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then, he spent an entire season running around trying to keep the people he loves from splitting up and ending up in danger because of said trauma he never faced. the man has severe post losing clarke in praimfaya ptsd (see: how strongly he reacted to murphy bringing clarke into a conversation, how wrecked he sounded telling raven that he left clarke behind and can’t do that again, how raven had to lie to him so that he would leave raven behind, how quickly he dropped everything to save clarke, how he leveraged 283 lives for her, how worried he was when monty wasn’t responding to his radio call (5x05), how he struggled between choosing his sister or his friends/girlfriend, how in the end he chose clarke over his sister and risked her life for clarke by poisoning her, how he wanted madi to ascend to save clarke, how he refused to leave his friends behind in shallow valley like he left clarke in praimfaya, etc.) 

and then on top of his ptsd from leaving clarke, he was forced to cut his sister out of his life because she was a detriment to his physical (and especially mental) well-being. he tried for so long to protect her from the world, and he was faced with the fact that he can’t save her. the years he spent protecting her he now sees as a failure. then monty and harper died. he just kept on losing and losing and losing. he tried so hard to save people, and all he did was lose. 

it wasn’t until he and clarke reconciled and were given a second chance at a peaceful happy life on alpha that he started to have some hope again. but then he and the others land on sanctum and shaw dies, he’s forced by the eclipse to nearly drown one of his best friends (murphy) and then nearly choke the woman he loves (clarke) to death, his sister somehow gets even worse and he’s forced to officially cut her out and leave her (possibly to die) outside of the shield, his girlfriend isn’t what he needs because she doesn’t understand or respect his decision to cut his toxic sister out of his life and she’s not open with him at all, she finally is open with him and he learns that their relationship was built on a lie because she lied about her past instead of just telling him she wasn’t ready to talk about it, and sanctum turns out to be full of people worse than the mountain men who steal peoples’ bodies and use them for their own immortality. 

Bellamy: *still crying*

Clarke: My sad Bellamy senses are tingling!!

One night he wakes, strange look on his face

Pauses, then says, you’re my best friend

here are some links.

Shahd Khidir uses her platform to spread awareness 

Nahid Jabrallah tells DW about the sexual violence 

Authorities Are lying about the death toll

Government is killing people during an internet shut down

Central Committee of Sudan Doctors confirms that it’s still going (i linked their whole facebook for updates. these doctors are sided with the protestors) 

2014:

2015:

TODAY

So this kind of just occurred to me.

In 512

Clarke tells Madi that she loved Lxa so much… but that it was nothing compared to how much she loves Madi. Then she sent Madi to war to save Bellamy.

In 604

When Clarke wanted to make amends to Bellamy for leaving him in Polis, he told her he understood because “Madi is your family.”

She immediately told him “You are my family, too.”

Now doesn’t that sound like she was putting Madi and Bellamy on the same level of importance and caring?

Best Consensual Smut Over 15,000 Words

Moderation by bettsfic

Step 9: Make amends with those we have harmed.

Clarke was the love of Bellamy’s life, but he fucked it up, and now, a decade later and three years sober, she’s at the top of his list. How can he even begin to make amends for the things he did?

Now I’m Addicted by @arysafics

Clarke loves her boyfriend, honestly. She just can’t seem to stop cheating on him with Bellamy Blake.

Lessons To Be Learned by @arysafics

At the private girls boarding school he works at, Clarke Griffin is the only student Bellamy can’t seem to get to behave. Bellamy is against corporal punishment, but desperate times call for desperate measures.

Seal Your Doom Tonight by belgardebells

It’s freezing outside on the day Clarke and Bellamy head home for a Halloween visit in his ancient, beat-up truck with its crappy radio reception and faulty heater. To make matters worse, it starts blizzarding when they’re halfway there, so they have to pull over on the middle of the highway and wait for it to clear up.

However, when Clarke’s temperature drops and they’re forced to do what they can to retain body heat, things get very complicated very fast.

“It’s not gonna be weird, right? Won’t change anything?”

“No. It won’t change anything.”

I Know I Don’t Deserve It, But Stay With Me A Minute by belgargebells

Octavia Blake isn’t allowed to date until her big brother Bellamy does, so she calls in a favour from her best friend Clarke Griffin.

All Clarke has to do is seduce Bellamy, fake date him, and then break things off when Octavia starts going out with her waiter conquest. It’s supposed to be quick, easy, and painless.

And it is.

Until Clarke starts falling for real.

Lose You Too by @eyessharpweaponshot

Clarke and Bellamy, FBI agents - both too emotional to be level-headed in the dangerous situations they face together.

Slow burn, mutual pining, angst, sex and these two idiots caring about one another. All the greatest hits.

