Musicalgrl

Going from this

To all this images that haunt him during his procession

The stall. A dirty place but also bathed in warm light. The shame and resignation in his posture

And finally. The closed door. But us, like all the images that haunt him, know exactly what is happening

LOVE PATTRANITE and her M.E.N. 😌

Obviously, I can't speak on behalf of Thai people, but I'm also multilingual with an accent when I speak English that I don't notice! The thing is: learning a language is one thing, speaking it is another. Reading can widen your vocabulary and improve your sentence structures, but speaking requires exposure. Developing an accent heavily based on what you hear is inevitable! And if you share a common accent with everyone around you, it becomes the standard, the natural.

So, I hope before calling JamieMarvis cringe and awkward for speaking in a foreign language, think about the context and experience North and Otto share.

So, I've been in the TeeTeePor/PorTeeTeePor fandom for a little over a year now. I've been their since a bit after their DMD friendship era, like, early 2025(?).

I feel like I didn't say it enough or at all back then, for that matter, which is why I wanted to address it.

Both Por and TeeTee went through massive backlash solely for their shipname last year. It was so bad, that it had both the actors at a very tough spot, with both of them constantly worrying about their own hard work and lowkey feeling insecure about their fans' love and support.

They posted about it, talked about how it was emotionally and mentally affecting them. TeeTee had even admitted on crying about it to Por and the first time I read that post, it broke my heart.

Initially, they had decided to keep a free dynamic for their projects. With many shipname ideas like PorTeeTee, PorTeeTeePor, TeeTeePor etc. It gave them more freedom to choose the kind of script they wanted to work on, freedom on what kind of roles they wanted to explore.

But this received significant backlash because certain "fans" couldn't perceive the idea that heteronormative standards don't necessarily apply on queer relationships. I had someone once tell me that it's not a big deal, just a ship name, and people prefer it to be a certain way, why are you getting so worked up about it?

Because the people in question were getting downright harrased on the internet for it! Everywhere, it was just negativity, people throwing around random words of disagreement on something as small and insignificant as a shipname.

The amount of homophobia I came across at that time baffled me because hello! It was 2025, and I was still coming across such gross, outdated standards. I am not gonna be political about this, but I have every right to say that people were wronged!

I don't care if someone finds my words too harsh, but it was bullying, it was harassment and it was inhumanity we are talking about here.

TeeTee and Por had the chance to finally break those outdated bl standards, be the first Thai bl ship out there to have a switch sort of dynamic, or a label-less dynamic. And if not first, then atleast one of the many few.

And given that both TeeTee and Por are so young (Tee's literally, barely 2 years older than me), not to mention it was supposed to be their first big acting project.

Because I didn't know people cared so much about two downright strangers' bed preferences! You wouldn't go to a straight couple and ask them how do they like their bed-dynamics, now would you? Because it sounds freaking ridiculous to me!

Queer ships and shows aren't for entertainment. They are mostly out there to raise awareness, make actual queer people feel better about themselves and make them understand that they, too, matter.

It's not meant for people to fetishise and downgrade and just go on about with their lives without even acknowledging the damage they've left behind.

Tee and Por were eventually pressured into getting a fixed dynamic in December last year. And I don't think it was because of the company, but after much discussion of all the parties involved to finally put an end to all the drama once in for all.

And there and then we lost another ship to the same, useless heteronormative standards.

I am not making this post with the intention of urging them to change their dynamic again. I am not. I don't want them to pressure themselves because of something like this again. Although I would definitely NOT hate the idea if they ever decided to change it to a non-fixed dynamic again, either.

It's completely their choice. Their comfort is what matters the most. Because Por and TeeTee didn't ask us to stand for them, speak for them— we chose to.

And I think that people who include themselves in fandoms like these have at least that certain level of maturity.

Although, if we actually did have that in the fandom, such useless online-bullying ordeal wouldn't have happened in the first place.

Arthit trying to invent a fake friend and just getting read by North for emotional filth.

