (but mostly because heâs jake)âhe follows you from above. quiet, careful, out of sight. just to make sure you make it back okay.
and when you finally reach your apartment building and unlock the front door, he still waits.
waits until he sees a light flicker on in your bedroom window.
waits until he sees your figure draw your curtains closed.
waits until he knows youâre safe.
only then does he finally exhale.
he drops onto the roof of a nearby pizza placeâthe one that claims they sell dollar pizza but itâs really $1.49âpulls off his mask with one hand and runs the other through his completely wrecked hair.
âjesus christ, jake,â he mutters to himself, a hand dragging down his face. âspider-man away? really?â
he shakes his head at himself, partly in shame, partly in disbelief, but mostly in shame, then stretches out his legs, groans at the ache in his biceps, and swings back towards the first rooftop where he left his backpack.
and thank god itâs still there. because once he unwebs his bag and fishes through his textbooks, unknown food wrappers, and decathlon club fliers to take out his phone with just merely 12% battery left, he clicks on your contact. stares at the blank message field. then he types.
JAKE (10:42PM) :
hey! itâs jake (from chem lol)
hope your nightâs going okay :)
also
still good to meet at the cafe near school tomorrow? maybe around noon?
he stares at it. rereads it six times.
changes lol to haha.
then back to lol.
deletes the smiley face.
then the whole message.
then retypes it word for word.
eventually, he hits send.
and jake, bless his heart, keeps staring at the screen. forgets itâs nearly 11PM. forgets that his mom, who thinks heâs in bed, is probably gonna check in on him any second now (and yes, jake is nearly a legal adult. but he also grew up with chronic nightmares, so. check ins are necessary at times).
but then his screen lights up.
your name. a single message.
Y/N (10:43PM) :
yes :)
he feels his entire body exhale.
or light up on fire. heâs not sure of the difference, honestly.
and jakeâs also not sure how long he sits there smiling at his phone like an idiot.
he doesnât remember swinging back home. he doesnât remember sneaking back into his room through his fire escape. he doesnât even remember showering and wincing at the sting of soap against his fresh cuts and scratches.
because all heâs thinking about is your text.
which is probably why he also forgets to set an alarm.
so when he wakes up the next day at 11:45AM, twenty minutes away from the cafĂŠ he promised to meet you at in fifteen minutes, and absolutely zero minutes ready to leave his placeâheâs in full blown panic.
âoh crap, crapâow, damn itâcrap,â heâs mutters, runs into a chair, accidentally smears toothpaste on his hoodie sleeve, and grabs the first protein bar he seesâcookies & creme this timeâbefore sprinting out the door. but not before kissing his mom on the cheek goodbye.
his hair is still damp. his backpack is half-zipped. heâs 85% sure he applied deodorant twice and toothpaste once. or maybe the other way around.
and by the time he barges into the corner cafĂŠ that sells overpriced matcha lattes with the grainy oat milk but has good lighting and free wifi and outlets to use so itâs deemed a good study spot anyways, he immediately zeroes in on you at the small corner tableâpen in hand, sipping from a cup casually and not at all aware that your mere existence and the way the little beam of sunlight shining through the cafĂŠ windows reflecting on you is already sending his sleep deprived state into overdrive.
he makesâor more like stumblesâhis way over, just in time for you to glance up and catch his eye.
âhey!â you smile, so warm and relaxed that it almost makes jake forget he sprinted over in mismatched socks. âyou made it.â
âyeahâsorry,â jake exhales, pulling out the seat across from you and placing his stuff down. âi stayed up late, forgot to set an alarm, then couldnât find matching socks, i had this blue one on and then a redââ
jake stops himself. looks at you. gives you a sheepish smile. âsorry. you donât need to hear about the whole sock saga.â
you giggle as you look up at him, âwhat a shame, i was kinda invested to see where that was going.â
jake tries not to float.
âand itâs fine, jake. really. if it makes you feel any better, youâre only like twelve minutes late.â
jake lets out a nervous chuckle as he slides into the seat across from you, âthanks. iâm usually only, like, ten minutes late, so this is all new to me. including the study date part.â
jake freezes.
your eyebrow quirks.
why did he say that.
why. did. he. say. that.
a small smile tugs at your lips, âstudy date?â
jakeâs eyes are frozen and blown wide as he stares at you in horror from across the table, stumbling over his own words, âi mean. iâno, not a date! unlessâŚunless you wanted it to be a date, which is fine! not just fine! i mean, itâs fine if you wantedâi just assumed thatâwell sorry, i shouldnât have assumedâthat would be non-consensual and iâm really big on, like, mutual respect and consent andââ
he stops.
jake needs to stop. he should stop talking about consent before he even got to ask you how your morningâs been like a regular human being does.
your stare lingers for a beat longer before you break into laughter, hand flying to your mouth, the other holding onto the table in front of you to support yourself as you snort. âjake.â
jake sinks slightly in his seat. wishes he was sinking into the earth. âyeah?â
your laughter softens into something gentler, and you look up at him, sure and simple and steady. âitâs okay. letâs call it that. a study date.â
you know how your laptop sometimes freezes because itâs firing a million tasks at once and then the fan starts whirring violently before the entire thing decides to just shut off and it has to take a few minutes to recover before rebooting itself back up to be able to fully function again?
yeah. thatâs whatâs happening to jake. right now.
âoh. okay. cool. cool, cool, cool,â he tugs at the collar of his hoodie. stop it with the cool, jake, we talked about this. and whatever you do, do not throw up aâ
he throws a thumbs up at you. puts it away. tries to recover. âiâm veryâŚproâŚstudying.â
you grin at him. âclearly.â
the dating part? not so much.
and after that, thing settles. in that warm, weirdly comforting way things do when youâve either known someone your entire life or just long enough to know you want to.
textbooks open, laptops propped, flashcards highlighted, questions exchanged, your iced matcha is slowly disappearing while jakeâs iced americano just sits there untouchedâslowly watering down because jake forgets coffee makes him jittery but he was in a state of panic when he got to the counter soâŚhere we are.
âwait, can i ask you something kinda random?"
you glance up from your notes, giving jake a small nod. âyeah?â
jakeâs eyes land on the back of your laptop and he gestures vaguely to it. âwhy is your laptop covered in likeâŚfourteen different beluga stickers?â
your head tilts as you follow his gaze andâyup. itâs true. itâs covered with not only fourteen little cartoon belugas, but also otters, starfish, and a little whale in the corner that isnât so little and cost you a whole whopping five dollars at the book fair.
you blink at it. âoh, right.â a small smile then tugs at your lips. âiâm kinda obsessed with ocean life. itâs, likeâŚone of my things.â
and jake is silent. not because heâs judging. no, he recites the periodic table in alphabetical order to help him fall asleep at night, so he canât judge. but becauseâgod. you say that like itâs the most casual thing in the world and not the most adorable sentence heâs ever heard.
âlike, belugas are my favorite sea animals,â you continue, your own voice picking up from your own excitement now. âtheyâre just so cute and squishy looking. and they always look like theyâre smiling? and granted iâve never met one, but if i did meet one, i just know itâd be kind.â
jake is still not saying anything.
heâs watching the way your hands move animatedly, the way your eyes light up, the way your voice lifts when you say the words âif i did meet oneâ like itâs the most natural thing in the world to meet a literal beluga.
âthey do look pretty nice,â jake adds eventually, absolutely trying his best to fight the grin off his face. âfor a whale, i mean.â
your eyes widen as you suddenly gasp and lean in over the table towards jake, catching him off guard. âokay, iâm gonna pretend you didnât just say that.â
jake freezes. and he doesnât know how and he doesnât know when, but heâs pretty sure he messed up somehow just by trying to impress his crush by complimenting a beluga.
âbelugas arenât whales,â you say, matter of fact, âtheyâre actually a type of dolphin, despite the name. common mistake.â
âoh,â jake just blinks and nods like this is a totally normal conversation. like he isnât currently being lectured by the cute girl from his chemistry class about beluga whales. belugaâŚdolphins? not whales.
his eyes flick briefly to your hands, still hovering mid-air, animated from your explanation. then to your face, your eyes sparkling just a little bit too much for him to blame it on the cafĂŠ lighting. and everythingâevery little detail jake seems to notice and learn about youâmakes jake feel like his heart is about to beat out of his chest.
âsorry,â you pause, noticing his stare. âi justâŚi really love this kind of stuff. itâs all just so fascinating to me. itâs kinda like whenever you start freaking out over, i donât knowâŚcis-trans isomerism in alkenes?â
jake chokes on his spit. smooth.
âwait,â heâs coughing, sitting up straighter, âhow do you know that iâwait, how do you even know about cis-trans isomerism?â
âwhat can i say? iâm observant,â you look at him over the rim of your cup as you take a sip, casually shrugging, a small smirk on your lips.
and jake just casually tries not to freak out.
because, sure, jake has had his fair share of realizations through out his lifetime. like the day he woke up and found out he could suddenly stop a bus with his bare hands. or the time he discovered heâs mildly allergic to cauliflower. but this? this might top the list.
because you notice things. about him. him. and it short-circuits his brain. just a little. maybe a lot.
jake tries not to smile too hard. tries not to read too much into it. tries not to wonder if you notice the way he leans closer during chemistry labs or the way his voice raises half a pitch when you talk to him or the way he purposely gets to class early just so he could talk to you before.
theyâre the kind of thoughts that keep him up that night. the kind that plague his entire mind until the only thing heâs thinking about when he falls asleep that night and the only thing heâs thinking about when he wakes up the next morning isâŚyou.
and for the next few days, thatâs just about the most exciting thing that happens to jake. the next few days for him go pretty normal.
and by normal, jake means boring. and by boring, i mean on monday, spider-man stops a bodega robbery and gets a pat on the back from the police officer and a sprained ankle. on tuesday, he wakes up late and almost misses his history final (which honestly wouldâve been preferable). and on wednesday, you text jake for help on a chemistry review question. which is actually very exciting and not at all boring nor normal, despite how hard jake tries his best to act normal.
on thursday, however, jake stays late in the school computer lab to tinker with his web shooter tech. and thatâs when sunghoon pulls up in front of him, dropping two small pieces of paper on jakeâs mess of wires and tools and notebook doodles.
âbada-bing, bada-boom,â sunghoon announces as he plops into the chair next to jake.
jake looks up. sunghoonâs spinning awkwardly slowly in the swivel chair, arms out like a king clearly waiting for applause.
jake squints at the slips of paper. then back up.
âsunghoon.â
âyes?â
âwhy are we binging and booming and why are there clown fish on my web shooters?â
sunghoon beams. the kind of beam that makes jakeâs spider tingle feel immediately and instinctively nervous.
"because, my friend,â he begins proudly, âi am your guy-in-the-chair and thanks to me, you are now officially going on an aquarium date this weekend.â
jake blinks down at the two tickets. then looks up at sunghoon. blinks again. âwait. iâm going on a what with who now?â
sunghoonâs face falls flat. âwith y/n, you idiot. who else would i be sending you to the aquarium with? me?â
jakeâs jaw slackens. eyes widen. heartbeat pounding, âwhatâwhy, why, why, would you do that?â
sunghoonâs brows furrow as if the answer is the most obvious one in the world (and it is), âbecause you like her? and now you can take her to see those things she has fourteen of on her laptop that she likes so much. beluga whales or whatever they were.â
jake opens his mouth to argueâthen shuts it. looks at sunghoon very, very, seriously. âbeluga dolphins. theyâre beluga dolphins. common mistake.â
and sunghoon could give two flying farts about beluga whales versus beluga dolphins versus beluga birds for all he knows, but because jakeâs his best friend, he tries not to judge.
ââŚokayyyy, beluga dolphins.â he claps jake on the back and jake flinches. âanyways! you. y/n. aquarium date. this weekend. bada-bing. bada-boom.â
friday is the most un-normal and the most un-boring day of them all.
because on friday, right when jake slams his locker shut at the end of the dayâready to go home and debating if he should build his brand new imperial star destroyer lego set or practice different swinging techniques off the library roofâ
âJAKE!â
and jakeâs spidey sense could not have predicted what happens next. because before he can even register his own name, jakeâs slammed into. stumbling. arms flailing. back hitting the lockers behind him.
and itâs you.
you, clinging to him in a hug. smiling. glowing.
and jake is dying. screaming. ascending.
âI GOT A 99,â you smile as you look up at him, eyes sparkling and wide.
jake swallows hard. his hards are still awkwardly hanging at his side, unsure whether to hug you back or just spontaneously combust into dust right then and there.
âwait. the chemistry exam?â he manages, voice higher than usual.
you nod so fast itâs a blur. âyes!âi think itâs a little stupid she docked me a single point just because i rounded wrong on that molarity questionâwhich, yeah, i know you warned me about. but itâs fine. iâm literally a chemistry genius.â
jake lets out a breathy laugh, looking down at youâstill warm, still wrapped around him, still lighting up like the literal sun in the middle of the schoolâs halls.
