When I look back, there were groups of formative years and experiencez that shaped my understanding of my self, my sexuality, and my sense of rebelliousness.
When did those things begin to happen for you? What experiences guided you into person you've become, so far?
To be honest, I've learned and grown the most in the last 10 years, 5 maybe even.
I grew up being very and I mean VERY shy, or at least that's what they called it back then, I was scared of anything and always behaved myself "oh she's such a good girl that doesn't do anything wrong"
There were rules, set by my parents, teachers, society, and .. myself. So I didn't experience too much, and no rebellion here, obviously.
I've always felt different, everything was harder for me. I have been fighting for years to figure out wat was "wrong" with me.
But I was/am way too Good at masking.. I didn't even know I did it.
So now, since almost 2 years I know I am autistic, along with some other "stamps" I've gotten, and most likely ADHD aswell (being diagnosed as we speak)
Now I'm 44 and actually learning who I am..
A lot has happened in my life, loads of it wasn't fun at all, but it did make me a very empathetic and caring person.
My sexuality, growing up I always thought I was straight..
It was like I am a girl, girls like guys, period.
But there was a girl when I was about 16 in my class and I REALLY liked her. Always wanted to sit next to her, hang out, etc etc
But never thought more of it.
I think it was 15 years later when I started to doubt if I liked women too, that I realized I was probably in love with her^
ok, so I kissed some girls when going out and fuck.. woman do kiss the best.. 🫠
But I don't really fall for the outside of a person, it's the inside that makes me fall for someone.
So, guess I might be pansexual.
Most of my kink interests started about 3 years ago, when I met someone online and we spoke and he was a dominant.
And I started here on Tumblr, pretty innocent 😇 (some people might remember)
We don't speak anymore but my interest started growing and growing so I have been figuring things out, with the support from a handful of awesome mutuals (you know who you are)
And one in particular ❤️ I have the honor to call him My Sir, My Daddy.
Tbh, the Tumblr community is pretty fucking great.
*I don't even know if I really answered your ask lol.
It's my brain.. I go from point A to G to Z and back to A 😋
But this is starting to be a book, so I'll end it here.
