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"Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood."

“I watched life and wanted to be a part of it but found it painfully difficult.”

“Living in trauma teaches us to act fast: to walk fast, talk fast, think and respond fast, chew fast, and fuck fast. “Fast” is a state of chronic flight or fight and survival lifestyle that keeps our stress hormones overly active and shuts down the rest of our body from working properly. The reclamation of the divine feminine arrives in the slow. Walking slower. Talking slower. Sitting with your desires i.e. thinking and acting slower. Slow crockpot cooking and slow chewing of your food into a liquid. Slow kissing and slow lovemaking with variations of speed and intensity as desired. Slow dancing. You begin to sever yourself out of trauma when you start to do one, two, or three things slower. Step by step. Witness how old trauma bonds begins to fall away one by one, bit by bit. To do life fast is to collude with Western trauma. And it is these stories and the accompanying shallow breathing patterns that we must begin to rewrite our way out of because our bodies were never meant to suffer. To get out of trauma is to facilitate the wisdom of slowing down in your everyday life. It is to refuse to do life at other people’s pace, those who have very little relationship with their own bodies and were also traumatized out of deep breathing, deep feeling, and and deep resting. It requires you to stop putting the patriarchy’s needs above your own and living in a whole ‘nother level of maturity. Otherwise you may find yourself living in patterns where you constantly desire to scroll social media, shop or consume a thing, fuck anyone who shows you a little attention, or mindlessly drink or smoke because the essential aspects of the divine feminine are missing from your life.”

“Become a sensitive woman again, a woman who can feel deeply, a woman who is vehemently passionate and passionately desirous like how the Grandmothers, these Ancient Goddesses, would have wanted for you, a woman with 10,000 moons inside, un-numbed and unhurried by modern life.”