âyou are,â he says, and it comes out softer than he expected.
and then youâre looking up at him againâclose, glowing, happyâand jake swears the whole world pauses. like the only thing that has ever mattered to him is this exact moment. like someone hit pause on everything except you. the shouts, the lockers slamming, the overhead announcementsâhe doesnât hear any of it.
all he knows is you. the way your smile curves just slightly more on one side. the scent of your shampoo. the feel of your arms around him and the way his pulse has never been louder in his entire life.
jake doesnât think heâs ever felt this way about someone before.
and like you suddenly realize how long youâve been holding onto him, or maybe just how close the two of you areâyou slowly pull back. not all the way, just a half-step, your arms slipping from around his middle. you clear your throat, eyes flickering to a locker, then to a ceiling.
âumâthanks to you, though. seriously,â you say, voice softer now, âfor all your help. and studying with me.â
and jake is still staring. still dazed. âoh! no, yeah. yeah yeah. totally. i had fun. it was fun.â he swallows again. please stop saying fun. âso fun.â yeah. heâs absolutely a lost cause.
but you laugh. and god, jake loves your laugh. he wants to bottle it up, carry it around in his pocket, and use it like a power-up when heâs out fighting criminals at night.
and itâs in that moment, somewhere between your grin and the sound of your giggle still ringing in his ears, that it hits him.
this is it.
this is the moment.
jake clears his throat. wipes his palms on the sides of his jeans like itâll help. glances off to the side before looking back at you.
âlisten, so umââ heâs already fumbling. âi was wonderingâlike if youâre free this weekend, and only if you really, really want to, seriously no pressure at all because i know youâre probably busy, butââ
he pauses. breathes. tries again. ââbut if youâd be down, i, uhâi have two tickets to the aquarium. and since youâre really into the ocean and stuff i thoughtââ
âoh my god,â you interrupt, eyes lit up. âyou got tickets to the aquarium?â
jake nods so fast he swears he looks like a bobblehead.
âyeah! wellâno. technically sunghoon got the tickets butââ
âohhh, like you and sunghoon were going to go together?â you tease, grinning now. âthat actually sounds kind of funââ
âwait. waitâno.â and jake nearly panics, his hands waving. âno, no, no, i meanâiâm trying toââ
jake inhales sharply. gets a grip. âdo you want to go with me? this weekend? to the aquarium?â
âoh!â you blink up at him, clearly surprisedâbut not in a bad way. your voice goes a little softer. âlikeâŚjust us?â
âyeah,â jake nods, trying to sound chill and not at all like heâs internally combusting. which is definitely, 100%, happening right now. âi meanâif you want. if you donât, itâs totally cool. iâll justâŚgive the ticket to my mom or something. she likes fish. i think. probably. iâve never actually askedââ
âjake.â
jake stops. looks at you again. âyeah?â
you smile. all fond and amused and sweet. âiâd love to go to the aquarium with you.â
and jake completely loses the grip he thought he had a strong hold of.
âwait, really?â
âreally.â
âoh,â jake breathes. âcool. cool, cool, cool.â
you tilt your head, âyouâre doing the repeating thing again.â
âi know,â jake groans, dragging a hand down his face. âi literally had a whole mental intervention about this, itâs not workingâ
you laugh. again. and jake ascends. again.
âokay,â you say, stepping back just enough. âaquarium this weekend. itâs a date.â
jake ascends a third time.
âright,â he says, barely recovering. âtotally. iâllâuh, iâll text you the details?â
you nod, already backing away towards the main doors, âcanât wait!â
and forget the imperial star destroyer set or brand new swinging techniques. jake 100% knows what heâs doing tonightâand itâs sounding a lot like googling beluga dolphin facts.Â
later that night, jakeâs perched on the edge of a random rooftopâone leg dangling off the ledge, a protein bar in one hand, his phone in the other, glowing with an article titled: top twelve facts about belugas that will shock you.
but thenâhis spidey senses prick.
because at exactly 10:32PM, like clockwork, your usual bus pulls up to the stop below the building heâs seated at.
okay. so maybe itâs not exactly a coincidence heâs here. and maybe this roof isnât that random after all.
and maybe, just maybe, heâs made it a habit to make sure you get home safe every night. it started with just one nightâmaking sure you got home safe after last weekâs incident. then it turned into two. then three. thenâŚevery night. at exactly 10:32PM. now itâs a full-blown instinct he hasnât admitted to anyone (especially not sunghoon) because, wellâŚhe likes making sure you get home safe. sue him.
when he sees your figure step off the bus, jake immediately straightens. the hairs on his arms prick up. his pulse quickens. his palm slightly sticks against the protein bar wrapper. and this is just a regular friday.
exceptâit really isnât. because today, youâyou, the very smart and very funny and very pretty ocean-loving girl who sits next to him in chemistryâhugged him today and agreed to go on a date with him and oh god.
so actually, nothing about today was regular. not even close. and nothing about what jake is about to do is regular.
instead of just watching from above like he has the past weekâŚ
he swings.
with a few quick, practiced motions, he webs himself building to building, bouncing off a wall to land neatly right in front of you on the sidewalk.
and you scream. âwhat theâoh my godââ you jolt back mid-step, instinctively clutching your bag closer to you.
âahâsorry! sorry!â jake holds his hands up, immediately regretting his dramatic entrance. he straightens up from his crouch, brushing dust off his suit. âthat probably looked a lot cooler in my head.â
you narrow your eyes, still trying to catch your breath, looking not totally convinced, âright.â
jake rubs the back of his neck awkwardly.
then, like itâs the most normal thing in the world to be nearly ambushed by a red-and-blue-suited vigilante, you simply adjust the bag on your shoulder, sidestep him, and continue walking down the sidewalk.
jake blinks behind the mask, stunned for a second, before quickly scrambling to catch up.
âyou know,â he says, effortlessly falling into step beside you, âif i didnât know any better, i thought we agreed you wouldnât be walking home alone this late.â
you glance over, the corners of your mouth slightly tugging upwards, âand if i didnât know any better, iâd say youâre starting to follow me, spidey.â
âwoah,â jake fake-gasps. fake-clutches his chest as if offended. âspidey? oh wow. weâre already on nickname basis and i donât even know yours.â
you snort. ây/n,â you say, finally looking at him fully. âitâs y/n.â
jakeâs heart does a triple flip. he thinks heâs heard your name a thousand times alreadyâslipped through conversations with sunghoon, when your teacher calls out your name during attendance, in his dreamsâbut somehow, this feels new.
he flashes a smile you canât see behind his mask, ây/n.â he repeats it like itâs the most important thing heâs ever learned. he then points to himself. âspidey.â
you laugh again, this time loud and real and soft and sweet. and suddenly, jakeâs night feels warmer.
âyeah, i got that,â you say, shaking your head. âthanks for the clarification, spidey.â
thereâs a short silence after thatâcomfortably quiet, but not empty. both your footsteps crunch against a thin blanket of scattered leaves, the echoes of your steps bouncing off the dimly lit sidewalk. somewhere in the distance a dog barks faintly. a bus drives by.
âshouldnât you be outââ you finally speak again, glancing up at him, ââstopping carjackings or getting churros from old ladies?â
jake hums, the sound low in his throat. be mysterious. be cool. be normal. "well yes,â he clears his throat and adjusts his web shooter just to do something with his hands, âbut itâs also part of my duty as your friendly neighborhood spider-man to make sure the citizens of this city get home safe.â
you raise a brow, smirking, âis it also part of your duty to walk every single citizen home after saving them?â
ââŚwell. not exactly,â he tries not to sound nervous. tries. âjust the ones i think areâŚpretty.â
you freeze mid-step. your breath catches, feet stopping entirely.
jake does the same. his heart might actually fall out of his chest. âthatâsââ he coughs, scratching the back of his neck. âthatâs just you, by the way. if that wasnâtâŚsuper clear.â
your mouth parts. but no words come out. only your eyes reactâwide, soft, blinking.
âohâ" you eventually say, softly and unsure, as if youâre trying to figure out if the literal spider-man is trying to flirt with you. âthanks? i think.â
and jake is 98% pretty sure heâs redder than his own suit right now. âyeah, yup. of course,â he says, voice cracking ever so slightly as his mind searches for anything, something else to talk about. âuhâŚso any fun plans this weekend?â
smooth. so smooth.
you blink, still looking at him a little weird, but your smile comes back almost instantly as you two start walking again, âactually yeah! iâm going to the aquarium tomorrow.â
jakeâs heart does another little flip. yes. yes, yes. she still wants to go. sheâs still going with meâ
âwith this guy,â you add casually, kicking a pebble in your way.
jake feels his heart do a little pause. âa guy?â he says, wincing when it comes out just a little too quickly, a little too high-pitched. âoh. a guy guy. wow. a guy.â
you nod along, completely oblivious, mind clearly elsewhere, âyeah, heâs pretty great. got us the tickets and everything.â
jake nods stiffly, staring straight ahead like the lamp post across the street is the most fascinating thing heâs ever seen in his entire life, ânice. thatâsâŚreally nice. sounds like a pretty solid dude.â
âtotally,â you grin up at him, and itâs the kind of grin that makes jakeâs lungs forget why they exist in the first place. the crinkle of your eyes, the curve of your mouth, the gentle ease in your voiceâit all hits him at once. the most perfect storm.
âa little awkward,â you continue. âsays âcoolâ way too much. but heâs really sweet. and funny. and a genius.â
and jake combusts on the spot. jake thought he knew what happiness was. he thought getting accepted into the schoolâs robotics team felt good. he thought shaking hands with the mayor after saving him from a limo crash was peak fulfillment. he even thought finishing the millennium falcon lego set with sunghoon in a single night was the height of his serotonin levels. but this? hearing you talk about himâabout jakeâwith that softness in your voice, that tilt in your smile, that warmth in your eyes?
oh yeah. this is what true happiness is.
and by the time jake returns back to earth, the two of you are approaching your apartment nowâhe recognizes the street by heart at this point.
you come to a stop in front of your building, turning to face him beneath the glow of the overhead lighting, âthanks for walking me, by the way.â
jake shrugs, hands shoved into the sides of his suit awkwardly, âitâs part of the job description. gotta make sure my favorite citizen gets home safe.â
you give him a look. one of those lingering ones that makes jake wonder. the kind that lasts a beat too long.
ââŚfavorite, huh?â you raise a brow, lips quirking into a soft smile.
jakeâs heart stutters. âtop three, at least.â
you giggle again, shaking your head slightly, ânight, spidey.â
ânight, y/n,â he murmurs quietly before you go in, watching as you head inside. the door clicks shut behind you, and jakeâs world immediately feels a little dimmer.
jake stands there in the quiet for a second.
and thenâ
he fist pumps the air in celebration, kicking his leg up like an animated character, âyes, yes, yes!â
with the goofiest grin under his mask, jake flings a web up toward the apartment building across the street and launches himself in one fluid motion. he lands with practiced ease, sitting in his usual spot just as the light flickers on in your bedroom window.
heâs still grinning.
still breathless.
still absolutely unable to believe what just happened.
with a newfound confidence, jake pulls out his phone from one of his suit pockets and unlocks it.
JAKE (10:54PM) :
hey! just wanted to say im excited for tomorrow :) hope you have a good night y/n
he doesnât hesitate before hitting send this time.
and when he wakes up the next morning, jake is still smiling.
no nightmares. no forgotten alarms. no dreading history finals. just the lingering memory of yesterdayâfrom the hug to the walk last night, from the way you smiled at him to the way you said ânight, spideyâ, from the way he swears your laugh is not permanently stored in his brainâs top five sounds of all time.
now, heâs staring up at the massive curved glass in front of him, a large âbeluga whales here!â sign above him. youâre already right up against the glass, peering inside like youâre looking at the most fascinating thing in the world.
and to youâit is.
to jake? his answer would be very different.
his answer would look a lot like you.
because youâre right there, next to him. shoulder brushing him. looking effortlessly beautiful in the soft dim blue light of the tank.
and jake is trying very, very hard to look calm, cool, and collected. despite the fact that heâs sweating through his button-up because heâs nervous, giddy, and definitely sprayed way too much cologne (two spritzes max, sunghoon said. jake did six. he panicked).
but youâyou look completely at peace.
youâre smiling, your eyes lighting up with wonder, one palm pressed gently against the glass as you watch one of the belugas swim past.
âtheyâre literally smiling,â you whisper, completely in awe. âlook at them. theyâre so pretty.â
jake glances at you. then the belugas. then back at you.
heâs not entirely sure who youâre talking about anymore.
âyeah,â he says, a little breathlessly. âtheyâreâŚreally pretty.â
at that, you turn to look at him and jake has to force himself to not look away. he smiles at you when your eyes meet his. and your smile is soft. soft and amused. like you knew what he was saying. like youâre choosing not to call him out on it.
