In a motel room, with the Bible out Combing scriptures for answers about What's happening now 'Cause I can't believe my eyes And I just don't trust my ears But I've heard a man can always come find Some solace here And Lord, I know that we don't talk Often at all anymore But desperate folks do desperate things So I'm stapling this note to your door Please, turn the ship around And lock the course in place And keep the train tracks nailed to the ground Or pull the emergency break 'Cause I've lost my faith in man Just like I once lost faith in you And I've been covering all kinds of ground Thinking hard 'bout what else I could lose And I know how I look To come crawling back Acting like you owe me proof But this is bigger than me I think it's bigger than you too So if this gets to you Yeah if you ever come home Just know I won't be awaiting the postman I will not be glued to my phone I'll know a change has come I'll know that you exist When all our bombs stop exploding And when all of those landmines are stripped And we stop blowin' up strangers' houses And making orphans of innocent kids And people stop thinking the world's theirs for the taking 'Cause your world once told them it is 'Til then, I'm gonna shake my head I'm gonna bite my tongue When people tell me, 'Have faith and be patient, We're waiting for God to show up.' Yeah 'til then, it's one more skeptical song And I'll be glad as hell If you come and prove me wrong

Ich wünschte, ich jemand werden könnte Ich mag

This week my practice was to be more intentional and I did fairly well! A few things: - reached out to friends and asked how they were - followed up on more texts from people (rather than forgetting about them) -did more dishes that weren't mine/took out the trash more - submitted to others even when it was hard - called a friend to tell them how much they've meant to me - made plans to hangout with people this coming week

I've been feeling really lonely. Gained a lot of perspective about my fear of friendships and feeling accepted/rejected in relation to seeing myself more as an introvert lately. Still very lonely.