eat shit

As someone who likes being alone all the time usually, you know shit is getting bad when feeling alone starts to actually hurt you for once and you just want someone to hold you and be there.

me when someone suggests therapy after every inconvenience

i really do wonder that, if i were to bleed out and die, would my parents’ perception of me as a miserable, angsty, loveless, lifeless, cold, teenager change? would they tell people that i was a loving person, that i was empathetic, that i had “so much future left”? or would my death only confirm their beliefs?

scared of death but i wanna die

i’m so fucking tired. of everything. i just wanna sob and sleep for so long

Is it really that hard to love me?

Sometimes I’m desperately afraid of death, others, I’m certain I died years ago in every way that matters.

I don't want to die but I feel like this is the only option that will make me feel at peace.

I want to cry but have no tears left

“Bed rotting,” pretty damn accurate when you already feel like you’re dead.