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They watch you and wonder how I could ever feel unwelcomed here

How I could wish I had another body to call mine

They ask how I could want to cut my existence here short

But can't they see?

We've lived too long. Seen too much.

Experienced too much, too soon

This isn't a safe house

This is a house that has been broken in by nearly everybody-

Blood family stole here too

Stole everything;

My love, my self esteem, my laughter, my voice, my self worth, my security blanket, my innocence.

Everything

This is a run down motel that is in need of refurbishing

We had no insurance. Nothing to fall back on but our destructive coping mechanisms.

I'm tired of being tired of being tired. WE ARE

I want to be more yet nothing.

It feels like being electrocuted.

Our senses are dialled to eleven, and nothing can stop the overwhelming noise that seems to be coming from everywhere.

We can't sit still, can't stop how fast our hearts are beating, can't stop how much we want to scream without drawing attention to ourselves.

It's a never-ending rant in our minds about nonsensical things, yet we still listen.

And don't try to make me feel bad"

Billie Eilish