AN: I will be taking requests for Garrett, Dean, and Logan at this time!
Warnings: Mentions of Sex and Alcohol Consumption
Dean Di Laurentis x Reader
It wasn’t crazy to feel a little insecure over your boyfriend’s ex. Right? At least that’s what you told yourself.
“Let’s go Dean!” Beau whooped from beside you.
“Dude chill, he’s literally warming up.” You say, rolling your eyes at your boyfriend’s best friend.
“And he’s doing it beautifully.” Beau says nudging your shoulder playfully. Dean skates over to the plexiglass waving happily. Beau being Beau decides to blow your boyfriend some kisses. Dean being Dean pretends to catch them causing you to laugh.
“Hey I am so sorry we’re late, thank you for saving us seats!” Hannah says, plopping down next to you in her seat. Beside her Allie sits, offering you a little wave and smile. You smile back.
“No problem, I’m just glad I’m not forced to endure Beau alone the entire game.” You say with a laugh. Hannah and Allie both laugh and so does the guy currently sitting next to Allie.
“Oh shit,” Allie says. “Y/N, Beau, this is Sean my boyfriend.” She says. Sean gives us an awkward wave.
“I think we had Speech together freshman year?” You say. It was a small class and Sean was not a very good public speaker.
“Oh yeah, uh L/N, right?” Sean asks. Allie smiles, watching your small interaction. You nod.
“So, you’re Beau’s girlfriend?” He asks. Beside you Beau chokes on his water.
“Oh dear God.” Hannah mutters with a laugh. You slap Beau on the shoulder as he recovers from his near death experience.
“Um no. I’m Dean’s girlfriend.” You say, avoiding Allie’s gaze. Yeah this was awkward. What were you supposed to say, um no actually I’m Dean’s girlfriend. Yeah Dean, the same Dean your girlfriend hooked up with last year for the two months you were broken up and had hot casual sex with.
Sean looks physically taken back.
“Di Laurentis?” Sean asks.
“The one and only.” Beau pipes in. Sean looks at Allie for a brief second, before giving you a polite smile.
“That explains the jersey, I guess.” Sean says. You laugh, desperate for the game to start.
Dean had begged you to wear his away jersey but now looking at Allie you were wishing you would’ve worn something a little cuter especially considering the party that was bound to end up happening back at the hockey house as you affectionately referred to the house your boyfriend, Garrett, Logan, and Tucker shared.
The game passes by rather uneventful, the Hawks are absolutely smoking the visiting team. At the second intermission of the game you find yourself totally in your head.
“I’m going to go get some popcorn anyone want anything?” Hannah asks standing up.
“Ooh I’ll come with you, Sean, baby you coming?” Allie says standing up and batting her lashes at her boyfriend. Sean grins up at her, obviously under the spell of Allie Hayes.
“Yeah.” He tells her standing up as well.
“Beau, Y/N you guys want anything?” Hannah asks.
“I’m good thanks though!” You say.
“Same here.” Beau says. You wait a second until they’re up in the stands a little.
Across the rink Allie laughed at something Sean said, tipping her head back. Of course she looked good doing that too.
“You okay?” Beau asked.
“Fine.”
“Liar.” Beau says.
You watched Allie steal a handful of Sean’s popcorn.
“Can I ask you something?” You ask. Beau nods.
“Is Allie hotter than me?” You ask turning to Beau with a serious question. Beau stares at you stunned.
“Like don’t bullshit me, she’s gorgeous, and she and Dean hooked up and probably had a bunch of hot freaky sex and it’s just weird for me because she’s like still around, and she’s Hannah’s best friend and she’s so nice. Like she’s a nice person and she’s freaking gorgeous and she’s fucked my boyfriend. And don’t start on me I know he’s fucked at least a quarter of the women in this ice rink but still.” You ramble, pausing only to catch your breath. “I’m just like not as hot as she is, or as outgoing as she is, I’m a nursing major for goodness sake, she’s like headed to broadway.” You go on.
“I’m going to stop you right there, because you’re acting fucking delusional right now.” Beau says matter of factly. You stare at him unaware of what he’s getting at.
“First of all Dean is obsessed with you.” Beau starts. “Like sickeningly obsessed with you.”
“And yeah Y/N you’re just as hot if not hotter than Allie.” He says. “And I say that as your boyfriend’s best friend.” He adds.
“I know Dean has been kind of wild in the past but you’ve got him locked down so, whatever hot crazy sex you two are having it must be doing it for him.” Beau says with a shrug of his shoulders. You blush. “Oh come on, I’ve literally walked in on the two of you more times than I can count.” He says.
“But he like loves you, ya know.” Beau adds. You grin and nod.
“Yeah I know he does.” You say with a small smile.
Down the aisle you hear, some commotion as Hannah, Allie, and Sean make their way back to their seats.
“What did we miss?” Hannah says happily tossing a piece of popcorn in her mouth.
“Not much.” Beau offers with a shrug.
The Hawks win as usual and you find yourself walking to wait outside of the locker rooms with Hannah.
“This doesn’t make us puck bunnies right?” Hannah asks you feigning seriousness. You laugh.
“No I’m pretty sure monogamy isn’t their style.” You say with a laugh. Hannah laughs too as Garrett emerges from the locker room, Dean right behind him.
“Ladies and gentlemen look at my gorgeous girlfriend.” Dean says upon seeing you. “And look,” he begins grabbing your shoulders and spinning you around so your back is facing Garrett and Hannah. “Whose name is on her jersey.” He finishes, showing off you wearing his jersey Vana White style.
“Yes, yes, your name is on my jersey, well your jersey. Your name is on the jersey that’s on my body.” You say confusingly trying to clarify. Dean grins at you. Hannah and Garrett laugh.
“Malone’s?” Garrett asks.
“Hell yeah, I’m starving.” Logan calls, him and Tucker emerging from the locker room.
“Beau, Allie, and Sean are headed there now to grab a booth!” Hannah exclaims. “It’s karaoke night too!” She says excitedly, Garrett smiles at her clearly smitten.
When you get to Malone’s plenty of people are already celebrating the win. Beau waves us over and you and Dean slip in the booth beside him.
“My man, excellent work out there tonight. I mean you killed it.” Beau says to Dean. Dean pretends to be embarrassed batting his eyes at his best friend. Logan comes over with a tray of shots, and Jules tags behind him.
“Okay I need people who can actually entertain. Hannah, Allie, I’m putting you both down.” They say. Jules looks at me.
“Y/N I’m putting you down too, hot girls equal more donations.” They say.
“Hell yeah.” Dean says, he pulls out his wallet and hands Jules a twenty.
“What exactly are we raising money for?” You ask.
“This week it’s the animal shelter.” She points to Dean. “Seeing as you have a golden retriever of your own I figure you’d love to help our cause.” She says before walking away.
“Jules wait!” Allie calls, downing a shot from Logan. “I’m ready!” She says excitedly. She turns to Sean giving him a smile and a double thumbs up before going to the small stage and putting in her request. You down a shot, passing Dean one.
“Fuck Logan, what is this shit?” You ask, nearly choking.
“Vodka.” He says with a shrug.
“Like bottom shelf or what? That is not Tito’s.” You say.
“Well I didn’t really specify.” He admits, taking a shot himself and grimacing.
On the small stage Allie stands, she fixes her hair before the opening bars of a Whitney Houston song begin.
“I should have known this would be the song of choice.” Sean tells Hannah. “We watched The Bodyguard last night.” Hannah laughs as Allie sings I Have Nothing by Whitney Houston.
“Oh for fucks sake, this song is like five minutes long.” Beau mumbles before somehow managing to climb over Dean and me and get out of the booth. “I need a drink.” He exclaims.
“Ooh Beau will you order me a pina colada?” Hannah asks. He nods, taking the card Garrett produces from his wallet as Hannah fumbles in her purse.
You watch as Allie pours her soul into the song. She’s so confident. You’d need two more shots just to get up there. You grab the shot you’d slid to Dean, taking it for yourself and tossing it back before grabbing another one off of the tray and doing the same.
“Easy tiger, marathon not a sprint.” Dean says.
“I’m about to do karaoke in front of a bar full of people, I need to be very drunk baby.” you say, giving him a kiss to distract him as you reach for another shot. You down it, and finally Allie’s song comes to an end.
“Y/N, you go next I’m still trying to decide what I want to sing!” Hannah says scrolling through her Spotify.
“You gonna drink that?” You ask motioning at the untouched shot of vodka in front of her. She laughs.
“No, go for it!” She says, just as Beau returns with her pina colada and a beer. Beau sits her drink down and hands Garret back his card. You down Hannah’s shot as Allie comes back to her seat beside Sean and Hannah.
“Okay, I think I’m ready.” You say dramatically. You look at the shot in front of Garrett and point to it. He slides it to you much to Dean’s protest.
“Dude. She’s going to be so hungover tomorrow.” He says. Knowing very well that you’ll ask him why he let you drink this much.
“Babe you’ve got to slow down or drink some water or something.” Dean says a hint of concern in his voice. You get up, albeit a little wobbly from the alcohol and find Jules to take the stage.
“Is something going on that I don’t know about?” Dean asks Beau before looking to Hannah and Allie.
“She seemed fine at the game, maybe she just wants to get drunk and have fun tonight.” Allie offers. Beau avoids Dean’s gaze.
“Yeah she seemed totally fine, she told me she did really good on that exam she was worried about so that’s good! She’s probably celebrating.” Hannah offers taking another sip of her drink.
“Okay next up is Y/N L/N!” Jules says before handing you the mic.
You could sing you just had to be drunk to do it, otherwise the stage freight was all consuming. The song you chose begins to play and Dean smiles.
“Olivia Rodrigo, she loves Olivia Rodrigo.” Dean says proudly. Beau nearly dies as he hears the opening of the song. You’ve chosen Obsessed by Olivia Rodrigo. A song about being obsessed with your partners ex.
“Oh fuck…” Beau mumbles.
“I’m surprised she didn’t pick All-American Bitch, that’s her favorite.” Dean tells the table.
“If I told you how much I think about her you’d think I was in love.”
You sing perfectly, feeling the alcohol buzzing through your system.
“Oh fuck…” Beau mumbles again. Dean looks at him confused.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“Why do you keep saying that?” Dean asks.
Hannah glances between them.
“Wait.” She says as your voice sings the next part of the song.
“Cause I know her star sign, I know her blood type I’ve seen every movie she's been in and, oh god, she's beautiful And I know you loved her, and I know I'm butthurt But I can't help it, no, I can't help it”
Beau closes his eyes. Hannah’s eyes widen. Allie gives her a confused look as the two of them have a silent conversation. Allie’s lips form the shape of an o as realization dawns on her.
“Oh.” Hannah says looking at Beau and then to Allie. Garrett looks up from his beer staring at Dean who still hasn’t gotten it yet.
“What?” Sean asks.
“I'm so obsessed with your ex I know she's been asleep on my side of your bed and I can feel it I'm starin' at her like I wanna get hurt And I remember every detail you have ever told me So be careful, baby”
You’re having a great time, dancing on stage as people cheer you on.
“She’s got those lips, she’s got those hips, the life of every fuckin’ party…”
Hannah buries her face in Garrett’s shoulder.
“Oh my God.” Hannah wheezes.
“What?” Sean asks for the second time. Dean frowns, still not catching on.
“Why is everyone acting weird?” He asks. Beau stares at him.
“You seriously still don’t get it?”
“Get what?”
On stage you were having the time of your life.
You pointed dramatically into the crowd as you sang.
“She even speaks kindly about me and I know you love me, and I know it’s crazy”
Allie shakes her head.
“Guys it’s not, it’s not , that.” She says, emphasizing that. Allie looks to Dean and then back to Beau whose facial expression says otherwise.
“Oh no.” Allie says. Dean looks to Allie and then to Beau and then to Hannah before looking back to the stage. Realization finally dawning. His eyes widen.
“No fucking way.” Dean says.
“Welcome to the party.” Beau said, taking a long drink of his beer. Dean looks horrified.
“She’s singing about…about my ex?” He asks, looking at Allie before quickly looking to Sean.
Sean rolls his eyes. “About Allie, yeah.”
“Congratulations, detective.” Beau says, patting Dean on the shoulder. Garrett laughs, quickly stopping as Hannah give him a look.
“It took you that long?” He asks. Dean glares at him.
“How was I supposed to know she felt that way?” Dean asks innocently. Allie and Hannah grimace. Beau rolls his eyes.
“It’s obviously been bothering her for a minute she literally asked me if Allie was hotter than her at the game. Respectfully you’re both equally hot.” Beau says winking at Allie. Dean stares at Beau.
“Fuck.” Dean mumbles. He watches you on stage having fun as you finish up the song. The entire bar applauds as you exit the stage, with a little help from Jules. You giggle making your way back to your seat stumbling a little.
“Fuck, she’s drunk.” Dean says softly.
“Groundbreaking observation Di Laurentis.” Garrett says.
“No asshole like she’s really drunk.” Dean says.
As if on cue you walk directly toward the booth. Except you completely miss the opening. You walk straight into the end of it. The table burst into laughter. You stare at the booth. The booth stares back. You point at the booth.
“That wasn’t there a minute ago.” You say, hands on your hips. Dean laughs despite himself.
“Come here, baby.” He says.
You immediately climb into his lap. Like it’s the most natural thing in the world.
“That was fun!” You say. Beau facepalms.
“Was I good?” You ask the table. Everyone stares at you for a minute before answering. Everyone says yes giving you words of encouragement seeing as you’re blissfully unaware of the awkward energy your song selection has caused.
“Yeah really good actually!” Allie says. You beam. The alcohol making you feel great at the moment anyway.
“Really?” You ask
“Yeah really.” Allie says with a laugh. “First of all, you can actually sing.” You point at her dramatically.
“You sang Whitney Houston.” You say. “You’re like headed to Broadway.” You say, your words starting to slur a bit.
“Okay and?” She says smiling at you.
“You were incredible.” You say, reaching out to grab her hand.
“Thank you.” Allie says with a laugh squeezing your hand. “But so were you.” You narrow your eyes suspiciously.
“Are you making fun of me?” You ask.
“No.” She says. “You’re just really drunk right now babe.” She smiles.
“Second of all.” Allie begins still holding your hand across the table. Dean presses a kiss to your shoulder and you smile, leaning your head back against him.
“Oh God.” Beau mumbles.
“No, because apparently this needs to be said.” Allie says.
You pull your hand to cover your face. Embarrassment as you realize everyone knows your song choice was directed to her.
“Please don’t.” You say.
“Girl, look at you.” She exclaims. You blink.
“What?” You ask.
“Look at you.” Allie repeats. You look down at yourself, squeezed into the booth with Dean and Beau and nearly sitting on Dean’s lap.
“I’m wearing a hockey jersey.” You say.
“Exactly.” She says. You stare at her. She stares back.
“Y/N, you’re drunk off your ass, wearing your boyfriend’s jersey, your hair still somehow looks perfect, and you look like you stepped off a runway.” Your entire face turns red.
“No I don’t.” You say shaking your head with a laugh.
“No seriously.” Allie exclaims.
“Please stop.” You beg.
“No.”
The entire table is laughing now. Allie points at Dean.
“That man has spent the entire night looking at you like you’re the greatest thing that’s ever happened to him.”
Dean immediately nods.
“True.” Dean says.
“Thank you, Dean.” Allie says gesturing to Dean.
“Happy to help.” He says. You hide your face in his shoulder.
“This is humiliating.” You slur.
“Good.” Allie says.
“How is this good?” You ask.
“Because you’ve spent the entire night comparing yourself to me.” She says softly. The table goes quiet. You peek up at her.
“I wasn’t—” you start. But you were, you’d even asked Beau if she was hotter than you.
“Bullshit.” Allie says. “Beau ratted your ass out.” Hannah immediately starts laughing.
“Language.” Sean says.
“Oh please.” Allie says rolling her eyes at him, before kissing his cheek. Allie points at you.
“You’re gorgeous.” She says. You groan.
“Stop.” You say.
“No.” She retorts.
“You have to stop.” You say shaking your head.
“I actually don’t.” She says in a sing song voice.
“ALLIE.”
“Y/N.”
The two of you stare at each other. Finally Allie sighs.
“Look, you guys are perfect together. Just like Sean and I are perfect together.” She says. “And I don’t want you feeling that way about yourself ever because you’re fucking hot.” She exclaims.
“Hell yeah you are baby.” Dean says, pressing a kiss to your temple.
Later that night you snuggle up against Dean in his bed, your makeup washed off and your head pounding just enough to remind you that six shots had, in fact, been a terrible idea. Dean lies on his back staring at the ceiling.
“You sang a song about my ex in front of like fifty people.”
You groan and pull the duvet over your face.
“Don’t remind me.” You say weakly.
“I’m just making sure that actually happened.” Dean says, pulling the duvet over his head too.
“Maybe it didn’t and this is all just a weird dream.” You say closing your eyes.
“It absolutely happened.” Dean says laughing.
“It was karaoke.” You say.
“It was a cry for help.” Dean retorts. You roll your eyes. You smack his chest beneath the blanket. Dean laughs and catches your wrist.
“Baby.” He says softly.
“What?” You ask voice barely above a whisper.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” He says, his brows furrowed slightly in concern.You look away. Because saying it out loud sounds ridiculous now.
“I don’t know.” You admit.
“Baby.” He says. You sigh. Here you go.
“Because she’s pretty.” You say. Dean stares at you.
“That’s your reason?” He asks.
You glare at him.
“Don’t.” You say.
“I’m serious.” He pushes himself up on one elbow.
“That’s what all this was about?”
You shrug.
“She’s gorgeous, Dean.” You offer.
“So are you.”
“She’s talented.”
“So are you.”
“She’s outgoing.”
“And you somehow got on a stage and sang Olivia Rodrigo in front of an entire bar.”
“I was drunk.”
“You still did it.”
You roll your eyes. Dean reaches over and tucks a piece of hair behind your ear.
“Babe, look at me.” Reluctantly, you do.
“I never dated Allie.” He says, and logically you know that. The ex she was was really just like an ex fling or hookup. She’d never been his actual girlfriend.
You nod. “I know.”
“I never loved Allie.” He says softly.
Your stomach twists. You feel horrible.
“I know.” You say.
“I love you.” Dean says with a smile.
The words come so easily from him that it makes your chest ache.
“I know.” You say softly. Dean shakes his head.
“No. I don’t think you do.” He says. You blink.
“What?”
“Because if you knew how obsessed I am with you, you wouldn’t have spent the whole day worried about some girl I hooked up with for a couple months.” He says.
A laugh escapes you.
“Obsessed?” You ask raising your brow at him.
“Violently.” He says playfully, doing a little playful bite at you. You snort. Dean nods seriously.
“Ask anybody.” He says.
“Anybody?” You repeat.
“Garrett.” Dean offers.
“Biased.” You retort.
“Logan.” He says.
“Worse.” You add.
“Beau.” Dean settles on. You both pause.
“Actually Beau definitely thinks you’re obsessed with me.” You say. Dean points at you.
“Exactly.” He says with a smile. You laugh, finally relaxing. Dean smiles.
“There she is.” He grins, pulling you against him and burying his face in your hair.
“What?” You ask.
“My girl.” He breathes, pressing a kiss to your forehead.
The simple certainty in his voice makes your eyes sting unexpectedly.
“You know,” Dean says thoughtfully, “for the record.”
“What?” You ask.
“I liked your performance.”
You groan.
“Dean.” You say trying to sound serious.
“I’m serious.” He says.
“It was humiliating.” You exclaim. You bury your face in his chest.
“I can never see those people again.” You say resigned to your fate.
“That’s okay.” Dean says. “More for me.”
You laugh, it would all be fine. And despite the embarrassment, despite the hangover waiting for you tomorrow morning, despite the fact that everyone in Malone’s now knew entirely too much about your insecurities, you think maybe that’s okay too.
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Malone's was bathed in Briar U's signature blue lights, strobes flashing across the modest-sized bar, the silver tinsel reflecting and shining the color like stars though your eyes were immediately drawn to the brunette behind the bar.
Allie was handing Dean two pitchers of beer when he leaned further into her space. He said something with that smirk that always had his dimples showing, and by the look that melted Allie's face, you could tell he said something that would've made every girl swoon.
Huh.
You gaze sweeps across Dean's back before you made eye contact with Allie, swiftly replacing the spot. "What was that?"
Allie's already big doe eyes widened even more before she laughed nervously. Her head jerking forward. "Is—is it that obvious?"
"Mhm."
Her chest expanded, nose flaring at a breath before she leaned in again. "This doesn't leave this bar. Ever." You smile at the adorable scrunch of her nose, nodding with faux seriousness.
"It was good…like, some would call 'addicting' good," She hissed at you lowly. "But, I think I'm still missing something. I don't know what, but I know I'm missing something."
"Oof." Your face scrunched, lips quirking at the corner before taking a sip of your beer. "Greedy girl."
There was a pause where she just looked at you, lips parted softly, and you pretend you don't see her eyes flickering to your own. She shook her head as if she was getting rid of thoughts before she reached over to slap your shoulder.
"Shut up!" Her head swiveled side to side, making sure no one else heard. "I am not greedy. I just—know what I want."
Her eyes never strayed from your lips—even dilating when you licked your lips.
"What do you want, Al?"
Allie gasped out a quiet 'fuck' when her back made contact with her door, head tilting to accommodate your needy mouth against the sensitive skin of her neck. Her hands fumble against the doorknob, trembling from your weight against hers.
"Fuck it." She cursed under her breath, giving up on opening her door to dig her nails into your arms. "Just fuck me on the couch." You let out a chuckle at that, hands curling around her waist to pick her up, and pushing the door open with ease.
"So needy." You breathed against her ear, trailing hot kisses from her neck and driving a whimper out of her throat when your warm tongue licked the shell of her ear.
You try to pry yourself from her once her back made contact with her pink sheets, but she only held on tighter, letting out an pathetic whimper at your efforts. "Don't go!" She almost screamed, leg tightening around your waist as her face scrunched.
A red hot flush ran down her spine, scrunching her face when she heard your amused chuckle. "Don't."
"Don't what? Don't tease you or don't leave?"
