so long as its willed

dude. so last night when i let the homeless guy stay over he was really hyper and couldn't get to sleep or calm down so i showed him my sleeping pills and was like "if you really need something to calm you down, you can take one of these, only one though cause they're really strong" (you can judge me for offering to share my drugs i don't really give a shit. the guy was injecting street cocaine i think my sleeping pills are a lot safer. anyway) and he popped one out of the package then went "oh no these remind me of my ex i can't take these" so i was like oh he has an ex who was addicted to these whatever and didn't think on it further. so anyway i just went to take my pills and the package was empty. dude did he steal my sleeping pills... i'm not even that mad cause i got plenty of those i'm not gonna miss one blister pack and he could've tried to burgle a lot more than that but also wtf dude.

great the guy left me his suitcase and said he'd be back in 2 hours max .. 3 hours later nothing so i'm just stuck with his stuff that he clearly needs?

honestly idk man i'm trying to be a good person and whatnot but the guy who stayed over last night was really pushing it from asking me to buy him all sorts of stuff to keeping me up till midnight being high no matter how many times i told him we needed to go to sleep to trying not to leave this morning even tho i warned him yesterday that i have a nurse appointment and he needed to be gone by a certain time to leaving me his suitcase of stuff to pick back up in two hours which i'm not super confident he'll do... like maybe kindness is kinda overrated actually cause i could have walked right past a guy in crisis and went about my day and i'd be 60 euros richer well-rested without a mess in my room and significantly less stressed out so is it even worth it doing things to help people sometimes :I

i agreed to let a homeless guy stay the night but i have a feeling he's not gonna chill down enough for me to sleep 😔

i think it's really funny when people go "hmm why do white polyamorous people only date other white people" like. for the same reason most white people only date other white people. it's not a polyamorous thing really have you not noticed the pattern of white people not having meaningful relationships with people of color until now..

good morning all 🌞 i barely slept again sigh.. but hopefully i'll still have the energy to work on an artfight attack... otherwise i don't have much to do with my day. how is everybody?