âso,â you eventually say, tilting your head to look up at him. âon a scale of one to ten, how ridiculous does this shirt make me look?â
jake glances down at your outfitâyouâre wearing an oversized t-shirt now layered over the outfit you picked out for today. itâs bright blue, has a cartoon fish giving a thumbs up, and across the front in bubbly letters sits, âfish makes life bettaâ.
your eyes landed on it the second you two walked past the gift shop. and you had to have it. immediately, of course.
jake had laughed at first when you turned to him, holding up the shirt against you, eyes wide. âshould i buy this?â you asked, not a hint of sarcasm in your tone.
and thatâs when jake realized, you meant it.
and that was also the exact moment jake realized heâs absolutely, undeniably, hopelessly gone for you.
ânegative twelve,â jake says now, very seriously, despite the smirk on his face. âyou look unironically very cool.â
you scoff, âyouâre such a liar.â
jake shrugs, still grinning. âdid that get me a couple more points at least?â
one of your eyebrows quirk, like youâre surprised by the sudden confidence. and honestly? so is jake.
thereâs a beatâone of those soft, lingering ones carrying a silence that feels full with something unspoken. the kind that hums quietly below the surface. the kind jake could live inside forever.
then, your lips twitch into a smile. âmmmâŚmaybe half a point. youâre up to, like, an 89.5%.â
jake lets out a soft, breathless laugh, eyes still on you, âiâll take it. thatâs likeâŚa B plus.â
âbetter than what you got on the history final,â you say, already smirking.
jakeâs eyes widen as he gasps, âheyâwhat!? that was so uncalled for.â
you laugh again, clearly enjoying this. âyou got a 73, jake.â
âa 74!â he corrects you, his voice now a pitch higher. âit was curved! and i woke up late! blame it on sleep deprivation.â
âthatâŚstill sounds like barely passing to me.â
jake narrows his eyes at you playfully, âokay, you know what? iâm deducting your points for emotional damage. 99.5%.â
you gasp dramatically. âyou canât deduct points!â
âbetter than what you got on the chemistry final,â jake says, eyebrows quirked, feeling ridiculously proud of himself for that one.
your eyes widenâequal parts shocked and impressed, âtouchĂŠ, jake. touchĂŠ.â
and jake just grins, heart pounding so fast he swears itâs about to break out of his ribcage and up and run.
your smile lingers for a little longer before you glance away for a moment, returning your gaze back to the tank in front of you, watching as the belugas swim past lazily, weightless and floating like clouds. and you think thereâs something oddly calming about them. it makes the whole world slow down.
jake watches you instead.
the lights from the tank dance against your skin, your features glowing blue and soft and perfect. your hands are simply at your side, head tilted slightly as you follow their movements with your wide eyes. youâre not even saying anythingâbut you donât need to.
jake swallows hard. takes half a step closer to you.
âhey,â he says quietly.
you look over.
âyeah?â
âiâm really glad you came today.â
your expression shiftsâjust a little. surprised, maybe. but then, it softens. into something gentle and honest.
âiâm glad you asked,â you say, just as quiet.
and jake is so close. so close, that he can feel the slight brush of your pinky against his own. and suddenly, the air feels heavier. tighter. packed with nerves and possibilities and hope and everything that makes jakeâs senses want to scream into a pillow.
and jake, because heâs still jake, blurts out the first thing his brain lands onâ
âletâs take a picture with a beluga!â
you blink. but then, your laugh bubbles up again as you nod, stepping close behind him as heâs already fumbling to pull out his phone.
the photo is slightly blurry. your shirt is bright and front and center. jakeâs smile is too wide, and yours is somewhere between a laugh and a lookâ
one thatâs angled towards him instead of the camera.
the walk back later that night is quiet. not the awkward quiet. not the quiet filled with weird tension. but soft quiet. warm quiet. the kind of quiet that settles over jake like his favorite blanketâthick and safe and familiar, the kind that jake feels whenever heâs tucked into bed after a night out around the city.
and when you two walk side by side, youâre close enough that jake can feel your sleeve brush against his every few steps.
and the sidewalk is wide. but neither of you move away. not even once.
street lamps shine above you, the city hums quietly around, and jakeâwho literally has the ability to swing between skyscrapers and soar through the airâfeels like heâs floating for the first time in his life.
because heâs definitely not thinking about how he can catch the small traces of your perfume or how your hand keeps brushing his.
and heâs definitely not spiraling over whether or not youâre thinking about how his hands keep brushing yours back.
and right when heâs mentally trying to calculate just how fast his heart is currently beating (and if his calculations were correct, he thinks heâs at 142 beats per minute)â
you stop walking.
jake halts a half step ahead, blinking in surprise as he turns back to face you, âeverything okay?â
you bite your bottom lip. squeeze your eyes shut for a second. âyeah. yeahâi justâŚâ a breath. âi have to tell you something.â
and that knocks the air straight out of jakeâs lungs.
he steps towards you instinctively, his steps quiet against the pavement until heâs standing right in front of youâfrozen under the soft glow of the streetlight overhead.
âokay,â he says, trying to sound normal.
which is hard. because jake is currently experiencing what can only be described as sensory overload.Â
he tries to not notice the way youâre fiddling with the hem of your incredibly bright blue shirt. or the way youâre blinking too many times. or the way he can literally hear your heartbeat from where heâs standing. and he calculates 143 beats per minute. maybe 144.
âiâumâŚi actually didnât really need help with chemistry,â you blurt, eyes still focused somewhere near his shoelaces in front of you. âi know exactly what cis-trans isomerism in alkenes is. not only because i thought it was really cute when you explained it in class that one time, but because i genuinely think itâs super cool so i did my research project on it lastââ
you pause. ââŚwhich is super irrelevant. oh my godâwait, let me backtrack.â
then your words start tumbling.
âi justâi thought you were really cute. and smart. and witty. and honestly, probably a little awkward too but, like, in a cute way. and i didnât know how else to talk to you outside of class. i figured you were too busy or not really into random girls asking to hang out. so i panicked. even though i have a 98 in chem right now.â
you stop. take a breathâfinally.
jake, however, does not.
jakeâs entire being has stopped functioning.
his brain is blankâno thoughts, just the steady, continuous static of oh my god, oh my god, oh my god. every nerve in his body is on high alert. his spidey senses are firingâheart pounding, breath caught, fingertips tingling. itâs like his bodyâs trying to prepare him for a fight, when really? heâs just trying his hardest not to melt into the ground.
and jake can feel everything. the warmth of the streetlight on his back. the shift in the breeze between you and him. the exact distance between your body and his. itâs all too much and not enough and jake is losing his mind.
and when you notice his frozen stare, you winceâyour eyes squeezing shut again as you start mumbling, âoh my god. iâm so sorry. okay, letâs just forget i saidââ
and jake, because heâs still jake, doesnât think.
jake kisses you.
it happens before he can overthink it. which is entirely a lie, because jake always overthinks.
but this time, it happens before he could spiral through every worst case scenario. before he could remind himself of all the ways he could possibly screw this up.
all he knows is that you were standing thereârambling, flushed, perfectâand he just had to.
his hand finds your cheek instinctively, warm and unsure and trembling ever so slightly. and when his lips meet yoursâitâs gentle. so gentle, like a question asked without words. like an answer given all at once.
and jake is still spiraling. his senses are everywhereâyou smell like faint citrus and something a little like vanilla, your grip on his shirt is tight, and your lips are soft, so soft, moving with his like you two have known this rhythm forever.
everything is heightened for him. blurred and focused at the same time. and the kiss isnât perfectâhis nose bumps yours and you step too close and accidentally hit his shoeâbut none of that matters.
because this is real.
because itâs you.
and when jake finally, slowly, pulls backâjust barelyâboth of you are breathless.
both heartbeats loud enough for jake to hear. quite literally.
âyou think iâm smart?â
you let out a small scoff as your eyes meet his, his shirt still under your grip, âout of everything that just happened, thatâs what youâre focusing on?â
âi mean,â jake shrugs, helplessly smiling, âiâm just making sure i heard that part correctly.â
you laugh louder nowârelieved and warm and everything jake wants to hold onto forever.
the rest of the night moves slower for jake. literally slower.
like neither of you want the moment to endâyour steps gradually slowing the closer you get to your apartment building. jake keeps his hands in his pockets, fingers still tingling, goosebumps still on his skin. every now and then, he steals a glance your way, just to make sure this is real. that youâre real.
and when you reach the front of your apartment building, jakeâs chest tightens the tiniest bit. you stop at the base of the stairs. so does he.
âwell,â your voice is quiet as your eyes flick up to his. âiâll see you at school on monday?â
jake nods, trying to look cool, calm, and collected even though heâs pretty sure heâs still at 142 beats. âyeah. for sure. monday.â
you smile, soft and a little shy. ânight, jake.â
ânight, y/n,â he echoes, offering a tiny, awkward wave that makes you smile as you slip through the door.
jake lingers for a second longer, watching until the door clicks shut.
then he spins on his heel, a giddy smile on his face, stumbles three steps down the sidewalk andâ
âholy shiââ he physically clamps a hand over his mouth to keep himself from screaming.
jake fist-pumps the air. once. twice. spins in a circle. nearly trips and eats it on the curb. but he doesnât care.
he kissed you.
he kissed you. and you kissed him back.
and jake is back to nearly launching into orbit.
his fingers are still trembling as he pulls his phone out from his pocket, text message already full of typos from typing too fast when the screen lights upâ
incoming call : GUY IN CHAIR đ§
âDUDE,â jake answers instantly, breathless and borderline yelling. âi was just about to text youâI KISSED HER!â
a beat.
âWHAT?!â sunghoonâs voice explodes over the phone. âyou KISSED her? you KISSED HER? oh my god.â
jake is pacing now, still walking down the street but barely aware of it. âi know. it just happened. i donât even knowâlike, we were walking, then she stopped and told me she didnât even need chemistry help and that she just needed an excuse to talk to me and i literally blacked out so i donât remember the restââ
âoh my god. oh my god.â
âi KNOW.â
âlike, waitâyou kissed her-kissed her?â
âi KISSED her-kissed her, dude.â
âbro.â
âi know.â
theyâre both beaming. celebrating. somewhere above him, a very confused old lady stares at jake from her window as he dances in the middle of the sidewalk like he just won the lottery.
âwait. wait, crapââ sunghoon cuts in, tone suddenly serious. âhang on, i called you for a reason.â
jake freezes mid-spin, âhuh?â
âguy in chair duties,â sunghoonâs voice shifts. âthereâs a call coming through the police scanner. armed robbery. bank on 23rd and main. it just came in, like, thirty seconds ago.â
jake stops. groans. âyouâre kidding me,â he mutters under his breath.
âsorry, man.â
without missing a beat, jake glances around for any peopleâthen ducks into the nearest alleyway.
âcanât a guy catch a break?â he mumbles, already yanking off his button up, his suit already underneath (becauseâobviously, you can never be too prepared), then bunches up the shirt and webs it to the brick wall in one fluid motion.
sunghoonâs voice buzzes through his phone, âgood luck, spidey.â
jake pulls the mask over his face. âiâll just tell you the rest on monday.â
âcopy that.â
âthanks, hoon. spideyâs on it.â
turns outâspidey, in fact, was not on it.
he doesnât know if he should blame it on the fact that he was mildly (extremely) mentally distracted by the memory of kissing you under the warm streetlight, or the fact that those robbers had insanely good aim, but either way:
jake comes home with a black eye, a rapidly darkening bruise on his cheekbone, a bullet graze burning across his left side, and what heâs 97% sure is a dislocated ankle.
âcrap, crap, crap,â he mutters under his breath, wincing as he carefully locks the window behind him. he drops down from the ceiling with a thud, trying not to yelp out in pain when he lands on the ankle that heâs now 99% sure is dislocated. the apartment is quiet. his momâs probably asleep. hopefully.
jake rips off his mask and immediately grimaces at his reflection in the mirror, âjesus.â
his right eye is already swelling. thereâs dried blood going down the side of his face. his suit is slightly torn and singed and still sticky over the wound at his ribs. he presses a palm there, breathing through his teeth.
itâs fine. heâs fine. totally fine.
the shower was probably the most painful part of the night. every drop stings, and thereâs something really, really humbling about trying to wash off dirt and dried blood while also replaying the moment you kissed him in perfect clarity over and over again in his head.
and jakeâs been at this for a while now. out patrolling, out fighting crime, out throwing dad jokes to creeps at night. but heâs never had a night like this. not with this much chaos, not with this much feeling.
an unexpected bullet. a slam against concrete. some dumb goon with a perfect punch.
but right before it? you. you in an obnoxiously bright blue t-shirt saying âfish make life bettaâ. looking at him like that. kissing him like that.
by the time jake stumbles out of the bathroom, patched up with some teenage mutant ninja turtles bandages and wrapped in an oversized hoodie, heâs exhausted.
every limb aches. every muscle screams. every brain cell thinking of you.
and by the time monday rolls around and he wakes up to his alarm at 6:32AMâbecause he snoozed it for 32 extra minutesâjake frowns at what he sees.
his black eye looks worse, his face is, at least, five different shades of blue, purple, pink, and his ankle is still swollen. every step sends a jolt of pain up his body that even breathing feels like a core workout.
so jake does what any emotionally and physically fatigued teenage superhero would do.
he fakes food poisoning.
when his mom knocks on his door to get him up for school, jake meekly groans out a quick, âmooom. iâve been projectile vomiting since, like, 3AM. i think it was the fish tacos.â
jake did not eat fish tacos.
but she buys it anyways, says something about him getting rest, and how sheâs going to the store for medicine.
and jake sighs. mentally blesses his momâs heart. attempts to fist pump weakly. fails. winces in pain. then, he turns his phone completely off, buries himself under his blanket, and with nothing but the hazy image of beluga whales, a reminder that he needs to wash his bloodied suit, and youâjake finally falls asleep.
the next thing jake can comprehend is more than twelve hours later. a lot more than twelve hours later. when he blinks awakeâitâs pitch black, his body is still aching, his phone is dead, andâ
thereâs knocking.
soft, but persistent.
he stumbles out of bed with a groan and a wince, croaking out a low, âcoming..â while he limps over with one arm holding his side before he whips his door open andâ
itâs you.
jake blinks.
you blink.
your jaw drops.