"Both." Allie couldn't even reprimand you for calling her needy. Not when you called her a 'greedy girl' at Malone's and she swore she she felt an immediate gush of arousal at the low timbre of your voice.
It left her walking around the rest of her shift with thighs unconsciously rubbing together whenever she caught sight of you—wet and aching. "I need you." She breathed out.
Relief sank her shoulders when you leaned in, one hand firm against her sheets and the other cupping her plump cheek. Her head jerked upward, lips parted in anticipation, chasing. Brown eyes looked at your through fluttering lashes, the beat of her heart ringing in her ears alongside her breath.
She looked thoroughly wrecked in the wake of your fleeting touches; her usual wide eyes were hooded, barely blinking as her tongue peeked out every couple seconds—desperate to get a taste of your beer-stained lips.
Finally giving her what she wanted, your lips made contact with her plump ones, her sigh hitting your skin. Your hand travel up her side, dragging her shirt along, before cupping her beast over her bra. The touch coaxed a whine from her throat, lips parting just enough for you to shove your tongue in her mouth.
"Hnng—" Her warm tongue danced with yours instantly, the muscle pushing against yours, not in an effort to take dominance, no—your casual control over her body had slick running down her thighs already. Who was she to complain? It was in an effort to taste you.
To mold herself inside you—long enough for you to keep tasting her for days.
Fortunately, or unfortunately, for her, it wouldn't be long until you pulled away. Chiding her with a tsk when she tried to pull you in further, addicted to your taste already. You hold her down—so effortlessly, she might add—by her shoulders, gripping your shirt from your nape before pulling it over your head.
The single sight of your skin showing had an audible gasp escaping her lungs, lashes fluttering against her cheeks as she bit her lip to hide her excitement.
It was useless however, when her legs crossed the second you pulled away, trying to wane the ache. To no avail.
Her brown eyes trailed over surface over your skin, before she jumped in her spot, hastily removing her blue Malone's shirt, leaving her in her black bra. Pants following the pile not long after.
Allie was about to pull her underwear off before you stopped her with a hand on her shoulder. "Patience, hun." Your eyes trail down her neck before they found her nightstand.
"You pull off your shirt like that and expect me to—" She was chuckling before she wasn't eyes widening at the tattoo spread across your back.
"What?"
"You have a tattoo." She pointed out, eyes shining in wonder at the angel wings that covered the expanse of your back, feathers detailed and intricate with it burning at the tips.
"Yeah. It's Icarus," You chuckled, pulling and pushing at cabinets. "Like a warning that I'd like to keep in mind."
You continue your fumbling through her drawers for a few more minutes before Allie finally had enough.
"Are you gonna fuck me or steal from me?" She huffed, groaning after you ignored her question.
"Pick a date, Al."
"What—"
"Pick. A. Date."
At your firm tone and glance over your shoulder, she straightened up. "December…twenty-fourth—I don't know—come fuck me already!"
"Your—" You chuckled under your breath. "You picked your birthday?"
"I don't know what you want from me?" Allie was exasperated. Exasperated and needy. She was sitting on her bed with a dripping pussy that even she didn't know if she could touch. She just need you to shove your tongue in her mouth again. At least.
"Well," You huffed, finally turning around. "Do you know what you want from me?"
The sight of the sex position calendar within your grasp had Allie's eyes widening, hands gripping her sheets. You flipped it so she could see the figures' position at the date that you stopped at, and the sight that greeted her had her gulping audibly.
The figure was tied to the bedposts with what looked like handcuffs.
Eyes travel up to your own. Her plump bottom lip was bitten her teeth before she squealed, jumping up and immediately searching her nightstand for her pink fuzzy handcuffs that Sean had rejected the second he laid eyes on it.
She was giggling as she rummaged through the cabinet, but you thought you've made her wait long enough. And she wasn't the only one dripping since Malone's.
You cleared your throat as you approached her bent form, taking the cuffs that you'd already snatched from the cabinet and running it over the inside of her thighs.
She gasped, swiftly turning around and hitting you on the shoulder. "You dick!"
"Do you want me to get on the bed or not?" You laughed, sitting on the bed. But before you could make yourself comfortable against her pillows, her thighs bracketed your waist, cupping your face and claiming your lips once more.
Allie's lips slotted perfectly against your own, giving you the perfect taste of her gloss. She tried prodding at the seam of your lips with her tongue and huffed when you only smiled against her lips, amused at her efforts. Whining against your mouth, she tried again, brows furrowed in frustration. "Please…"
Your palms knead her ass and it had her gasping against you, leaving remnants of her gloss around your lips.
With a swiftness you could only call neediness, she pushed you against her pillows, lips never parting from your own. Not even when she threw away the cuffs, not even when she pulled down her lace panties just enough for it to be hanging off her ankle. Only to look down on your heavy breathing form, chest rising and falling, restricted against your bra.
Allie bit back a smile. "Anything I want?"
"I'm at your service." Your thumb tease her under boob before pressing flat against the peak of her nipple through her bra. Her hand swiftly closed around your wrist. Not to pull away—to press your palm flat against her clothed breast.
"Can I ride your face?" Allie, asked breathlessly. The soft grind of her pussy against your thigh hastening in pace when you wrapped your lips around her pert nipple.
You pull away from her skin with a soft growl, pussy aching at the thought of her arousal all over your face. You answered her with a squeeze on her hip, nipping lightly at her chest before dragging yourself down the bed until your head was right between her thighs.
"Wait! I haven't even—" You cut her off by pulling her down by her thighs, stopping her pathetic hovering and engulfing yourself in everything her.
You groan when she's finally flush against your face. You were determined to have her thinking of you if Dean ever had her like this again.
She keens when you lapped at her opening to her clit, nimble fingers running through your hair. "Oh fuck, baby—you—" What she expected to decrease the pounding ache in her pussy only amplified the pleasure, bending her spine backwards when your tongue prodded through her puffy folds and entered her hole.
Your tongue continues to thrust in and out of her, causing arousal to gush with every push and pull. Her slick ran down the inside of her thighs and down your neck. But you weren't complaining. Not when you looked up to see nothing but unbridled pleasure melting her beautiful face, rampant breathless moans escaping her parted lips.
Allie's brows were furrowed, softly, her eyes hooded and hazy, lashes fluttering. She knew that the moment she closed her eyes fully she'd lose control over her body.
And that's exactly what you wanted to happen.
So, without warning, one of your hands went from cradling her back to pulling down her bra cup. Twisting her areola softly between two fingers at the same time you sucked her sensitive bud, lapping at it softly.
"FUCK! I didn—hng!" She heaved, hand using your own to palm her heaving breast. Her thighs clench harder around your head, humping your face unabashedly.
"Tha's it, honey—shit—fucking use me." You mumble against her, adding the vibrations to her pleasure. You watch her nod dumbly, whines pathetically escaping her throat. A symphony you could listen to forever.
She ground her clit against your nose harder—firmer, fingers pulling your head up further into her mound while you continued to switch between lapping and thrusting your tongue into her weeping hole. You ignore your own throbbing desperation in favor of shoving two fingers into her hole, the sight of her throwing her head back and moaning was enough to drive you into orgasm.
"Bab—baby, please, please let me come. Please." Her hand pried your own from her breast to shove two of your fingers into her mouth, tongue lapping around the digits to muffle her screams. Two of her holes effectively filled by you. Only you.
Only you weren't having it. You didn't like that you couldn't hear her—albeit muffled—moans anymore. Clearly, she was desperate to have something in her mouth, something to do with it as the coil in her belly threatens to snap. So you compromised.
You just press them firmly on her tongue, rendering her jaw slack. Allie whined at the change, but she didn't complain, still holding your wrist firmly as the other played with her tender nipples.
Her head felt incredibly fuzzy, ears ringing but hearing every wet squelch you were dragging from her cunt. The sound was obscene—something she'd never heard come from her pussy before.
Not from her vibrator.
Not even from the Briar U-coined "sex machine" that was Dean.
Especially not from Sean.
"Ahh—babe—fuck me!"She felt like she was in heat; back arched and her hips ruthlessly grinding against your willing mouth and fingers. Saliva dripping from the corners of her mouth and down your arm until you pulled it away.
Allie whined at the loss of pressure in her mouth until a lewd moan escaped her from your wet fingers wrapping around her throat. "God—!"
You were happily drowning in her wetness, humming contentedly against her puffy folds as you move your fingers in and out of her. She felt her lower belly tighten at the feeling of your flesh exploring her cunt and when you crooked your finger just right—right against that spongy spot in her pussy while you mouth suckled her engorged clit—again, and again, she felt the rope in her belly snap!
Her hips stiffened against your face as she let out a gasping moan toward the ceiling. Abdomen clenching while she gushed against your face—arousal soaking you and the sheets below. Her soft thighs clench around your head as you guide her hips back and forth over your mouth, slowly to prolong her high.
Allie fell forward after a few seconds, limbs akin to jello. Her forearms caught her but they were trembling violently. She shivered when you moved away from her thighs, the cool air wafting against her sensitive pussy, and already missing the warmth of your skin.
"Baby—" You cut off her whine with a soft shush, laying her head down carefully against her pillows and swiping her bangs from her sticky, flushed forehead.
You make your way to her and Han's shared bathroom and come back with wet washcloths. Allie looked completely fucked out with her glossy eyes and shaking limbs, reaching for you the second you stepped inside her room.
You drag the washcloth across her forehead, making sure to redirect the rest of her thick hair away from her nape so she doesn't overheat. "You did so well, honey." Your praise made her sigh in return, smiling cutely as she giggled breathlessly. "What?"
"N'thin'," She bit her lip when you went to clean her sensitive center. "I've jus' n'ver heard of your hookups endin' like this."
"Is that bad?" You kissed her forehead then, before carefully maneuvering her out of her twisted bra.
"'s unfair to ya'," You smiled at her slurred speech, eyebrows raising when she pointed a finger at your wet face. "Does it hurt?"
"Does what hurt?"
"I didn't shave and practically used your face like a pillow—" She covered her flushed face with her hands.
"I'll be fine, okay?" You chuckled. "Nothing moisturizer can't help with."
You didn't try to fight her when she snatched the washcloth, determined to wipe off her arousal that dripped down your neck. "I think it's safe to say that that was my most intense orgasm." She grinned like a kid in Christmas.
Garrett Graham x reader !! I’ll take anything but I’m obsessed with the idea of y/n having a tramp stamp and garrett gets a peak
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Garrett Graham just wanted to get out on the ice. He just wanted to feel the shred of the ice, the fire in his muscles after a drill, hear the sound of the puck getting passed— he was desperate for it.
It had just been one of those weeks, assessment after assessment and Garrett just needed to blow off steam.
But no, him and the boys had been relinquished to the side, as the figure skaters finished up. They had already gone overtime, their training session running into his practice. The worst part? Coach was just letting them. Something about good sportsmanship, building rapport, whatever.
“Don’t look so disappointed, G” Dean said, shoving him in the shoulder. “At least we get a show.”
Garrett made a non-committal noise in response.
He had to admit, you were fucking stunning off the ice. That was no secret. But seeing you do what you do best? Well, that was a show. The spins, the stamina, the way you bent your body, the flexibility, the godforsaken tight outfit? It was all too much, it all just made him hot under the collar.
“Wrap it up Y/N!” Dean shouted from the side. The other skaters had seen themselves off the ice as soon as the team made it clear they were waiting. You? No, you kept skating, kept running through your programme like it was your personal rink. Garrett wanted to be annoyed. He wanted to be annoyed that you were taking so long, and most importantly, he wanted to be annoyed that you and Dean had built a friendship since he started seeing your roommate, Allie. Garrett wanted to be annoyed at you, period.
But the way you tossed your head back and laughed, the way you put your hands on your hips and skated over like you were born on the ice? Garrett felt the corners of his lips pull upwards, despite himself.
Wordlessly, Garrett found himself handing you your guards. The smile you gave him had Dean rolling his eyes and elbowing Logan, but had Garrett’s stomach tightening. He’s sure that he was vaguely aware of Logan, Tucker and Birdie moving past him, to the ice. Vaguely aware that Dean had made you laugh again. After all, it was quickly becoming one of his favourite sounds this semester. All he could really focus on though, was that little sliver of skin. Your jacket had ridden up, as you bent over to put your guards on.
There.
There it was.
The tattoo that had kept Garrett up, with his hand round himself, last week. He wasn’t even sure that he had actually seen it, just thought he may have seen something when you had been leaning over the table at Malone’s. The thought of it alone had derailed his week. Seeing it, the delicate curves of black ink in-between the dimples of your lower back, this close? He could feel himself starting to get hard already.
“Earth to G?” Dean waved his hand in front of Garrett’s eyes.
Garrett smacked his hand away, growling at his friend, evidently to your amusement as you chuckled behind a gloved hand.
“What?” He asked, eyes quickly moving from Dean to yours. Gauging whether or not he totally just got caught fucking you with his eyes. The smirk on your perfect lips and the sparkle in your challenging eyes made him think that you did know. You knew and you didn’t seem to mind.
“Allie and I are going to come over for beers tonight, after practice.” You said.
God, even your voice made his dick twitch.
“DI LAURENTIS! GRAHAM!” Coach Jensen yelled, his whistle cut through the rink, killing Garrett’s hard-on. Thank god.
Garrett Graham needed to pull his head in, pull himself together.
You said your goodbyes, a quick hug for Dean before he skated into the centre. Garrett still couldn’t move. It was embarrassing really, he was the Garrett Graham, team captain, history major royalty and off campus fuck-buddy extraordinaire. But you had done something to him this semester, bewitched him like some Etsy emo-for-hire. He simply wouldn’t be dismissed until you released him. No matter how loudly Coach called.
“See you later, Graham.” You said simply, sending him a wink.
“That better be a promise.” Garrett mustered, tossing one more look over his shoulder, catching the corner of your tattoo.
“You’re so fucked, dude.” Logan chipped as Garrett finally found himself on the ice.
The only thing Garrett thought about during practice was you, and your stupid lower-back tattoo, and how he wished he could blow off steam with you, instead.
•••
“No, I’m telling you Allie,” You said laughing, reclining on the couch, your legs hanging off the arm. “Graham goes mute whenever he sees it. Must have like an ink kink or something!”
“I have to see this.” Allie says, coming out of her room in the third outfit change of the night. ‘Casual post-practice beers’ was obviously a new aesthetic for the fashion queen of Briar U. She gestured to her top, you shook your head, indicating the need for yet another change. Before meeting Allie you wouldn’t have ever said velour trousers were constitutionally casual. “It’s hard to imagine Garrett Graham ever shutting up.” She slandered from her bedroom.
“He can actually be very sweet, when he wants to be.” You argued, remembering how he handed you your guards today, without even thinking. Or all the times he had opened doors for you, or the time he had held your drink at Malone’s when you went to the bathroom, and how he saves you a seat in philosophy lectures. The silence that met your own indicated that Allie simply rolled her eyes.
Truth be told, you only went overtime in training today so that you could see him. It was frustrating, you never went for jocks. Especially not hockey players. All of your exes had been musicians, or nerds, or hot exchange students that you would definitely never see again. You had never dated an athlete, unless that swimmer in elementary school counted. Maybe that was why nothing ever stuck, they didn’t understand your drive. Your dedication to the sport, to the craft. No one seemed to get your schedule. If one thing was guaranteed, Garrett would understand your schedule.
But why him? Why this particular jock? Yes, Garrett Graham was easily the most attractive guy you had ever seen, but he knew that too, and that was only half of the problem. That, and he was famously emotionally unavailable. Garrett “doesn’t do girlfriends” Graham. Maybe that would be fine? You were sure Graham would indulge you in no-strings-attatched fun, especially if your tramp-stamp hypothesis was correct. Yet, every time you allowed yourself to go there, imagine what it would be like with him, you could only seem to conjure the image of you two, well, being together.
“Well,” Allie said, re-entering the room and thus, the conversation. “You need to show me, tonight, I want to see Garrett tongue-tied for once.” She pulled her hair out of the collar of her shirt, gesturing again.
You nodded, grabbed your keys and linked your arm with your roommate. Allie and yourself headed down to the curb to wait for the uber to the off-campus hockey house.
All the while planning on how you’d show Allie Garret’s reaction to your lower-back tattoo.
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omg first off campus post ✨ this was really fun and I’m keen to do a pt. 2 haha, only if it’s what’s wanted. Didn’t want to go full smut right out the gate 🤪 thank you for your request, please keep them coming!
c/w ᝰ.ᐟ pet names (captain, baby, pretty + no yn) swearing, brat taming (playfully), possessive!garrett, jealous!garrett, hockey fights + injuries, split lip/blood, praise kink (both), oral (m. receiving), bondage (panties), teasing, begging, unprotected p in v, riding, multiple orgasms, w.a.m., clingy post-sex vibes + a very down bad, needy man
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“Shit,” Garrett hisses as he kisses you again, accidentally pulling his split lip back open.
He groans through it anyway.
The sound shudders against your neck while he presses another kiss into your skin—then another, softer this time, shaky around the edges. His weight braces over you, broad chest warm against yours, muscles still tight with leftover adrenaline from the game.
“Fuck me—”
“Garrett,” you murmur with a quiet laugh, reaching up to cup his jaw. “Baby.”
His knuckles are still red and swollen from the fight earlier, but he brushes it off like it’s nothing. “M’fine, pretty.”
“Sure you are,” you whisper.
Your fingers spread slowly across his bare chest, his heartbeat pounding beneath your palm as you nudge him back just enough to make him pause. He finally looks at you.
“Baby,” you murmur softly, fingers brushing through his damp curls. “We can just lay here, okay? You’re exhausted.”
Garrett shakes his head immediately, pulling you closer like you’ve said something insane. “No.”
“Garrett—”
“Need this,” he grinds out against your mouth. “Barely get you alone. Barely get to have you.” His grip tightens at your waist, his stare going heavier on yours. “I need this tonight, baby.”
“Okay,” you breathe as he lowers himself to your lips. His muscles tremble beneath your hands as they wrap around his biceps. You shift underneath him, arching just enough for him to realize something needs to change.
Garrett notices immediately. He wets the split in his lip, eyes narrowing with slow amusement. “Use your words, sweetheart.”
“Get on your back, Garrett.”
“What?” He laughs softly, still hovering over you like he thinks there’s no chance you’re serious.
“Back. Now.” You try to roll him but he grabs your wrist, pinning you to the mattress.
“You serious right now?” He whispers against your lips, letting out a raspy laugh before hissing when the smile tugs the cut back open.
“Now.”
Garrett lets out a rough breath like he’s too sore for this, shifting onto his back beneath you, broad chest rising and falling harder once you settle over his waist.
A dark bruise shadows the side of his ribs, already blooming beneath tan skin where he got slammed into the boards earlier.
His hands slide to your thighs automatically—big palms squeezing instinctively—but you catch his wrists before he can settle them there.
“Uh-uh.” Your voice comes out softer this time and he cocks an eyebrow at you, loving wherever the hell this is going. “Coach said you have to relax. R e l a x,” you breathe as you guide his arms over his head, fingers tracing over the thick muscle of his forearms until your hands lace together above him.
“I don't wanna relax,” he chuckles.
“I don't care.”
“You’re bossy tonight,” he says with a tilted smile, already breathless.
“Maybe,” you smile down at him like you already knew you’d win this. “But you’re a problem.” Your fingertips drag lightly down the center of his chest. “Not now that I’ve finally got you pinned down for once.”
Garrett lets out a short laugh through his nose, shaking his head against the pillow. “Control? You know how easily I could get it back, baby?” He tilts his head against the pillow to look at you better.
Then your hand reaches across the bed for your pink lace panties—discarded somewhere in the mess—and Garrett clocks what you’re doing about one second too late.
“Wait,” he breathes, eyes narrowing. “Hold on—” His head tips back into the pillow as you loop the lace around the headboard, knotting it around his wrists while he watches with parted lips and a slow swallow working down his throat. “You’re serious.”
“You keep hurting yourself,” you sigh as your thumb brushes carefully near the cut in his lip. “You don’t listen. All you do is fight.” You lean closer, softer now. “So now you don’t get to be in charge for a little while. Baby, you're stuck—”
“It’s a pair of pink panties.”
“And yet,” you murmur softly, tightening your grip around his wrists for a second, “look how good you’re behaving for me.”
He sucks his teeth and chuckles at that. “Behaving?” He scoffs. “Behaving. I've been getting chirped about you all night and I snapped once after he slashed me. He threw the first punch. Ten minute major. Now you’ve got me tied up in a thong. What more do you want from me?”
“Maybe I just wanted you to sit still long enough for me to take care of you,” you whisper, your mouth brushing over his. “Thank you like I’ve wanted to since you stepped into the penalty box. Does that sound so bad?”
He lets out a deep breath, nodding like that’s exactly what he needed to hear.
Your body dips lower, back arching as your ass lifts slightly while your lips trace his ear. “Maybe, I wanted to tie you up, and make you my bitch.”
“Jesus Christ,” he breathes out, a dark laugh breaking past his lips as he turns his head, burying himself in your neck. “M’not your fuckin’ bitch, alright?”
“You’re not?” You soften your voice and his whole body loosens beneath you.
“…Fine.”
“Fine what, baby?” You ask as your gaze meets his again, his eyes falling to your lips as you smile.
“I’m your bitch,” he says under his breath, intentionally quiet enough to piss you off.
Your mouth falls open dramatically, hand pressing against his abs, moving lower making his breathing catch. “Well, that wasn’t very convincing, baby.”
Garrett laughs again, deeper this time, turning his head like he’s embarrassed by how easy he is for you, a blush creeping across his cheeks.
“I’m your bitch, baby,” he repeats a little louder now, brown eyes sliding back to yours. “Happy?”
“Very.”
“God,” he huffs, smiling despite himself. “You like fuckin’ with me, don't you?”
“More like love, but yeah,” you tease, leaning down, lips pressing against his neck, shifting lower, soft lips trailing over his stomach, tongue teasing his v-line before your mouth dips lower, nuzzling between his thighs.
His stomach tightens instantly, thighs flexing as he lifts his head, getting a better look.
