Blog. Enough said.

and like... no.

as a side note, why do i still make homestuck art??? im not nearly as into homestuck as i was as a teenager and i havent updated my mspfa comic in over a year. seems like one of those things i still continue to do out of a combination of sheer habit and enjoyment of the artstyle, rather than a desire to actually engage with the fandom. its a fun story and all, but recent HS community/creator drama combined with my Jaded Adult Cynicism(TM) have turned it a bit distasteful for me.

and thats not even mentioning my personal mental health junk. like i still draw panels and character sprites and whatnot, but i hardly ever post them anywhere bc having a consistent upload schedule to maintain is too much of an obligation, and that stresses me the hell out. as much as i enjoy writing stories and making art for people, having a group of folks who take genuine interest in what i create is oddly stressful. i dont want to disappoint any fans, so i overanalyze the shit out of everything i make and end up not finishing it, then stressing out more bc i realize that not making anything is just as disappointing to them as me potentially making crappy stuff. 

thats been an issue in other areas of my life as well, but its particularly applicable now about my art. i dont want to deliver low effort, poorly thought out work, but if i hold myself to such a high standard then i overstress and dont do ANYTHING. then when i analyze the situation ive put myself in, i get even MORE stressed out because i feel like im stuck between two possibilities that equally screw me over. so its like META-STRESS.

Some Thoughts On Psycholonials’ “Weird Gender Shit”

ever since chapter 3 came out people have been pretty divided on this (for good reason, might i add). some see the gender triangle scale and say “lmao true,” while others are saying that the male-nb-female-clown scale is evidence of hussie being a horrible evil transphobe who doesnt understand gender identity. so, being the fucking nerd with no life that i am, i decided to do some in-depth analysis and weigh in on the issue. 

first off, it needs to be mentioned that psycholonials is quite obviously a partially fictionalized autobiography of andrew hussie. lets lay that fact out in the open where we can all gawk at it open-mouthedly, before being swiftly pummeled with the ever vigilant hand of apathy. that being said, analyzing the meaning of ANYTHING in this story just got ~80% more difficult, since you never really know whether the things being said are coming from the characters, or from hussie himself. it keeps you guessing about the facts: is this a piece of worldbuilding and characterization, or the author’s real opinion? are we being entertained? are we being challenged? deceived? or are we perhaps getting it...

straight from the horses’ mouth? ;)

to answer: i have no fucking clue. the work of andrew hussie is a labyrinth of half veiled, possibly genuine post-post-post ironies. ive made my comments about his tenuous handling of gender-related issues in the past, and neither i nor anyone else gained much from it. and it certainly didnt shed any light on the inner workings of the problematic-language-using, shitty-take-having, questionable-business-practice-practicing, inept-yet-genius, ironically sincere, sincerely ironic author in question.

but what i can say is this: most of the posts ive seen responding to the Gender Triangle neglect the in-story context behind it, focusing solely on the out of touch nature of it. to give hussie the benefit of the doubt for a moment and say its solely an element of storytelling, i would say that the people getting mad about it are having the appropriate reaction. its SUPPOSED to be controversial. its SUPPOSED to piss people off. because it was this scale (again, WITHIN THE CONTEXT OF THE STORY) that got z canceled. its a classic case of life mirroring art: z writes some out-there take about gender in relation to their greater field of philosophy and gets canceled for it, hussie gets canceled (more like re-re-re-re-canceled) for writing it that way. 

whether or not you think this is a constructive use of offense is a matter of opinion. in fact, whether or not the offense hussie caused with this plot point was even DELIBERATE is a matter of opinion. but, seeing the psycholonials hate train building up steam and tearing into every vaguely off-color line of dialogue makes me think that maybe, just maybe, this was done to make a point. and, as ive said, whether or not that point is good or valid is up to you.

That means it’s time to:

have breast

stay hydrated

The Game.

i havent even read homestuck 2 but...

sometimes ill post a comment or art piece or whatever, and when a bunch of people like/upvote/etc. it i just get kinda peeved.

 like “ok god you can stop liking the post now. it wasnt even that good. in fact it sucks. you suck! STOP!!!”