arab warrior

welp. I was tagged by nanakorobii and I think maybe buttsauce-vakarian??? for this 6 selfie thing. i did five so the last one would be focus.

my boyfriend told me today i look like an alien in all my selfies because of the editing, and it gave me the idea to do this.

instead of just posting 6 selfies i decided to show you how far i’ve got towards recovery. the first one was taken way back in the beginning of the year. the next one not long after that; the third was last month; the fourth was maybe two weeks ago? and the last one i took about an hour ago after i got home from work. you can see the drastic difference in editing, from heavy meitu to no real editing, but still scribbling over the parts i don’t like. i sorta went from not being able to cope with seeing myself without blurring nearly my whole face out in the most unconvincing way possible, to this. my whole face shape changes dakota rose style. 

the last one has not been edited. you can see my surgery scars, my real face shape, my weak eyebrow game and my mad hair, my eyeliner’s smudged and i’ve got no other makeup on because i just got home from work. i genuinely feel sick right now but i’m gonna do this cos i am not getting worse, i’m getting better. i just have bad days and that’s okay. most days i still feel like some inhuman creature and like people are staring at me and i’m deformed and fuck knows what else. but at least i recognise my enemy now; it’s not the media, it’s no one else, but it’s not me either. it’s the disorder.

Ethiopia