“Fuck,” he breathes when your tongue flicks over his balls, warm and slow. His thighs tighten when you take one into your mouth, then the other, stroking his thick cock with your hand while you suck softly. “Damn, baby,” he moans, head falling back against the pillow. “Gonna make me lose it.”
“How many times?” You ask sweetly, breath fanning over his spit-slick dick, feeling him twitch in your grip. You glance up at him through your lashes, looking way too innocent for your words.
“So what?” He murmurs. “You gonna tie me up and just—use me?”
“Mhmm,” you hum around him, the sound making his abs tighten again. “That’s exactly what I’m gonna do.”
Garrett swears softly under his breath as you crawl back up his body slowly, your fingertips skimming over the sculpted ridges of his abs, higher over his chest, nails scratching lightly, his gold chain flickering in the low light when he sucks in a breath.
His hands twitch against the lace when your wet pussy settles over his length again, grinding down slow, your breasts pressed against his broad chest.
“You’re so fucking hot, Garrett,” you murmur against his lips, but the smile slips through anyway.
“You have no clue how good you look on top of me,” he mutters, his voice already rough, even though the corner of his mouth still curls smugly. “You gotta stop teasing me.”
Your eyes trace the line of his jaw, the bruise blooming dark beneath his cheekbone, the split in his lip still angry red. His dark curls fall onto his forehead, half brushed-back from running his hands through them, wet with sweat again.
“All fucked up and still the hottest guy I’ve ever seen,” you murmur, thumb brushing lightly near the cut. “You’re unbelievable.”
Garrett lets out a low sound at that, somewhere between a groan and a laugh.
“Unbelievable, huh?” His voice drops rough around the edges.
“So fucking greedy, Graham.”
His brows pinch immediately. “Graham?” He scoffs, finally lifting his head enough to look at you properly. “Garrett’s for you. The fuck are you callin’ me Graham?”
You just smile wider—a slow little smile. Underneath all the cockiness, Garrett loves this—the way you toy with him when you get bold enough to take control.
Your fingers drift lazily through his hair while you stay settled over his lap, watching him try and fail to keep that smug look on his face.
“Talk to me nice,” he mutters, low and warning, even though his hands are tied above his head and he’s already losing this fight. “Talk to me like you love me.”
You bite back a smile, grinding your hips on top. “Captain’s havin’ a hard night, huh?”
“Holy shit,” Garrett drags out the words like they physically pain him. His head falls back, wrists pulling taut against the lace.
“Just take it,” you breathe, mouth brushing close enough to his that he can feel the smile there. “Unless you want me to stop.”
“Don’t,” he grunts immediately, the word coming out stern and final even while his wrists tug uselessly against the lace above his head.
Garrett tests the restraints again anyway, muscles tightening beneath you, but you shove playfully at his chest before he can get too cocky about it.
“C’mon now,” he mutters, eyes glinting up at you while his tongue drags across the cut in his lip, soothing the sting. “You’re not my coach. You’re not one of the guys.” His gaze lifts to yours again, darker now, quieter. “You’re my girl.”
“I am,” you hum, moving a little closer to his lips.
“And…” he adds lower, lashes dipping for half a second before meeting your eyes again, “Garrett sounds better when you say it.”
“Yeah?” You tease softly, fingers sliding around his neck, through the damp curls at the back.
“Yeah,” he murmurs. “Love when you say my name—” His words cut off when your hand traces lower, fingers wrapping around the base of his cock, stroking slowly. “‘Specially when you're proud of me.”
“I am proud of you, Garrett,” you praise and he takes the compliment like air. He moans when your thumb brushes over his thick tip of his dick, his brows furrowing while his lips part. “Easy, Garrett,” you murmur. “You’re getting a little needy for me.”
“A little?” He laughs softly, breath catching when your thumb brushes the tip again. “You’re pushin’ it—me. All of it.”
“The offer to stop was there—”
“Baby, I’m injured,” he complains softly. “Feels kinda fucked up not to let me cum.”
“I don't think you're ready,” you whisper as you reach down, thumb brushing along his chin where a little blood smudged. He parts his lips, eyes locked on yours as he sucks it clean. “I could get outta here if I wanted, you know. Lucky I’m playin’ nice.”
“So am I. You’re enjoying this, baby. Stop trying to play tough with pink panties around your wrists. I know you love it.”
He laughs softly under his breath at that, teeth catching briefly on the split in his lip. He watches you for a second like he can’t decide whether he wants to argue with you or watch.
“You done talkin’,” he asks hoarsely, voice rough and low, “or are you gonna keep torturing me for fun?”
You giggle against his skin. “So my panties around your wrists and my hand around your dick is—”
“One of my favorite things you’ve done, yes.”
“It was torture a second ago,” you counter with faux concern.
The tip of his cock drips precum, sliding in a lazy tear over your knuckles. “Fuck you.” He chuckles.
“You’d like that,” you grin as you lift your hand, licking his mess off the back. “Look at how relaxed you are.”
“You’re actually gonna fuckin’ kill me,” he laughs under his breath.
You move between his legs, smirk dying on your lips as your mouth parts, that dangerous look still burning in your eyes as you lick a slow line up the underside of his cock, following a vein, watching his biceps flex as he tests the panties holding him in place.
“Standing down by the glass,” he says, breath hitching as you swirl your tongue over the tip. “Playing against your ex.”
“Mhmm,” you whisper.
“You know how much shit I took. Three periods of reminding me all about his favorite things about my girl. And, I couldn't say shit. Couldn't even tell Coach why I went in the box in the first place.”
You run a line of spit down to his throbbing head as you stroke and he shivers, feeling it roll down the slit, gliding down the side.
“Been keeping this a secret for six months. Think I deserve something—Fuuuck.” His head slams back into the pillow when he finally gets it. “Yeah… that’s it, baby.”
Your lips stretch around his cock, eyes flicking up to watch his reaction. Garrett’s lashes flutter shut, mouth falling open, chest lifting as you sink down again. You moan around him, the sound making him shudder.
“So fuckin’ good,” he pants.
You wrap one hand around the base, slick with spit, and stroke as your mouth works the head, dragging your tongue along the ridge. He groans again—deep and filthy—his fists clenching above his head.
“Shit. Shit—fuck, I’m gonna cum,” he grits through his teeth, muscles locking under you. “Gonna cum in that pretty mouth—”
His whole body coils tight as you suck, slurping, gagging, throating his length as he fights back his pleasure.
A loud moan breaks past his lips, filling the room. He hisses out a breath as he feels the sharp sting, bottom lip trembling. “God, damn—just… You’re…” His voice cuts off, too far gone to finish, filthy-wet between your lips and the thick length of him—too much for you to take, but you’re trying anyway.
Garrett pitches his hips, meeting you stroke for stroke, eyes squeezed shut as his thigh muscles tremble.
“Fuck me,” he whines, your name whispering past his lips as he empties into your throat, cock throbbing while his voice breaks into a sobbing, pathetic laugh. “Shittt—oh my god—fuck—” He chokes on his words, hands twisting into fists above him.
You pull off him slow, kissing his swollen, pulsing tip. He throws his head to the side, pressing his mouth to his bicep, shuttering out a pathetic breath when you kitten-lick his cock; body jumping with each cruel flick.
“Pussy,” his voice comes out slurred. “Give it to me—fuckin’ need it, alright?”
You bite your lip, holding back a smile as you crawl up over him—tits brushing his chest, his face flushed, eyes glassy, chest heaving—you wrap your hand around him again, pumping slow as you guide him toward you.
He’s still recovering when you line him up, circling your hips just enough to tease the head against your slick folds.
“So good,” he groans, eyes rolling back. “Oh my fucking god, baby—” You slide down on him, hands pressing against his chest, feeling his heart bang underneath until you're fully sat.
“Fuck, Garrett,” you breathe as you drag your hips. His eyes lock on the wet place where you connect, lips parted like he's trying to think of something to say, but the thought dies there instead.
He tugs at the panties roughly, brows furrowing, lips snarling as he forgot for a second he was tied up. You lean forward over him slowly, chest brushing his as you lower yourself toward his mouth, smiling when his breath catches.
“Can’t even slap your fuckin’ ass—” CRACK! Your hand smacks against your own skin, cutting off his complaint, and he groans beneath you like he's getting some sick secondhand pleasure from it.
“Bounce for me,” he rasps, lips vibrating against yours. You push yourself upright again, hands slapping against the metal rail above his head, and his eyes snap back.
Your pussy swallows up the length of him, hands braced on the bed frame between his—like you own the room. Like you own him. “So fucking perfect for me—”
He curses loudly as he throws his hips up to meet you, making the whole damn bed creak.
Heat coils low in your stomach, your thighs starting to shake around him. “Yes, baby—cum like this. Use me, c’mon,” he pants. Your pussy pulses with your heartbeat, wild and quick, fluttering around him as you cum; Garrett thrusting up into you so deep your vision blurs.
“Don’t you fuckin’ stop,” he grits out, the tone of his voice proud like he knows you won't. His mouth falls open, his eyes rolling back, the muscles in his chest tight as his fists lock. “I’m cumming, shit.” The look on his face and the deep, fucked-out sound of his voice make you shatter above him.
Your head’s pounding so loud, ears ringing so high you can't hear the praise leaving his lips, but you know it's there.
He fights the restraints—the lace tearing slightly.
You smile as you start to grind again, nice and slow, swirling your hips, slick dripping down his big cock, making him suck his teeth.
Garrett’s still twitching underneath you when you finally slow down enough to breathe, his lungs still working hard beneath yours. The lace strains again when he flexes his wrists, biceps swelling, his whole body slick with sweat.
“That was perfect, baby,” he says, still breathless. You laugh softly, brushing damp curls off his forehead. You lean down, kissing his cheek over the bruise, soft and careful.
“You okay?” You ask, assessing the damage.
“M’fine, baby,” Garrett answers immediately, eyes half-lidded as he looks up at you. “And honestly? Worth it.”
“Garrett.”
“What?” A lazy grin tugs at his mouth before he winces at the split lip.
“You didn’t need to do that.”
“Guy spent three periods talking about you like he was gonna be the one here after all this.”
“He’s an idiot,” you whisper.
His eyes flick away for a second before landing back on yours. “Kept acting like he knew you better than me.”
“Baby—”
“I know,” he says quickly. “Just pissed me off.”
“He doesn’t know me better than you.”
Garrett stares up at you for a second. “Finish junior year. One more season,” he murmurs, “and it will be you and me.”
“You’ve really thought this through, huh?” You ask, cheeks burning with your smile, finger tracing absentmindedly on his bare chest.
“Been in love with you for months, baby. Had time,” he hums, leaning in for a kiss, pulling back just out of reach from where he's still bound, chasing it before he lets out a little growl of a breath.
“I love you too,” you coo, and he huffs, rolling his eyes away. Your hand comes up, grabbing his cheeks between them, squeezing just enough to pout his lips. “If I untie you,” you tease softly, “are you gonna behave?”
He takes a moment to think it over. “Probably not.”
“Garrett.”
“What?” He says, a chuckle catching in his throat, eyes warm now. You glance up toward the headboard, finally noticing the pink lace stretched tight between his wrists, strained enough now that you realize that Garrett Graham is only still there because he’s letting himself be. “Kinda getting used to it—”
“You know what?” You murmur, brushing your hands over his chest, fingers straightening his chain on his throat. “You’re right.” Garrett lifts an eyebrow as you speak. “This is exactly where you should be.”
Garrett’s eyes flick toward the stretched lace for half a second before landing back on yours. That cocky, hockey-boy smile spreads on his lips. “Why are you like this, huh?” He asks quietly.
“You’ve been behaving so well for me.”
“You done playin’ coach now?” He asks.
You open your mouth to answer him, but Garrett suddenly plants his feet into the mattress beneath you, muscles tightening hard underneath your hands— SNAP.
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warnings: mentions of alcohol. angst. emotional neglect. implied cheating. english is not my first language.
includes: slow burn, hurt/comfort, mutual pining (eventually), s2 setting, jonathan byers x reader (just for the plot)
summary: things with your bf aren’t what they used to be.
somewhere in the middle of all that, steve harrington starts showing up more than he should.
a/n : hi. this is my first steve fic and the start of a series. the title is inspired by olivia’s upcoming album (you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love), which basically sums up the whole feeling of this story. hope you like it. <3
part 2 - part 3 - part 4 - part 5
you didn’t notice when it started.
the happiness slipped away so quietly that one day you woke up and realized the innocent love you once felt for jonathan was gone, fading further and further until it felt like a memory that belonged to someone else. you didn’t understand why. after everything he’d been through last year, his little brother missing, the nightmares that followed, the way you’d been pulled into something way bigger than either of you, you told yourself things would get better. that you could make him happy.
but that didn’t happen.
he used to ask about your day. he used to take pictures of you when you weren’t looking, walk you home after your shift, hold your hand like it actually meant something. now you just felt alone. worse than before. and you didn’t have it in you to ask why he spent so much time with nancy wheeler anymore. you already knew you wouldn’t like the answer.
you took what he gave you. three nights a week, sometimes two. told yourself it was enough. at least when he was there, your head got a little quieter. the bad stuff didn’t feel so loud. but it wasn’t love. not really. it felt like obligation, like guilt, like he was sticking around because he thought he had to. and you were too tired to call him out on it.
you were tired of a lot of things. tired of hoping. tired of crying. tired of waiting for something to feel like it used to.
the only thing that still felt warm was max, and her loud, chaotic group of friends.
somehow you ended up babysitting a bunch of thirteen year olds half the time.
and lately, steve harrington had kind of inserted himself into that whole mess too.
the first time, he just pulled up in that stupid burgundy bmw, sunglasses on like he thought he was cooler than he actually was, waiting to pick them up. you stood there on the porch like, absolutely not, until all of them started talking at once and wore you down. so yeah, you let her go. because keeping max locked inside wasn’t gonna fix anything anyway.
most days steve stayed in the car, arm hanging out the window, acting like he didn’t care.
sometimes he’d wink at you, which was annoying. sometimes he’d get out and stand there like a tired babysitter, hands on his hips, waiting for everyone to get in the car without killing each other.
and yeah, you noticed him more than you probably should have.
he wasn’t the same guy you met earlier that year. not even close. you’d heard the stories, “king steve” and all that, but whatever that was, it wasn’t this. this version actually showed up, actually helped, didn’t act like he was above any of it.
and yeah, there was the whole nancy thing.
you heard about that too, dustin running his mouth like always, saying she “fumbled” him or whatever. which, honestly, made you curious in a way you didn’t love.
especially after halloween.
that night had stuck with you, more than you wanted it to.
his house, too many people, too loud.
he was drunk, like, really drunk, the kind where everything about him felt a little off. his eyes were red, like he’d been crying before anyone even showed up, and you knew why. the whole thing with nancy was still fresh, still messy.
he didn’t look like himself.
but he found you anyway.
stumbled over, a little unsteady, but focused on you in a way that didn’t feel like an accident. asked for your number like it mattered, like he actually meant it, even if the words came out a little slurred.
you didn’t know what to do with that.
before you could answer, his friends dragged him away, laughing, calling his name, turning it into something louder, easier to brush off.
and maybe it was nothing. maybe he was just drunk, sad, grabbing onto the first nice thing he saw.
you never really figured it out.
you thought he was cute. yeah. still do sometimes. but you shut that down fast, because your situation with jonathan was already a mess. you didn’t need another one.
still, steve kept showing up.
asking about school. coming inside instead of waiting in the car. sitting through their d&d games like he actually cared.
and lately, the way he looked at you wasn’t just curiosity anymore. it was quieter than that. like he was trying to figure something out.
-
now you’re on dustin’s couch, sitting close enough to steve that your shoulders almost touch. the kids yelling about some campaign like it’s life or death. and weirdly, it helps. the noise keeps everything else out.
“hey,” he says quietly, leaning in a little. “you wanna go outside? these kids are driving me insane.”
you glance at him, a little surprised.
you’re not really friends, not officially. but it sounds nice.
“yeah, okay.”
you slip out into the backyard. cool air hits your face, fireflies blinking slow between the trees. it’s quiet out here, finally.
steve shoves his hands into his jacket pockets, rocking back slightly on his heels.
“seriously, how do you do it? i’m here like twice a week and i already feel like i need a vacation.”
you let out a small laugh, hugging your arms around yourself.
“you’re not that bad at it. kinda weird actually. former king steve voluntarily hanging out with a bunch of middle schoolers.”
he scoffs, bumping your shoulder lightly.
“hey, watch it. i have a reputation.”
“yeah,” you mutter, “pretty sure that reputation is long gone.”
“wow,” he says, putting a hand to his chest like you actually hurt him. “that’s cold.”
you shrug, but there’s a faint smile there. it fades pretty quickly though.
he notices. of course he does.
there’s a pause, a quieter one this time. he shifts a little, glancing at you instead of the ground.
“you okay?” he asks, softer now.
“you’ve been kinda… off lately.”
you look down, picking at your sleeve.
“i don’t know. things with... with jonathan are just… weird.”
steve doesn’t interrupt. just listens.
“i thought at first that he just needed time,” you say. “i mean, his whole life was readjusting again. but then… he just started acting weird. and i kept thinking maybe if i was patient, if i didn’t push, it would pass. like he’d come back to how he was before.”
you let out a breath that sounds more tired than anything else.
“but it doesn’t. it just feels like i’m the only one still trying.”
you were probably saying too much, but it feels like the first time you can really talk to someone.
steve’s jaw tightens a little, but he stays quiet.
“he’s there,” you say, quieter now, “but not really. and i don’t wanna ask why he’s always with nancy because i already know what that means.”
the words hang there for a second before you realize what you just said.
you wince immediately, looking away.
“sorry. i didn’t— i shouldn’t have brought her up.”
“hey,” he says quickly, shaking his head. “no, it’s fine. seriously.”
you glance at him, unsure.
he shrugs, but there’s something a little more careful in his voice now.
“i mean… yeah, it sucks. but i get it. it’s worse when someone’s already halfway gone and you’re just… the last one to realize it.”
you swallow, nodding a little.
“yeah.”
another pause settles in, not uncomfortable, just heavy.
“why are you still with him?” steve asks after a second, not harsh, just… honest.
you blink, caught off guard.
“i— i don’t know.”
he watches you, not pushing, just waiting.
“i guess,” you start slowly, “because it didn’t used to be like this. he used to care. like, actually care. and i keep thinking maybe if i just hold on a little longer, it’ll go back to that.”
you laugh quietly, but there’s no humor in it.
“which is stupid, right?”
“no,” steve says immediately. then softer, “it’s not stupid.”
you look at him.
“it’s just…” he hesitates, searching for the words. “it’s just not how it works. people don’t… snap back into who they used to be just because you want them to.”
you nod, eyes stinging a little.
“yeah. i know.”
“and you shouldn’t have to beg for it either,” he adds, a little firmer now. “for someone to care about you, i mean.”
you don’t answer. you just stare at the ground.
he exhales, dragging a hand through his hair.
“look, i’m not great at this,” he mutters. “like, at all. i usually make things worse.”
“you’re doing fine,” you say quietly.
he huffs a small laugh.
“you deserve better than that,” he says, almost like he didn’t mean to say it out loud.
you glance at him.
“better than what?”
he gestures vaguely.
“that. feeling like you’re… second place in your own relationship. like you have to work for something that should just be there.”
you look away again, your chest tightening.
for a second, neither of you says anything. the quiet stretches, but it doesn’t feel empty.
then steve speaks again, more hesitant this time.
“he’s an idiot, you know.”
you blink, looking at him.
“what?”
he shifts, suddenly a little awkward, like he wasn’t planning on saying that part out loud.
“i mean…” he rubs the back of his neck, glancing away for a second before looking back at you. “if he were smarter, he’d notice… how you feel.”
your breath catches slightly.
he shrugs, but it’s softer now, almost shy.
“and you don’t deserve that.”
before you can respond, the back door swings open.
“shall we go? i’m tired of winning against those nerds.”
max’s voice cuts through everything, loud and dramatic.
you can’t help it. you smile.
“yeah, alright.”
the ride home is quieter.
max talks at first, going on about how she carried the whole game, how the others are “completely useless,” and steve throws in the occasional comment just to annoy her.
“you literally almost died twice,” he says.
“strategically,” max fires back.
“yeah, sure. very strategic near-death experience.”
you stare out the window, watching the streetlights pass.
at some point, max quiets down. by the time you turn onto your street, she’s already half asleep against the door.
steve doesn’t turn on the radio. doesn’t try to fill the silence.
it’s not awkward.
just calm.
he pulls up in front of your house.
max is out first, mumbling something that might be a goodnight before heading inside without looking back.
you reach for the handle, but pause.
“hey,” steve says.
you turn back.
he’s looking at you now, properly this time, hands still resting on the wheel.
“thanks for coming,” he says. “i mean it.”
you nod slightly.
“thanks for asking.”
there’s a small pause.
“and… if you ever need to get out again,” he adds, a little less steady, “or just not deal with everything for a bit, you can call me. or… not call. i don’t know. whatever people do.”
you let out a quiet laugh.
“i’ll keep that in mind.”
he smiles, quick and a little crooked.
“yeah. you should.”
you step out of the car, closing the door gently.
he gives you a small wave.
“night.”
“night, steve.”
you walk up the path, the porch light flickering faintly. you don’t look back again until you hear the car pull away.
the taillights disappear slowly down the street.
and something feels different.
like something small moved out of place, and you’re only just starting to notice it.
part of you thinks maybe it was about nancy. that he was just trying to figure out where things stood with her and jonathan. checking if there was still something there.
it would make sense.
it would be easier.
but there’s another thought sitting underneath that one, quieter, harder to ignore.
that maybe it wasn’t about her at all.
that maybe the way he looked at you, the way his voice softened, the way he said you didn’t deserve that…
maybe that was real. you push the thought down anyway.
because you already know how this goes. you start hoping, and it ruins everything.
and you’re too tired to pick up the pieces again.
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Summary : For the past few months, you and Steve have been trying to build something. But your relationship is marked by the wounds of the past: you fled a violent relationship with Billy, and since then, trusting someone has been a constant battle. Letting go, loving freely… still feels out of reach.
Warnings : Violence, angst, blood, scar
Writers notes : English is not my native language; please excuse me if there are any mistakes or poor translations.
