in the moss

been thinking so much about surrendering to my feelings, and specifically, that sitting in discomfort does not mean jumping to the release phase. "release what doesn't serve you" isn't a simple phrase, and skips a few steps of the process. identify feeling, and emoting are both steps in release. when i identify an emotion i want to work through, my mind immediately jumps to how i'll feel when it's over. sitting with thoughts and banishing them look the same when the focus is on one goal. robbing yourself of a sacred human experience by rushing the progress, the slow back and forth. i find it so easy to rush through impatiently, skipping necessary steps to further my growth. these days are hard, my friends. they get easier eventually and until then, look for hands to hold. i'm going to sit and feel with no judgement.

i trudge forward

your inner voice doesn't need to be '"fixed". telling ourselves "i shouldn't speak to myself this way" is yet another critique of our inner voice. unearth that need, discover it's something else. i accept that sometimes i speak to myself negatively, and it does not define me. i do not need to banish any part of myself. i am kind to myself in other ways, and will release negative self talk as it does not serve me. it's okay if it happens again, and it probably will. i am neither good or bad, as my thoughts do not define me.