Multiple Choice Past

Guess who’s starting college in January?

So that’s a thing and I am both super excited and super scared about it so it will be an adjustment period. 

I have also began work on a couple of my blogs that I will be keeping single muse and deciding which muses to bring to my multi. There is one main blog I am super excited about that I am focusing all my work on at the moment and I will give you all a little teaser...

//I’m going to be open and honest here. This is not meant to attack anyone nor to hurt anyone’s feelings, but simply to make a statement, explain, and to reach out to those who may be feeling much the same that I have.

My own personal issues aside, I have not been present on this multimuse blog for some time. I started it with all the best intentions and dreams of being able to be organized, professional and HAVE FUN with writing these characters that I love. It went on to become a place that I didn’t enjoy coming on to, especially with my own troubles in real life. (Remember kids, BE NICE to people because you have NO IDEA what the person behind a tumblr or on the other end of a screen may be going through or dealing with at any given time. The same could be true even in real life, but our focus is on tumblr here.)

I started this blog as a means of keeping all of these characters that I truly love and absolutely adore writing for in one easy to access place. That way, I didn’t have to blog hop every 5 seconds and my partners didn’t have to be followed by 35 or more different blogs that were all just me. I could keep everything organized, breathe a sigh of relief, do what I love doing and just HAVE FUN. However, it didn’t end up that way for me and I know it’s something a lot of multimuse blogs face. You lose followers when you convert SIMPLY BECAUSE you’re a multi and not a single muse. You don’t get treated the same as single muse blogs either. You’re not considered a part of ANY of the fandoms from which you write JUST BECAUSE you’re a multi and not a single muse. Aside from OCs, multimuse blogs seem to have to work the hardest to be taken seriously, to get any follows, and to even be considered a VALID writer of ANY of the muses they play. 

Speaking as someone that once held a very popular blog for a very popular character and had around a thousand followers (follower count is by NO MEANS a show of your quality by the way, remember that) I started this multi and watched all of these old RP partners and followers drop me like I was nothing. I shrugged that off and went on with this blog anyways. Over the time span of over 2 years, this blog has been the HARDEST for me to keep RP partners or gain any followers. 

I am not leaving this blog due to a low follower count or lack of popularity. I tried many times to shrug it off and let the pressures and culture of the current Tumblr RP community effect me to the point that I began to feel more depression and worthlessness here than I ever had. I let it get to me when I shouldn’t have. Because, darlings, you should NEVER EVER let these things dictate what YOU want to do and what makes YOU comfortable. 

Because, in the end? You ARE valid. You ARE valued. You ARE a part of the fandoms that you write characters from. You are NO DIFFERENT from any of the single muse blogs for the same characters that you write out there. You, my friends, just have a lot of love to give for a lot of characters and you want to share that with others and you know what? That is TOTALLY okay. Isn’t that what RP is in the first place? We’re all here to write characters we love and tell more and bigger stories for them with other people who enjoy writing.

Realizing all of this, I decided that I wasn’t going to drop my multimuse blog completely. I had planned to just do what it seemed the Tumblr RP community preferred and create single muse blogs for all of these characters again. At first? It was fun, but when you get above 5 or so and start heading towards over 30? It’s not so fun. You start to get disorganized. Stressed. So I backed away.

So, here I am. Starting to recreate and rebuild my multi somewhere else so that I can pick back up from the beginning. I will no longer let the pressures, stresses and worries that I am not good enough consume me and put a damper on what I love to do. I have so very little free time and I would much rather spend it doing something that makes me HAPPY. Writing has always done that for me and being able to write characters that I love and have connections to just makes it that much better. Why limit myself because it seems others don’t like what I do? Why change what I am doing to please people that probably don’t matter in the end? You will still make friends. You will still have writing partners. Numbers are insignificant at the end of the day.

My only wish is that the stigma towards multimuse blogs will someday soon end in the Tumblr RP community. That myself and other multimuse blogs will become a part of their fandoms again and be recognized and valued just like all of the other single muse blogs. That we will not be looked at with some sort of disdain and avoided before we are even given a chance. That we can all come on here and be happy and have FUN doing what we love doing and share our nerdy and ridiculous love for this character or that with other like-minded people. 

Be kind to others. Treat others as you would wish to be treated. And most importantly, don’t give up on what makes you happy. 

Go for it. Create that multimuse. Write the characters you want. Tell the stories you want. Have FUN. Only YOU are in control of that. 

<3

I know I kept trying to reboot and do what I could with this blog. And then I started my group and thought that I could really make something of it and it was going to be big. It wasn’t and I failed spectacularly on that front (which wounded my self-esteem and confidence even more), but not on the me front.