ây/n,â jake blurts out, eyes wide. he rubs them once. twice. hopes, prays, this is just one of those weird fever dreams that feel way too real that he gets whenever he sleeps for too long.
but then you rush forward, brows furrowed and eyes flicking from his black eye, to the bruise on his cheek, to the way heâs leaning heavily on one leg with the other slightly elevatedâ
yeah.
this is not a fever dream.
âwhat are youâwhatâhowâwhat are you doing here?â jake stammers, instantly turning around, nerves spiking as he quickly scans his room for any incriminating spidey-like props.
suit? mask? web shooters? where did he put that damn maskâ
âi texted you, like, fourteen times,â you say following him in, concerned painted all over your face. âyou didnât show up to school. you werenât answering. i panicked and your mom let me inâjake.â
you stop.
jake stops.
your voice drops.
âwhat in the world happened to you?â
jake did not plan for this part. well, he didnât plan for any of this. âiâuh,â he turns to you, eyes wide. âiâŚfell.â
your eyes flick down to his knucklesâbruised, battered, and definitely the aftermath of punching something hard. you raise a brow.
jake follows your gaze. panics.
âjakeâdid youâŚget in a fight?â
âwhat?!â his voice goes an octave too high. he clears his throat. tries again. âno. no, no. i donâtâfights? me? no. i donâtâi donât get into fights. that would be veryâŚun-cool.â
you give him a look that says you clearly donât buy it, but to his relief, you donât push.
but because jake is still jake, he continues anyways. âiâŚi was bikingââ
jake doesnât know how to ride a bike.
ââwithout a helmet. bad idea, donât do that. and then i hit thisâŚmassive pothole. huge. basically fell off and hit the curb andâŚand yeah.â
you blink at him. and jakeâs panicking, so heâs still going.
ââand then a pigeon flew into meâŚ?â
you blink again. âa pigeon.â
jake nods quickly, as if that could convince you anymore (it doesnât). âa pigeon! you know how they are. dumb pigeons.â
thereâs a pause. you stare at him from halfway across the room. jake stands there awkwardly with his hands by his side.
you sigh. cross your arms. âyouâre a really bad liar.â
jake looks at the ground. his ears turn red. then he looks back at you with a small, sheepish smile on his face. âyeah,â he admits softly. âkinda am.â
jake moves to sit on the edge of the bed, and you take that as an invitation to sit next to him. thereâs a silence between you two again as jake fiddles with the ends of his hoodie, his face warm from either the bruising, the fact that you just called him out, or the fact that somehow, someway, youâre here. in his room. on his bed.
you glance sideways to look at him. then at the floor. then back at him again. you nudge his knee with yours. ââŚwell,â your voice comes out quiet. âare you okay? at least?â
jake looks up. meets your eyes.
and they're wide and worried and so completely focused on him. and for the second time in twenty-four hours, jake thinks his heart might literally give out.
he nods once. swallows. âyeah. yeah, i am. thanks, y/n.â
the moment lingers as the same warm hush settles again between you, like some kind of quiet, mutual agreementâlike hey, iâm here, and yeah. i care. and no, iâm not going anywhere. and jake doesnât know what to spiral about first.
the fact that:
you havenât left.
you havenât pried about why he looks like a literal punching bag.
you care.
you shift a little, reaching into the backpack that jake hadnât even noticed you brought, and pull out a packet of neatly clipped papers.
âi brought the chem notes from today,â you say, holding them out in between you. âthere was a pop quiz, and i figured you might want the stuff we reviewed after.â
jake blinks down at the packet, then up at you. then back at the packet. he tries to act normal when he brushes against your fingers when it takes he from your hand. fails spectacularly.
âand,â you continue, eyes flicking to his for a second before focusing somewhere behind him. notably, the crooked bill nye âscience rules!â poster taped to the wall. âi justâŚwanted to see you.â
and jake, quite literally, forgets how to form words for half a second, but you donât notice. your knee is still against his and he thinks heâs memorized the smell of your shampoo at this point.
âanywaysââ you clear your throat and the shyness in your tone makes jake forget how to breathe.
ââthereâs this documentary theyâre playing at the theater tomorrow.â you pause, as if gauging his reaction but jakeâs pretty sure heâs blacked out right now. âitâs aboutâumâdeep sea ecosystems? something about bioluminescence and predator-prey adaptations and this super weird jellyfish migration they just discovered.â
jake blinks hard. shakes himself back to reality. realizes this definitely, 100%, isnât a fever dream. but surely, heâs dreamt of something like this before.
âthatâŚsounds amazingly weird,â is all he can manage to say, nodding slowly.
âi figured,â you give a little half-shrug, âmaybe youâd wanna go with me?â then you nudge his shoulder this time. âif youâre not still crippled by then, that is.â
there is a full three seconds of stunned, stunned silence.
then, jake scrambles to sit up straighter, eyes wide, âyes. yeahâyes, iâd love to. with you. to see the jellyfish. yeah.â
you smile at him, âcool.â
and jake canât stop smiling back. heâs 98% pretty sure he looks like an idiot, but 100% knows he doesnât care in the slightest.
you push up from the bed before grabbing your backpack and slinging it over your shoulder. âalright then,â you say, clapping your hands together. âi should go. rest up, okay?â
âi will. i will,â jake nods quickly, still a little dazed. âcanât be too crippled for tomorrow.â
you let out a soft laugh as he follows you to the front door. and when you step outside, you pause in the doorwayâhovering like thereâs still something on the tip of your tongue.
jakeâs hand lingers on the doorknob. you glance up at him. open your mouth, then close it again.
then finally, quietlyâyou try again.
âi, umâŚâ you tuck a loose strand of hair behind your ear. âabout the other nightâŚâ
jakeâs heart rate spikes.
your eyes flicker up to meet his, and theyâre a little unsure. as if searching.
âi wasnât sure,â you admit. âwhen you didnât show up to school and didnât answer my textsâŚi didnât know if maybeââ
you trail off for a second, then finish in one quick breath:
âif maybe you regretted it.â
and jakeâbruised and aching and completely out of his mind for youâfeels the air knocked out of him all over again.
his entire body goes still before he reboots all within 0.5 seconds. âno,â he says. fast. too fast, jake. âgod, no.â
your eyes lift again.
âi didnât regret it. not even a little bit,â his voice stumbles, his nerves are on fire, and his chest tightens with something dangerously close to hope. âi thinkâŚi think i relived it a million times in my head, honestly.
jake lets out a small chuckleâpartly pathetic, but entirely sincere. âi meant it,â he murmurs. âevery second of it.â
you shift your weight from foot to foot, âokay.â a reassured smile rests on your face. âjust checking.â
jake exhales, rubs the back of his neck, and looks at you with something boyish and sorry. âi donât regret it, but i do regret not checking my phone. that was stupid.â
you smirk at him, âa little bit.â
jake grins, releasing a short breath of relief as he leans a little against the doorframe, âiâll do better.â
you hum, giving him a certain, knowing look.
âiâll hold you to it,â your voice drops a little, and before jake can fully process the shift, you lean inâjust barely, but yet just enoughâand place the lightest kiss to his cheek.
and jake goes completely still. because itâs not dramatic, and itâs definitely not cinematic by any means.
not when youâre both standing in the middle of his apartment hallway, under a flickering light his super refuses to fix no matter how many maintenance requests his mom files. not when thereâs a suspicious cloud of weed-scented air coming from the new college neighbors, who obviously do not care about the no smoking indoors sign. and especially not when jakeâs ankle is still swollen, his ribs still sore, and heâs wearing star wars pajama pants with a hole in them that heâs praying you didnât notice.
but itâs warm. and real. and so vulnerable it makes jakeâs heart yearn in the most inconvenient way. like breathless honesty wrapped in nothing but silence and the glow of someone who cares.
you pull back slowly, your cheeks a shade pinker than before, your eyes still on his. and jakeâwell, heâs pretty sure his entire body is red head to toe. his cheek tingles from where your lips just were and his senses are so hyper-focused on you, he doesnât even notice the pain of his wounds anymore.
âgoodnight, jake,â you say finally before turning and going down the hall. and jake stands there, watching youâentirely, irrevocably, shamelessly, gone.
when youâre finally out of sight, jake finally stands up straight, snapping himself out of it and shuts the door behind him, limping his way back to his room whenâ
his eye catches the clock.
10:43PM.
crap.
you really need to stop walking home this late.
and suddenly, jakeâs adrenaline kicks back in. not from the kiss. okay, maybe a little from the kiss. but mostly because itâs you, and youâre walking home alone, and, yeah, you live a five minute walk away from his but what if something happened, and thenâ
yeah.
with no hesitation, jake locks his room door, goes into his closet, and grabs his suitâstill battered and bloodied and roughened up, but itâll do.
two minutes and one-struggle-to-put-on-a-suit-when-half-crippled-later, jake is quietly hobbling out of his window, praying his mom is asleep.
he swings himself easily onto the rooftop of his own building, easily spotting you already a block down. he keeps to the rooftops, stealthily going from building to building untilâ
his damn ankle.
his ankleâwhich he clearly forgot about for a hot business secondâcatches on a loose gutter and the next thing jake knows is pain, the taste of concrete in his face, and a loud-and-not-so-subtle crash, bang, clang.
âcrap, crap, shitââ jake stands up, dusting his suit off, one leg propped up as he balances on his good one. âouch, godââ
âspidey?â
oh god.
jake freezes. peeks over the edge.
and there you areâfifty-something feet below, staring up at him, brows furrowed, arms crossed.
âohââ jake gives an awkward wave from where he is. âây/n! hey! hi. whatâsâuhâwhatâs up?â
jake steps back to duck out of sight, muttering a stream of whispered curses to himself before inhaling sharply and flinging himself down from the rooftop, landing right in front of you with the composure of someone with a screaming ankle and bullet-shaped wound in their abdomen.
you arch a brow. ââŚis this the part where you admit you are following me, after all?â
jake straightens up slowly. and painfully.
âiâwhat? no. i was, uhâŚâ he gestures vaguely down the block. he has no idea what heâs pointing to. âgetting pizza. dollar slice. late night craving.â
âuh huh,â you squint, clearly not believing him. âif i promise to stop walking home this late, will you stop stalking me from rooftops?â
jake pauses. tilts his head. âdefine stalking.â
you let out a small laugh, half-exasperated, half-fond.
âfine then,â you say, shrugging, âcâmon then. youâre already out. iâm coming with you.â
jake blinks. ââŚcoming with me toâŚwhere?âÂ
âto get pizza,â youâre walking now, already turning without second thought. âduh.â
ten minutes and two lukewarm pizza slices later, youâre sitting shoulder to shoulder on your fire escape. the air is thick with humidity and smells faintly of marinara, melting cheese, and rusted metal. thereâs a low buzz of cars below in the distance, and the stars up above are mostly hidden.
youâre chewing in silence. jake, on the other hand, is holding his slice in his hand in fearâtoo nervous to even lift his mask up to eat it. thankfully, you donât notice. or if you do, you donât mention it. either way, heâs relieved.
you knee bumps his. âso why do you do it?â
jake startles slightly, his eyes dragging over to you beneath his mask, âwhy do iâŚdo what?â
you take another bite, still staring out across the street. âspider-man. why do you do what you do?â
he follows your gaze to the building youâre looking at. gives a weak shrug.
âiâŚdidnât really have a choice, i guess,â he offers quietly.
that makes you turn. âyouâre being forced to do this?â
ânoâno, not like that,â heâs quick to shake his head. then he pauses. thinks for a second. âitâs more likeâŚone day, i woke up with these powers. and i realized i could do something with it, you know? like something good. and if i have the chance toâŚshouldnât i?â
youâre silent for a second. then you glance over, studying the smooth fabric of his mask like youâre trying to see the face beneath it.
