I'M FADING FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER.

Whar makes you think we'd know him. Seriously.

That's why it's seek the kingdom first. That's why you have to find him.

Bummed me out so much that I decided to self sabotage.

Now.

Im sabotaging your perception of me. You don't care enough to really know me and I don't care enough to be perceived.

So now. All the comments, likes and other bs is gone.

Keep your likes.

Cause it hurts YOU

In the long run.

Except the 2 or 3 real comments and be thankful they made the damn effort to do that.

It's a spit in the face to the Van Gogh types.

They all died because of y'all and themselves.

I want to stick middle finger in the camera every time it's showtime but that's selfish.

Im really trying but monkey's want to see me cry n shiz.

Not gonna happen ugly.

Cause they think I'm a spaz. Which I am.

But it's really not that serious. I want you to shine and think.

If I like you. I'll just tell you and we move along.

I thought I add pressure and tension to people's lives and I did in the the past but nowadays.

It's you. Not me.

Like, why? That's my Dad.

He gives me all I need and protects me.

He'll always be my friend.

So I don't care who likes me.

I care if they like him.

Because if someone you love is hated by a friend, it doesn't feel good.

Tell me whyyyy and I'll ask/channel the spirit to speak.

Sarcasm

Irony

Reflection

Double speak.

I get it. Words can be irresponsible if used spastically.

But I'm spastic. And I'm elated when I find something cool on this narrow path I'm walking/skating.

Is that not programming?

Sorry not a geek. Don't understand geek talk.

I'll talk if God commands it so.

Your fear will always be your ultimate downfall because strength is the turbo to push you.

I am strange and human.

I've bled for my new found self assurance.

And didn't offer or exchange anything other than myself. (To my current understanding)

Why.

Is all this pain worth it?

Some people ignore that shit until the walls close around them.

Some people flip it until they lose themselves.

Some people embrace it and fall back.

Then there are those who stare at the answer and let it devour their lifeforce

Me?

I ask myself why I'm asking why. Then bring it to someone I trust the most.