• Gender neutral terms preferred, masc and fem terms are still cool tho
• I have a writing blog @idk-what-im-doing-3 (more info on me there if you are that curious)
• anons: 🎀, ❔,
• asks are very much open for whatever your heart desires (pls send memes)
• Very much happy to make new moots
• if you’re here for stray kids, ult is Han, Chan and Seungmin are my other two biases and the other 5 are my bias wreckers and I’ve sold my soul to 3RACHA (I’m OT8 with extra steps if I’m being fr)
• Mutuals/followers/people I follow can interact however they desire, however, may I please ask if you are a minor please do not DM
• Mental health on a decline don’t mind me
• infp-t (although I don’t really think personality types are 100% accurate, still feels this describes me somewhat well and gives you an idea of what you’re getting into)
• I collect fandoms and interests like Pokémon so expect a wide range of shit from me but I mostly will be yapping about music (stray kids, sleep token, top, mcr, etc.) and vampire media (iwtv, bg3, etc.) and whatever else
• I will probably also be having be having conversations with my friends here, even if we are sitting right next to each other, so brace yourself for that
• I have over 800 reaction images and am not afraid to use them
DNI:
• any form of bigotry (racism, homophobia, transphobia, sexism, etc.), I’d like to keep this a safe space please
• you’re uncomfortable with swearing, discussion of politics, mental health, or any other potential taboo topics (there likely will be sex jokes, I’m very immature), but that’s purely for your own comfort, I’m more then happy for you to be here, I just don’t want you to feel uncomfortable but if you think you’ll be okay you’re more then welcome here <3
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How I feel after just waking up from a 2 hour nap and having a hottie in my DMs spam me with the hello kitty image and I spam back cause we match each others freaks like that
im such an oversharer tumblr needs a close friends option like insta or even just a followers only option for certain posts so i can spam my random thoughts freely and share pictures/selfies without being scared of getting doxxed 😭😭
How I feel after just waking up from a 2 hour nap and having a hottie in my DMs spam me with the hello kitty image and I spam back cause we match each others freaks like that
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, I KNOW YOU WORKED HARD FOR IT AND I LOVE SEEING THE RESULTS!🥹🖤
ohmy thank youuuu and no! you didn't miss anything (i do always say that anybody can send their wishes (if they want of course) during the entire month of August but of course after my bday not before -idk if this makes sense😭-), so don't worry about it!! i did have a good day with my fam, i did had the small issue of having no power for three days😭💀
Oh that’s so annoying I’m so sorry but glad everyone’s alright
AHHH OKAY SO BECAUSE OF MY CRAPPY MENTAL HEALTH THE UNI GAVE ME PRIORITY BOOKING FOR ACCOMMODATION SO I WAS ABLE TO DO THAT THIS MORNING SO I’VE GOT A PLACE TO STAY TOO ALONG WITH CATERING FROM THE UNI NOW ITS JUST PACKING STUFF AND BUYING ANYTHING I MAY NEED (CLOTHES, AIR FRYER, TEXTBOOKS, ETC) AND THEN GETTING UPDATED ON MY VACCINES AND THEN WE’RE OFF
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How I feel after just waking up from a 2 hour nap and having a hottie in my DMs spam me with the hello kitty image and I spam back cause we match each others freaks like that
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, I KNOW YOU WORKED HARD FOR IT AND I LOVE SEEING THE RESULTS!🥹🖤
ohmy thank youuuu and no! you didn't miss anything (i do always say that anybody can send their wishes (if they want of course) during the entire month of August but of course after my bday not before -idk if this makes sense😭-), so don't worry about it!! i did have a good day with my fam, i did had the small issue of having no power for three days😭💀
OH MY GOD THANK YOU BOTH SO MUCH I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHH
@chanslaptopbattery @chrispypineappleburger THANK YOU SM FOR BEING SUCH SWEET AMAZING FRIENDS FOR ME AND BEING SO KIND AND SUPPORTIVE I APPRECIATE YOU GUYS SO MUCH AND AM SO THANKFUL TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE
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mental illness really will have you thinking shit like "if 1 william dollars appeared in my bank account right now i wouldn't even care. in fact i'd be kind of upset because now i have to figure out what to do with all that money, and if it isn't good enough then everyone will hate me." with complete and utter sincerity
I haven't been online as much recently beyond responding to DMs and there is a reason for that. Idek if all my moots will see this or even care but I just want to put this out there for them to see.
So there's 4 main things going on with me right now and it's just all too much for me to handle to the point I just have the energy for absolutely nothing.
Main thing is I just started anti-depressants and the main thing your told is that for the first week, you're going to feel worse before you feel better, so naturally, I feel depressed and drowsy as hell all the time
Another thing is that I have a driving test coming up and I just do not do driving well like I can do it but I just get so scared like every time I drive and I'm just convinced I'm going to fail and if I fail I can't take it again until after university in 3-4 years or I'll have to do a crash course during a summer and that means all my parents money that they spent on driving lessons will be for nothing so there's that.
Third thing is my a level results are coming out next week which decides my entire future and holy fuck am I terrified. I have been dreading this day for 2 years, even before I knew what I wanted to do at uni or where I wanted to go. I now know where I want to go and do but I worry I've made a mistake somewhere and that I'm going down the wrong path in life. But I might not even get in where I want. I might settle for backup or try another place or get a job but everything just feels way too scary and overwhelming for me right now.
Arguably the biggest thing though is my grandpa's Alzheimer's has rapidly progressed. He has reached a point of paranoia where he refuses food and drink and is now acting violent towards people and he is currently in hospital cause the care home he was staying at can't look after him anymore. This is the man that used to pick me up after school because my parents were working, do my math's homework with me, play with my toys, go on the swings with me, play with my teddies as I filmed him for whatever shitty film 8 year old me was making, basically being a better father figure then my own father. Now he is yelling and pushing hospital staff trying to help him. My mum doesn't want me to see him like this but that scares me even more because she also didn't want me to see my cousin when she was suffering from cancer so I wasn't able to say goodbye so I just in my head connected the two and have gone in this place of grief for a man that isn't even dead yet but is exhausting my family and it's just really really hard to deal with.
So all of this combined together, as you can guess, has made my anxiety and depression a million times worse to the point that everything just feels so so heavy and for a while whenever I opened tumblr I'd just get that horrible anxiety attack sort of feeling in my chest and yeah. I would make the occasional random ass post and honestly for me that just felt like exposure therapy.
I miss talking to everyone so much and I miss just being some active weirdo online in my little weirdo bubble but shit just got too heavy and I needed to pretend I didn't exist.
Once the meds start properly kicking in and I get my results I'll hopefully be able to crawl out of this pit and remember that life is fun again but right now, when even breathing feels too much, I just have to be patient and take my time.
If any off y'all read this thank you and love you <3
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one of the worst things about writing is when you're up at three am and trying to write and you feel like you can't stop but you also know everything your writing sucks becasue its three am