âso you fight crime and get beat up on the dailyâŚwillingly?â you shake your head, a small scoff escaping your nose. âyouâre better than me, spidey.â
jake lets out a short breathâhalf of a laugh, half of a sigh. âsomeone has to. i mean, if i just sit back and watch bad things happenâŚthen itâs like the bad things happen because of me.â
you nod slowly, your lips pressing together in thought. âyeah. that makes sense.â
thereâs another pause. quiet, mutual. a pocket of space in the noise of the city where nothing exists but your knees pressed side by side and the pizza box going cold between you. you shift beside him, letting your legs dangle freely off the fire escape. âyouâre a good guy,â you say eventually, turning to shoot him a soft smile.
jake swallows hard. his heartâs somewhere in his throat, and he doesnât quite trust his own voice not to crack, so he simply nodsâjust onceâand turns his gaze back out to the horizon.
âwelp,â jake finally says, voice low, a little reserved, âi should probably get back toâŚyou know. my thing.â
you tilt your head, eyes narrowing playfully. âlike walking your favorite citizens back home?â
âthat partââ jake scoffs under his breath, then smirks behind the mask, ââis already done.â then, because spider-man is still jake, he throws up a finger-gun for good measure. he hates himself.
you roll your eyes, but the same smile stays on your face, âyouâre unbelievable, spider-man.â
âi try.â
jake slowly rises to stand on the narrow ledge, glancing down at you one more time. the moonlight hits your cheek just right. youâre still holding the crust of your pizza slice, legs swinging, your eyes slightly narrowed like youâre trying to figure something out. and for the third time in twenty-four hours, jake still feels like his heart might give out.
he gives you a little salute, meant to be casual, but he feels anything but. and then, without thinkingâhe says it.
âsee you tomorrow.â
a beat of silence.
jakeâs face blanks. his body completely stills.
you blink up at him.
ââŚtomorrow?â
crap. crap, crap, CRAP.
jakeâs silence goes for a second too long. then he scrambles for cover.
âi meanâuhâhypothetically,â jake stammers, waving a gloved hand vaguely. âlike, if youâreâŚout again. tomorrow. late at night. which you shouldnât be. because, you know. laws.â
you give him a look. âlaws?â
âyup,â he taps his chest with two fingers. âspidey laws.â
you let out a small giggle and lean back against the railing, arms loosely wrapped over your knees. âright. goodnight, spidey.â
jake clears his throat and bids a small, ânight, y/n,â before shooting his web to the corner of the next building and swinging himself out of sight.
and jake doesnât stop smiling the whole way home.
not even when he peels the suit off with a small wince. not even when he collapses into bed, muscles aching and bruises throbbing and heart racing.
but the panic eventually sets in.
and itâs early evening the next day by the time it does for jake.
jake stands in front of his closet, yanking hangers out as he quickly skims and tosses another outfit into the rejected pile.
sunghoon lies on the bed behind him, sprawled out horizontally, lazily twisting a rubikâs cube with one hand and scrolling on his phone with the other.
âyou know,â sunghoon says without looking up, âitâs literally just a movie. actually, itâs barely even that. itâs a documentary.â
jake whips around, ignoring sunghoonâs comments, holding up a navy button-up in one hand and a graphic tee in the other. âwhich one says i-tried-but-didnât-try-too-hard-because-iâm-not-100%-sure-what-we-are-quite-yet-but-just-enough-try?â
ââŚokay,â sunghoon says, twisting the cube into a perfect, one-colored side. âiâm justâŚgonna ignore everything you said. but go with the navy.â
âperfect,â jake grins at first, before his eyebrows furrow slightly. âwait, wait, wait. do you think she suspects anything?â
sunghoon lowers the cube. looks at jake. âabout you liking her? bro, you kissed herâdude, itâs so obviâshe knows, trust me.â
âno,â jake hisses, yanking off his shirt and then buttoning the navy one on. âabout me. like me me. like, spider-man me.â
sunghoon pauses. eyes jake. âwhat? why? what did you do?â
jake tries to fight back the dumb grin growing on his face as he runs his hand through his hair. âi walked her home.â
âokayâŚâ sunghoon gives him a look that says heâs not impressed. âand i walked my grandma home last week, whatâs your pointââ
jake rolls his eyes and glances at him through the mirror. âas spider-man.â
âwaitââ sunghoon gasps. âso you did end up using your lil guy!â
jake turns to sunghoon, face horrified, âcan we please stop calling it my lil guyââ
but before sunghoon can respond, a sudden crackle of static cuts through the air from where jakeâs police scanner sits on his cluttered desk.
ââreports of an assault in progress near 37th and bay. suspect is armed. five victims. officers en route. any nearby units respond.â
the air stills.
sunghoon immediately sits up.
jakeâs head jerks towards the tracker.
sunghoonâs already reading the look in his best friendâs eyes, âdonât.â
jake doesnât answer.
his eyes are locked on the scanner. his jaw tightens. his mind already racing.
assault in progress. you. suspect is armed. documentary. weird jelly fish. 37th and bay. you. five victims. y/n.
y/n. y/n. y/n.
sunghoon watches him carefully, like someone trying to talk a bomb out of detonating.
âjake. donât even think about it.â
âiâm not!â jake blurts, too fast, too high, and the crack at the end gives him away.
sunghoon groans. âdude. you have another date. with y/n. youâve been waiting for this for so long.â
âiâi know,â jakeâs voice rises in panic. and heâs trying so hard not to panic. âbut what if no one gets there in time? wâwhat ifâŚitâs close. i can handle it. iâll be quick.â
âjake.â sunghoon gapes at him. âquick? you literally limped up the stairs today. you barely beat that guy from the other day!â
jake doesnât hear him.
in factâ
jakeâs navy button-up is already off.
âiâll be fine!â
âyou still have a bullet scar in your stomach!â
âexactly, sunghoon. scar. practically healed. no biggie!â
sunghoon throws his hands up. âyou canât be seriousââ
âiâll be done and early to the theater. i swear, hoon.â jake is already tugging the suit halfway over his upper half, wincing at the movement but powering through. âiâll swing in, swing out. three minutes, tops.â
sunghoon groans louder.
and jake is already yanking the window open.
âjake.â his friendâs voice softens slightly. âdonât blow this. you like her. she likes you.â
jake pauses, foot on the ledge, mask in hand. he turns back towards sunghoon, lips tight, shoulders tense.
âi do like her,â he murmurs.
he pulls the mask down over his head anyways.
âbut you know me, sunghoon. you know i canât be the guy who looks the other way.â
and sunghoon does know. of course he knows.
this was always a losing battle from the start. because he knows his best friend, he knows jake. knows his heart wasnât just made of gold, but forged in it. soft and stubborn, foolish yet fearless. the kind of heart that doesnât back down, even when it knows it should. the kind that tries anyways.
so sunghoon doesnât push any further. he presses a hand to jakeâs shoulder and gives it a firm pat.
âyou better not be late.â
jake offers a crooked salute with two fingersâpart promise, part apologyâ
and falls backwards out the window.
a flick of his wrist, a few shots of web, a sharp whoosh of air as jake swings into the windâand the night cleans the rest of his loud thoughts out of his head.
because as much as he wants to see youâas much as heâs worrying about being lateâhe canât think about that right now.
and so one fight, a couple hard punches to the gut, a potentially dislocated shoulder, and a webbed-up criminal laterâ
jake is limping his way back across a rooftop ledge, blood in his mouth and the taste of guilt already rising up like bile behind it.
he lands with a grunt just outside his window on the fire escape, cracking it open and tip-toeing in. he stumbles into his roomâstill half-messy from earlierânavy button-up on the floor, rubikâs cube on the bed.
jake groans softly, one hand pressed into his side, the other slowly dragging his mask off.
his jaw aches. his ribs throb. his other ankle is definitely going to bruise. but his heart?
sinks when he finally turns on his phone.
6 missed messages.
3 missed calls.
all from you.
Y/N (7:41PM) :
hey! just got here early :)) but no rush!!
Y/N (7:57PM) :
are u on ur way?
Y/N (8:03PM) :
jake? is everything okay?
Y/N (8:16PM) :
im going in nowâŚmeet me inside when u get here?
Y/N (9:45PM) :
jake if u forgot u can just tell me
Y/N (10:12PM) :
i hope ur okay
jake stares at the screen. sits on the edge of his bed, defeated. like he might fall apart.
because jake has seen a lot in his short lifetime.
heâs seen back alleyways soaked in red. heâs seen broken glass way too many times a teenager ever should. heâs seen someone take a swing at him with a crowbar. heâs seen bruises bloom on his ribs and vanish before anyone could ask questions. heâs seen criminals twice his size fall, and heâs seen friendsâgood peopleâget hurt anyways.
but this?
this wrecks him.
this has jake in shambles.
because he missed it. he missed you.
and before he could talk himself out of itâbefore he even knows what heâs going to sayâheâs tapping on your name and pressing the call button.
it rings once. twice. three times.
âjake?â your voice is soft. cautious. like you didnât know if you should answer, but did anyways.
jake swallows hard, voice caught in his throat.
âiâm sorry.â
a pause. it hangs in the air and jake already wants to scream.
âiâm so sorry,â he says again, voice low, words falling out fast, as if trying to outrun his own guilt gnawing at him. âiâi didnât mean toâi was gonna be there, i swear i was gonna be there, but then something happened andââ
âhey,â your voice cuts through. not loud, not pressing, not angry. âitâs okay.â
but itâs far from it. not in jakeâs head. not when the image of you sitting alone in the dark theater has already carved itself into his brain. not when he can hear the disappointment in your voice.
jake licks his lips. he can hear the shift of your weight rustling against your bed. maybe youâre curled up somewhere in the dark. maybe youâre still in the outfit you wore to the movies. maybe you cried, and maybe you didnât. and maybe jake will never know.
âno, no itâs not,â jake manages. he wincesâat the pain growing at his ribs, at the mess heâs made, at himself. âiâi didnât even text, iâgod, iâm such an idiotââ
âyouâre not an idiot, jake,â you say. and your voice is tired, but never cold. âi was justâŚworried.â
âiâm okay. i promise. and i promise i didnât forget,â he whispers. ânot even a little.â
and thereâs so much more jake wants to say.
ââŚdid something happen?â you ask gently.
jakeâs fingers tighten around the phone.
âyeah,â jake says, the sound barely coming out. âkind of.â
another beat passes. a small exhale from you.
âdo you want to talk about it?â
and jakeâs throat closes up.
because he wants to. god, he wants to.
he wants to tell you everythingâabout the fight, the chase, the guy with the knife, the way his side still burns, the way he pictured you waiting outside the theater for him with every swing and every hit he took and every punch.
he wants to tell you he didnât forget. that you were the only thing on his mind the whole time.
but he canât. he knows he canât.
ââŚiâi canât.â
youâre quiet again. but this time, jake can feel the shift even over the phone.
and itâs not annoyance, itâs not cold. jake doesnât think a single bone in your body could ever hold an ounce of bitterness.
just disappointment. sadness.
ââŚokay.â your voice barely goes through. jake squeezes his eyes shut. his fist balls up the sheet under him. âiâm sorry,â he whispers again.
you inhale through your nose, âitâs okay. i justâi didnât know if something happened. i didnât know if you were hurt...or if i said something wrong.â
jakeâs stomach twistsâsharp and awfully close to throwing up. and this time, itâs not from the amount of times he took it to the gut today.
âno,â he blurts, too quickly but he doesnât care. âno, it wasnât you. you didnât do anything wrong.â
another long, still silence.
âalrightâŚwell,â you murmur eventually, voice light in that way people use when theyâre trying not to sound disappointed. âiâll see you at school then, i guess?âÂ
âyeah,â jake nods, even though you canât see him. âyes. yeah, tomorrow.â
you donât say anything else.
and neither does he.
you end the call first.
and jake stays frozen, still on the edge of his bed, phone still pressed to his ear even after the line goes dead with a soft click.
he shuts his eyes, letting the dark swallow him whole. and as he groans, rubbing a tired hand over his faceâwincing at the physical pain, but mentally cursing at the emotional oneâjake canât stop hearing your voice in his head.
everything is too much.
halls buzzing, lockers slamming, sneakers squeaking. the overhead lights are way too bright, and the air smells like gym socks and cafeteria mystery meat.
and itâs all overwhelming. well, it should be, at least. especially for someone who has heightened senses that feels everything a hundred times more than the regular human being. sharper, louder, closer.
but jake barely notices any of it. heâs already halfway down the corridor, eyes immediately locking in on you the second he walked through those doors. and as far as heâs concerned, nothing else matters.Â
youâre at your locker, spinning the combination without looking, when jake finds himself next to you before he knows it.
he clears his throat, âhey.â
you glance over.
âoh,â you say, blinking. âhi.â
jake steps a little closer, a little hesitant, nerves jumbled in his gut. âlook, y/n. iâm really sorry. i still am.â
you shake your head almost immediately, pulling out a book and shutting your locker gently. thereâs a polite smile on your face as you look over at him, âjake. itâs okay. really.â
"itâs notââ he says, frowning, his voice coming out rougher than he intends. his ribs still hurt. his ankleâs still swollen. his face still bruised. but none of that stings half as much as the way youâre not meeting his eyes right now. âyou had every right to be pissedââ
âi wasnât pissed, jake,â you cut in gently. âi told you. you just worried meâŚthatâs all.â
that makes jake shut up. his throat closes up. because worried might be worse. worried means you care. and he let you down anyway.
and thatâs it for a moment. the silence that follows stretches a little too longâlockers clang in the background, someone yells about running late to class. the world keeps movingâbut jake doesnât.