Steve Harrington x fem!reader
It had been a long time since Steve had drunk this much.
He isn’t completely drunk, but it’s enough to make him clumsy as he tries to get the key into the lock of your apartment.
He sighs, his shoulder pressed against the door to keep from falling, his eyes burning with exhaustion as the key struggles to slide in.
The metallic click finally echoes and the door opens slightly.
He does his best to stay quiet, avoids the shoes scattered at the entrance so he doesn’t trip, and takes a moment to savor that feeling of being home.
Of course, it’s not his.
You don’t live together, but he sometimes stays over when you ask him to.
Only when you ask him to.
So he takes the time to appreciate the smell of cookies lingering in the hallway—your new way of keeping your mind busy—observes the new wool blanket you bought, the one he’d love to curl up in because he’s so tired, and looks, as always with a stupid smile, at that picture of the two of you you printed and placed on the coffee table.
Steve doesn’t come often because you don’t ask him to, but that picture reminds him that he still matters.
That he still exists in your thoughts despite your independence.
Alcohol makes him bold—that’s why he’s here in the middle of the night, without warning you.
He uses the spare key you gave him—he’s the only one who has it, along with Eddie, your brother.
He knows how much that means coming from you.
He remembers your bright eyes watching him as you placed the key in his palm, silent, but your gaze said everything.
He stops by the bathroom to freshen up, to tame his messy hair despite the late hour. He knows you probably won’t notice, but he always wants to look good for you.
The cold makes him hurry to your bedroom, the door slightly ajar. He pushes it gently and finds you near the edge of the bed.
It’s stupid, but he tells himself it’s because you knew he’d come, and you left space for him.
You’re half on your stomach, your right thigh pulled up toward your chest, your hands tucked under the pillow, your long hair spread across the mattress.
Something tightens in his chest, like he still can’t quite process that the two of you are… something. He doesn’t really know what, even if he has a vague idea of how it looks from the outside.
Especially after Robin told him he had a stupid grin every time you walked into a room.
Well, yeah. That was exactly it. He was in love with you. And it had just… happened.
You feel the mattress dip behind you, your senses already alert before you’re fully awake. Then you recognize his scent. Your body stretches against his like a cat enjoying sudden warmth.
His skin is cold against yours, and he savors your warmth even more as you curl up against him.
He knows it’s the fatigue talking, making you softer, maybe more compliant.
Your nose brushes against his arm, almost purring, and your heart swells with that feeling you never wanted to feel again.
Never.
He wraps his arm around your waist, gently tracing the skin of your stomach as he lifts your oversized sleep shirt.
His fingers brush that scar, thin but deep—the one you never wanted to talk about… but that he knows all about.
His jaw tightens. He buries his face in your hair to stop himself from thinking.
“Marry me.”
Your body tenses against him.
The words came out of his mouth on their own, but he was sincere when he spoke them.
“What?”
Your voice is still rough with sleep, but Steve’s words wake you instantly.
“I love you. I want to marry you.”
Saying those words finally feels freeing. He doesn’t understand why he didn’t say them sooner.
Well… if he’d been sober, he would’ve understood immediately. He probably wouldn’t have said them at all.
Panic creeps into you, but you choose to take it lightly.
The alcohol on his breath tells you where this ridiculous idea came from.
You also realize he’s here tonight when usually, you’re the one who asks him to stay—and he never dares on his own.
This thought makes your heart ache, as always: you know he's walking on eggshells with you. So as not to scare you away. Because you're too broken.
That's the first thing you think about now that you're fully awake.
“Why are you here?”
You turn slowly, trying to keep a smile so you don’t hurt him.
“What happened?”
Maybe his night out with the guys got a little wild…
“I missed you.”
In his half-closed brown eyes, you see the truth—his feelings are spilling over. And it hurts. Because you can’t say yours.
He hovers over you, propped on his elbow, his nonchalance giving him a roguish look.
“Did you drink too much?”
Because that’s the only explanation for such an emotional overflow.
“Just a little.” He leans down, brushing your lips. “I’m not completely drunk.”
You swallow, your mouth dry, and gently place your hand on his shoulder to push him down.
“You should sleep.”
He rolls his eyes, annoyed.
Because you’re not taking him seriously.
Because you’re not listening.
He knows your wounds. He knows everything.
But tonight, alcohol makes him forget, and impatience takes over.
“Did you hear me?”
He grabs your wrist, gently but firmly, just enough to keep you from pulling away.
“I love you.”
“You’ve had too much to drink, Steve.”
“Not enough to not know what I’m saying.”
You try to pull free, but his grip tightens slightly. He doesn’t realize his strength, and you know he doesn’t want to hurt you.
You know he loves you—you feel it in every word, every breath.
The determination in his voice is just another proof of the quiet love he has for you.
But that same determination clashes with yours. Your face hardens.
“Let me go.”
“I won’t until you say yes.”
Your eyes flare. He sees your expression close off and realizes he’s gone too far. Guilt hits him hard.
“I will never let anyone force me again, Steve. Anyone… not even you.”
He hears the sadness in your voice, the echo of your past, and realizes just how deep that invisible wall between you is.
But his own pain takes over. He lets go abruptly and sits up, arms wrapped around his knees.
“So what?” His eyes fix on the wall. “We just keep fucking until you get bored?”
His voice cracks, slightly. Almost bitter.
“How—”
“You know what? Fine.” He gets out of bed without looking at you, all clumsiness gone.
“If that’s the only way you think you’ll heal, or whatever the hell you tell yourself, then let’s keep fucking. That’s all I’m good for anyway.”
You hear him in the bathroom, angry—the sound of his belt, his shirt he can’t even button properly, rushing to leave.
He doesn’t slam the door. He just leaves the key on the table. Because he ultimately doesn't plan to return.
You find it there, alone, and for the first time, you feel the immense void he leaves behind.
Just like you now.
.
You roll your eyes, focusing on applying your mascara properly and ignoring the little voice telling you to stay home.
Eddie is tired of seeing you like this. You know he’s afraid you’ll relapse—you, the fragile thing everyone eventually sees as broken.
The microwave clock pushes you to drink your tea quickly. Eddie shouldn’t be long, but it’s still too hot, so you sit on the couch, holding the mug.
The picture of you and Steve is still there. It mocks you because you can’t bring yourself to take it down.
You resent him, even though you shouldn’t. He had every right to get tired of a woman who offered no future.
He had seen your demons, the ones you fought too hard. He saw your fragility beneath the mask you showed everyone… except him. Because he had broken through your walls.
Of course you were starved for love, just like him. You loved what he made you feel—that love could be gentle, not violent.
But you were so convinced you were broken beyond repair that you never gave him a chance.
But finally understand, I am combustible
You convinced him to leave you. To let you drown so he would walk away.
It was ironic.
You fought so hard not to be fragile, so combustible… and now you were burning from the inside. Because he wasn’t there anymore.
The apartment doorbell echoes through the silence.
You flinch, spilling a bit of tea onto the couch, as the music from the neighboring apartment suddenly blares. Your neighbor has clearly planned a party, and since you haven’t gone out all day, you didn’t see the note he slipped into the mailboxes.
“It’s open!”
You grab a dish towel to wipe up the spill, but a stain is already spreading across the fabric. You hear Eddie’s footsteps in the hallway.
“I’m almost done! Do you want some tea?” You straighten up. “I just need to finish—”
Your heart skips a beat. A cold shiver runs through your entire body. It’s not Eddie standing in front of you.
“Billy.”
“Hey, babe”
.
A week has passed. It’s not much—seven days.
And yet, it feels like an eternity when you’ve “left” the person you love.
Steve has a sinister smile at the thought of having left you, even though you had made it perfectly clear to him that your story was ultimately nothing more than a sex story.
He’s probably overreacting… but that’s what happens when your heart is in pieces, right?
And yet, here he is, on the other side of your street, leaning against his car, hands in his pockets, hesitating.
He wants to go up, to tell you he’s sorry.
That he’s willing to be just that for you—a guy you sleep with, whatever you want, as long as he stays in your life.
He sighs, grimacing at how stupid he feels for accepting that, but he doesn’t see any other way.
He fidgets with his keys for a moment longer before finally deciding to move.
After all, it can’t get worse than it already is. You’re not even together anymore.
Like he’s done it a hundred times, he enters the code to unlock the building and takes the elevator to your floor.
He repeats a speech in his head, something sharp enough to make you give in.
He mutters it under his breath as he steps out of the elevator and turns the corner down the hallway… then freezes.
“Fuck, Eddie!”
His friend’s body lies on the ground, a dark halo of blood spreading across his stomach, the wound still seeping in a slow, horrifying way.
“Eddie!”
He taps his pale face, trying to wake him, but he doesn’t move, his hair sticking to the sweat on his forehead.
“Oh my God…”
A woman steps out of the apartment where music is spilling out, followed by a small group of friends who’ve come outside for some air and a cigarette.
Someone starts shouting to call emergency services, and everything descends into chaos.
And then Steve understands.
He leaves Eddie in the neighbor’s care, gets to his feet abruptly, his hands covered in his friend’s blood, and steps into your apartment.
He doesn’t recognize anything.
The living room is wrecked: the coffee table is overturned, shards of a cup are scattered across the floor, the cushions are strewn about, the couch sits askew as if someone rushed through to reach something… or someone.
His thoughts disappear. His feet move on their own toward the bedroom, following the marks carved into the wall, like a path deliberately left behind.
A dull fear grips him as he pushes the door open.
His fists clenched, he steps inside slowly, flipping on the light, which floods the room harshly.
The nightstands have been thrown against the walls, evidence of a rage that couldn’t be contained—and that now begins to take hold of him.
The bed is ripped open, the cushions torn to shreds, feathers scattered everywhere.
Dark stains blot the pale sheets.
A punishment for having shared that bed with him.
It stands out, brutally, like a stain too dark on something too clean.
The blood isn’t even dry when he brushes against it. His eyes lock onto what lies in the center of the bed: the broken frame.
The photo inside is scratched, but he can still make out your faces, your shy smile.
It’s placed there, as if to mark the reason behind all this rage, all this destruction—a symbol of the happiness you had found in his arms… while fleeing someone else’s.
And now… there’s nothing left.
Just the heavy, freezing silence and the emptiness left by your absence.
Billy found you.
A little nod to Le bonheur de ces dames by Angela Behelle ✨
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steve harrington x fem!reader
summary: you’re jonathan byers’s best friend. you live in hawkins, indiana, and you know everyone in the small town. you work two jobs to help your mom with bills while also managing to be the top of your classes. everything is normal until the day will byers goes missing, and the world as you know it is flipped upside down. and because of that, you form an unlikely friendship with the ‘king’ of your high school, steve harrington.
tags/warnings: steve harrington x fem!reader, use of y/n, mostly canon-compliant reader insert (maybe a few minor changes here or there), swearing, fluff, angst, eventual smut, slow burn, enemies to friends to ??? to lovers, seasons 1-5, mentions of child abandonment/neglect, mentions of dead parents, minor eddie munson x fem!reader, reader lowkey has attachment/abandonment issues, minor miscommunication, i hate murray bauman, writing might be shit idk.
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PART ONE – tell me ‘bout the first time you saw me
chapter one
chapter two
chapter three
PART TWO – you know how to ball, i know aristotle
PART THREE – are you gonna marry, kiss, or kill me?
PART FOUR – i want to find you in a crowd just to hide from you
PART FIVE – no one’s ever had me, not like you
EPILOGUE – you knew what you wanted and, boy, you got her
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a/n: this series was originally posted on wattpad on christmas 2025, and i’m writing the last few chapters right now so i thought this was the best time to start posting it on here + ao3! idk i hope you guys like it. and don't worry, this series is basically completely written so i will still be focusing on writing other fics while posting this! more spidey steve is coming i promise you all.
— summary: steve is jealous of jonathan and head over heels for you. you're jealous of nancy, but you'll never accept that you might like steve. fortunately, there's alcohol and a big pool to sort it all out!
— pairing: steve harrington x female!henderson!reader
—word count: 6.5 k (wow)
— content: +18, smut !!! (minors dni), p in v sex, oral (female receiving), some porn with some plot, unprotected sex, creampie, body worship, friends to lovers, mutual pining, bratty!reader, a bit of angst, reader is jealous of nancy, steve is jealous of jonathan, steve is down BAD, kind of baddie!reader, drunk love confessions, praise kink, size kink, steve being pathetic for the reader as he should.
writer’s note: english is not my mother tongue, so please forgive me if there is a grammatical error. hope you like it!
You met Steve Harrington back at that awful Halloween bash at Tina's where Jonathan practically dragged you along with him. Well, you had first seen him at school, however, you had never spoken, for obvious reasons.
He was a full-blown jerk, clueless, insensitive, and absurdly dull. The type of guy who was the least like your type of guy.
And him? He was hopelessly, devastatingly in love with you. Ever since he had met you that night at Tina's place, you had entered his life as if he was already yours, offering him comfort and a shoulder to cry on through one of the roughest patches of his life.
And to top it all off, you were his best friend's older sister. A feisty full-blown Henderson, a bad-tempered smartass, someone capable of pushing his buttons and turning his world upside down. Sometimes he thought you were even more annoying than Dustin, and that was an understatement.
But he loved you, to the core. You were so fearless, the best sister and friend, always humble, kind-hearted, and selfless.
He told himself it was stupid. He was stupid.
You barely tolerated him.
The first few days of your unlikely and emerging friendship you hardly glanced at him, only greeting him out of politeness.
Then, the first few months had been quite rough, more for him than for you. Because there were days, moments when he would try his heart out to catch your attention, to make you laugh, to at least have you smile at him, just for him.
Because Steve Harrington had always been the kind of boy who was used to being liked. Effortlessly. Girls smiled at him in the hallways, teachers forgave him things they never should have, and life had a funny way of opening doors for him without him even knocking. All his life, everything had been laid out for him on a silver platter; he didn't even have to put in much effort in order to get what he wanted.
But you?
You were a locked door.
You didn't like Steve Harrington.
And yet, you always felt that icy, crushing sense of jealousy creep over you whenever you saw Steve draw closer to Nancy, choose her above others, and compete with Jonathan for her attention and appreciation.
“You know Nancy has a boyfriend, right?” you asked him once, your expression too grim to match the humor in your voice. He had spent most of the afternoon competing with Jonathan over who had killed more monsters from the Upside Down—something completely ridiculous. “And that's Jon?”
Steve huffs at the way you pronounce that nickname, closing the passenger door of your Jeep and settling into the seat. “I was just saying facts. I did kill more shit down there last year. Jonathan wasn't even there.”
“He was in California. What the hell did you want him to do from California, Steve?” you retort in an overly defensive tone, determined to defend the honor of your childhood best friend.
Because of course you would leap to Jonathan's defense. That aggravated Steve even more.
He raises his eyebrows, smirking with triumphant mockery, “Exactly.”
“Can you two stop arguing like an old married couple?” Dustin chimes in, popping up between the two front seats from the back and glaring at you both with a sour look on his face. “And maybe drive? I'm going to be late.”
Steve leans back in his seat, arms crossed, jaw tight.
Jonathan Byers.
It was always Jonathan Byers.
Steve had never said it out loud—because admitting it would make him sound small, petty, exactly the kind of guy he was trying not to be anymore—but the jealousy had been there from the very beginning. From the way Jonathan knew you before he ever did. From the way you laughed more freely around him, softer, unguarded, safe. From the way you touched Jonathan's arm when you talked, a casual familiarity Steve would have killed for.
He hated that Jonathan didn't even have to try.
That he got your trust without earning it.
“So,” Steve mutters, staring out the window, “you and Byers hang out a lot now.”
You had already dropped Dustin off at Mike's house, so the two of you were all alone now, which was a rare occurrence lately.
You glance at him for a fraction of a second, catching the stiffness in his shoulders and jaw, and the way he averts eye contact entirely. He looks like a grumpy little boy, it's kind of funny and cute. “We've been friends since we were kids. We've always hung out.”
“Yeah. I know,” he says quickly, as if the words were venom on his tongue. “Just saying.”
There it is. He's such a passive-aggressive jerk when it comes to Jonathan.
“You're always just saying things about him,” you shoot back. "What's your problem, Harrington?”
That finally makes him look at you.
“Problem? My problem?” he laughs, sharp and humorless. He looks awkward now, a little self-conscious. “Nothing. Why would I have a problem?”
Probably because Jonathan is your best friend.
Because when you're scared, you reach for him first.
Because he knows things about you Steve doesn't—and maybe never will.
You sigh, exhausted, shaking your head disapprovingly. “You act like he's done some evil thing to you.”
Steve swallows. “He hasn't.”
That's the worst part.
Because Jonathan Byers had never been really cruel to him. Sure, he disliked him as much as Steve disliked him, and he kind of stole Nancy from him when they were still together, but he had never been intentionally rude.
Jonathan was just... there. Steady. Familiar. Important. Close.
Everything Steve wanted to be.
He also knew that you weren't exactly his type.
Because the truth was, you never had been.
You were better.
You were someone who saw meaning in shadows, who believed stories could save people, who challenged him without trying to change him. You saw him as he really was. You see him.
Jonathan was your person. Your best friend.
But, no matter what, Steve had always been special enough.
It made no sense, and you hated that the feeling existed at all.
Because you didn't want Steve Harrington.
You didn't like his stupid hair, or the way he pretended not to care when things hurt him, or how he filled silence with silly jokes. You definitely didn't like how easily people forgave him, how quickly Nancy Wheeler smiled at him, how natural it seemed for her to fit at his side.
So why did your stomach twist every time you caught him looking at her?
You told yourself it was protectiveness. That you were just being a good sister. A good friend. Dustin adored Steve, and maybe—maybe—you were just afraid he'd get hurt again.
But that lie got harder to swallow the longer it went on.
Because Steve had a bad habit of showing up when things fell apart. When your mom was working late and you kept having nightmares, Steve was right there, answering your three-in-the-morning phone call without hesitation. When the world went to hell—literally—Steve never ran. He stayed. Bloody, shaking, terrified, but still standing between danger and the people he loved.
Between danger and you.
And you hated how safe he made you feel.
There were nights when you sat across from him on the floor of your room, knees almost touching, sharing a blanket and a silence that felt too heavy to be accidental, a long-forgotten movie was playing on your television screen. You might not have paid attention to it, nor did you appreciate its corny jokes, but his laughter was all it took to make your day and night. His laughter was softer around you, more careful.
Falling for Steve Harrington felt like stepping off a cliff without knowing if there was ground below.
It had started innocently enough, in one of those impromptu gatherings that somehow always ended up at Steve's big house because his parents were never home and because, for some reason, he never said no when someone needed a place.
You remember that night very clearly.
Robin had shown up first, already halfway through a stolen bottle of something that tasted like regret and cough syrup. And Nancy and Jon showed up together a few minutes later, swearing they wouldn't get all lovey-dovey with booze in their system.
And then there was you.
Sitting cross-legged on the living room floor, back against the couch, laughing harder than you meant to as Robin—dramatically as ever— was telling you about the times at Scoops Ahoy, and how Steve kept blowing his flirting attempts with pretty girls.
At some point, with the sun already setting on the horizon of an uncharacteristically quiet Hawkins, the alcohol softened the edges of the room.
So, someone suggested the pool like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Robin was the first one in, cannonballing without warning and shrieking at the cold water. Nancy followed shortly after, already in their swimsuits, laughter bright and careless, Jonathan close behind her.
You stayed seated on the edge, feet dangling just above the water, denim already warm from the sunset, watching them with an amused smile.
“Come on, Henderson,” Robin calls, eyes glinting with trouble. “Live a little.”
“I didn't bring a swimsuit,” you protest, pointing down at yourself. “Unlike you degenerates.”
“And? That's never stopped anyone before,” she chirps too cheerfully, creeping dangerously close to you.
You don't even have time to register her next movement.
One second Robin is grinning at you, the next her hands are on you, and then—
You scream.
Cold water swallows you whole, clothes and all, the shock ripping the air from your lungs. When you resurface, sputtering and furious, the sound of laughter echoes around the backyard of Steve's big mansion.
“Buckley!” you whine out, hair plastered to your face, shirt clinging uncomfortably to your skin. “What the hell is wrong with you?”
“I regret nothing!” she shouts back, already retreating as Nancy splashed her in retaliation, laughing heartily.
Steve hadn't laughed.
He was already at the edge of the pool, crouched down, concern etched into his face as he reached out instinctively, his absurdly overpriced beer bottle abandoned on the ground, and his sunglasses — totally unnecessary since it was late afternoon — propped up in his hair.
“Hey—hey, you okay?”
You nod, still catching your breath, suddenly very aware of how soaked you were. How cold. How exposed.
“Yeah,” you respond, sulking. “I'm gonna fucking kill her in her sleep.”
Steve snorts softly, relief washing over him. “Yeah, That's the bare minimum we expect from you.”
He hesitates just for half a second before standing up and helps you out of the pool, hands tightly holding yours, one of them sliding down to your waist, with an awkward, hesitant touch.
His chocolate-brown eyes are glowing every time they shift from your chest to your face and back again, taking in how see-through the damp fabric of your shirt is now. “Uh... you can borrow something of mine— I mean, if you want. So you don't freeze.”
You blink at him, hugging yourself and feeling a little self-conscious. “You sure?”
It's strange to say the least. You'd had a few tough weeks, you had grown a little distant from each other since that thing on your car. Out of some silly jealousy, that's why.
And still, Steve is treating you with the same decency and care as in your glory days as friends. Just like always.
He shrugs, pretending it was no big deal. “Yeah. I've got like... a million hoodies.”
That is an understatement.
You follow him back inside his house, dripping quietly through the empty halls, covering yourself with a towel that he had handed you, the noise from outside muffling behind you. Steve leads you upstairs, steps careful, like he is afraid to scare you off.
“My room's—uh—here,” he says, pushing the door open.
Even though you had been to his house several times, for whatever reason, you had never been in his room before. So this was a new experience for you. One that, even though you didn't want to admit it, you found particularly intriguing.
And it is... nothing like you expected.
Not messy. Not careless. But warm. Thoughtful.
Your eyes wander before you could stop them.
