Mustangornado

"Why'd you stop" your cheeks are flushed red as you breathe the question onto Yuji's lips, holding yourself back from devouring them as you wait for his response.

"I..." his breath is hot along yours and its as if he's holding back as much as you are, his hands gripping your hips tightly, so tight like you're about to float away from the pleasure he's giving you. Yuji's forehead reaches yours, "I cant do this..... Not to you, Not to me... Not to us" he sighs, closing his eyes as he releases your hips. Yuji opens his eyes and takes a step back, giving himself a moment to catch his breath. "Is this all you want?" his voice is quiet, gentle, and you can even sense a hint of fear in it.

You push yourself off the wall Yuji had just seconds ago, held you against. "Yuji... What are you talking about?" You tilt your head. "I thought we agreed this was good" You take a step forward toward Yuji, reaching out to grab his hand before he pulls it away with a motion almost shameful.

"I thought it was working, us being friends but helping each other out once in a while.." Your voice turns soft, gazing up at Yuji, your eyes full of hurt and your hands trembling with every attempt to reach Yuji's.

"I don't want to be your friend!" he exclaims, voice high and full until he realises his mannerism and turns it down, sighing and extending his hands to your face, gently holding it in his arms. "I want to be... I want us to be.... more than friends who have fun together sometimes" his voice is soft and his eyes are only looking at yours. "I cant just keep pretending I'm okay with just your body, because sure I love what we do together sometimes.... but I want more..."

"I want you."

Your breath hitches, this sure was not what you expected when Yuji invited you over, but its also something that you've held as thought in the back of your mind. Something that you've held back on, because what if he sees every part of you and decides he does not like them? decides that you just have too many flaws that he does not want to stick around to fix. However, this is also something you can not let slip from your fingers. "I'm a lot" Your voice is soft as you gently tear Yuji's hands from your face, "I can be really emotional " You take a step back while Yuji takes a step forward with his eyes locked on yours, "Or I can feel nothing at all" your back hits the wall while Yuji's chest stands inches from yours. You're both breathing heavily now, your arms remain at your side while Yuji's return to cup your face. "What if I'm not who you want me to be?" You want to sound confident but your voice comes out in a choke and tears threaten to spill from your eyes. Tears that Yuji wipes off with his fingers, with a touch so gentle its as if he's scared you'll break. "You already are" his lips reach yours in a kiss neither of you have shared before. A kiss of genuine love, a kiss both of you have been waiting and yearning for, the type of kiss you want to last forever.