Maggot Nursery

Ive been practicing since I was 17 (in 2008 btw) and I can guarantee with all the ended relationships id had (both were non-monogamous and monogamous) that the mistakes and endings are more alike than people think, but the access to information you get about yourself about the kinds of things you want, how it changes over time, and what you NEED in other people are so much more apparent when you form a bunch of different kinds of intimate relationships that intersect and start and end and fizzle out and turn evolve into other things......

Idk I dont regret ANY relationship ive had. Platonic, sexual, romantic or otherwise. I do regret not ENDING some sooner but thats only with hindsight.

I wouldnt know myself and what I want and how to compartmentalize emotions vs perspective vs intent if it werent for always loving and trying to understand so many people.

I just want to dump my feelings somewhere where i dont gotta worry about bothering people

tw: death of a friend and suicide

Him...........

ALSO LIFE BITCH:

its punk christmas up in mlps rn but im staying back bc i let my connections to pals up there expire due to life being insane, backing out of organizing, and too much drawing fanart

and if fokes know mlps its that people are fucking BUSY and unless you're busy WITH them they wont remember or make space for you. so all my messages to kick it have gone unanswered and its AALLL MY FAAULT 😩