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Sw: 172 2/18/26

gw1: 150✅️ 4/22/26

gw2: 142 (reward: makeup order) 🔒

gw3: 132 (reward: new swimsuit) 🔒

gw4: 122 (reward: myviolet dress or clothing order, order rodeo dress) 🔒

gw5: 112 (reward: treats from french bakery, 1 weekly max) 🔒

ugw: 102 (idk the actual number doesnt matter as long as im too small for all my current clothes and kinda like my body) 🔒

143.6 💞💞 amazing

Like i know trail mix is the objectively healthier choice than a cookie or something but the cookie woulda been lower cal!!!

I was right about water retention lol 145.6 when I woke up but 145.0 with my hair soaking wet after my shower?? Dumb bullshit fr

Logging my weight as 145 for today

Body finally stopped aching so much (????) so i might actually have energy to exercise at work thankfully. Been slacking so bad

Already tired and its gonna be not only a long day but a long weekend and im lowkey dreading it

Just an rx bar for breakfast 200 and then ill try to eat a small amount of dinner which might actually happen cuz ive been having Negative Partner Thoughts which usually results in a low appetite and undereating for me thankfully

But also we have a show tonight and that means more cals burned but also long ass night and alcohol

Idk i think im in a depressive episode lol

Like. I know how to make fucking good mashed potatoes without adding almost anything aside from salt and pepper and maybe a bit of butter so honestly im less worried about the cal count (altho between that and the alcohol im def gonna have i feel like I should keep breakfast under 200, or maybe an rx bar at 200 even?? That might be the move)

But my stomach is gonna be so ROUND cuz of my stupid VISCERAL FAT CONTENT like yeah I was down a bit on that today according to my body fat scale but. I still have such a stupid round tummy and ass and thigh thighs and I just wish it would even the fuck out

Like can I get some of that moved to my arms so I look less like a literal gorilla,,,,

But mostly im scared of water retention cuz i can feel the tightness in my hands that means I had too much sodium too late in the day

Prolly cuz i was 145 when I got home instead of 144 which is fucked cuz I only had 250 for breakfast so I shoulda been at most 144.2 when I got home and idk why I wasn't

Anyway im kinda assuming water retention tomorrow morning even tho im drinking so much water, might have some green tea to try and counter

Im so close to my next gw and the weekend is gonna set me back but there's no way im gonna be able to get down 2lbs before tomorrow afternoon.....fuuuuuck

On the bright side partner is going back to just having 1 weekend day with me cuz of work which makes it way easier for me to eat less and lose consistently

I just wanna be under 140 already. Im kinda close to my lw (somewhere around 10lbs cuz i cant remember exactly what it was but it was somewhere between 130-136) and i have nothing else to ruin it (last time it was cuz winter holidays happened and I lost momentum but now its almost summer so no big events to set me back)

I KNEW something was fucky, had a biiiig visit from the doodoo fairy last night and this morning and im pretty sure like 2-3 days of food weight came out of me so i skipped right over 145 💞💞 didnt even use lax this time

I know i wont be able to pull off the same today, but hopefully I can still be at or under 144.0 tomorrow morning

Loooong weekend with the partner again so im gonna have to be super duper careful which im bad at :(((

It just sucks cuz i have such a caretaker personality so I feel like I have to make sure they eat a lot but also dont want to let myself eat too much either yk??