moon lover

minsoo nodded. “i’ll have to perform a bit more since i’m not showing, but once i show i’ll have to go on hiatus.”, she said with a soft sigh. “i think i might. i’d love for you to meet them, especially haewon. she’s my best friend. i know you’d love her.”, she said with a soft smile. “i know…i thought about that, because i know girls who’ve gone for that…but i can’t…no disrespect to them, i just…i want it. even if jaeshin doesn’t, i want to raise it. i’ve always wanted to be a mother, i just didn’t think so soon.”, she said, looking at her sister. “it makes me really happy to think he does. i’d really like to have a relationship with him. i don’t expect him to want to marry me, i wouldn’t marry just for the sake of a child, but i really like having a relationship.”, she said, smiling softly. “i’m going to cry, i feel so relieved to have told you.”, she said, laughing softly as she teared up. “i want to be as good a mother as you are.”

moonie wet her lips. "try and take it easy while performing though. i'm not trying to scare you or anything but the first trimester into the second is usually where stuff can.. go wrong." she frowned at the thought and then smiled. “oh really?” she asked with another smile and she took a drink of her tea before nodding. “no that’s understandable. i mean i couldn’t either.” she admitted. even when she’d been fifteen, and had gone through it. she couldn’t do it then either. “i think jaeshin’s gonna be happy.” she noted and then she smiled at her again tilted her head. “i know you wouldn’t. you don’t need to get married. i mean i think he would, but you’ll have a long time to do that, right?” she asked and she nodded. “you don’t need to cry. and you’re going to be such a good mother, minsoo.” 

minsoo nodded and sighed. “i guess so. i’m so thankful that people have loved me as an artist but i just feel so emotionally drained. these past few weeks have been so nice. its just to just feel normal.”, she said, running her fingers through her hair. “no one rushes me on the street, i get to be with my family, really i just miss my members so much. if i could put everyone together i’d be so happy.”, she said with a chuckle. “i do want to do it, i just need a break.”, she said with a shrug. the woman blushed when her sister was positive jaeshin loved her. “he’s a great man. which makes it even more confusing on why he’d want to be with me.”, she said, shaking her head. “I so hope so.”, she said, hugging her sister. minsoo let out a giggle. “yeah! a little baby.”

moonie smiled at her and she shifted taking a seat next to her after she'd hugged her. "maybe if you consider your options, you will have time off because of the baby won’t you?” she asked curiously and she smiled softly brushing some of minsoo’s hair from her face. “you can always have your members come visit you?” she asked and then wet her lips. “things might change though after you have the baby, if you’re not considering anything else. because i know that thought has to have crossed your mind.” she breathed and she grinned nodding her head. “he is. and don’t say that, he’s with you because he loves you. he really loves you, minsoo.” she promised. moonie hugged her back. “yes a little baby.” 

minsoo watched her sister make the tea. she really hoped that she was right. “i just feel like such a burden…i love my job and i love my girls and my fans…but as i get older theres so much i’ve begun to regret about this profession.”, she said, shrugging lightly. “it used to be fun and now its just stress.”, she said as she tucked her hair behind ears. it made her heart flutter when moonie said that jaeshin loved her. “do you really think so…?”, she asked, needing that extra bit of reassurance. she chuckled softly when her sister cupped her hands on her face. “i hope you’re right…he’s such a good man. this is just very nerve wracking.”, she said, running her fingers through her hair. “but this means that all of your little ones will have a cousin.”, she said with a small smile. 

moonie listened to her sister, nodding her head. she guessed this was different after all, minsoo was an idol after all. she was famous. “you’re not a burden at all, minsoo. people... always feel like that don’t they? they’ll regret decisions? and if it’s not fun anymore are you sure it’s something you still want to do?” she asked curiously and she set the tea down on the table. “i don’t think so, i know so minsoo.” she smiled nodding her head. “he looks at you the same way johnny looks at me, or the way minho looks at sunny. he’s madly in love with you.” she smiled. “i am right, he is a good man and believe me i know it’s very nerve wracking. but i think he’ll be very happy.” she assured her twin. “i know and i’ll have a niece or a nephew!” she beamed. 

minsoo smiled softly and took out two tea bags of the lemon tea and placed them on the counter near the kettle. she wanted to go sit, but her news left her shaking lightly from nerves. feeling moonie’s embrace was comforting. she was so thankful that she had her sister here to support her. “both”, she said, pulling away from the hug and looking at her. “dating me is a problem for him in its own. he’s never going to have privacy….but having a baby together? what if he doesn’t like me like that and leaves? i mean, his children are all in their teens, why would he want to start over with a baby?”, she asked, tearing up.