I’ve been lying to myself for years and struggling with depression and anxiety and a whole shit ton of issues. Last year I found out I have carpal tunnel in both wrists and both of my eyes have vitreal detachment. 

This year I’ve lost two very dear pets in just a matter of months from each other. It seems bad news is just piling up on me and I finally reached rock bottom. I couldn’t take it anymore and I recognized I needed help. So, in short? That’s where I have been. It is a very long process, but I’m on that path to a better and healthier me and getting the help I need along the way. What does that mean for the blog? Honestly? I’m still going to be moving on from here and taking some of my characters to their own blogs. It will be a work in progress for a while, but I will still be here on tumblr writing. I’ve been here since 2012 and no matter how long of a hiatus I might take here or there, I have stuck around through it all. Tumblr is like Ennis Del Mar and I’m like Jack Twist... I wish I knew how to quit it. I just don’t. So, that’s the truth. Even if I wanted to be here, I just couldn’t. I was barely even functioning just day to day in my life. But... Writing is my passion. I adore RPing and I truly do love so many of my muses and my RP partners. I just need a clean slate and doing single muse blogs is what I want to go back to. I will never look down on a fellow multi because you are all so valid and amazing, but the experience here on my multi wasn’t a good one. I need to start over and go from there.

I am sorry to anyone that I let down or disappointed on this blog. I had every and all intentions of doing great and many things, but I fell into a very big hole that I couldn’t bring myself out of. I only hope that you can understand this sentiment and that some of you will follow me going forward and we can continue to write. 

I will keep posting my blogs before I archive this one.

I currently have/can be found on the following blogs:

Bruce Wayne/Batman (Burtonverse)

Vicki Vale (Burtonverse)

Alexander Knox (Burtonverse)

Bob the Goon (Burtonverse)

Selina Kyle/Catwoman (Burtonverse)

Harry Osborn (Raimi-verse)

I am currently working on making the following:

George McFly

Adrian Veidt/Ozymandias

Eddie Blake/The Comedian

The Joker (Ledger)

Bane (Nolanverse)

The Phantom of the Opera 

Dr. Ian Malcolm

Thomas A. Wayne (OC)

Luke Luke (OC)

Gomez Addams

Lily Munster

Reaver (Fable)

Daryl Dixon

Eric Draven/The Crow

Duckie Dale (Pretty in Pink)

Greg Jenko (21 and 22 Jump Street)

Jasper Whitlock Hale

Edward Cullen

Bella Swan Cullen

//Me coming on to make single muse blogs for a bunch of my characters and preparing to archive this blog after suffering the last 2.5 weeks with kidney stones. 

I will be working on making the following blogs in the very near future:

The Joker (Nolanverse/Ledger)

Adrian Veidt/Ozymandias

Eddie Blake/The Comedian

The Phantom of the Opera

Reaver

Ian Malcolm

Lily Munster

Daryl Dixon

Greg Jenko

George McFly

& more

The following muses have already been moved to their own single blogs and are linked:

Bruce Wayne/Batman

Vicki Vale

Allie Knox

Bob the Goon

Selina Kyle/Catwoman

I also created a new muse on a single blog:

Harry Osborn (Sam Raimi Spiderman Trilogy)

Feel free to follow or to message me or comment if you want any of the other blogs’ links when I finish them. If you’d like to see me move a muse that I don’t have listed here, just let me know! 

I won’t be archiving this blog until I have moved everyone I want to continue with. Anyone who doesn’t get their own single muse blog will either become a retired muse, or one I reserve for discord RP only. So, definitely feel free to message me for my discord if you still wish to RP any and all of these muses with me. 

//To make this year a little more difficult, my body decided to gift me with yet another lovely kidney stone that has still yet to pass. It hit on Tuesday and I’m still in misery and having to go to work with it as well. I’m tired and physically exhausted. I’ve had this image done and that image done and been to my urologist. Been doubled over in pain and all the fun awesome things that come with this little bastard of hurt.

That said, I’ve come to some decisions as far as the future of this blog... I know that I may be super tired and loopy from pain and pills that make me not feel like I want to die, but I’ve been thinking about this for some time now and feel this is a decision I needed to make.

As you may know, I branched out and moved my Bruce Wayne/Batman, Allie Knox, Selina Kyle/Catwoman, Bob the Goon, and Vicki Vale to their own blogs and brought them to my RP group. I’ve realized in this time that I honestly missed having single muse blogs. I missed being taken seriously as that character and in that fandom. I miss the aesthetic of a single muse blog and the energy of it. I miss picking who I am feeling most and being there. 

I think, perhaps, my time here on this multi may be coming to an end. I’m not 100% positive on that, but I do know that what I’m planning on doing is looking at the following favored/primary muses of mine and taking them back on their own. Those muses will be behind the cut.