“SH”

I linger where the night winds sing.

You pass through lanterns’ golden flow,

Unknowing of the one who walks with winter.

Your laughter warms the evening air,

Yet here I stand—unseen, unseen.

Like shadows stitched on gravel there,

A heart long worn, yet still unseen.

No longer do I draw human breath,

Nor know love’s bloom nor death’s cruel sting.

Yet when the dusk descends in red,

Even the cursed still softly swing.

You speak of sunlight, summer skies,

But in your gaze, so cold, so deep,

I drown—unseen, unknown, unwise.

You do not know what stirs inside,

What thirst I crave, what wants to rise.

I dare not claim you as my own,

Nor cross the frail line of your grace.

So I remain where shadows groan,

A silent heart’s valentine in place.

— from me to her.

At first I didn't get why that was the answer,, I thought “hurting” meant drinking their blood, but it makes sense now. It's wanting them to be with you as long as you exist, which is forever. But as you can all clearly see in Bad Desire, what was meant to happen, happened. Solon (me) lost my women, which led to this chaos in the end.

Anyways,, for the story!

this cathedral is such an incredible place,, it’s been there for centuries, and it’s got layers of history baked right into its walls, as I showed in the previous post :>

So, back in the 1500s, the Spanish showed up in Mexico and decided to build their biggest, most important church right where the Aztecs used to worship their gods. They literally built it on top of the Aztec’s main temple, the Templo Mayor. It's both disrespectful and pretentious, but we know what european colonizers did.. so let's say it's at their image. The sad part is that despite the controversy around this move from the Spanish, this cathedral became one of the most visited one by locals, they praise it and say it's part of the city's DNA.. ૮ ´◞ ˕ ◟`ა Mexico is so much more than just colonization history.. so it's really sad.

the construction started in 1573, and it took over 240 years to finish. They kept adding bits and pieces, changing styles, and making it fancier as time went on. It’s not just one thing; it’s a mix of Gothic, Baroque, Neoclassical, and Churrigueresque all smooshed together.

What makes it so intriguing for me is how some locals say the Aztecs “cursed” this place,, because it’s built on top of a super soft, muddy lakebed (Mexico City used to be a lake, where the Aztecs lived before the Spanish ruined everything.)

my fav part, foods ૮ ˵´^ ˕ ^`˵ ა

and finally the Metropolitan cathedral from the inside, it was so breathtaking.

(I'll make a post about the history after, I don't want to make this post too long heh..

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I love mexico city, it's so beautiful <3

because who am I without my inability to regulate my feelings when I'm excited? isn't that so pure,, not being able to control my own joy when she cross my mind..? isn't the “loss of control” part, the exact reason why it matters so much? what makes it real, what makes it so painfully human? So beautifully true?

why do i have to be a girl, I can tell you the answer right away.

probably Jay, he'd be rational!

oh yes.. I heard about it but I never saw it happen in front of me. It's awful, and I'm against that, but since I really am traditional, and probably not properly educated on everything,, if I end up doing something that could be seen as racist, I hope people call me out and educate me so I don't do the same thing as this group of individuals.