âiâm glad youâre okay,â you finally say, voice quiet as your gaze skims across his face, lingering just a moment too long on the faint bruise along his jaw.
jake exhales slowly. tries not to flinch under the weight of your concern. because how? how can you still look at him like thatâwith care, with softnessâwhen he doesnât know what he even did to deserve it?
and the worst part is, heâs terrified he already lost you before he ever even earned you.
ââŚso,â he says, the word catching in his throat awkwardly yet hopeful all at once, âhow about we try again?â
your head tilts, an unreadable curiosity replacing the worry in your eyes.
jake lets out an uneven breath of nervous laughter as he searches your eyes. âtomorrow night? you, me. that corner diner with the insane milkshakes and greasy burgers. then we can regret it together afterwards.â
you only look at him for a beat. then, just slightly, your shoulders relax. and jake watches it happen in real timeâthe way the tension lifts just slightly, the curve of a small smile tugging at your lips.
like sunlight cutting through a cloud. like a sign from the universe that maybe, just maybe, he didnât completely ruin everything.
âokay,â you breathe, a small laugh escaping with it. âthatâŚactually does sound kinda fun. maybe not the grease part, butâŚyeah. at least we can suffer together.â
you then step closer, nudging him lightly with your shoulder, a playful glint in your eye, âyouâre paying, by the way.â
jake grips the straps of his backpack with both his hands, smiling at you like a child offered candy. âdone and done.â
âalright, well,â you step back with a glance down the hall, âi should probably head to class.â
jake nods back, eyes still watching you, âyeah, yeah, right. me too.â but he doesnât move. just keeps watching you, unsure if he should try pinching himself.
you look back at him one last time, âjake?â
jakeâs half-way on his heels when he stops at the sound of your voice again. âyeah?â
âit really is okay,â you reassure. and itâs real. honest. grounded. and everything jake needs to hear.
he smiles, a little too lopsided and voice a little too fragile when he speaks again, âiâll see you?â
âcounting on it,â you grin before turning back and making your way to class.
the rest of the day blurs for jake. he aces the pop vocabulary quiz in english, he steals some of sunghoonâs fries from his tray, he accidentally dents his locker door when closing it because he forgets he has literal super strength.
but it all passes in a haze. muted and unimportant.
because the only thing that cuts through the noise is the thought of you.
every hour stalls. every minute another reminder that the best way to distract himself from the chaos of his head is the same thing that causes it in the first placeâ
seeing you.
obviously.
âyou know,â his voice comes from above, playful and easy, âi probably sacrifice at least two churros a night just making sure you get home safe instead of saving the world out there.â
âjesus christââ you jolt back, nearly tripping over your own feet as jakeâspider-manâdrops down beside you later that night on your walk back home. you instinctively swat at the air as if that threatens him. at all.
âwrong guy,â he quips, sticking the landing in a crouch and straightening up. âbut i do appreciate the enthusiasm.â
your face drops and give him a deadpan stare. âyou really gotta stop doing that.â
âme?â jake clutches his chest dramatically through the suit before jutting a thumb behind him towards absolutely nothing. âi could totally leave right now and earn myself some churros.â
you huff out a breath, rolling your eyes even as your lips twitch towards a smile, âthen why are you still here, spidey?â
âbecause,â jake answers simply, falling into step beside you, âitâs part of my friendly-neighborhood-spider-man-civic-duties to make sure my favorite citizen gets home safe.â
you snort, shaking your head lightly as you tilt your head at him, âfine. letâs get going then.â
jake smiles beneath the maskâtoo wide, too hopeful, too much. and you donât see it, but he feels itâfeels youâin every corner of himself. and jake hates how badly he wishes this could just be him. no mask, no lies, no secret. just jake. just you.
once you two make it a block or two (jake lost count), jake coughs a little too awkwardly, breaking through the quiet, âsoooâŚwhat ended up happening with that aquarium guy?â
you falter for half a second. itâs quick, but jake notices. not because his jake-tingle makes him notice everything, but because heâs watching. especially you.
you start walking again just as fast, trying to pretend the question didnât rattle you at all before you clear your throat, âwhat guy?â
âyâknow,â jake gestures vaguely, hands flailing, âthe guy-guy. the one who took you to see the belugasââ
oh no.
jake stops. shuts his mouth.
he did it again.
you stop too. turn to look at him slowly.
ââŚhow do you know about the belugas?â
jake looks at you. the lenses of his mask widen. then narrow. blink. squint.
âiâuhââ jake rubs the back of his neck, the suit suddenly feeling a little too tight, a little too warm. âi saw a billboard. yeah. i was swinging around the other day andâand there was this massive ad. big and blue and veryâŚbeluga-like.â
thereâs a beat.
reason #1115 why jakeâs going to launch himself into orbit.
but you buy it anyways, settling with a small side-eye before walking again, âokayâŚright.â
âyeah,â jake exhales under his mask, recovering with a casual shrug, âanyways. belugasâŚthe aquarium guy?â
you hum, the sound barely audible as if youâre thinking, âheâsâŚcool. heâs alright.â
and jakeâs heart caves in a little.
okay, maybe a lot.
he pretends to nod, to be chill, to not feel like maybe heâs witnessing his entire world fall apart in front of him right now and he canât do anything about it.
âdamn,â he manages to squeak out, voice lighter than how he feels. âjust alright?â
you glance at him briefly before looking back at the sidewalk, âno, noâheâsâŚheâs really nice,â you say and jake swears he can feel the syllables in your voice individually bruise his ribs. âheâs justâŚconfusing. i donât know.â
and jake, because heâs jake, watches you. watches the way your voice dips quieter. watches the way your shoulders curl in just a little, watches the way your mind trails off.
âconfusingâŚâ he says slowly, carefully, testing the ice. âlike youâŚdonât like him?â and jake doesnât know why he asked that. he doesnât know if he wants to hear the answer.
âyes. no. iâi donât know. i think i do.â a small pause. you kick a pebble. âbut sometimes itâs hard to tell if heâŚif he actually cares? or if i made the whole thing up in my head.â
jake blinks hard. looks away. swallows. bites the inside of his cheek to keep everything in. because you didnât make it up. not even a little. and god, if only you knew how desperately he caresâhow much of his life heâs unintentionally rewritten around you.
his heart screams to tell you everything. that this is his chance, that he can fix everything right here, right now.
but his brain knows better.
âi thinkâŚyou should give him a chance.â
you look up, surprised. and jake doesnât know whyâbut that hurts too.
âseriously,â his eyes flick forward again. âheâd be lucky. youâre smart. and thoughtful. andâŚeven though you have the survival instincts and awareness of a sea turtle, youâreâŚfun. and honestly kind of unbelievable.â
and for a spilt second, jake forgets.
forgets that heâs not just jake. forgets heâs not just a teenage boy talking to his crush. forgets that to you, right now, heâs not the awkward guy that stammers next to you in chemistry and accidentally breaks glass beakers in his hand. forgets that heâs spider-manâthe one you seem to trust a little more freely than the boy who let you down.
and thatâs what hurts the most.
because when you glance up at him nowâthereâs that feeling again.
the pocket of air that only ever exists between you and him. a space that feels warmer than the rest of the world, like the universe took a breath and exhaled only around the two of you.
and itâs always there, somehowâwhether heâs wearing the mask or not. whether itâs spider-man and you eating cold pizza on your fire escape. whether itâs you and jake laughing over a lame pun your teacher used in class. and jake knows that air. craves it. has memorized the shape of silence it holds.
but right now, it feels more like spider-man gets to live in it. not jake. and that realization twists something sharp and quiet inside his chest.
because jakeâs the one who likes you. jakeâs the one who knows you like your matcha lattes even with the grainy oat milk that makes the texture weird. the one who knows you only ever take chemistry quizzes with your favorite pink pen because you think it gives you good luck. the one who gets to share sour patch kids with you under the lab table when you both think no one is looking. but jakeâs the one who messed up.
and spider-manâs the one who gets to be here now.
he looks at youâyou standing there, eyes soft, smile just a little sadâand heâs willing himself not to say anything stupid. not to ruin the moment. not to cross that line he drew. not to let it get to his head every time he realizes the only way he can be close to you right nowâŚis by being someone else.
and so jake locks in.
the next morning, he wakes up earlyâwhich, in jake terms, really means waking up at his regular time and only hitting snooze twice instead of his usual six. he throws on a hoodie that he sniffed to make sure it smells like detergent and not like itâs overdue for a wash, looks in the mirror, and brushes his hair. like actually brushes it, and not just run his hands through it and hopes for the best. he walks the full twenty minutes to the cafĂŠ where he studied with you, orders your usualâthe matcha latte with the grainy oat milkâadds a smiley face and heart on the side of the cup next to your name, and books it to school. he arrives early to school, for once, and goes straight to your lockerânot before dodging a frisbee mid-air, a frantic girl running with an art project in hand, and a couple making out aggressively by the vending machine.
when you close your locker door shut, you look up surprisedâjake in your view, holding the matcha out like an olive branch. if olive branches wore oversized hoodies and had a mild existential crisis fifteen minutes ago.
you blink. then you smile and take the cup. jake gives himself a mental high five. nailed it.
and when you softly ask him to walk to you to your first class? jake nearly does a backflip. (he doesnât. he plays it cool. barely.)
when chemistry rolls around later in the day, jakeâs the first one to say hi this time. when the teacher is busy not looking, jake leans in and says a really, really stupid joke about ionic bonds and valence electrons and regrets it immediately but you laugh. you laugh and jakeâs day is immediately better than any other day heâs had this week. at some point, you nudge his knee and when jake looks downâyour hand is there, holding out a pack of sour patch kids. jake takes it as a good sign. or maybe a sign of impending life-long romance. either way, he takes one and tries not to make it weird. (and he still does. he accidentally eats two at once and chokes a little. but itâs fine.)
when the bell rings and class is over, youâre both packing up when you glance over and smile at him, âIâm excited to see you later tonight.â and jake thinks he misheard. thinks heâs hearing things because just three weeks ago, the most heâs ever said to you was either something about the periodic table orâŚrunning out of the classroom after breaking a glass beaker with his bare hands. but then your hand lands on the sleeve of his hoodie and gives him the slightest squeeze, and jake malfunctions.
jake gives you a thumbs up. because he panicked.
he panicked and thumbs-upped (he will never learn).
but you smile anyways and say your cute little goodbye before leaving class.
and the rest of the school day is irrelevant to jake because the rest of the school day doesnât involve you. well, except in his head. sure, jake goes to lunch. sunghoon wonât stop talking about the new valorant expansion pack and how his computer lags everytime he tries to peek a cornerâbut jakeâs just thinking about how your hair looked in the sunlight this morning when you asked him to walk you to class. sure, jake gets his pop quiz back in history with a big, fat, b minus written on top in red marker. normally, heâd spiral, because he really should be getting his history grade up. and normally, heâd wince at the mental image of his mom scolding him later over itâbut heâs too busy replaying your laugh in his head. sure, jake goes to robotics club after school. heâs supposed to help calibrate the parts for their new battle bot but he accidentally installs a cord backwards, and now the bot is stuck running in circlesâbecause jake sim is currently preoccupied.
preoccupied mentally drafting a speech that goes something like, âhey, i like you. a lot. possibly way more than i should but i donât really care because you always smell good and your smile makes me want to rip my hair out and the memory of kissing you is in my dreams everynight. can i be your boyfriend? please? maybe? iâll buy you weird oat milk drinks forever and buy you more beluga stickers even though, respectfully, you probably shouldnât own any more.â
itâs still a work in progress.
and later that evening, jake is pacing back and forth in his bedroom, mentally preparing himself for tonight. his spider-man suit lies crumpled somewhere in the back of his closet half-covered by a flannel, a calculus textbook, and one sock he still canât find the missing half to. he makes a mental note to wash the suit. eventually. later. not tonight. tomorrow. whatever. not important.
because tonight, heâs just jake. just jake, a regular teenage boy. just jake, a regular teenage boy with no responsibilities except to make his crush and hopefully soon-to-be-girlfriend happy.
just jake, nervously fixing the collar of his nicest hoodie, debating whether or not to wear the cologne his mom got him two birthdays ago. just jake, combing his fingers through his hair and wondering if you like it better pushed back, down, up, messy, styled, or, hell, shaved off entirely because he will do it if it gets him one (1) smile from you. just jake, practically grinning to himself because heâs going to see you.
jake checks the time again. 7:24PM. heâs early, which is good. which is the plan. because early gives him time to get to the diner first. early gives him time to find the best booth, which is the one near the corner window so you two can watch the sunset together and sit far from the kitchen door to avoid the smell of peanut oil. early gives him time to breathe and mentally run through everything he wants to say.
hi y/n. you look really pretty. i missed youâwait no, you saw her literally three hours ago, donât say thatâi was thinking we could split the strawberry milkshake togetherâwait is she lactose intolerant?
jake grabs his phone, wallet, the flowers he picked up at the corner deli on the way home. itâs wrapped in too much plastic, a little crooked, one of the carnations is sticking out, but itâs pink and soft and entirely you coded.
and jake makes his way to the diner, sneakers scuffing against the sidewalk, heart doing backflips in his ribcage as he turns the corner and sees the neon lights of the diner come into view just a few more blocks down. one of the lights of the sign is flickering in and out, going back and forth from diner to din_r. itâs perfect. youâre perfect. he just needs to get there.
buzz. buzz.
jake looks down at his phone in hand.
incoming call : GUY IN CHAIR đ§
âyo, iâm gonna call you in, like, a few hours,â jake answers without thinking, barely breaking his pace, âiâm on my way to theââ
âjake.â and sunghoonâs voice is tense. urgent. the kind of urgent that tightens something in jakeâs chest.
jake stops.