A stack of vinyl records sat neatly by his turntable—records you recognize immediately. Your favorites. The ones you'd mentioned once, offhandedly, during a late-night conversation you hadn't thought he remembered.
There are movies too. VHS tapes lined carefully along a shelf—old horror, indie films, that one foreign movie you loved and had insisted was misunderstood. A couple of well-worn books lay stacked on his nightstand, spines cracked, margins dog-eared.
You pick one up slowly.
“This is... mine,” you say softly. “I mean—this is my favorite.”
Steve is frozen in place, turning to face you from within his open closet doors, previously very involved in a search for a pair of shorts that are preferably smaller than the ones he usually wears and a hoodie, for you.
“Oh. Yeah. You said you liked it,” he replies, too casually, spectacularly downplaying the significance of the situation.
You turn to him, eyes landing on the broad expanse of his back as he went back into digging through his clothes. “Steve... you don't— you don't even read.”
He laughs nervously, still not looking at you. “I do, sugar. N-now.”
The nickname slips out casually, he says it so sweetly. It's the first time you've heard him call you that in days. And it brings a cute little smile to your face.
There are photos pinned crookedly to a corkboard near his desk. Not trophies. Not popularity. Not reminders of who he used to be. Just moments.
Dustin missing a teeth. Robin mid-laugh. One of you, sitting on the floor back at your house, unaware, smiling at something just out of frame. Probably Steve.
You stare at that picture longer than you mean to.
It's candid. Soft. You're younger there, unguarded in a way you rarely allow yourself to be. It makes something tight coil low in your chest.
“Why do you have that?” you ask quietly.
Steve doesn't answer right away, he flicks a glance at you and then his eyes move down to the photo you're holding in your hands.
And when he does, his voice is low, stripped of bravado. “Because you look happy.”
And cute. And pretty. Like, the most gorgeous sight he's ever seen.
He digs a little more through his closet and finally, hands you a pair of Nike shorts and a hoodie—one of his favorites, judging by how worn the cuffs are.
The hoodie swallows you whole, warm and smelling like him. Soap. Shampoo. His perfume that is so masculine and yet, soft. So Steve.
You don't miss the way his eyes linger on you as he enters back into is room, once you let him know that you had already changed.
“Okay,” you start, crossing your arms, suddenly very aware of the way your heart is misbehaving. “So. You collect my favorite records. You read my books. You keep pictures of me like some sort of—”
“Please don't say serial killer,” he interrupts weakly and extremely embarrassed.
You snort, sitting down on the edge of his bed, slightly dizzy from the alcohol. “—like some sort of sentimental idiot.”
That gets a smile out of him. Real. Soft. A little sad. Like, drunk sad.
“Look,” he says, gesturing dramatically with his hands and walking towards you wearing an embarrassed little smile, “you don't have to make it weird—”
You're smart and quick enough to cut him off, of course. “You already did that, Harrington.”
“Fair.” He exhales, blushing so much both out of embarrassment and out of the quantity of beer consumed in the evening, “I just... I like knowing what matters to you. I'm trying to keep up,” his voice keep lowering gently as he continues, “I just— I just like you a lot—,” suddenly he is just a babbling mess of rushed words, “I like being with you, like, your company,” he shrugs, making an effort to appear casual, “so, you know, I-I care.”
I like you.
Not loved. Not needed. Just—there. Honest. Low. Patient.
You smile softly, shaking your head as you look up at him with eyes gleaming with longing and drunkenness. “You're drunk, Harrington.”
“Yeah,” he agrees easily, smiling too, “and so are you, sugar.”
“Yeah but, I get you, I like you too, Stevie.”
The way you pronounce his nickname rings like sweet music to Steve's ears. You almost never say it. And he absolutely hates that nickname, but coming from you, it's different. He loves it. He'd listen to you say it all day if he could.
You smile back at him. God, you smile at him so easily when you let yourself. Or like now, when you're not sober.
You're smiling a lot.
Steve takes a seat on his bed next to you very cautiously, making sure he is holding your gaze. He sits so close that your shoulders brush against each other. But you don't pull away. And neither does he.
“And—” he says suddenly holds back for a moment, unsure whether to continue speaking or not, but then decides to go ahead anyway, “Jonathan.”
“Jonathan...” you repeat, slurring out the name.
Steve swallows. “Is it—” he stops, shakes his head once. “Is there something I'm not seeing?”
You frown slightly, not quite understanding exactly what he's getting at. “Meaning...?”
He forces himself to look at you now, brown eyes searching your face, not accusatory—just honest, curious and vulnerable all over.
Sober, you're the smartest person Steve knows. However, as soon as a drop of alcohol hits your system, your brain seems to go into stand-by mode, as if it were on vacation. Or maybe you're just playing dumb.
“Are you in love with him?”
The question lands softly.
That's what makes it hurt.
You blink, caught off guard by how gentle he sounds, regardless of the heavy topic he is bringing up. And in spite of that, he doesn't look or sound as defensive as he always is when it comes to Jonathan Byers.
“I—” You hesitate, then sigh, leaning back on your hands, sighing heavily and frowning, blinking really slow. “Jonathan's my best friend. He always has been.”
“I know,” Steve says quickly, looking down at you. “I'm not— I'm not saying it like it's a bad thing.”
“Well, you sound like it,” you smile a little, a kind of silly, carefree smile that you hardly ever show.
Steve opens and closes his mouth, stammering words out, “So... you've never—?”
“No,” you answer, shaking your head and wincing in disgust, “Ew, dude. That's sick to even think about. He's like a brother to me.”
Relief flickers across his face before he can stop it.
You notice.
“Good, that's good,” he breathes out the air he had been holding in his lungs, casting his gaze away from you toward the floor, blushing.
You tilt your head, studying him with narrowed eyes. “You care an awful lot for someone who claims he doesn't have a problem with Byers.”
Steve huffs out a laugh, shaking his head, suddenly on the defensive again. His lips twist into a grimace before he speaks. “Well, you've been spending a lot of time with him lately. It does seem a little suspicious.” He shrugs his shoulders dismissively. “Nancy and I thought for a moment that you two were onto something.”
“There it is,” you whisper, rolling your eyes. “This is what you do. You get weird and defensive and then act like I'm the problem.”
“I'm not saying you are,” he snaps back, sharper than before. The alcohol makes his edges rougher, his honesty more reckless. “I just don't get why you're always going out with him lately, always choosing him.”
That makes you sit up straighter, now you're a tiny bit more on the defensive. “I don't choose him.”
“You do,” Steve insists, finally looking at you again, eyes dark and earnest. “Every time. When something's wrong. When you need someone. When you—” he cuts off his own words as he gestures vaguely, frustrated. “You don't even notice you do it.”
You swallow, anger softening into something more complicated. “You don't get to be jealous, Steve. You don't get to act like this when you're still—” you hesitate, the bitterness of jealousy stinging your tongue. “When you're still half in love with Nancy”
He stands abruptly, raising his hands in offense. He looks very offended. “I am not—"
“You so are!” you fire back, standing too. “Everyone can see it. You look at her like she hung the damn stars, and then you turn around and accuse me of being in love with my best friend?”
Your eyes are brimming with tears of anger, frustration, and disappointment, but your words speak a completely different story. They are full of resentment: “And then you get angry out of nowhere and drift away from me and accuse me of something I haven’t even done, and suddenly I feel like I’m the problem!” Steve keeps quiet, gazing at you with the same anguish reflected in your eyes. “Why are you keep doing this? Why are you pushing me away?”
“Because I love you!”
The room goes quiet, awfully quiet.
The ringing in your ears from the rage suddenly vanishes, replaced by that deafening, heavy silence.
Steve is breathing hard, his chest heaving as if he's just run a marathon, his hands still raised in that defensive gesture that now looks more like he's trying to catch the words he just threw into the air.
“W-what?” you manage, the word barely catching on your vocal cords.
Steve looks like he wants the floor to swallow him whole, but he doesn't look away. Not this time.
“You heard me,” he says, his voice losing its edge, turning raw and shaky. “I'm not in love with Nancy, okay? I haven't been for a long time. It's always been about trying to find... I don't know— maybe, a way to make you look at me the way you look at Jonathan. To be that important to you.”
He takes a step closer, pressing into this kind of invisible void that always kept you two apart, a protective barrier you had built around yourself, now trembling on the verge of collapse.
“It's you. It's always been you.” Steve continues, very much at odds with the dismissive expression on your face, lost for words. “Since that night at Tina's. You were so mean to me, and all I could think was, 'God, I hope she never stops talking to me.'”
He laughs, a low, self-deprecating sound that makes your heart ache in your chest.
“I read those stupid books because I wanted to understand why you liked them. I bought those records because I wanted my house to sound like a place you'd actually want to stay,” he brushes his fingers through his hair, voicing every thought that crosses his mind, his eyes filling with tearful emotion that overwhelms his heart, capitalizing on your uncharacteristic quietness. “I'm an idiot— I know. I'm a sentimental, clueless idiot because you— you are all I see. I see you when I try to imagine my future. With me. In a big house, with a dog and a cat and a couple of little kids who look just like you, with your beautiful smile and your big eyes and your brilliance. You are my future, my dream.”
You shake your head, blinking away a few tears. “I should go.”
You barely take two steps before his hand closes around your wrist.
It's careful—like he's giving you time to pull away.
You don't.
Your lips find his, warm and hesitant at first, then deeper, fuller, as everything you've both been holding back spills into that single moment. His hand loosens around your wrist, sliding up to cup your cheek instead, thumb brushing softly through your skin.
His other hand swings up and closes the door behind you, leaning against it, pressing you between the wooden surface and his body.
You break away from him just enough to catch your breath before kissing him again, more passionately, more feverishly.
Steve's kiss is everything you hadn't allowed yourself to imagine: desperate, yet incredibly tender, as if he were trying to memorize the texture of your lips.
His hands, usually so confident, tremble slightly as they move from your face to your waist, bunching the fabric of his own oversized hoodie that you are wearing.
“So smart, yet such a brat sometimes,” he mumbles hot against your mouth, his voice a jagged wreck of its usual charm. “Always got something to snarl back. Always slipping away from me.”
“Just shut the fuck up, Harrington,” you breathe out, your hands winding into the thick hair at the nape of his neck, pulling him closer. “You knew what you were getting into.”
Steve groans, a low vibration you feel in your own throat, and shifts his weight. He pressed his hips firmly against yours, pinning you to the door. The friction sends a jolt of electricity straight to your core, turning your knees into jelly.
He begins to trail kisses down the column of your neck, his warm tongue grazing your sensitive skin. You tilt your head back, a shaky gasp escaping you as his teeth caught on the spot where your shoulder met your neck.
“You have no idea,” he whispers, his breath hot against your collarbone, “how many times I've sat in this room, listening to those records, just wishing you were here. Having you just like this...”
He pulls back just enough to look you in the eye, his gaze dark and heavy with a possessiveness that made your heart hammer against your ribs. He reaches down, his fingers hooking under the hem of the hoodie, slowly sliding the soft fabric upward.
“Is this okay?” he asks softly, in contrast to the wild, dark desire that burned in his eyes.
You don't answer with words. Instead, you reach for the hem of his own shirt, tugging it upward in a silent invitation.
Steve don't need to be told twice. He pulls his shirt over his head and toss it blindly into the shadows of his room. When he presses back against you, the contact is electric.
He lifts you effortlessly, your legs instinctively wrapping around his waist as he carries you the few short steps toward the bed, the party downstairs sounding like it belongs to a completely different world now.
The springs of the mattress squeaks under the weight of both of you as Steve lowers you down, his body a heavy, welcome heat following you closely. He doesn't break the connection for a second, his mouth finding yours again with a frantic hunger that tastes like expensive beer and desperate longing.
The soft fabric of his own hoodie is bunched around your ribs, and Steve's large hands are everywhere—mapping the skin he'd only ever dream of touching like this.
When his palms slid up your sides, grazing the undersides of your breasts, you let out a sharp, needy sound that was lost in his mouth.
“Steve,” you gasp, your back arching off the bed as he finds a particularly sensitive spot behind your ear.
Your hands are busy, too, wandering over the firm muscles of his broad back, feeling the way he tenses and shudders under your touch.
“You're so fucking pretty,” he coos, breaking away to trail a line of biting kisses down to your jaw. “You drive me crazy”
He seats up slightly, straddling your hips, his chest heaving as he gazes in awe down at you. The moonlight from the window catch the sweat glistening on his skin and the sheer, unadulterated devotion in his eyes. Without a word, he reaches down and pulls the hoodie over your head finally, tossing it to the floor to join his shirt.
You feel a momentary flash of shyness, but it vanishes the second Steve's eyes darkens, his breath hitching.
“God, you're beautiful,” he whispers, his voice thick with desire and adoration. “It's not even close to what I had imagined.”
“Did you imagine it?” you manage to ask, sheepishly battling your lashes at him, biting your lower lip.
Steve lets out a huff, running his hand along the curve of your waist and leaning back down toward you, his eyes sparking with nothing but pure adoration, teasing your lips for a kiss, “Every goddamn day.”
As he speaks, you reach up to unhook your bra, and Steve licks his lips as he takes in the sight of your pretty tits laid bare for him.
His hands comes down your body, cupping a breast with a reverence that made your blood boil. He leans down, his tongue swirling around one nipple before taking the tit into his mouth, his suction firm and demanding.
You moan out, your fingers digging into his shoulders, your hips instinctively bucking against his.
Steve groans against your skin, his hand sliding down, past the waistband of his own shorts on you, his fingers seeking the heat he knew was waiting so patiently for him. When he finds it, already slick and aching for him, your eyes roll back in your head.
“You want this?” he asks, his voice a low growl of a challenge, his thumb rhythmically grazing your wet folds. “You want me? I need words, baby”
“I want you, Steve,” you whine, your voice breaking with emotion. “Please—”
That is the breaking point. The patience he'd spent months cultivating snaps. He moves with a new, feral urgency, shedding the rest of your clothes until there is nothing left to obstruct his way onto you.
And then, he eats your pussy like it is his very last meal, lapping and drinking in everything you have to offer, every bit of wetness from you.
His tongue feels so familiar against you, as if it had known you all its life, as if its sole purpose is to consume you. It traces its way between your folds, all the way up to your clit and back down again, sliding in just deep enough to knock the air out of your lungs.
Steve, Steve, Steve...
You moan out his name like a prayer.
“You taste so good,” he marvels in awe, “so sweet, sweetheart”
Steve pulls back for just a second, his face flush and his hair a wild, beautiful mess, but he doesn't go far. He looks up at you from between your thighs, his eyes dark with a mix of hunger and a raw, vulnerable worship that makes your heart ache even more than your body.
He watches your face as his thumb continues the job to swirl against your clit, circling with a agonizingly perfect pressure that has you gripping the sheets until your knuckles turns white.
“I've spent every night for months wondering what you'd sound like,” he coaxes, his voice vibrating against your inner thigh. “Thinking about you cumming for me...”
He doesn't give you a chance to retort with some smartass comment.
He dives back into your cunt, his tongue moving with a relentles, purposefully pace that push you right to the edge.
You are crying out his name now, your head tossing back against the pillow as the first waves of a massive climax begin to roll through you.
Steve doesn't slow down; he drinks you, his hands holding your thighs firmly so you can't escape the pleasure, grounding you as the world shatters into a thousand bright sparks.
“Cum for me, baby.” he coos, already too pussy drunk to even form a rational thought more than to please you, “Cum on my tongue, yeah, just like that”
“Holy shit, Stevie—” you hiccup, feeling tears blur your vision, a wave of pleasure unleashing from deep in your belly. “I'm cumming—hmph!”
Steve gulps down all you give him like it is some kind of holy water.
You open your eyes, blurred with tears and lust, and see him. His chin and mouth are dripping with your essence, his dark, piercing eyes in awe of how your pussy is clenching around his fingers.
He doesn't pull away. He hovers there, hands trembling as they gripped your thighs, watching the way your chest heaved and your eyes struggle to focus on him.
“You okay?” he whispers, his voice cracking. He reaches up, using the back of his hand to gently wipe a stray tear from your cheek, his touch surprisingly light for someone so clearly on the edge. “I didn't... I wasn't too rough? You're good?”
You can't even find an answer. Your body is still humming, the aftershocks of the orgasm making your muscles twitch.
So you just nod, “I'm perfect, Steve. P-please keep going, I need more.”
He moves right up, crawling over your pretty body, ready for him, his skin feels hot and slick against yours.
He moves closer to you and kiss your mouth, making you savor your own taste through him, his hands appreciatively caressing your thighs, palming the fat of your ass.
“Tell me if it's too much, yeah?" Steve breathes out, his forehead dropping low to rest against yours. “I've wanted this for so long, I don't want to mess it up. I don't want to hurt you, sugar.”
“Just fuck me already, Harrington,” you hiss right back, looking up at him with eyes half-closed in ecstasy, squeezing his forearm eagerly.
Steve sucks in a breath, leaning in close to kiss you once more, “Such a little brat.”
Then, he stands up, swiftly stripping off his pants and boxers under your attentive gaze. He is a handsome boy, always has been. His physique is strong, his shoulders are broad, his biceps are muscular, his six-pack is slightly marked, and beads of sweat roll down his tanned skin. You are drooling at the mouth from the urge of wanting to sweep your tongue along it, scooping up the salty sweat.
And he's so big that it has you in a chokehold. You really can't resist letting your eyes drift down. His cock is so hard that it looks painful, with a plump head dripping with pre-cum, twitching for you.
He kicks his clothes aside without a glance and moves back over you, the mattress dipping under his weight as he settles in between your spread thighs.
He doesn't just dive in. Instead, he takes a second to look at you—really look at you—lying there, flushed and open, so ready and eager for him, your hair forming a wild halo against his pillows.
He knows he can cum right there just by seeing you like that.
Steve reaches blindly toward the nightstand, his fingers fumbling with the drawer until he pulls out a small, square foil packet.
His breathing is ragged, his eyes never leaving yours even as he starts to tear the edge with his teeth. He looks so fucking hot.
As he starts to pull the condom out, you reach up towards him, your palm flat against his heaving chest, feeling the frantic gallop of his heart.
“Steve,” you whisper, your voice thick with demanding.
“I know, baby, I know, just—one second,” he mumbles absentmindedly, his fingers shaking slightly as he tries to roll it on.
“No,” you tell him, firmer this time. You hook your fingers into his, pulling the half-open condom away. “Don't. I want to feel you. All of you. Please”
Steve freezes. He looks down at you, his pupils so blown they've nearly swallowed the chocolate-brown of his irises. “Honey... I don't— are you sure? I don't want to—”
“I'm sure,” you interrupt, your legs winding around his waist, pulling his hips flush against yours. You can feel exactly how much he wants this, how hard his cock is, rubbing against your inner thigh. “Go raw, Stevie. Please, baby.”
The condom is abandoned, fluttering to the carpeted floor, forgotten.
“Holy shit, you're going to be the death of me,” Steve breathes out tremulously, his voice dropping into a register so low it sends a fresh wave of heat through you.
He lets out a low, guttural sound—half-sob, half-growl—and finally guide himself to your entrance. He pushes his bulbous head in between your wet folds very slowly, a steady, relentless inching that makes your eyes roll back.
Steve is so big and hot, filling every empty space you don't even know you have, even when his cock is just halfway inside your pussy. You felt your breath hitch as your body stretching to your fucking limit to accommodate around his size, the sensation so intense it was almost overwhelming.
“Oh, baby, there you go. You're doing so good, mhm. Breath for me, sugar, yeah?”
One inch, a trembling hot praise whispered against your ear, another inch, another soft praise...
And he goes like that until he is buried all the way to the hilt inside your fluttering pussy, his forehead resting against yours, both of you frozen in that perfect, overwhelming moment of connection. You are breathing the same air, your nails clawing up his back, his are gripping the bedsheets on either side of your shoulders.
Steve groans, burying his face in the crook of your neck, his body shuddering at the sheer sensation of finally being home.
“Jesus Christ, you're so tight,” he whimpers, beginning to move. “You feel perfect, you're perfect”
Each thrust is slow, deliberate, and deep—a physical manifestation of every word he'd been too scared to say.
You lock your legs around his slim waist, pulling him even deeper, meeting every one of his thrusts with a desperate hunger of your own. The rhythmic "slap, slap, slap!" of skin against skin and the sound of your shared, ragged breathing fill the room, drowning out the distant music still sounding from the pool little party.
“Steve... please,” you whimper his name again and again, the knot growing tighter in the lower part of your belly, more intense than before.
“I got you, baby. I'm right here, hm?” he responds to your cries, leaning down to kiss each of your flushed cheeks, gently licking away a couple of stray tears that keep slipping from your pretty eyes. “I'm right here...”
He shows you. One of his hands lands on your lower belly, where the outline of his cock is clearly visible every time he fucks in and out of your messy pussy and then, Steve presses down just a little to get both of you to sigh, both feeling the pressure of his hand's weight.
And when Steve pulls out of you, he doesn't just shove back in again; he is agonizingly slow now, savoring the way your body stretched out and yielded to him, inch by excruciating inch.
Steve quickens the pace, his jaw tight, sweat dripping from his forehead onto your chest. He is relentless, pushing you higher and higher until you find that sensation of that familiar coil tightening in your gut once more.
He leans down, capturing your mouth in a searing kiss just as you break, your body pulsing around him. He could feel you were close, he could feel it every time he slid back inside you, bullying your cervix like he’s determined to mold your pussy to the shape of his cock. Your warm, plush walls contracting all around him, taking in his entire length right down to his base.
He's buried balls deep now, his hips slamming against yours with a raw, primal rhythm. And then, Steve suddenly slow down just a fraction, his muscles trembling with a fucking Herculean effort of holding back and not bust a nut right there.
“Steve, I'm—”
He pulls back a few inches, his face flushed a deep, beautiful red, sweat dripping from his chin onto your chest as he rests weakly on your tits.
“I know, I know,” he knows, his lips grazing one of your nipples as he speaks, drooling all over your skin. “Right there with you, baby. I'm—I'm so close. I can't... I can't hold it much longer. Where do you want it?”
“Inside,” you manage to choke out, your fingers digging into his hips to pull him back down and back inside you. “Fill me up, Steve. Don't you dare pull out.”
