so long as its willed

goood morning everybody 🌞 excited for artfight today... i have to finish up an attack i started last year but never finished + revenge an attack i failed to revenge but then i'll be drawing whatever strikes my fancy i suppose... how is everyone?

anyway. surgery recovery is a great excuse for doing what i always wanna do but usually abstain from which is eat just so much protein. four burger patties a day get some eggs a few slices of ham greek yogurt... if i had any room left i'd have a can of tuna. i need it for healing purposes so it's okay to eat all the food i like 👍

can i be real with you all.. when they gave me abdominoplasty after taking a skin graft from my stomach i didn't realize that meant they were gonna give me a new belly button and i'm really disappointed that they did. i think it would've been really cool to just not have one anymore. whatever

just can't get to sleep tonight i've been trying for hours

i just realized i haven't been afraid of or even thought about the locals* for months and months.. hasn't been an issue at all i'm completely fine at night in my apartment now .. could it be the antipsychotics even though i'm on such a low dose? or is it because when i started talking to them and confronting them it made me less afraid somehow... either way that's pretty cool. actually i feel like i haven't really been dealing with psychosis much at all in a while now, i only have very passing paranoid thoughts but they don't really stick to me anymore. maybe it really is the meds working.