💟 i write and draw sometimes. read most of the time. think about fictional characters all the time.
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#jaye rambles (me talking about whatever)
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#answered (answered asks)
#q (queued post!)
💟 things i wrote can be found here and in AO3: MASTERLIST
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ex wife reader who has a panic attack and no one can calm you down. even dana is struggling. i just imagine santos being like “can we just fucking get mckay already?”
and everyone’s like :/ and look at you to see a reaction from the mention of cassie and you just let out a sob and nod
once cassie’s there i imagine a “jesus christ what happened?”
cassie dropping a “shhh it’s okay baby” she realizes she’d not called you baby in… a long time. and you curl into her and she’s just questioning everything
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idk about the timeline or the age gap of cassie and r so just use your imaginations 😂
you and cassie have always acted professional towards each other at work. no one knew that you two have dated, or once married for that matter. except dana who was mckay's confidant and santos, your work best friend.
in your defense, the whole thing was a whirlwind romance. you and cassie got married in a chapel in vegas during a conference week, both stone cold sober. you both loved each other before you really got to know each other, which you both realized wasn't as romantic as you thought and caused a lot of misunderstandings and miscommunications and a lot of hurt in the end.
but if anybody asked if you'd change your decision, you would lie and say yes.
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you were having a good shift, smooth even. patients transferred upstairs, discharged, and recovered. not until this patient of yours, a man with anger management issues decided that it would be fun to berate and yell at you in front of the entire pitt. al-hashimi already stepped in and with her all-commanding voice, she scolded the patient and asked him if he still wanted to be treated or he wanted to sign a waiver and leave.
it didn't mean for you to trigger your issues with your father really. the trauma of just hearing a man yelling, especially at you, was a very sensitive topic that you had tried to work with with your therapist for years.
your heart raced as dana pulled you away from the room. she reassured you that you did nothing wrong. but your heart kept going and going until your chest hurt and it was harder to breathe and the voices got louder and louder and -
"darlin', what's wrong?" you heard dana ask and you tried, really tried, to answer but your throat was suddenly dry and your chest felt heavy it hurt. "let's get you into a bed, alright?" dana guided you in a free room, away from the commotion.
you started sweating a lot and dana couldn't get through you so she called santos for help, knowing you and santos were inseparable.
"hey, y/n," she cupped your face, asking you to take a deep breath in and long breath out. you heard her but you couldn't, for the life of you, get your body to respond the way you wanted it to.
stupid fucking body reaction.
"just call mckay," santos told dana. "she'll know what to do."
dana didn't hesitate, always quick on her feet, she easily spotted mckay charting.
"mckay, need you at south 8. asap."
cassie looked up. "what is it?"
"y/n is having a panic attack."
cassie didn't need to hear more. she beelined to your room. she found santos wiping the sweat on your face.
"step back," cassie ordered and santos was quick to obey.
cassie sat on the edge of the bed, giving you just enough space to breathe but also to let you know that you weren't alone. "look at me, baby."
baby.
cassie hadn't called you that since the divorce.
"good," she coaxed. "that's good. you hear me, right?"
you were still shaking and sweating but you nodded anyway.
"you're safe," she said. "can you tell me five things you see right now?"
taking a deep breath in, you looked around. "bed. wall. dana. trinity. y-you."
"that's good. you're doing good. four things you can touch?"
your hand began touching the things around you. "blanket. m-my hand. my legs. t-this," you tugged on the call bell.
"good job." cassie moved a little closer to your side. "how about three things you can hear?"
"i can hear my heart beating in my ears."
"is that all?"
"i hear you."
"and...?"
"i hear footsteps outside."
"that's great, baby. you're doing great." cassie took your hand and gently squeezed it. "what are the two things you can smell?"
you paused for a second, trying to focus. "i can smell the fabcon from this bedsheet. it's new."
cassie nodded, waiting for another answer.
"i-i smell you." valentino donna born in roma, you remembered it still. and a lotion that she put on every morning yet the smell stayed all day.
"one thing you can taste?"
you stared at her, thinking. your eyes dart to her lips but quickly looked up. you wer your lips and gulped.
"my throat is dry."
"here you go." dana offered you a bottle then took santos with her to give you some privacy.
"how are you feeling now?" cassie asked.
you stared at your hands. they're less shaky and sweaty. your chest already felt much lighter and your heart beat slower.
"better. i-i don't know what happened."
cassie gently ran a hand through your hair. "it happens, okay? no one's judging you here. least of all, medical professionals."
"i know but still... i-i didn't mean... i got scared."
"can you tell me what happened?"
cassie, ever the patient one, scoot in beside you. for a moment, everything was quiet. cassie was trying to get you to match her relaxed breathing and you did eventually. your head rested on her shoulder.
it took another minute for you to start telling her what happened and cassie listened closely.
hi, guys. one of my cats, gino, is showing signs and symptoms of kidney failure and really needs to go to the vet. i already lost a cat (kitty) last july 1st with the exact same condition and tbh i have not yet recovered emotionally and financially from that which is why i am asking for help to bring him to the vet asap and get him checked out. i want to do everything to not lose another one of my babies. 🥺
he would need at least PHP 11,000 (around $178) for the consultation, blood tests, meds, and supplements alone. any amount would greatly help gino. please help me help him. please reblog/share and whatever god you believe in, i hope you keep him in your prayers. thank you. 🫶🏻
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recent photos of him below:
he lost so much weight and had become a picky eater and can't groom himself properly because of his recurring mouth sores. my mom helps him clean every morning and night. 😔😭
hi! i still need funding for gino's hopeful recovery. he's diagnosed with chronic kidney disease and currently, he is on IV fluids, renal care food diet, and supplements for the next days. i have already exhausted the donations sent to me and the rest of my paycheck for his vet bills and meds.
all donations and reblogs are appreciated as well as checking in on me and my cat. you all have been so nice and supportive that it makes all these bearable. 💝
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rollins is so devastating because I truly believe collins had moved on from robby, even if she still cares about him and wants the best for him, but that same cannot be said for robby. the way he looks at her all throughout season 1? that is absolutely a man still in love. if she would have taken him back he would have come crawling. she knew they would never work out long-term but he did not get the memo. like, the look on his face in the ambulance when he realizes the life they could have had in another timeline, if things had been different? combined with what he tells mohan at the end of season 2 about what where he imagined he would be by then? collins and robby were almost everything but enough things weren't right that they ended up being nothing instead. I feel ill
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i just don’t get it. where are all the women. where are all the women in your fanfictions. are they all out of town? did they all go on vacation together? do they all have a dentist appointment at the same time?
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