shh

I could honestly cry rn but I think my medication is preventing that

My heart is heavy and my stomach is in knots 24/7 and I’m so sick of feeling like this

I’m having a really hard time dealing with my emotions bc everything feels like The Bell Jar and I just want to float in a body of water looking melancholic

When he takes longer than two seconds to reply to your message so you start listening to How to Save a Life

Forgot how much I love shoulder kisses and now I’m literally craving them so badly

Honestly I just want him to be obsessed with me

Got what I wanted from him and now I want more 😩😩😩😩😩

The dumbest part about all of it is how many times I’ve let myself fall for his “charm” over the last 15 years and we’ve never even been in a relationship

From the beginning I knew it was a stupid idea. I knew it would backfire somehow but idk if this is what I thought would happen. I kinda figured you’d tire of me eventually but I thought we’d at least fuck

I cannot believe I let myself fall for the bullshit, I knew what I was getting myself into yet somehow I convinced myself that maybe it wasn’t like that this time but it turns out I’m a fucking idiot because it was exactly like that this time

If you can watch my insta story you can reply to my goddamn message I am losing my goddamn mind over here

Imagining scenarios to explain why you haven’t messaged me back and so far the most plausible explanations are either you lost your phone, you are repulsed by my entire existence, or you died.