A low, feral growl rips from his throat at your words, a sound you had never heard come from him.
Steve is a good boy and he obeys you, as always, so, he surges forward, burying himself to the absolute hilt, and gives three more devastatingly deep, fast thrusts that have you seeing stars on the ceiling of his room.
“I love you,” he cries into your neck, his voice muffled by your skin as he finally lets go, pumping hot spurts of his cum right into your welcoming womb.
Soon, you have him reduced to nothing more than a wobbly, crying mess all over you, laying there on your chest all worn out.
You too are a fucking mess, cumming, earth-shatteringly, for the second time under the weight of his body, the suffocating sensation of his love and worship lavishing all over you and in you.
You can swear you see the entire universe flashing right over the expanse of his shoulders, and you can feel the heat radiating from its flames burning through your fingertips. Stars twinkling on his skin, lighting up each of his freckles and moles spread across his body like a constellation.
For a long moment, neither of you move.
The world slowly crawls back around you—the distant music downstairs, the hum of the house settling, the soft night light slipping in through the window.
Steve is still inside you, breathing hard, his forehead pressing against your shoulder like he needs the contact to stay grounded.
He presses a gentle kiss on your shoulder before leaning back just enough to look at you.
“I'm— I'm sorry,” he murmurs suddenly, panic threading his voice as he pulls back a little more. “Not sorry like I regret it, just— are you okay?”
“I'm fine,” you reply, flashing a sheepish, lazy smile.
After double-checking that you are indeed okay, with his teeth nibbling on his lower lip, he pulls out of you, carefully, delicately.
He then spends a good ten minutes cleaning you up, running a clean cloth between your legs, thighs, belly, with such care that it sometimes tickles you due to the overstimulation.
And after that, Steve collapses beside you on the bed, careful to tug a blanket over both of you, pulling you against his side. His arm wraps around you instinctively, protective, familiar—like he'd been doing this with you in another life.
You rest your head on his chest, listening to his heart slowly calm down beneath your ear.
“I meant it. What I said earlier,” he says after a little while, voice quiet now, stripped bare, gruff from all the moans and whimpers you got out of him. “I love you.”
You don't answer right away.
Not because you don't feel it—but because saying it out loud suddenly feels huge.
Steve's fingers still for half a second on your waist.
“You don't have to say it back,” he adds quickly. “I just needed you to know.”
You tilt your head up, meeting his eyes in the dim light and you lean in and kiss him—slow this time, soft, nothing desperate about it.
Steve's lips are warm, familiar already, like something you don't realize you'd been missing until it is finally there, all for you. When you pull back, his forehead rests against yours, noses brushing, both of you breathing each other in.
“I love you too”
You carefully lie down on top of him now, on your stomach, pressing against his chest. One of his hands lingers on your lower back, affectionately caressing the curve of your ass, and the other is gently stroking strands of your hair behind your ear.
He exhales shakily, a sound that's half a laugh, half disbelief. “Okay,” he gasps. “Okay. Wow.”
You huff out a soft laugh against his chest. “Is that all you've got, Harrington?”
“Hey,” he protests weakly, palming your ass now, more playfully. “I just confessed my undying love and then had my entire soul rearranged. I need a minute.”
You sigh and nestle closer to him, your legs tangling with his under the blanket. “You're gonna be so annoying about this.”
“Oh, unbearably so,” he chirps. “I'm thinking lots of 'remember when you hated me' jokes.”
“You know,” you say casually, like you're commenting on the weather, your fingers toy lightly with the hairs on his chest, “it's actually really pathetic.”
Steve squints at you, but he is so happy he could fly. “Why do I feel like I'm about to be bullied?”
“You listened to all my favorite records,” you explain, pressing into his skin every time you name something else. “The sad ones. The pretentious ones. You watched my movies. You read my books.”
He opens his mouth. Closes it. “...okay?”
You tilt your head, holding back a teasing smile. “Like, that's loser behavior.”
Steve shrugs, completely unbothered. “I listened to your records. I read your books. I watched your sad little movies.” He pauses, then tilts his head, grin widening. He is triumphant. “But you still fucked me. So, technically? I won.”
You groan. “I take it back. I don't love you.”
He is laughing, hugging you so tight you can't ever pull away from him.
The edges of your soul (I haven't seen yet) ⭐︎ S.H.
⭐︎ Warnings: 18+ mdni! post apocalypse, character death, angst, mean!steve, grumpy!steve x sunshine!reader, blood, wounds -- all the gory stuff, smut in the future chapters, hurt/comfort
⭐︎ Pairing: Grumpy!Steve Harrington x sunshine(fem)!reader
⭐︎ Summary: Everything he once knew, is gone, dead and buried, burned to the ground and turned into ash. All he has known is loss, death and pain, he despised this world, until it brought you to him -- the sunshine he had long forgotten. Light he will follow till the very end.
⭐︎ In collaboration with @hellfire--cult
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Prologue ☀︎ When the sun hits, she'll be waiting
Chapter one ☀︎ Welcome and Goodbye
Chapter two ☀︎ Can you see right through me?
Chapter three ☀︎ You’re the greatest thing we’ve lost
Chapter four ☀︎ While I'm alone and blue as can be
Chapter five ☀︎ Watching cityscapes turn to dust
Chapter six ☀︎ The killing time. Unwillingly mine.
Chapter seven ☀︎ Fall back into place. Fall back...
Chapter eight ☀︎ Dead-eyed. Dead weight.
Chapter nine ☀︎ Pull the trigger on the gun I gave you when we met
Chapter ten ☀︎ Turn me into something tragic, just for you, I let it happen
Chapter eleven ☀︎ And I'll fear no evil because I'm blind to it all
Chapter twelve ☀︎ You’re a bandit like me. Eyes full of stars
Chapter thirteen ☀︎ Then this heart would break and fall as twice as far
Chapter fourteen ☀︎ The devil in your eyes, won't deny the lies you've sold
Chapter fifteen ☀︎ Every print I left upon the track has led me here
Chapter sixteen ☀︎ One day I am gonna grow wings...
Chapter seventeen ☀︎ Now I'm racing for what to do, all roads lead me right back to you
Chapter eighteen ☀︎ I'll give you all that I can, as long as you'll wait for me there
Chapter nineteen ☀︎ When you’re lying between my legs, it doesn’t matter
Chapter twenty ☀︎ If you can't survive, just try
Chapter twenty one ☀︎ Look into my eyes and baby, whisper
Chapter twenty two ☀︎ If anyone could’ve saved me, it would’ve been you
Chapter twenty three ☀︎ We could be safer, just for one day
This is single handedly one of the best pieces of writing that have ever graced my computer. I started bingeing this the other day and couldn't bring myself to do anything else.
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After being forced to relocate when men from Hawkins Lab find you, Steve finds your new abode with just one clue from your phone call. You discuss your powers and what happens next.
notes — experiment!reader (reader is 009), mentions of Hawkins Lab, past torture/abuse, medical trauma, referenced experimentation, emotional distress, protective!Steve, angst, violence, implied sexual assault, i'm sorry but tw this gets extremely dark, suicide, death, mental manipulation, hurt/comfort
Steve harrington x fem!reader, 3.8k words
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Steve has been walking for hours.
The woods at night are darker than he expected — darker than that first night, when he found you huddled against the oak tree.
Back then, he'd had the rain to guide him, the sound of your sobs cutting through the storm. Now there's only silence, and the moon, and the desperate hope that he's going the right way.
Heart, you'd said. Heart. Remember?
He remembers. Of course he remembers. That oak tree with the carved heart — he'd noticed it the night he found you, had run his fingers over the rough etching. He'd wondered who carved it, and when, and why.
The tree is easy enough to find. He's been there before, after all. But finding the tree is just the beginning. You'd said heart, and he knows you well enough by now to know you meant more than just the tree itself.
So he starts walking. Circles, at first, expanding outward from the oak like ripples in a pond. He looks for paths, for broken branches, for any sign that someone has been this way before.
And then he sees it. A small trail, barely visible, leading deeper into the woods. The beginning of the path looks like a heart. He smiles.
The trail winds through the trees, up a small rise, down into a hollow. And there, almost invisible against the darkness, is a cabin.
He moves forward, careful, quiet, his heart pounding so loud he's sure they can hear it. He doesn't know who else might be out here — the men who attacked the first cabin, maybe, or worse.
He keeps his hand ready, though he doesn't have a weapon. He didn't think to bring one. He only thought of you.
The cabin door is old, solid. He raises his hand to knock—
And then it opens. Hopper is standing there.
For a second, neither of them moves. Then Hopper's face shifts — relief, maybe, or something like it. "Took you long enough," he says quietly.
Steve laughs, a shaky, breathless sound. "Is she — is she okay?"
"She's inside. Asleep." Hopper steps back, letting him in. "Go on."
Steve doesn't need to be told twice. The cabin is small, warm, lit by a single lamp. A kitchen in the corner, a little sofa, a door that must lead to the bedroom. He's halfway across the room when said door opens.
And there you are. You're standing in the doorway in bare feet and the sweater he gave you — his sweater, you're wearing his sweater — and your eyes are wide and wet and fixed on his face. "Steve?" you whisper.
He can't speak. He can't move. He can only stand there, drinking you in, alive and whole and real.
You cross the room so fast you nearly fall, and then you're in his arms, your face buried in his chest, your hands gripping his jacket like he might disappear. He holds you just as tight, his face pressed to your hair, his eyes squeezed shut.
"I found you," he breathes. "I found you, angel."
"You came," you breathe. "You came, you came, you came."
"Of course I came." He pulls back just enough to look at your face, to cup it in his hands. "I'll always come. Always."
You look up at him — your face wet, your eyes shining, your smile so bright it hurts — and then you're practically climbing at him. Your legs wrap around his waist, your arms lock behind his neck, and you press yourself against him like you're trying to crawl inside his skin, like you always have been trying so.
Steve stumbles back a step, catching himself, and then his arms are under you, holding you up, holding you close. You stay like that for a long time. Steve doesn't mind. He could hold you forever.
Eventually, you pull back just enough to look at him. Your hand comes up to touch his face, your fingers tracing his jaw, his cheek, the dark circles under his eyes.
"You look tired," you whisper.
He laughs. "I've been walking all night. I couldn't sleep. I had to find you."
"You found me." Your smile is small and soft and everything. "You always find me."
He presses his forehead to yours. "Always."
Hopper clears his throat gently from the kitchen. "Maybe sit down before you fall down, kid."
Steve laughs again and carries you to the couch, settling down with you still in his lap. You don't seem inclined to move, and honestly, he doesn't want you to. He just wants to hold you and never let go.
Hopper pours two cups of coffee — black for himself, lighter for Steve — and brings them over. He sits in the armchair across from you, his eyes tired but alert.
"We need to talk about what happened," Hopper says quietly.
Steve feels you tense against him. His arm tightens around you. "I know," Hopper continues, his voice gentle, "that you've been through a lot. But there are things I need to understand. Things that might help us keep you safe."
You nod against Steve's chest, but you don't look up. Steve's hand finds its way into your hair, stroking gently, the way he knows you like. You relax against him just a fraction.
Hopper leans forward, his voice careful. "I'm not trying to scare you, kid. I'm trying to understand. The lab — they don't send that many men for just anyone. They want you bad. Worse than they've ever wanted anyone." He pauses. "I need to know why."
Steve feels you tremble. His hand slides from your hair down to your back, slipping just under the edge of his sweater — your sweater now — and rests against the warm skin at your side. He rubs slow circles there, soft, soothing.
"You don't have to tell us everything," Steve whispers against your hair. "Just what you can. Just what you want to. We're not going anywhere."
You turn your face into his neck, and he feels your breath against his skin. "In the lab," you start, your voice so quiet he has to strain to hear, "they test me. For everything. Telekinesis, like El. Pyro..." You try to remember. "Pyrokinesis. Many times." You pause. "I fail. Every time."
Steve keeps rubbing your side, slow and steady. His other hand stays in your hair.
"They said they are going to terminate me," you continue. "Kill. I think." Steve's jaw tightens, but he doesn't let it show in his touch. He just holds you closer. "Before I run... ran away," you correct your tense, which makes Steve press a kiss to your temple, "they said they are going to terminate me."
"But they didn't," Steve whispers. "They didn't terminate you. You got out."
You shake your head against his neck. "Before I left. The night I left. They found out."
Hopper leans forward, his face carefully neutral but his eyes sharp. "What do you mean, kid?"
You're quiet for a long moment. Steve can feel you gathering yourself, feel the way your fingers grip his shirt tighter.
"There was a guard," you whisper. "His name was Raymond. He was... bad. The worst." You swallow. "He hurt El once. A long time ago. I made him forget. Made him tired. Made him go home."
"But that night — the night I left — he came back. To my room. He was angry. He said he remembered. He said he didn't know how, but he remembered what I did. He remembered me... pushing into his head."
Your voice breaks a little. Steve holds you tighter.
"He said he was going to tell Dr. Brenner. He said they would finally know what I could do. That I wasn't a dud. That I was maybe the most powerful one of all." You pause. "He laugh. He said they will use me forever. That I would never see sun again."
Hopper's jaw is tight. Steve can see the anger in his eyes, but his voice stays gentle. "What happened then?"
You're quiet for a long moment. Steve feels your fingers twisting in his shirt, feels the way your whole body has gone tense.
"Angel," he murmurs, his lips against your hair. "You're okay. You're safe. Take your time."
You take a shaky breath. "I was so scared," you whisper. "He was so big. So angry. And he was going to tell them. He was going to—" You stop, swallowing hard. "I did not think. I just... reached out. Inside his head. And I told him—" Your voice breaks.
"Told him what?" Hopper asks gently.
You press your face harder into Steve's neck. "I told him to stop. To go away. To never hurt anyone again." A pause. "But it came out wrong. Or right? I do not know. I was so scared. I just — I pushed so hard. And I told him—" You stop again, and Steve feels you shaking.
Steve's hand keeps moving on your side, slow circles, warm and steady. "It's okay, angel. Whatever it was, it's okay."
You shake your head. "I told him to die." The words come out in a rush, barely audible. "In his head. I told him to die. And he—" You gasp, a sob catching in your throat. "He reach for knife and..." You stop, your whole body shaking now.
You can't finish. You don't have to.
Across from you, Hopper has gone rigid in his chair. His face is pale, his eyes fixed on you with an expression Steve can't quite read.
"He killed himself," Hopper says quietly. It's not a question.
Steve goes completely still beneath you. For a second, he doesn't breathe.
Mind reader.
You're a mind reader. You can get inside people's heads. You can make them do things. You can make them—
You've been in his head.
The realisation hits him so hard he feels dizzy. All those times he held you. All those whispered endearments. All those moments when he thought you were just learning to trust him — you were listening. You knew every thought. Every feeling. Every stupid, embarrassing, vulnerable thing that passed through his mind.
Did you know he was falling for you? Did you know he lay awake at night thinking about your smile? Did you know he'd already started imagining a future where you were his?
Did you know everything?
His heart is pounding. His palms are sweating. He can feel his own panic rising, a wave of it, unstoppable—
"Steve?"
Your voice. Small. Terrified. He looks down.
You're staring up at him with eyes so wide, so wet, so scared that it punches the air out of his lungs. Your lower lip is trembling. Your whole body has gone rigid in his lap.
"You're — you're scared," you whisper. "I can feel it. Your heart is beating so fast. You're—" A sob catches in your throat. "You're scared of me."
"What? No, angel, I—"
But you're already shaking your head, frantically, tears spilling down your cheeks. "I did not read your thoughts. I promise. I swear. I would never — I never—" You're gasping between words, your hands clutching his shirt like a lifeline. "Sometimes feelings slip through. I cannot help it. But I never — Not on purpose."
He stares at you. At the absolute terror on your face. At the way you're looking at him like he might push you away, like he might leave.
"You're my Steve," you sob. "I would never — I could never — please. Please do not be scared of me. Please."
Something in his chest cracks wide open. He thinks about everything you've been through. All the people who used you. All the people who hurt you. All the people who looked at you like you were a thing instead of a person.
And now you think he's going to be one of them.
"Angel." His voice comes out rough, broken. He cups your face in his big hands, forcing you to look at him. "Sweetheart, stop. Stop. Look at me."
You look at him with those huge, terrified eyes, tears still streaming down your cheeks.
"I'm not scared of you." He says it slowly, clearly, so you can see the truth in his eyes. "I was — for a second, I panicked. Because I thought about all the embarrassing things you might have heard. All the stupid thoughts I have when I'm around you." He laughs, wet and shaky. "But I'm not scared of you. I could never be scared of you."
Your bottom lip trembles. "But you — your heart—"
"My heart was racing because I'm an idiot who panics before he thinks." He presses his forehead to yours, his thumbs still gently wiping away your tears. "I'm not scared of you. I'm not going anywhere. You're my angel. You hear me?"
You stare at him, searching his face for lies. For pity. For fear. Your breath comes in short, shaky gasps, your whole body still trembling in his lap.
"I love you," you whisper, so quiet it's almost lost. You've never said it to anyone before, but here, with Steve, you can say it. "I love you so much. I would never — I would never hurt you. I would never—"
"I know." He pulls you closer, one hand cradling the back of your head, pressing your face gently into the curve of his neck. "I know, angel. I know."
You cling to him, your fingers twisting in his shirt, your breath hot and uneven against his skin. He can feel your heart pounding, rabbit-fast, terrified.
"Shh," he murmurs, his lips against your hair. "Shh, I've got you. I've got you. Just breathe, sweetheart. Just breathe."
Steve holds you through it. Through the shaking, through the tears, through the gasping breaths that slowly, slowly begin to steady. His hand never stops moving on your back, slow circles, warm and soothing. "I love you," he murmurs against your hair.
"I'm gonna step outside," Hopper says quietly, already standing. "Check the perimeter. Give you two a minute." He pauses at the door, looking back at you both with something soft in his eyes. "I'm glad you found each other."
Then he's gone, the door clicking softly behind him.
"You... you love me?" you whisper then, like you can't quite believe it. Like the words are too big, too heavy, too good to be real.
Steve's heart cracks open all over again.
"Yeah, angel." His voice is soft, steady, sure. "I love you. I've loved you since—" He laughs, a little shaky. "I don't even know when. Maybe that first night, when you took my hand in the shower. Maybe when you smiled at me for the first time. Maybe just... always. Like I was always waiting for you."
"I love you too," you murmur. "I did not know what it was. I did not have a word. But it is—it is like sun. In my chest. In my head. Every time I see you."
Steve's eyes sting. He presses his forehead to yours again, breathing you in. "Like sunshine," he replies gently, tucking you closer to him.
You give him a wobbly smile, and it's the most beautiful thing he's ever seen. Then you look back at the front door, checking Hopper's okay. Your eyes flit back to Steve. "He is... he is good. Hopper."
Steve nods, brushing a strand of hair from your face, fingers lingering on the underside of your chin. "Yeah. He is."
"He is like... a dad." You say it slowly, testing the word. "I never had a dad. But I think... he is like that."
Steve's heart swells. "Yeah, angel. I think he is."
You're quiet for a moment, your fingers playing with the collar of his shirt. Then you look up at him again, shy and hopeful. "Steve?"
"Yeah?"
"You are... my Steve." You say it like it's the most important thing in the world. "Forever?"
He cups your face, so gentle, and kisses your forehead, your nose, the tip of your chin. You giggle — actually giggle — and the sound is so bright, so free, that Steve thinks he wants to bottle the sound and put it in his pocket, never let it fade away.
"Forever," he promises. "And ever and ever. You're stuck with me, angel."
You smile and curl back into his chest, your hand over his heart, your breath warm against his skin.
"Good," you murmur. "I want to be stuck."
Later, after Hopper comes back and the fire has burned low, you talk.
"Okay," he says quietly. "Let me make sure I understand. You can read minds — thoughts, feelings, memories. And you can also... plant things. Suggestions. Images. And if you push hard enough, they'll act on them."
You nod. "Like seeds. Small at first. Then they grow. They think it is their own idea."
Hopper leans forward in the armchair. "And Raymond — you didn't just plant a seed. You pushed hard. Made him see himself doing it. And then..."
Your face crumples slightly. "I did not mean to. I was so scared. I just — I wanted him to stop. I wanted him to never hurt anyone again. And he—" You stop, swallowing.
Steve's hand rubs your back gently. "It's okay, angel. You don't have to go over it again."
Hopper nods, understanding. "That's enough. I get it." He pauses, rubbing his jaw. "Here's what I'm thinking. The lab, they know you're a mind reader. Probably. They might have suspected for a while. But they don't know about the planting. The way you can influence people's actions. That's our advantage."
You look at him, curious. "Advantage?"
"Leverage," Hopper says. "If it comes down to it — if they find us, if there's no other way — you might be able to use that. Not to hurt anyone. But to protect yourself, and us. To make them forget they ever saw us. To make them look the other way."
Steve feels you tense slightly in his lap. He squeezes you gently.
"I'm not saying we're going to put you in danger," Hopper adds quickly. "I'm saying — what you can do, it's not just a curse. It's a gift. And if we're smart, it might be the thing that keeps you free."
You're quiet for a long moment, processing. Then, slowly, you nod.
"Okay," you whisper. "I... I can try. If I need to."
Hopper's face softens. "That's all I'm asking, kid."
The fire crackles, sending a shower of sparks up the chimney. Outside, the wind has picked up, rattling the windows gently. Everything feels warm, safe, right.
But something nags at you.
You can't explain it. A feeling, deep in the back of your mind. Like everything is too okay, that something is coming.
You shift in Steve's lap, trying to shake it off. His hand automatically soothes down your back. "You okay, angel?" he asks.
You nod against his chest. "Just... tired."
He kisses the top of your head. "Close your eyes, then. I've got you."
You do. You close your eyes and listen to his heartbeat, steady and strong. You listen to Hopper's breathing across the room, slow and even. You listen to the wind, the fire, the quiet.
But underneath it all, there's something else.
A presence. Faint. Distant. But there. Like something is crawling under your skin, lingering. You try to reach for it, to identify it, but it slips away like smoke. Every time you get close, it vanishes.