Running From Myself by @asroarke

“People don’t just up and decide to leave home, Clarke. I know that a lot has happened this year,” he explained, hating the way her lips twitched at those words. Her father’s death wasn’t that long ago, and he knew it hadn’t been easy for her to live alone in that house with her mother. It seemed like Finn cheating on her was the final straw and she just needed to get out. “You’re too smart and pragmatic to just take off without warning unless you’re trying to get away from something.”

“Well, maybe I stole the idea from you,” she said, stealing a momentary cold glance at him before fixing her eyes back on the road. “Although, I did it better because I actually bothered to say goodbye to my friends.”

The Road Trip AU no one asked for where Bellamy and Clarke are both running from their old lives and just so happen to be running in the same direction.

Training wheels by @bettsfic

Clarke is pretty sure the new guy, Finn, is going to ask her out. The problem is, she’s never had sex or even been kissed, and she wants to be prepared for it.

So she does what any good student would do: seek out the help of an expert, her best friend’s older brother — who is about to become her history teacher.

double infinity by @asroarke

They were running out of time. Eighteen years had already passed. All the pieces they needed to get the job done were finally in place. And, when Wells didn’t fit, they found Clarke. He was too close to let it all fall apart now.

And he would do everything he could to make sure she walked out of this unscathed.

Modern AU inspired by Revenge, where Bellamy and Octavia are willing to do whatever it takes to find justice for their mother’s murder, even if it means using Clarke Griffin.

Challenge Accepted by @insideimfeelinpurrdy

He doesn’t even like Clarke Griffin, he’s pretty sure he hates how easy everything has come to her. So imagine his surprise when he finds himself at their office party looking through dick pics on her phone.

“You can do better, Princess. In fact, I can do better.”

As soon as she turns to him with raised eyebrows and an open mouthed grin he knows he’s said too much but she’s not going to let it drop.

“Oh really, you think you can do better, Blake?”

And he’s never backed down from a challenge in his life.

Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder by AdAstra

At first she can’t blame him. He’d had a few years of peace, and then a few years of imprisonment. Being thrown from either into a war zone once again is enough to make any of them tense. But it would be nice if he would acknowledge that this is the first time he’s seen her in six years. Even if he didn’t miss her like she missed him, he could pretend to be glad she survived.

aka, Bellamy is cold and distant toward Clarke, until suddenly he’s not.

The Biggest Moment by malliday

Clarke never dreamed that she would lose Bellamy - Until she did.

He had been there from the moment she and Octavia first bonded on the playground, telling her stories and making her feel special even when her most awkward years of life threatened to overwhelm her. She knew he was hers and she was his and never, ever doubted it. Even if he didn’t quite know it just yet. But one night and one moment pushed them apart.

Three years later, fate decided to push them together once more. A senior in college and looking to escape what her life had become, she found herself staring at his face at the front of her classroom. His ridiculously handsome face. Suddenly, they found themselves propelled toward yet another moment.

Only this time, it was the biggest moment of them all. Stupid fucking fate.

A Greater Pursuit by malliday

Clarke was perfectly happy with her life, thank you very much. She had a great job, a great boyfriend, and a great health insurance plan. Sure, she had the occasional run-in with undesirables, but all in all, she was happy. Everything was great.

And then she opened that stupid, cryptic email. And she unwittingly agreed to attach herself to one Bellamy Blake, aforementioned undesirable and Indiana Jones wannabe.

josephine.

josephine is the antithesis of clarke. everything clarke does, josephine does the opposite.

clarke makes decisions for her people, always (whether those people are the delinquents or madi). josephine makes decisions for herself.

clarke holds her hard choices on her conscience for years; she’s capable of regretting her actions and understanding that sometimes she does make the wrong choice. josephine never believes she did something wrong and stands by her beliefs, no matter how many people tell her they’re morally egregious. 

clarke is maternal, by nature. josephine has no regard for children. (some people say anyone could’ve raised madi in clarke’s position, but I think josephine disproves that. if josephine had been in eden somehow with madi, she would not end up a mother.)

clarke treats everything seriously. josephine looks at life like it’s a game she’s playing.

clarke agonized over leaving her best friend, bellamy, in the pits. josephine snapped her “best friend’s” neck in two seconds without thought, and doesn’t seem to regret it a bit.

the set up of nitpicking all of clarke’s actions by spacekru in the early season was a tactic to emphasize all those actions and show that clarke isn’t a bad person. raven’s speech about clarke not owning up to her mistakes and always apologizing? that actually emphasizes clarke’s ability to regret and her empathy even after making a tough choice, and now that we have josephine to compare it to, it stands out even more. yelling about leaving bellamy in the pits? well now we see josephine snapped her best friend’s neck in an instant, whereas clarke worked tirelessly to make amends and reassure bellamy of her feelings toward him.