J. B. Elder

not my therapist wanting me to get more socialized but my and interpersonal relationships are not on good terms, best I can do is new acquaintances at this point

genuinely so happy for the people who’ve overcome mental health struggles to live a good life but if y’all could just shut the fuck up sometimes.

really hate how life is just empty lol

I do love listening to people talk about how much better they’ve gotten mentally like yeah, you have a reason to, I don’t, shut the fuck up

cleaned my house and my body hurts (cracked my back weird cleaning a door) and tbh…why don’t I clean more often? the pain is like a little reward

baby mama had a dream i decided to to poison myself while visiting her and like, sure yeah that sounds like me, but id never do that while visiting her and the kids

feeling extra spiteful today not sure what I’m gonna do just yet but I think it’s time to ruin other people’s lives for a change

More tales of my son (who I did not birth), he also says “don’t worry about it, it’s fine” to pretty much everything his mom should worry about and I say “don’t worry about it, it’s fine” when it’s either super not fine and I’m about to end it all or when I’m up to mischief

i do find it funny that no matter what i do none of this will ever matter

a single fucking oleander bloomed in the garden, I have never planted oleander and it’s never bloomed here before so…time to get tf out I think

for no reason at all, really trying to figure out which character’s fate was always to be alone

Need nocturnal friends because why am I wide awake with nothing to do but can’t get back to sleeping

I don’t want to be more mindful, I know what’s in here and none of it is good or fun