Probably nothing, you tell yourself. Just your mind playing tricks. You're exhausted.
Steve's hand moves in your hair, gentle, soothing. You focus on that. On him. On the warmth of his body, the safety of his arms.
The feeling fades.
You let out a breath you didn't realise you were holding. Relief, maybe.
"Love you," you mumble, already half-asleep.
Steve's arms tighten around you. "Love you too, angel."
Hopper watches from his chair, a small smile on his face. He reaches for his coffee, takes a sip, and settles deeper into the worn cushions.
For a while, everything is perfect.
You don't know how long you've been asleep when it happens.
A voice. In your head. Not Steve's. Not Hopper's. Not El's. Someone else.
—can hear me, can't you? Number Nine.
Your eyes fly open.
The cabin is dark. The fire has burned low, it is just embers now. Steve is still asleep beneath you, his breathing slow and even. Hopper is slumped in his chair, his chin on his chest.
You didn't think you could really escape, did you?
You know that voice. You've heard it a thousand times, in the white halls, in the testing rooms, in your nightmares.
Dr. Brenner.
You press your hands to your ears, but it doesn't help. The voice is inside your head, not outside.
I'm closer than you think, he says, and there's something like amusement in his tone. Did you never wonder why the headaches never stopped? Why your walls never stayed up?
Your blood runs cold.
I'm inside them, he says. I'm inside your head. Does that scare you, Nine?
You reach up, without thinking, and touch the back of your neck. Just below your hairline. There's a spot there. You've always assumed it was a scar. A birthmark. Nothing to worry about.
But now, under your fingertips, it feels different. Hard. Like something small and smooth, just beneath your skin.
Three years ago, Brenner's voice continues, soft and pleased. A routine procedure. You were asleep. You never even knew.
Your breath catches. Your fingers press harder against the spot, and you feel it—a tiny bump, a foreign object, something that shouldn't be there.
A chip, he explains, like he's teaching a slow student. State of the art. It allows me to — how shall I put this? — visit. Whenever I want. Wherever you are.
Steve shifts beneath you, mumbling in his sleep. You don't move. Can't move.
I've been watching you, Nine. These past weeks. Your little boyfriend. The Chief. Your sister. A pause. You've been busy.
Horror crawls up your spine.
Don't worry, Brenner says, and his voice is almost kind. I'm not coming for you tonight. I just wanted you to know. To understand. You can run, but you can never hide. Not from me.
Sleep well, little ghost. I'll see you soon.
You sit there in the dark, trembling, your hand still pressed to the back of your neck. Steve sleeps on, unaware. Hopper sleeps on, unaware.
No one knows.
No one but you.
You look at Steve's peaceful face, at Hopper's relaxed form, at the door to the bedroom where El sleeps. They think you're safe. Free. You'll never be free, not really, not while he's inside you. A part of you. A little piece of the lab, buried under your skin, whispering in your head.
And he can find you. Always.
You don't sleep for the rest of the night. You just sit there, in Steve's lap, and wonder how long you have before they come.
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Summary: In which Steve doesn't realize that his way of coping with Nancy and his breakup is hurting Y/N in the process. He also doesn't notice that Billy Hargrove is not only trying to take his throne, but the girl he's loved forever too
Warning(s): Angst, mutual pining, Billy being bff material, smut, light choking if you squint, fluff, Steve being a dummy, riding, oral (f receiving), cockwarming if you squint
A/N: was listening to Forever by Jessie Murph while writing this
She didn’t really understand how she got to where she was. How she wound up in this position. Truth be told, she somewhat did, cons of asking Steve for a ride to the party.
She would’ve expected him to wander off with Nancy, and do his own thing as usual while she would go join some of her friends for beer pong. She’d expect him to tell her when he and Nance were ready to head out, as she always made sure they got Y/N home okay. Y/N would also expect for him to let her know if he got her a backup ride in case they left before she wanted to.
What she didn’t expect was to watch him storm away, eyes glossed with tears as pure anger set throughout his entire face, pushing past the people in the crowd. Her gaze dropped and frowning as she gulped another sip of her beer. “Steve?” Y/N called out towards his direction.
She followed when he didn’t even so much as acknowledge her, setting her cup somewhere on some random table, the music going to a soft hum as she stepped outside. “Steve, where are you going? What happened?” she calls out, watching him unlock his car. He still said nothing as he clenched his jaw.
“Steve?” she says once more, rushing down the yard as he started up his engine. “Steve!” her voice rises as he begins to drive off without her. Y/N lets out a few curse words as she flips off his car while it sped down the street.
She tried searching for Nancy when she got back inside, only to find her being carried out by Jonathan, explaining she was drunk off of her ass. She nods, thanking him while letting out a breath she didn’t realize she was holding. When Jonathan offered her a ride, she politely declined, saying she would ask one of her friends to bring her back. Explaining that he should worry about getting Nancy home safely.
Which now led her to where she stood on the porch, drink in hand as she let out a frustrated huff. Her friends had all been long gone by the time she tracked down one of their boyfriends, stating how they were all planning to stay put for the night. She usually would’ve stuck with that idea, but she had to be home to bring Dustin to Mike’s the next morning.
“The party’s inside, sweetheart,” a voice chuckles behind her, making her roll her eyes.
She didn’t have to turn around to know who the voice belonged to. “Too overstimulating, and I’m trying to sober up enough to walk home.”
Billy Hargrove takes a seat next to her, cigarette in hand as he blows out a puff of smoke. “Thought King Steve was your chauffeur,” he snorted. “At least I see you following him like a lost puppy. How does Nancy not hate that?”
Y/N scoffs. “I do not follow him around like that. We’re best friends, and on top of that, they both want me to stay close by in case we need to leave. So don’t act all snarky, Hargrove.”
Billy lets out a loud laugh, taking in another drag. “I’m just saying,” he starts. “You’re a little obvious for how in love you are with Harrington. Maybe back off a bit, or better yet, leave the guy be.”
Y/N’s gaze snaps toward him, glaring hard. “What the fuck are you on, Hargrove?” she snaps, watching his eyebrows raise as his smirk widens.
“Struck a nerve, have I?”
“You’re being ridiculous.”
He purses his lips while shaking his head. “Not a bit,” he takes another drag. “But he’s gotta watch his own actions before Nancy realizes he loves you too.”
Y/N’s eyes widened at his words.
“What are you talking about?” she snips, and he shrugs as he stands up, blowing out the last of his cigarette.
He turns back to her, holding out his hands for her to take. “I’m gonna head home, I’ll drop you on the way.”
“I’d rather take another gulp of whatever is in Tommy’s mystery punch bowl than ride anywhere with you,” she scoffs, Billy rolling his eyes as he lets out a huff.
“It’s the least I can do for being an ass-”
“You’re always an ass-”
“Are you always this much of a fucking headache, Henderson?”
Y/N just stares up at him in shock at his tone, watching as he stands in front of her with his hands on his hips. She then sighs, crossing her arms. “You’ve been drinking, Billy.”
He purses his lips once more with a smirk, shaking his head lightly. “I can take more than you think, honey. I am sober enough to drive with my eyes closed if I wanted to.”
She eyes him once more before taking his hands he then offers her once more, Billy helping her stand upright as he leads her to his car. He even opened up the passenger side for her, closing it once she was inside.
The engine revved to life, Billy giving her a smug expression before he sped off into the night.
It was quiet for the first few moments, Y/N’s gaze looking out the window with her hands picking at one another in her lap.
“So what is it about King Steve that makes you so obsessed with him? Let alone every girl I’ve met at that shit school of yours?” he starts up, making her groan and shake her head. “He seems like he’s so up his own ass, you can see his head coming up his throat.”
“Oh fuck off, you’re just as cocky. I don’t even know what you’re talking about, just let it go.”
He tuts. “Nope, I’m driving you home so I deserve to know what it is. You owe me that.”
“I’d rather jump out of the moving car-”
“Don’t you dare.”
“Well you’re wrong.”
Billy grabs her jaw to make her look at him as they rolled up to a stoplight. “Am I? Because it seems like you can’t see how you stare at him like he hung the moon.”
His tone is a bit more serious, nothing playful whatsoever as he looks at her, her eyes deflating as she sighs. She takes his hand off of her when the light turns green, rubbing her face in exhaustion. “There’s a lot to it,” she admits. “But he’s just always been there. Even in the worst circumstances, I’ve never had to question if he would be there for me. Even for my brother, he’s there at the drop of a dime.”
“Seems like tonight was the opposite.”
She rolled her eyes before sending him a scowl. “Something happened, so he probably needed to be alone. I get that way too when things happen. I’m gonna give him his space if so,” she explains, Billy snickering at her words.
“Wow you really are down bad, sweetheart,” he jokes. “Here I thought I’d be able to woo you somehow.”
“Not like I’d give you the time of day, Hargrove. That dick of yours has been in every girl known at Hawkins high school,” she shot back with a chuckle, watching as his jaw dropped lightly at her words. He puts a hand to his chest as he acts hurt playfully.
“Well played, Henderson. I’ll give you that,” he laughs, making her smile at him in amusement. “I like you, you’ve got some spunk to you.”
“You think I do, you should hear half the things my brother says.”
“Ah yes, the famous Dustin Henderson. I know all about that kid and his little shits of a friendgroup.”
She narrows her eyes and smacks his arm, making him hiss. “They’re good kids. Don’t you dare start.”
“They cause my sister to get into trouble, which causes me to get into trouble with our parents.”
“Well from now on if she goes off, you can tell your parents she’s with Dustin at my house. Have them call me and I’ll happily help you out. That way you don’t have to cancel any hookups of yours,” she jokes. “Fair trade?”
He rolls his eyes. “Noted.”
He pulled into her driveway, Y/N opening the door to step out, only for him to say her name softly. She bends down to look at him in the low car.
“Don’t wait around for a guy that’ll make you his second choice.”
She bit her lip. “He’s not like that.”
Billy gives her a look. “If you need help with igniting the fire, give me a ring.”
She laughs before closing his car door, waving goodbye as she begins to walk back to her doorstep.
It was the next morning, and Y/N had been stressing at the fact that she knew Steve was coming to pick her up this morning. She didn’t really want to deal with the awkward tension right away in that car, especially if things went down between him and Nancy.
She hesitated picking up the phone in the kitchen, dialing the number written down on a piece of gum wrapper from the night before. Her fingers slowly dialed the numbers into the keypad, biting her bottom lip as she held the phoneline to her ear. It didn’t ring for long, someone picking up the landline after a couple rings. “Hargrove residence, who’s calling?” a smaller voice, that didn’t take long for Y/N to know it was Max. She smiles softly to herself.
“Hey Max, it’s Y/N. I know this is going to sound weird, but is Billy there? He gave me a ride home last night, and I had to ask him something.”
She hears Max chuckle on the other line. “What in the world did you get yourself into last night?” she jokes, making Y/N run a hand over her face. “I swear it’s not what it sounds like. Steve ditched me, and Billy was nice to just give me a ride home.”
“If you say so,” Max snickered. “Just be careful, okay? I don’t want to lose you because my brother is an asshole.”
“It’s not like that, but I’ve got it.”
There’s some rummaging on the other side for a few moments, before it was just quiet for a small second. Bily’s voice booming through the phone softly. “Well if it isn't a little miss lovergirl. You change your mind?”
“Very funny,” she chuckles dryly, twisting the phoneline between her fingertips. “I really don’t want to be stuck in that awkward tension with him this morning. Are you able to pick me up?”
It’s quiet for a few seconds, Y/N shaking her head to herself before rubbing her forehead. “It’s fine if not,” she says quickly. “I will just walk if anything. I just cannot deal with all of that first thing in the morning.”
Billy hums for a second, leaning against the doorway with a smug look on his face. “Now what kind of gentleman would I be to let a girl walk to school, hm? Especially if it’s the one that’s going to cause Harrington a hard time?” he jokes back, making her roll her eyes.
“I’ll just walk at this point-”
“Okay, alright fine. Sorry. Yes I’ll be there in a few. Hang tight.”
With that the line clicks, and Y/N let out a breath she didn’t know she was holding. She finishes up her morning routine and eats breakfast with Dustin across from one another.
As she is finishing up putting her dish in the sink, a car honks outside and it makes her freeze. Dustin eyes her with a confused look. “That’s not Steve’s car,” he says matter of factly. Y/N shuts her eyes for a second before huffing.
“Don’t worry about it.”
Dustin smirks. “Oh I’m not worried,” he says slyly. “But Steve might.”
She shrugs. “Not my problem,” she mumbles before grabbing her bag, and going to give him a small hug. “Stay out of trouble today, please? Or at least wait till I’m home to go back into the woods.”
Dustin rolls his eyes, and nods. “No promises.”
With that she walks out the door, and looks up to see Billy’s car pulled up. Max is in the passenger seat, her smile widening at the sight of Y/N. Billy pushes Max’s arm, making her snap her head back at him with a glare. He nods to the backseat, making her huff and slide to the back.
Y/N smiles down at Max as she opens the car door to get inside. “Well good morning Maxine,” she chuckles.
Max smiles as Y/N hops into the passenger seat in front of her, squeezing her shoulders once she is inside. Once the door is shut, Billy sped off without warning, making both girls hold onto some part of the car while he laughs.
“Thank you,” Y/N says after a bit of driving. “For last night, and this morning. I mean.”
Billy shrugs. “Anything to make Harrington shake in his boots, I’m for it.”
She narrows her eyes while crossing her arms. “Is that all you’re keen on doing? To take some stupid title in the school that’s his?” she shoots, shaking her head. “If that’s your goal, you really have a low satisfaction line. Which is kind of sad.”
“That’s how he is,” Max sighs, making Billy glare at her through the rearview.
“Shut up, Max.”
“You’re not going to be an ass to her, not while I’m around. Especially if she’s right,” Y/N cuts in, making Billy roll his eyes.
“You sure have some spunk to you, don’t you princess?”
She grimaces at the nickname, smacking his arm. “Never that. Disgusting.”
“Okay fine,” he huffs. “No, I’m not just doing it to get on Harrington’s nerves. It is fun, yes, but I’m also doing it because I didn’t think you deserved to be ditched like that. I may be an asshole and go through girls like I do, but I’m not past letting a girl get left like that.”
Y/N raised her brows in shock at his words, but nodded slowly. “I don’t know how that really cancels out with how you treat women, but I guess that’s nice? Of you?” she trails off, not missing the way Max holds in a snort. Y/N trying to hide a smirk herself, and Billy eyes her.
“I’m half tempted to make you walk the rest of the way.”
“Do it, then. I said I was fine walking.”
Billy huffs out a laugh, turning down the street as the school comes to view slowly. “You really are a little shit like your brother.”
“If that’s what you think, then sure,” she shot back, not missing the way he coughs over a snort leaving his lips.
Y/N had a few side conversations with Billy after that throughout the schoolday, only when they walked past one another in the school’s hallways. Or if they were in the same class, he would come sit next to her instead, and just talk to her. Nothing more than platonic, Billy enjoying having a girl that didn’t want him just to say she had him, but because she actually wanted to be his friend.
The bell rang, signalling that second period was over. Y/N grabbing her books as she headed to her locker. She put away her history books and grabbed her things for physics, shutting her locker and jumped at the sight of Steve coming to view behind it. She held a hand up to her chest, letting out a breath. “Fuck, Steve,” she sighs. “You can’t just show up like that unannounced.”
Steve is looking at her with a hardened face, but his eyes are soft as he crosses his arms. “I showed up to your place this morning, Dustin said you were already gone. I was almost late to school. Where were you?” he asked her, making her eyes flick away from his. She tightened her grip on her books.
“I’m gonna be late for physics,” she mutters before trying to breeze past him. Steve grabs her arm and turns her back to him. Y/N’s eyebrows furrow, looking at where his hand was and then back up into his eyes. “Steve I have a test this period, I can’t be late-”
“Where were you this morning?”
Y/N sighs. “You now care? It seemed quite the opposite last night,” she shot, making his face drop.
“I was upset about the fight that happened between Nance and I. I just needed to get out of there,” he sighs, his voice getting quieter after each word he spoke. Y/N looked between his eyes. “I also just thought you’d be able to get a ride home from Tina or Rachel. So I didn’t really think about it after that.”
“Well then there you go. One of them picked me up this morning. End of story.”
Steve looks straight through her and frowns. “They’re not here today. Too hungover,” he shot back, Y/N snatching her arm away from his grip.
“Well either way I got home, okay? Just leave it alone.”
“Y/N-”
“I’ve gotta go Steve.”
She turns to walk away, only stuttering in her steps slightly when she sees Billy walking by. Based on the look on his face, he had seen the interaction and gave her a questioning look as if asking if she was okay. She nods curtly before breezing past him, taking a sharp turn down the hallway towards the labs.
Billy’s face turns back to Steve, he doesn’t miss the way Steve’s expression hardens at the small interaction he had with his best friend. Billy gave him a snide smirk before walking off, patting his chest when he passed. He was going to get under Steve’s skin if it was the last thing he did.
After Billy found out through Tommy and Carol that Steve and Nancy had gotten into a fight, pretty much breaking up at the party, he was going to get Steve to crack. He was going to make sure he pissed Steve off in every way possible, to the point he finally realized how much he wanted Y/N too.
At least, if Y/N wasn’t going to do it, Billy was going to do it. In the most menace way possible.
Especially when lunchtime came, he noticed Y/N was sitting at the familiar table that their entire group sat at, his eyes seeing Steve was still getting his food at the lunch line. Billy made his way over, sitting right next to her, leaning his elbow on the table causing her to jump at his sudden figure next to her.
She smacked his chest. “You cannot sneak up on a girl like that, Hargrove!” she hissed, wiping her mouth with a napkin. He smiles widely at her.
“When’s your free period?” he asked her, and she hummed while thinking and taking a bite of her food.
“Fifth, why?”
He leans toward her. “You should come sit in the gym for a bit. Watch me humble your little boyfriend for a change.”
She eyes him. “This again?”
He chuckles with a shrug. “I just want to push his buttons a little. I think you’d enjoy that after he ditched you after the Halloween party.”
“I already told you, he and Nance had a nasty fight. He apologized after that.”
Billy hums with a smug grin. “I think it still would be fun to watch, no? Come on,” he trails off, making her grimace.
“Fine. But only because I couldn’t reserve the study hall in the library.”
“Good,” he says before standing up, his eyes immediately meeting Steve’s, who was glaring straight through him as he watched the boy slowly stand from the spot next to her.
“Harrington,” Billy scoffs smugly. Steve’s eyes furrowed. “Wrong table, Hargrove.”
“It’s not if Henderson’s at it.”
Steve sets his tray down next to Y/N, the spot where Billy once sat, before standing over Billy
“Back. Off,” he says. “She’s not the next girl on your list, so move to the next will you?”
Y/N frowns, putting a hand on Steve's arm. “Steve, leave it be,” she says, only for him to still look at Billy. Billy’s smirk just widens as he eyes Steve up and down. He looks at Y/N, eyebrows raising.
She gives him a look as if telling him to knock it off as well, watching his eyes roll while he chuckles. He puts his hands up in defense, before pointing at her for a minute. “I’ll see you during fifth,” he chuckles. With that, he walks off, Steve huffing before slumping into the seat next to hers. She looks at him with an amused look, watching as he looks at her and rolls his eyes.
“Don’t start,” he says with a sigh, she snorts.
“I didn’t say anything.”
“You didn’t have to.”
“He’s harmless. Just being nice, that’s all.”
Steve looks at her with a look. “He’s being nice out of the blue? Yeah, he wants you, honey. You’re one of the girls on that long list of his.”
“Okay, don’t be an ass,” she groans, rubbing her hand over her face. “I’m still pissed at you, so you have no right.”
He shook his head. “I’m not trying to be, I swear. I just,” he sighs. “I don’t want you to get hurt. You deserve someone better than that jackass.”
Y/N’s eyes still at his words. “Steve, I’m not interested in him. He’s really just being friendly, that’s all. Nothing more, I made sure to vocalize that.”
He eyes her before letting it go, nodding before taking a bite of his food. “How did you even cross paths?” he asks her, making her shrug. She hadn’t told him that Billy was the one who drove her home that night, knowing he was already having a hard time with what happened that night with Nance. The last thing she needed was for him to flip out on hearing she was seen leaving with Hargrove that night.
“Just one of the classes we have together. We were partners for something in Physics, so now we’re just friendly.”
He snorts. “I’ve never known that guy to be nice to a woman unless he wanted something else.”
“Steve.”
He eyes her, before huffing. “Okay fine, I’m sorry. I know I don't have the right to worry, but I do,” he says. “I’m also sorry. About last night. You didn’t do anything, and you would’ve just been there to let me rant about what happened.”
Y/N nods, her chest tightening at his words. “I get that you needed time, but you could’ve just said that as you were leaving. You left without a word as if I did something,” she explains. “I mean it’s not that big of a deal to me anymore, because I’ve literally been in those woods at night after being chased by those creature things, but it hurts because of how you left.”
Steve’s gaze softens as he stares into her eyes. “I didn’t think. I’m sorry. I promise I’ll make it up to you, okay?”
“You don’t need to make up for it. Just don’t shut me out,” she says, and he nods.
“So about Hargrove-”
“Steven.”
“Right, dropping it. Sorry.”
Fifth period came a lot quicker than she thought, not taking much time to grab her things to bring to the gymnasium. She saw that the guys were all already there, warming up for their game of Basketball, while she walked up to the bleachers to take a seat. She unpacks some of her homework, knowing it was better to get it done now rather than wait.
She nearly had to roll her eyes when she saw the giant smile on Billy’s face, seeing he wasn’t wearing his shirt, panting as they positioned themselves for the next ball drop. Steve’s eyes followed Billy’s, gaze hardening as he saw Y/N sitting in the stands, her face lightly red as she rolled her eyes at Billy. He turned back to eye Billy.
“You can’t just leave her be, can you, Hargrove?” he scoffs, panting as sweat rolls down his neck.
Billy shrugs, playing into it. “It’s fun when you want something you can’t have.”
Steve’s insides burn at his comment, zoning in as the game starts off not too long after.
Each time Y/N pulled her eyes up to watch the boys, she noticed how Steve and Billy were always on each other. She watches as Steve runs up on Billy, ball in hand as Billy guards up against him.