Keep in mind, this is the person we're talking about here. He has a little smirk etched on his face that can almost go unnoticed, but it's still there for everyone to see and that's a fact.

This(the 2nd pic) was episode 4, when Duang was fussed up about Qin letting Jamie off the hook for so many things that took Duang MONTHS to achieve when it came to Qin. In this moment, Qin had just given a piece of meat to Duang, but now he also gave some to Jamie, so Duang is being sulky (not to mention he is still irked up by the teddy incident at the start of the episode which he talks about in detail later in his convo with Jamie). Qin is entertained at this whole ordeal, not in the mean way as if he likes seeing Duang suffer or something, but he's just having a little fun with Duang's reactions and lowkey testing him, if anything.

This tells us that Qin isn't some saint just because he's quiet and introverted. He has his moments of mischief too and even when they are completely harmless, they're still... mischievous.

People also keep forgetting that it's been a good while since Duang's been trying to win him over. Probably almost an year, since someone (probably p'X?) mentioned in the show that it's about time that they become the ones welcoming freshmen at this point, when at the start of the story, Duang and Qin were freshmen themselves (I could be wrong about the exact timeline, but I am quite sure it's been at least a few months).

Qin isn't a stranger to Duang and his habits anymore, and it's not like Duang tries to hide anything from him anyway. Neither is Duang unknown to Qin's likes and dislikes.

They both know how to read e/o and then they act in a way that makes the other feel comfortable in the moment.

But mostly, Qin isn't someone who isn't clear of his own boundaries. Just because he is introverted, doesn't mean he is opposed to things that seem a little over the top. The biggest proof is that he fell for Duang of all people.

He is quiet, doesn't speak much, but he isn't a kid either who doesn't know what is happening around him. He isn't incapable of feeling emotions like pain or desire. He isn't outwardly flirtatious, but he has his moments too. Moments that even catch Duang off guard.

And in the post I reblogged, they talked about how women are always opposed when they have any even remotely sexual thoughts or like to talk about things that fall on that spectrum. Women have been put down for centuries whenever they try to word out their likes, dislikes, their desires. And people expecting Qin to be completely innocent and clingy, or expecting Duang to be hyper and jumping around all the time are doing that exact same thing they do to women. Why aren't Duang and Qin allowed to be intimate? Be serious? That's my biggest question, actually.

Also, I heard some people talk about the basketball scenes being too lengthy, adding almost nothing to the plot, and I know people can have different perceptions of what they feel about the piece of media they consume, so I just wanted to put my piece of thought out there.

I personally liked the Basketball scene a lot. It showcased that Qin is actually quite athletic, and interested in things like sports and sports-related media. He is an active person, who engages in many activities outside his passion for music, and focuses on his physical well-being (it matters to me because I am an introvert myself, and I play basketball as a form of activity too). This gave us an insight on the kind of person Qin is outside of everything else (like how Duang likes to cook or can sing pretty well). The game was actually kinda interesting to me too because I knew (like literally everybody else did too) what was gonna happen, but I was just excited about how they were going to portray that and bring it to a point of Qin getting injured. It wasn't half as bad because I've seen worse portrayals ngl.

After that, the scene where Duang is patching Qin up, and is highkey mad also holds quite a bit significance to me. It is the moment Qin realised just how deep Duang's care for him went. And WE realised that Qin was actually going to do something about his own feelings now. Duang was crying, but there were unshed tears in Qin's eyes too right before they hugged. Qin was worried that Duang was mad at him (this is where Qin's fear of abandonment kind of showed up), so he hugged him to emphasize his apology, but also because he knew Duang needed that sort of comfort from him otherwise he wouldn't understand how serious Qin was. He did that and it was the moment we realised Qin had accepted him (because he hugged him back despite his initial doubt).

All in all, I just want people to understand that it isn't wrong, and nowhere near strange for people like Qin or Duang (or even Teerak like mentioned in the post I reblogged), to have thoughts of desire and sensual love.