âitâs bad. really, really bad,â sunghoonâs voice is strained and jake doesnât like it. doesnât like that feeling in his gut. the pull, the weight, the way his skin pricks, the way every muscle in his body tenses.
jake shuts his eyes closed. exhales sharply. runs a hand through his hair. âhow bad?â
âlikeâŚwarehouse near the port is up in flames and thereâs a hostage situation and no oneâs close enough to get there in time.â
and just like that, jake feels it. the way the air changes, that familiar shift in gravity. that tug in his chest like a string being pulled into two opposite directions.
jake doesnât say anything. he looks back down the street, stares at the diner. heâs so close. so close to getting there. so close to getting to you. âi canât, sunghoon. not tonight,â he swallows hard, his voice cracking on the words. âiâi donât even have my suit.â
thereâs a beat. âjake,â sunghoon says, softer yet not any less urgent. âtheyâve got kids.â
jakeâs eyes flutter closed again. presses the heel of his hand to his forehead like he can press the guilt away. he doesnât move. and for a secondâjust oneâhe thinks maybe, maybe, he could keep walking. just this once. just tonight.
but he knows better.
the responsibility. the pull.
the price of the mask.
itâs never not there.
his grip tightens around the bouquet. the plastic crinkles. he sighs, slips out a curse word or two under his breath, andâ
âjesus christ,â jake mumbles, already turning on his heel. âtell the fire department iâm on my way. and tell them to hurry.â
and jakeâs already runningâsprinting back in the opposite direction back to his apartment. sunghoon hangs up and jake?
jake doesnât stop.
he doesnât even look back.
jake doesnât know what time it is. doesnât care. smoke still clings to his skin, the faint sting of ash burned into the fabric of his suit. his lungs ache, and his hands are scraped raw from tearing open too many metal doors and carrying too many people to safety.
but heâs alive.
theyâre alive.Â
and yet. all jake can think aboutâis you.
you, maybe waiting in that booth. you, maybe sipping a milkshake through a striped straw, twirling it slowly and glancing at the door every couple minutes. you, maybe checking your phone. frowning. getting up. leaving.
god.
he doesnât even stop to change. just swings home, crawls through his fire escape, throws a hoodie over his soot-covered suit, runs a wet hand through his hair, and jumps back out the fire escape again. he swings and swings until he lands in an alleyway near the diner, tripping over a trash can and throwing a curse word at it as he stumbles into the street andâ
runs into you.
your arms are crossed tight against your chest, your headâs down. youâre walking the other way, unaware of the chaos behind you.
jakeâs voice cracks before it can even form your name. âây/n. y/n, iââ
you stop mid-step, your head turning at the sound. and when you turn and see him, you pauseâthe expression on your face unreadable.
âjake?â your brows furrow. âwhat the hellâwhere did you even come from? and why do you smell likeââ you stop yourself. exhale shortly. shake your head. âyou know what? never mind. iâiâm going home.â
you turn again.
and jake panics.
he starts after you, picking up his pace to match yours âwaitâlook, y/n, iâm so, so, so sorry. i swear i can explainââ
thatâs when you stop in your tracks. you turn, finally facing him. and the emotions written on your face are everywhereâconfused, hurt, tired, and somewhere beneath all of thatâstill soft.
âokay,â you say, looking him in the eye. âthen explain.â
jake opens his mouth.
closes it.
he swallows. his lips open again.
"iâ"
his throat burns. and itâs not from inhaling a buildingâs worth of smoke from earlier.
"i canât. it's...complicated."
silence.
you stare at him. eyes wide. quiet. sad. disappointed. the kind that hurts jake more than if you were angry.
when you speak up again, your voice is quiet, barely above a whisper, âlook, jake. i donât know whatâs going on with you. and iâm not mad. butâŚyouâre just really confusing. and clearly, youâve got something going on.â
you take a breath and fold your arms tighter around yourself, ââand while this was fun and allâŚi justâi donât know if this is going to work out anyways.â
jake blinks. his stomach drops. he takes a step closer. âwaitâno, y/n, iââ
and you keep going. âplus,â you let out a small laugh but itâs the worst kind of laughâthe kind thatâs awkward and forced, like itâs there only to preemptively make up for the words coming after. âiâm just gonna be honest with you.â
jake doesnât breathe.
you look him in the eyes.
âi think i like someone else anyways.â
and that does it. jakeâs world tilts sideways. the words hit him like a punchâno, worse, because heâs felt bad punches before. this feels like that moment in freefall right before the web catches you, except this time thereâs no web. just the fall.
âyouâŚlike someone else?â is all jake manages to let out before the words get caught in his throat. he thinks he might throw up.
you nod. slowly. hesitantly. and jake feels like heâs unraveling.
he doesnât know what to say. he wants to scream, he wants to cry, he wants to tear his stupid hoodie off and tell you everything.
that he missed the date because he was saving lives.
that he wanted to tell you heâs falling for you.
that he bought the damn bouquet and practiced a stupid speech and picked the booth with the best view and no peanut oil smell.
that he only missed it because he was trying to be good. good enough. worthy.
but all that comes out is air.
because he canât tell you. because he shouldnât tell you. because spider-man doesnât get to be selfish. because jake doesnât get to be just jake.
your fingers fidget as you glance back down at the ground. you rock slightly on your heels before your voice breaks the silence again, âbut hey. no hard feelings, yeah? friends?â
and that might be the final blow.
and jake doesnât even know how to respond. his brain stutters. because what is he supposed to sayââfriends? no? actually, i wanted to ask you to be mine tonight, and now i canât even tell you why i missed it?â
so instead, jake does what jake always does.
he pretends. he nods, forces a smileâtoo quick, too wide, the kind that pulls at his cheeks but doesnât reach his eyes.
âyeah,â he says. his voice cracks, but he clears his throat like thatâll fix anything. âyeah. of course. friends.â
you nod back and offer a tight smile, âiâll see you at school, then. goodnight.â
then you turn.
and you walk away.
jake doesnât move. the weight of your footsteps fade, but the words still echo in his ears.
friends. someone else. no hard feelings.
his chest feels hollow. like someone scraped everything out and forgot to fill it back in. like he just lost something he never even got the chance to have in the first place.
and spider-manâs the one who saved the day. and it should feel like a win, but it doesnât. because although spider-man saved the day, jakeâs the one who let you down.Â
jake was too late. too late, too secretive.
too much of everything and still not enough of what you needed.
âmaybe itâs not as bad as we think.â sunghoonâs voice is cautious, but not exactly convincing from his slouched position in jakeâs desk chair, spinning slowly like heâs debating whether nowâs a good time to leave (itâs not. heâs been trying for the past hour. jake made him stay.)
jake lets out a guttural groan in response, already face down on his bed, limbs sprawled out in distress. a pillow is smushed over his head, in attempt to block out the agonizing, soul-crushing reality that is his life.
âitâs over, sunghoon,â jake muffles into his mattress. âover with a capital O. capital V. all the damn lettersâover before it even started.â
jake flips over, sending the pillow to the other side of the room, âshe likes someone else,â he says hollowly, staring blankly at the ceiling. âi was so preoccupied with everything else that i didnât even notice sheâwho else could she evenââ
jake cuts himself off mid-rant. because it doesnât matter.
doesnât matter who you like.
doesnât matter how it happened.
it just matters that itâs not him.
that you like someone.
and itâs not jake.
jake presses a hand to his head, âgod. iâm such an idiot.â
sunghoon lets out a low whistle and starts fiddling with one of jakeâs pens, âokay. youâre not an idiot. you did what you had to do, and you did the right thing.â
jake lets out a small sigh, quiet and defeated, finally looking at his friend, âbut when do i get to stop sacrificing to do the right thing?â
silence stretches out between them. the ceiling fan above them whirs. the clang of metal pots and pans echo from down the hallâwhich means jakeâs mom is attempting to make meatloaf again. which means the fire alarm will probably go off in ten minutes, maybe eight. the room smells faintly of jakeâs two-birthdays-ago cologne, and the burnt tinge of unwashed spandex crumpled somewhere in the room.
sunghoon taps the pen against the desk, eventually breaking the silence, âso talk to her. as spidey.â
jake sits up in his bed and gives sunghoon a look.
âtalk to her as spider-man, tell her to give âjakeâ another chance,â sunghoon repeats, throwing air quotes around his friendâs name.
jake gestures to the ceiling. the wall. the existential void of absolute nothingness around him. âsunghoon. thatâsâŚmessed up. morally. ethically. logistically. probably emotionally.â
âi mean,â sunghoon shrugs casually as if this is the answer to all of jakeâs problems, âspideyâs already friends with her, anyways. and you told me yourselfâit feels like sheâs closer to him than she is to you.â
jake throws both hands in the air. âWEâRE THE SAME PERSON.â
he then lets out an inhuman noise and flops backwards onto his bed again, âwhatever, man. this is probably for the best anyway,â he mutters. âspider-man shouldâve never gotten involved in the first place. itâs safer this way. especially for her.â
a beat passes. jake stares up at the glow-in-the-dark stars still stuck to his ceiling from the sixth grade. he blinks once.
âplus, letâs be honest. iâd probably screw it up more somehow. say something dumb and let it slip that itâs been me all along.â jake pauses. ââor honestly, she probably already knows iâm spider-man. which is even worse, because now she probably hates both versions of me.â
sunghoonâs quiet for a moment. just keeps spinning slowly in jakeâs chair, the wheels creaking faintly. ââŚso what? youâre just gonna stop walking her back home now?â he finally says, lifting a brow. âisnât that for her safety too?â
and yeah.
yeah, he has a point.
so jake doesnât stop.
he just stops being seen.
and thatâs what jake does for the next few days.
so jake falls into this routine without really meaning to. he goes home from school, puts on his suit (itâs clean now, donât worry), and spends the next few hours either returning stolen bikes or webbing carjackers to brick walls or showing tourists the right direction.
and somehow, someway, jake still finds himself in the same spot at the end of the dayâsitting crouched on the ledge of the rooftop across from your bus stop, a hoodie pulled over his mask, hands stuffed in his sleeves.
at 10:32PM, your bus rolls up right on the dot.
at 10:33PM, you step off. same oversized totebag on your shoulder. same way you pull your phone out and unlock it in the same three motions. same streetlight that flickers just before you pass it.
and jake watches you go home. makes sure youâre okay. makes sure youâre safe. all without making himself seen.
and only when your apartment window lights up does he finally feel okay, finally swings away, the wind cold and sharp in his lungsâbut not as cold as the air around him whenever youâre not there.
he does this again the next night. and the next. and the next.
and at school, jake falls into rhythm here, tooâif you can call it that.
you still sit next to him in chemistry. still copy formulas off the board. still hand in the same worksheets, laugh politely when the teacher makes a pun about avogadroâs number.
but you donât share your sour patch kids anymore. and jake doesnât make any stupid chemistry jokes to make you laugh either, becauseâŚhe canât think of any. because all the funny ones were ones he saved for you, and they donât feel worth saying out loud anymore.
you talk to him, sure. when you need the answer to question six, or to ask if he got the quiz grade back. but thereâs space between you now. quiet, aching space. and jake doesnât know how to fill it.
but by the end of the weekâ
all routines fly out the window.
because itâs friday night. and jake swings to the usual rooftop across from your bus stop, a half-eaten churro in one handâcourtesy of the sweet old lady who bought it for him after he showed her where her train station is. because itâs 10:30PM when jake lands on the roof, tossing his backpack to the side when he looks up andâ
he freezes.
because sitting there, cross-legged on the ledgeâon his ledgeâbacklit by the moonlight and the yellow glow of the streetlamps belowâis you.
jake chokes. he stumbles back, the eyes of his mask blown wide immediately, âwhat theây/n?! what are youâhow did youâwhââ
and youâre sitting there, blinking and staring at him, unfazed. like youâve been waiting. you donât move. you just raise a brow.
