Jack's broken heart

You appreciated the times I didn't talk more than my words

You replied to my long love messages, the paragraphs in which I explained my feelings, the cute pics I sent you with one word

You played the victim every time I told you how much your actions hurt, probably cuz you believe you are a victim

You felt you can't keep up with my emotional level, so you avoided every conversation, and came up with every excuse possible

I have been trying to erase that door, to drop the exit option, and every time I do, I freak out because I feel trapped.

I've always felt trapped, like I'm here by mistake.. because what do you mean a 9 years old telling her parents she wants to d1e?

It's not easy to just forget about it, it's not a decision you take in a day, and that's something nobody understands,

It's an endless war, it's not like an escape door you go to , it's literally a thought that chases you every minute, upon any minor inconvenience, most of the time, you are the one trying to escape from it, and sometimes, you just give up.