moonie began making the tea and she wet her lips, she knew how minsoo felt she was scared when she’d found out about taewon. but the more she spoke, moonie shook her head taking her sisters hands. “i don’t think he cares, he wouldn’t be with you if he did care, minsoo.” she tried to comfort her and she squeezed her hands. “minsoo.. jaeshin’s in love with you. it’s obvious, i’ve heard him talking about you and the way he looks at you.” she trailed off and she cupped minsoo’s face in her hands. “just because he has teen kids doesn’t mean he isn’t going to want one with you.” she offered a soft smile. 

minsoo smiled at her sister and followed her into the kitchen. “yeah, tea would be nice.”, she said, nodding. the woman went over and opened the cupboard and began looking through the types of tea. “i’m going to have lemon tea. what kind do you want?”, she asked, bringing the box of teas over. minsoo wet her lips and shrugged lightly when her sister asked if she was okay. “i need to tell you something, but you have to promise to keep it between us for now…okay? i’m going to tell jaeshin soon but i want to talk to you about it first.”, she said, hugging onto her sister gently before whispering softly, “i’m pregnant and its jaeshins and im scared…”, she said, hugging her a bit tighter. 

moonie nodded and she walked through her hand still wrapped around minsoo’s sweater and she brushed her off. “i’ll  have the lemon too it’s my favourite. make it you go sit.” she smiled and then she turned back to look at her.” i promise. “ her eyebrows shot up and then her eyes widened. as soon as she mentioned telling jae, moonie’s brows furrowed and she understood and she hugged her twin her hand rubbing up and down her back. “you’re scared?” moonie asked tilting her head and looked at her offering a warm smile. “are you scared to tell jaeshin or just scared of it all?” she asked. 

minsoo looked down at the pregnancy tests in her hand. she’d taken four and they’d all come back positive. while being a mother had been something she’d always looked forward to, it was scary to think that her dreams and all of her hard work could suffer because of a pregnancy. it also hurt her to think that her members’ careers could be affected also. the thought of terminating the pregnancy had crossed her mind, but she just couldn’t do it. the girl looked at herself in the mirror and stood sideways. she lifted her shirt lightly. her abdomen did like slightly swollen, but she chalked it up to her imagination. there was no way she’d be even close to being far enough along to be showing. minsoo left the bathroom connected to jae’s room and put on one of his sweaters before going and knocking on moonsoo’s door, the pregnancy tests tucked safely in the pocket of the sweater. she needed her sister’s advice on what to do.

moonie had just put a sleeping taewon down and was now working on getting bongie to sleep too. she smiled down at him making little faces and kissing over his head and face.  eventually he drifted off and she put him in his own crib grinning as she looked at her two boys, brushing some hair back moonie heard her door being knocked and she quickly pulled the sleeves and looked towards it. tiptoeing over she opened it up and smiled seeing her twin. “ hi.” she whispered and she came out closing the door over. “i just put the babies to bed.” she grinned and she tugged her sisters sweater towards the kitchen. “do you want some tea? she asked curiously.  then she turned to look at her still smiling but she tilted her head. “are you okay? ... you look a little off.” she frowned gently pinching her sisters cheeks to get her to smile more. 

jinnie wiped his eyes and sniffled trying to calm down but when moonie started apologizing, he started sobbing again. “i-its n-not your fault…i..i just…why is hyung so mean now? i think he m-misses eomma but it was…it was so bad…”, he admitted, holding onto her and sobbing. after a few minutes and a glass of water, he’d managed to calm down enough to talk about the baby. “good…i’m gonna protect him forever and ever.”, he said, taking a sip of his water. “wow…you live with so many people. are you happy?”, he asked with big eyes. he knew moonie wasn’t happy back at the house but he wanted happiness for her so bad. “i wanna meet everyone…and really? another cousin? i wanna meet her too…did you know about her?”

moonie cradled him against her, kissing the side of his head. she didn't have a proper answer as to what had happened with sunwook and why he’d become the way he had. she tried not to think of those good memories they had when they were younger. “i.. don’t know jinnie, i’m so sorry.” she frowned. as he sobbed moonie could feel tears pricking at her own eyes and she wrapped her arms tightly around him until he moved to take a drink and she smiled at him softly brushing his hair away. “he’ll love you, so much.” she smiled at him and kissed his head. “i am happy. and you’re gonna be happy too sweet boy, i promise. you’re here with me now okay?” she told him and she wiped his cheeks. “i didn’t know about her until a few months ago, she’s wonderful. she’ll love you.” she smiled at him standing up moonie brought him up with her. “lets go, we can start you off meeting taewonnie.”