âokay, so first you start walking me home every night, then you stop showing up, but still choose to stalk me from a distance? i donât get you, spider-man.â
and jake is so confused right now. âiâwhatâs going on?â jake sputters, arms half-raised in shock and disbelief. âhow are you even here right now, how did you even get up here?â
âyouâre not exactly subtle, yâknow,â you deadpan, ignoring his question as you tilt your head up at him. âevery night you walk me home? i know this is where you drop your bag off and wait for me to get off that bus. i know you sit on that rooftop across from my place to make sure iâm okay every night. your silhouette is literally not that subtle.â then you gesture vaguely around the rooftop. âalso, the webs everywhere? kinda a dead giveaway, donât you think?â
jakeâs mouth opens. nothing comes out. and if it werenât for the mask, heâd be catching flies.
you stand now, arms crossed tight as you take a step closer to him. you take a deep breath before you ramble, âi donât know. iâm justâiâm so confused, spider-man. i told the guy i like that i liked someone else. and i donât even know if that was true or if i just panicked. but the truth is, i donât even know if the guy i actually like likes me back, or even knows how to talk to me, or if iâm just completely losing itââ
ââwait.â jake tilts his head, still frozen in his spot. âwait, which guy? like the guy-guy? aquarium guy?â
you groan and start pacing, squeezing your eyes shut like youâre trying to make sense of the situation as well.
âyes. yes, of course the guy-guy, aquarium guyâwho else would i be talking about? thereâs no other guyââ
âyou just said you told the guy-guy you liked someone else.â
âi did! i think! iâlook, i donât know! maybe i said it just to protect myself from the fact that the guy-guy doesnât like me back. but now i might actually like this other guyââ
âokay, okayâhold on, back up,â jake steps back to process. holds up both his hands. âso thereâs guy-guy you maybe likeâŚand now a new guyâŚ?â
jakeâs mind is reeling. his insides might come out. who is the new guy? is jake even guy-guy? no. yes. maybe? jake has to be guy-guy. or else heâs gonna scold sunghoon for being very unoriginal for the aquarium date idea.
you stop pacing. you turn to him with wide eyes, like youâre mentally begging yourself to shut up, donât do it, but your mouth moves anyways.
ââŚyou,â your voice is quiet. barely audible. but yet, so loud and clear and more than anything else jake has ever sensed before. âi like you.â
and for a second there, jake thinks maybe he misheard, because it sounded a lot like you just said you liked him. spider-man. and thereâs absolutely no way. thereâs no way you said that. thereâs no way you meant that.
thereâs no way this is happening.
thereâs no way the girl heâs been hopelessly staring at from across the cafeteria for god knows how long now, the girl heâs been walking home at night to make sure sheâs safe even she didnât know, the girl that witnessed him choke on two sour patch kids at once in the middle of chemistryâis standing here. on this rooftop. telling him that this entire time heâs been tangled up in a love triangleâŚwith himself?
and jake? jake is actively malfunctioning. he says nothing. he does nothing. he thinks nothing.
and you seem to take jakeâs stunned silence as pure horrorâ
because you panic.
âoh my god. oh my godâiâm insane,â you whisper, moreso to yourself than him. âi knew it. i knew that guy-guy shattered my brain and messed me up so bad iâm actually losing it.â
you start pacing again. and jakeâs legs donât work, so he just watches.
âlikeâi donât even know what you look like under that mask. what if youâre, likeâŚthirty? what if you donât even have a nose?â your voice rises in disbelief at your own choices. âwhat if iâm just projecting everything onto this idea of you, because youâre sweet and funny and walk me home and call me your favorite citizen andâgod, iâm actually going delusionalââ
jake takes a few more steps back, shaking his head once, then twice, like heâs trying to physically undo the entire past five minutes of his life. or reset his entire nervous system.
his hands fly to his hair as he turns away from you, staring up at the sky, muttering incoherent words to himself before he lets out a groan, âiâwhat the hellâi canât believe iâm doing this, iâm gonna hurl. oh godââ
then, he turns around. takes one unsteady step towards you. his heart is racing. but without another wordâ
he yanks the mask off.
and his hair is a mess (from the mask). his cheeks flushed like heâs been sweating (he has). his eyes wide like heâs terrified (he is).
ây/n.â
your jaw drops.
you blink once. twice.
you stare at his face. at his hair. at jake.
ââŚJAKE?!â
your voice echosâloud. probably throughout the entire city, if jakeâs being honest. your arms flail so wildly it looks like your brain is about to evacuate your body. you blink hard, like if you do it enough times, this fever dream might just break.
âare you kidding me right now?!â
jake flinches. his eye twitches.
you immediately start pacing againâback and forth, borderline hyperventilating, âYOU? youâre spider-man?! YOU??â you shout again, turning to point at him like he committed fraud. âhowâhellâyou literally broke a glass beaker last monthâthis canât be realââ
jake raises his hands defensively, âokay, to be fair, you caught me off guard by asking meââ
âOH MY GOD,â you groan, throwing a hand into your hair, fisting a small bunch. âi told you i liked you while you were you pretending not to be you. thatâsâŚthatâs messed up, jake!â
âokayâyes, i see how that was a littleââ
âyouâŚyou called me pretty but ignored my texts but still walked me home that night andâŚiâm so confused right now.â
jake scratches the back of his neck with one hand, the other dropping uselessly to his side, mask still in hand, âwellâŚyeah. but also, like, i thought you picked up on it.â
âWHY WOULD I THINK YOUâRE SPIDER-MAN?â you practically screech, your steps halting as you spin to face him, full disbelief painted all over your face.
jake blinks. âi donât know! i figured the voice, the walkâŚliterally anythingââ
âi donât listen to peopleâs walks, jake!â you pace faster now. like if you donât move, you might actually implode.
jake makes a desperate, helpless noise before he tries again, âlook, y/nâcan..can you just stop for a second andââ
âno, jake! iâm spiraling!â your voice hits a new level of pitch that makes jake wince. again. âi told two different guys i liked them this week and it turns out theyâre the same guy and somehow that makes it worse?! do you know how emotionally unstable this makes me? i ranted to you about YOUâand you let me! oh, youâre so done for jake siââ
and thatâs when he does it.
jake shoots a web.
it catches your waist.
and your rant cuts off mid-sentence as youâre suddenly pulled into him.
with a small yelp, you crash into his chest, hands reflexively splayed across his alarmingly solid chest. your nose is inches from his collarbone, and jakeâs hands settle on your waist, immediately grounding you in place.
and you donât have time to orient yourselfâand jake doesnât give himself time to pause or doubt it before he does it.
jake kisses you.
no hesitation, no overthinking, just all of jakeâcrashing his lips onto yours, immediately silencing you.
and you donât stop him.
you canât stop him.
because your lips are already moving against his, messy and fast and a little too much. your fingers fist into the fabric of his suit like youâre trying to anchor yourself and you swearâyou swearâyou can feel his heartbeat under your fingertips. and all of the sudden, youâre hyperaware of everything. how his mouth is warm and desperate and tastes a little like cinnamon churros and familiarity. how the air between you is sharp, your noses brushing, breath mingling in short gaspsâall too much and not enough all at once.
and when you pull away briefly to take a breathârealization hits you. your palm smacks against his chest once. then again. then rapid fire.
âwait, wait. wait. did you just web me?â the words tumble out of you in a half-laugh, half-accusation. and to be frank, you donât know if you should be angry or attracted right now.
and jakeâs still breathless, forehead practically resting against yours, as you feel his chest rise and fall with each shaky exhale. his voice is low, steady. a little hoarse.
ây/nââ jake whispers, so close you can feel the shape of the words against your mouth, ââshut up.â
and then he kisses you again. slower, this time. deeper. like an apology, like a confession, like something that feels way too big to name.
jakeâs hand curls tighter around your waist, the other sliding up gently, carefully, until his fingers find the back of your neck, holding you there like heâs afraid youâll disappear in his hold.
and all you can do is lean in. closer and closer, like if you press hard enough, youâll disappear into him. disappear into that small pocket of space that only exists between you and him and never come back out.
itâs uncoordinated, a little too frantic. but itâs everything. the shock, the nerves, the confusion all blur into static. and this time, when jake pulls back, just barely, you cant help the tiny, unintentional whine that escapes your lips as you chase his without thinking.
jake exhales a breathless, shaky chuckle against you before he kisses you again. a quicker one this time. and then another. then one to the corner of your mouth. and then your jaw. and then heâs pulling back again, this time slower, eyes fluttering open just as yours do too, his hands still around you, the web still holding you against him.
âhi,â jake whispers. itâs soft and raw and boyish. and so, so real. âitâs me.â
his thumb brushes along your jaw as he swallows hard. your heart stumbles, your eyes searching his faceâhis stupidly soft brown eyes, the little scar on his chin, the mole near his cheek youâve always noticed. itâs all him.
the boy who walked you home. the boy who doesnât know how to talk to you in class. the boy you fell for. all this time.
youâre still pressed to his chest, body still tangled up in his arms, lips still tingling, mind still fuzzy. your voice comes out in a whisper, âi canât believe itâs been you this entire time.â
he nods, a shy, crooked smile on his face, âitâs always been me.â and then his expression falters, just slightly. âi didnât mean to lie to you. or miss our dates. i justâŚi didnât know how to be this,â he gestures to his suit, âand how to be just jake, either.â
and you just blink, unmoving in his arms, still a little breathless. because thereâs something in his voice. something fragile.
âsoâŚso that day you missed school? and you were all beat up?â
jake presses his lips together, guilt painted all over his face, âyeah, i actually did get into a fight. i lied about that part.â
your eyes narrow, âwith who, jake?â
jake shrugs like itâs no big deal. âsome guy with six arms. real tentacle problem. you shouldâve seen the damage i did on him though.â
your mouth gapes.
âiâm kiddingââ jake laughs, eyes sparkling now as his nose slightly bumps against yours. âit was a bank robber. kind of. honestly, itâs all a blur now. all i remember was thinking about kissing you that same night after the aquarium.â
you let out a scoff, part processing, part amused. âand the diner night? when you suddenly showed up out of no where?â
jake nods, pulling you in just a little tighter. âsuit was under my hoodie the entire time. not fun, by the way. spandex gets sweatyâŚfast.â
âgross,â you mutter, scrunching your nose as you instinctively tug your hands away from his chestâonly to stop halfway, leaving them right where they are anyways. then, after a beat, you slap his chest again. âi canât believe you told me to give yourself another chance. i donât know if i should be mad at you or kiss you again.â
jake makes a face and gives a tiny shrug, âwell, if youâre asking for my opinionâŚâ he tilts his head. âi definitely have an answer. but i might be biased.â
you roll your eyes, letting out a small laugh as your hands find the back of his neck now. âthis is insane, jake. youâre genuinely insane,â you whisper quietly, eyes flickering from the spider emblem on his chest then back to his face.
jake grins down at you, eyes bright, one hand brushing a stray strand of hair away from your cheek.
âyeah? well you like both jake and spider-man,â he tilts his head. âso i think that makes you just as insane.â
you gasp dramatically, smacking his arm like youâre offended. jake laughs, that easy, familiar sound filling the room between youâand the air goes warm again.
there it is. that space. the one heâs always had with youâexcept now, itâs his. fully his. not just spider-manâs, not a half-version hidden behind a mask.
just jake, who also happens to wear spandex and save the city.
just jake, who sucks at high school history and has feelings for the pretty girl in his chemistry class.
and just jakeâwho finally doesnât have to choose between you and the suit.
you breathe in, watching him carefully. âsoâŚâ you begin. ânow what?â
jake pauses.
and then he smirks.
that boyish, reckless, completely jake smirk.
âhow about i take you on a proper date?â
your brows lift, your head tilts. âyeah.â you beam up at him. âiâd like that. tomorrow?â
jake shakes his head slowly, leaning in briefly with a mischievous smile on his face.
ânow.â
you blink.
ââŚnow?â
âJAKEââ your scream cuts through the sky as youâre being flung between skyscrapers, clinging yourself around jakeâs neck, legs around his torso like your life depends on it.
which, to be fair, is quite literally the case right now.
ââWEâRE NEVER DOING THIS AGAINââ
jake just laughs, a breathless, exhilarating soundâhis mask back on, one arm tight around you as the other shoots another web out, latching onto the building you two swing past.
âare you sure?â he yells over the fast wind. âbecause you look like youâre having so much funââ
âJAKEââ
another swing. another scream. another terrified, stupid, perfect laugh.
the city blurs below. the stars blur above.
and somewhere in between it all, you feel his heartbeat against yours.
jakeâs grip tightensâinstinctively, protectivelyâas you fly past neon signs and glowing windows and the tiny people beneath and the hum of a city that never sleeps.
and in that moment, your panic settles into something else. something warmer.
so donât try to stop him.
you just hold on tighter.
đ˘ĽâşâÂ°Ë tenk u again for all the love & support, always <3 (& special ty for my love ronnie @heejamas for the beluga dolphins fun fact & being my support throughout this entire proces <333 hehehe)
I cant believe i actually finished reading all of this in just hours, bc i am actually very lazy when it comes to reading lol. but yeah i really love this one! â¤ď¸