Painwitnessed.

I’m happy.

Trust me this time it’s foreal! Which is so crazy when ur talking about that guy that’s been major depressive since 13… Oh boo who gives a crap, you’re here to hear how I did it , and to be as real deal with u . I cried … I prayed lol yeah I know but there’s a story behind that I’m not a fanatic.

But yeahhhh it took my Tia Lupe passing away same day as I leave to Juárez to celebrate the holidays . I know lame but I was ready this time

It didn’t come all at once this time… I was able to catch it this time and I said time three times wooosh

And I’m there and sat with my family and sang and prayed and I cried and cried and crode til my face was flushed.

Mi and my cousin talk about her sister and if she’s good in prison.

All is well breathe and close your eyes for like 5 seconds …. And I’m back I ended staying 6 days while my parents figured out how to transfer her urn across the border… yuck.

I suffered I lost and loss . You have to lose it’s good for your health to get 2nd place. I thought impossible but trust me , you can be happy too.

I almost got my wings

And when I do I’m never gonna stop flyin