She can see that they’re exchanging words, but not for long because Billy then snatches the ball from him, going down the court to score. Billy stuck his tongue out smugly, panting and sweating as he eyed Steve in amusement, before going to wink at Y/N. Before Steve can say another word, he hears his name, causing him to turn and see Nancy.
Y/N’s heart clenches just slightly, not missing how easy Steve followed after her, Y/N’s eyes following the pair. Billy’s eyes leave the pair that exit the gym, his eyes softening as he sees Y/N’s longing stare at where the couple once stood. He felt his anger burn for her, knowing she was so into Steve that it hurt her. No matter how much she denied it.
He continued to play, anger radiating off of him as he creamed their team without Steve. One of his teammates had to exit the gym to go grab Steve as they got dominated by Billy.
When Steve came back in, he looked more pissed off than he did before, putting everything into his game that he could. Y/N knew something bad must’ve happened, based on how hard he was pushing up against his opponents. He was panting so hard she was convinced he would pass out.
The whistle blew soon after the excruciating game, Y/N having to prevent herself from wincing at the scoreboard.
She began to pack up her stuff, zipping up her bag as she made her way down the bleachers. Her eyes caught Steve’s, frowning at his expression. He looked like he was trying to zone out, wiping a towel across his face as he breathed heavily. “Steve?” she called, walking over to him.
“What happened? You okay?” she asks, walking with him as he goes to grab his water bottle. He hums while squirting water into his mouth.
“I saw Nance walk in-”
“Please don’t. Not right now,” he says, walking off towards the locker rooms. She turns to him with her eyebrows furrowed. “Do you want to go for a drive after school to talk about it?” she asks, and he shakes his head turning to look at her.
“You’re going to have to find another ride home. I’ve gotta stay here for tutoring tonight.”
“Again? You’re shutting me out? We just talked about this,” she says, and Steve looks down at her as his figure towers over her. He kissed her forehead softly. With that, he heads into the locker room, making her chest tighten just slightly. Billy’s hand comes up to her arm, squeezing softly.
“You okay?” he asks, and she nods.
“I just hate how he does this. He shuts me out when things go wrong.”
He takes another gulp of his water. “You want a ride home?”
She shook her head. “No, I’ll just walk. I’ve got to wait for Dustin anyways.”
He hesitates slightly, before nodding. She nods at him. “Besides I know how much you’ve been looking forward to this study date with Heather tonight. Just go, I’ll be fine,” she assures, making him purse his lips before squeezing her arm one last time and heading to the men' s locker rooms.
The walk home was nice for her, as she and Dustin talked about everything he figured out for what’s going on with Dart, his new animal friend he found in their trashcan. Saying how he’s going to take him to the school tomorrow to see if anyone can figure out what he is.
Once they had gotten home, Y/N had immediately set to the bathroom to take a shower, rinse off the last few days as she let her thoughts run.
She sighed as she dries off and throws on her pajamas, hanging up her towel. She hears a knock on the door, she opens it slightly. Dustin looks at her sheepishly.
“Mom’s going to sleep early tonight, and I need to get to Max’s. Can you drive me?” he asks her, she groans.
“Did she say I could take her car?” she asks, and he nods. “Yeah, just- give me a second.”
“If anything you can stop at Steve’s on the way back. I heard Mike say that he and Nance broke up. He’s taking it pretty hard.”
She froze slightly, but rolled her eyes while throwing on her sweats instead of her shorts. “You guys need to stay out of their business.”
He snickers. “You know about it all too, so you’re just as nosey.”
She shook her head as she grabbed the keys from his hand. “I actually didn't. Steve has shut me out since it happened,” she admits, walking out to the car. “That’s why I’ve been getting rides from someone else.”
“You mean Billy?” Dustin shot, making Y/N halt in her tracks. Her head snaps back at him, she lets her eyes shut with a groan.
“Max,” she says more to herself, Dustin nodding as he packs up his bag.
“You need to be careful with that douchebag. He’s not good company to keep,” he explains. “At least that’s what Max says. Has a new girl with him every second of the day.”
Y/N squints at him. “I don’t want Billy. Just because he’s nice to me, doesn’t mean he has my attention,” she explains. “Besides. I’m already stuck on someone else. I couldn’t get over them if I tried.”
“Steve wants you too, you know.”
She rolled her eyes. “Not this again-”
Dustin frowns as he opens his car door. “You’re his best friend, how has he not said anything?”
She shrugs. “He needs his space if it’s as bad as I think it is.”
“Or maybe he’s finally coming to the realization he’s in love with you.”
“Dustin!”
“What? It’s true!”
She rolls her eyes. “At least that’s what Nancy thinks. Said something about how he can’t fully commit. She thinks it’s because he’s obsessed with you.”
She palms her face. “Okay enough, stop eavesdropping on Nancy’s phone calls. I’ll tell her you’ve been listening next time.”
His eyes widened, only nodding before changing the subject about something Mr.Clark was teaching currently. Only, Y/N’s mind couldn’t focus as she thought about if that was really true. Her thoughts threw a million questions around her mind as her brother rambled.
Once she pulled into the driveway, she put the car in park and told Dustin to call her if he needed her to come get him. Knowing full well he would get back in one piece after everything that happened before El disappeared.
She pulled out of the driveway, beginning her trek home, her mind going to wander back to Steve. More so back to what her brother was saying earlier. He had to be wrong. Had to have heard the conversation wrong, right? Because she knew how in love he was with Nancy. He only told her more than one hundred times. Each time aching more than the last.
Y/N was sure he heard it wrong, not bothering to think much more about it as she drove back home quietly.
Once she got home, she could hear her mom’s wave machine going, meaning she was passed out. She set the keys on the table before trudging to her room, closing the door behind her.
She walked up to her phone, taking in a deep breath before raising the handle up to her face and dialing in Steve’s number. She wanted to check in, see if he was okay despite him shutting her out.
The line began to ring as she played with the cord, biting her lip as she waited. It seemed as though it rang forever, making her sigh. She knew he was home by now, but he was choosing to not answer. It went to the answering machine shortly after.
“Steve,” she says softly. “I know you’re hurting, and that you’re shutting down. But don’t shut me out, I want to help you. Whatever happened, I’m here to listen,” she says firmly. “But if you really want space, I'll give you your space. I just hope you’re okay.”
With that, she hung up the phone, and went to sit in her bed.
The next day wasn’t much better, as he was now avoiding her almost completely. Instead of prying, she chose to let it be, knowing he needed the space. She ended up walking to school that morning, only to get an earful from Billy, saying he would’ve happily stopped by to grab her again. She didn’t argue, as she was too exhausted to do so.
When lunchtime came, she saw him sitting at their table, making her eyes light up slightly. She began to walk over to him, going to sit in her normal spot. When she set her tray down, he immediately grabbed his own and began to walk away from her. She frowned at his behavior, her eyes burning slightly as tears lightly formed. She blinked them away.
Y/N didn’t notice how Billy had watched the encounter, how he had noticed them all morning. He walked over to sit with her, telling her to come sit in the gym once more during fifth period, in which she nodded.
She asked him how it went with Heather the night before, letting him ramble about it to distract her from the ache in her chest.
When fifth period came, the boys were playing much harder than they had the day before, Y/N was writing down her notes as she heard yelling. She looked up, watching Billy yell out King Steve as he dribbled the ball. She watched the banter. “I like it. Acting tough today,” he plays.
Steve rolls his eyes, guarding Billy. “Jeez, do you ever stop talking man? Come on,” he ushers back in a snippy tone. Billy just laughs as he dribbles the ball. “Why? You afraid coach is going to bench you now that I’m here, huh?” he pushes, watching the fire in Steve’s eyes ignite. With that, he pushes forward and checks Steve with ease, causing Steve to land on the ground with a loud thump and screech on the gym floor. She stood up like a reflex, shock written all over her face. She doesn’t miss the way he goes back over to Steve, lending down a hand.
Steve glares at Billy, but takes his hand. “Or are you more afraid I’m going to take the one girl you’re too afraid to admit you couldn’t commit to Wheeler for?” he taunts, watching as Steve’s eyes harden. “You’re moving your feet. Plant them next time. Draw a charge,” he growls, before slamming Steve back into the ground and walking away to cheer with his teammates.
He slowly straightens up, his eyes going over to the bleachers where he spots Y/N. She’s looking at him with both confusion and concern in her eyes, he doesn’t say anything, only looks away and gets back up to join his own team.
Y/N’s heart aches as he goes back to acting like she’s just another person in the gym, slowly going to sit back down.
Steve goes to guard Billy again, his eyes so harsh, they could’ve put Billy six feet under if looks could kill. “You’re not going to touch her. You’re gonna stay away from her,” he snaps, watching as Billy gets the ball passed to him.
Billy laughs at his words, expression smug. “Careful. You almost sound territorial,” he snickers. “Besides, if I wanted her. I’d have her already. But she’s too stuck on the only guy who takes her for granted.”
Steve charges after him at that, playing as hard as he can the rest of the class period.
When the whistle blows, Y/N is quick to grab her things and leave. Not wanting to stick around after what she witnessed, and knowing she also needed to get ready to take her test after school ended.
The boys headed to the locker rooms to shower, Steve letting the water wash away every ounce of anger he had towards Billy. Only to huff when he knew it wasn’t going to work.
“Don’t sweat it Harrington. Today’s just not your day, man,” Billy says in the stall next to him.
“Not your week, more so,” Tommy chuckles with a smug smirk on his face. “You and your princess break it off for one day, and she’s already running off with the freak’s brother,” he says, making Steve look at him with light confusion before looking away.
Tommy’s eyes widened in shock. “Oh shit,” he says. “You don’t know. Jonathan and the princess skipped yesterday, and still haven’t shown. That must just be a coincidence, right?” he cackles, Steve eyeing him, scrubbing the suds through his scalp.
“I don’t give a fuck about them. He can have her for all I care,” Steve snaps back, scrubbing his hands through his hair. Billy smirks with a hum.
“Oh I know,” he trails off. “You finally come to your senses over your Henderson girl, right? I hear she’s the reason you hate commitment. Because you want to commit to her, is that it?” Billy taunts, letting the water run down his chest.
Steve scoffs and shakes his head, paying no mind to what either man was saying. “You don’t know her like that.”
“Oh, yes I do. I know a lot more than you think.”
Steve froze in his spot, his head slowly turning over towards Billy. “The fuck did you say?”
Tommy laughs, giving Billy a look. “You better tell him before he finds out through someone else, Hargrove,” he says, before grabbing his towel and turning off the shower.
His words make Steve freeze. “What’re you talking about?”
Tommy wraps his towel around his waist. “Wow you really have been out of the loop,” he trails off, nodding his head at Billy. “She left with him after the Halloween party. Why do you think they’ve been so inseparable? Girl can’t get enough of him.”
Billy glares at Tommy. “Goodbye Tommy,” he snaps back, watching the guy walk away with a smug grin on his face. Steve’s jaw was clenched, his eyes darkening as he looked over at Billy.
“Relax, Harrington,” he chuckles. “Since some dick I know left her by herself that night, I was a gentleman and drove her home,” he admits, smirking happily. “You’re lucky she’s so obsessed with you, otherwise I definitely would’ve taken her back with me, and trust me,” he chuckles while turning off the shower, patting Steve on the shoulder. “I’m still debating.”
Steve eyed him hard as he left, whipping off his own shower head.
Y/N had finished up her test, smiling warmly at her teacher as she handed it in, bidding a goodnight as she left the classroom. The halls were now quiet as it was after school hours, the rain slowly beginning to dribble outside as she could hear the echoes of other students playing in the gyms.
When she opened up the school doors, the breeze had gotten a little chillier, goosebumps arising on her skin as she walked down the sidewalk. The rain slowly picked up as she walked, making her put her hood up.
Her eyes squinted as she noticed Steve’s car was still there, making her frown. She then froze only slightly as he stood, leaning against the hood with his arms crossed. He looked more than upset. He looked livid. “Steve? Why are you still at school? I thought you didn’t have tutoring tonight.”
“Get in the car.”
She frowns at his cold tone the closer she got. She shook her head.
“No. Not after how you’ve been treating me lately,” she shot back, walking up to him. He clenched his jaw as the rain began to get heavier. He towered her figure, eyes staring down into her own. “I have to wait for Dustin too.”
“He went home with Mike,” he answered quickly. “Get. In. The car,” he says once more.
Instead of prying, she huffs and walks over to the passenger side where he goes to hold open the car door for her, letting her slide in. As he closes her door and rounds to his side, she sets her bag on the floor in the back. He slams his door shut before reversing out of the parking lot, and driving off.
“Why are you so pissed off? What did I do to you to make you hate me so much in the span of seventy-two hours?” she finally breaks the silence, her arms crossing over her chest as the rain poured.
His jaw tightens at her words, hand rubbing over his jaw. “I don’t hate you.”
“Then why are you acting like a dick? All I’ve been trying to do is help you, and you act like I don’t exist,” she scoffs as she keeps her gaze on the window. “I don’t know what happened between you and Nance, but I’m just trying to be there for you.”
He stays silent for a few moments, and then speaks. “We broke up. Things were complicated and she said things between us weren’t going anywhere.”
“You could’ve just talked to me, you didn’t have to shut me out. I would’ve listened,” she says in a softer manner. Still somewhat firm to show she was standing her ground.
“It seems you had your hands full with Hargrove anyways,” he says under his breath, but it was loud enough for her to hear. She snapped her head over to him.
“What?”
“You really took a ride home from Billy Hargove? Of all people? Seriously?”
She scoffs. “I wouldn’t have needed to if you didn’t run off like you did! Besides, he offered and was actually nice to me the entire way,” she explains, running her hands through her hair. “You have no right to be upset. You’re the one ignoring me and acting all big macho whenever he’s around.”
“Is he the one who’s been picking you up too? Bringing you home even?” he shot, making her roll her eyes.
“You’re a fucking ass. Why are you so obsessed with this guy?”
“Because he’s not good for you! He wants to fuck you, and then leave you for the streets! You’re nothing but a piece of pussy to that man!” he blows up, making her eyes harden and her eyebrows furrow.
“Stop the car.”
“What-”
“Stop the fucking car, Harrington! I will not be scolded like I’m a fucking child by you! Stop the fucking car, so I can walk the rest of the way.”
Steve looks at her like she is crazy. “Are you kidding? It’s pouring-”
Y/N starts to unlock his car doors, going to pull open the lever as the car was still driving, causing Steve to slam on his brakes as she opened his car door. “Y/N seriously?” he screeches, getting out of the car to follow after her. “Get back in the car! You’re being ridiculous!”
“I’m not! You’re the one being an asshole, Harrington!” she yells back, not looking behind her. She hears him let out a frustrated groan before slamming his car doors shut, and his engine coming up to the side of her. He rolled down the window.
“Get in the car, Y/N!”
She ignored his pleas, her body shivering as she was now drenched from the pouring rain. “Y/N M/N, get in the damn car before I make you,” he warns, letting out a low growl as she still looks forward and keeps walking. Steve brakes the car once again, opening his door and stomping up to her figure.
Y/N feels arms wrap around her waist, despite her protests, she’s then thrown over Steve’s shoulder. “Put me the fuck down, Steve! What the fuck is your problem?” she screams out, punching at his lower back.
“Seriously, let me down! I’m fuckign done with you and your bipolar fucking behavior-”
Her words die in her throat with a squeak as a loud smack is heard, a sting following on her ass a few moments after. She narrows her eyes. “Did you just-?” She trails off as he walks over to open his backseat doors.
Steve softly places her figure into his back seats, ignoring her curses and shouts at him as he slams the door shut and gets back into the driver’s seat. He sped off after that, not missing the way she was sending daggers to the back of his head.
“I told you to get back in the car, and you didn’t listen.”
“Because you were treating me like shit, and started accusing me of sleeping with Billy. When all he’s been doing, is being a better friend than you. Nothing more than that.” she spat, crossing her arms over her shivering figure. Steve sighs, clenching his jaw at her words. Knowing deep down that she was right, he was being a total asshole to her.
“Not when I feel how I feel about you. I can’t move on, even if I tried.”
He froze, his heart stopped for a split second at her words, realizing she had said it so quietly in hope he didn’t hear, but he heard her perfectly clear.
All of his anger slowly washed away as her words repeated in his mind, realizing that Nancy was right. He couldn’t tell Nancy he loved her, not when Y/N had been here all along. No matter how hard he tried, he really tried to make things work with Nancy. But she knew it wasn’t meant to be.
Because he couldn’t control how strong his feelings were becoming towards Y/N. Nancy knew it too, she saw it when he didn’t. Which was why she couldn’t blame him. He did try. He couldn’t bring himself to admit it. Not after how things just ended with Nancy. He needed to see if what he felt for Y/N really was real, which was why he pushed away. Turns out it was more real than he ever knew or understood. Especially after hearing Billy’s words.
“We’re going to mine,” is all he says, making her glare at him.
“What? No, I’m drenched, I need to go home and-”
“I have stuff you can borrow, so stop whining. We need to actually talk,” he shot back, making her go quiet with her mouth open in shock. “No distractions, nothing. Because your brother will somehow bring us into the next adventure going on, and we need to figure our shit out.”
Y/N lets out a grumble, but doesn’t argue any further, the car was quiet the rest of the way to his place.
Once he parked in his driveway, he grabbed both of their bags, then opened the door for her to get out. She whisks past him as he locks his car, the pair running up to take cover under the slight covering over his front doorstep.
When they both got inside, the sound of the rain pattering hard over the roof was heard, as well as the light sounds of the occasional thunder booming. He sets down their stuff, huffing at his now drenched state, shrugging off his jacket.
“You can shower in mine. I’ll use my parents.”
He leads them upstairs, grabbing her a towel and walking her into his room that she knew all too well. He hands her a pair of his sweats and a hoodie of his she always used to wear, before grabbing his own towel and heading towards his parents’ room without another word.
She goes into his bathroom, looking around as she sees it’s still the same. It’s been a while since she has been here. Her having the decision that maybe they shouldn’t hang out like they used to when he started dating Nancy. She didn’t want Nancy to think otherwise, and knew it wouldn’t look right.
Y/N let the shower run for a bit, letting it get warm as she stripped down her soaked clothes, a light shiver running down her spine.
Once the steam had filled the bathroom, she stepped into the shower, the warm water cascaded down her back, making her let out a small hum in content at how good the warmth felt. She rinsed and washed up quietly as she let her thoughts linger as she rinsed her hair.
She was too in her mind to hear the door open slowly, Steve closing it behind him as he saw her back turned away from his figure.
He couldn’t take it anymore. Not after hearing what she said. He was sick of dancing around it.
When he opened the glass door, Y/N jumped at the noise and turned towards him with eyes wide. “Steve? What’re you doing?” she asked softly, her voice sounding exhausted. Defeated. Steve said nothing, only closing it behind him and walking to her slowly. Y/N’s eyes followed his own as they took in her figure, then eyes softening as his eyes found her own.
He stopped just inches in front of her, the water running over them both, Steve towering over her as he looked down at her. Her eyes staring between his own as his hand came up to her jaw to make her fully look up at him.
He inched closer to her face with his own, their lips just millimeters away. Y/N’s hands stayed covering her chest, but slowly slid down in relaxation as their lips barely touched.
Their eyes looking between one another for what felt like forever, Y/N looked back at Steve with one final nod. That’s all it took, and his lips slammed down onto hers. It was hungry, needy, passionate. Fire ignited between them both as their lips moved in sync. Tongues fighting and teeth clashing as their pants filled the air.
Steve brought both of his hands to her hair, pulling her head back to let his lips openly trail from her lips, biting at the bottom one before going to her cheek, her jaw, and down her neck. Y/N’s eyes shut with absolute bliss at the feeling of his lips making contact with her hot skin. How his tongue poked out every so often, teeth biting at some spots.
Her arms came up to his forearms when he found a sweet spot behind her ear, making him hum in satisfaction. Y/N had grown greedy, and in dire need of his lips on hers once more, making her grab his face from the spot in her neck to slam their lips back together.
Steve’s hands trailed down from her hair, down her body, leaving sparks and fire in his trail as he touched her everywhere he could reach.
He never realized how much he craved her until now. Now, he couldn’t live without her. He couldn’t live with the fact that any guy could have her like this. Could’ve been in his spot. He especially couldn’t stand the fact that Billy almost could’ve been in his place if he waited any longer.
The thought alone made him grip her hips hard, making her whimper lightly in his mouth. He groaned as she bit his lip. They broke apart, just millimeters away from one another as he looked at her with a haze in his eyes.
“I’m never letting you go now,” he muttered softly, leaving one hand on her hip while the other trailed to her belly button. He watched her lips hitch in a gasp at his touch. Her eyes were big and hazy as they looked up at him. The rain poured hard outside, being heard even through the shower running around them. “Not when I’ve got you like this. This is all I’ve ever wanted. I’ve always wanted you. That was the problem, honey.”
His hand trailed down her navel, just above where she needed to feel him most. Her insides burn with desire and need for Steve.
“I couldn't stop thinking about you. Every second of every day,” he trails off, leaving soft kisses on her lips between his words. “You were always the one thing I came back to,” he hums, letting his hand finally cup her heat. He smirked lightly as he watched her eyes roll back as he let his fingers rub up and down her slit.
“Steve.”
“Hm?” he says, letting his hand figure out what she liked, how she wanted, needed, to be touched. Her face would contort when he rubbed or flicked certain spots, making him bite his lip as she watched her lose any ounce of control she had.
“Hargrove kept saying how he would take you like this. How he was debating on it,” he taunts, letting a finger slide in, Y/N let out a moan as her head fell onto his chest. He chuckled darkly as he felt her beginning to hump herself into his hand. “I kept thinking about that. Picturing. It pissed me off.”
She shook her head as her hand went to grasp at his wrist while he pumped his fingers in and out of her. “Never would’ve happened,” she moans. “I wouldn’t have let it happen.”
He takes his free hand from her hip and trails it up to her neck, causing her to look up at him. Her eyes are still lightly closed, light moans and whines leaving her lips.
“You sure? It seemed like you enjoyed getting pretty friendly with Hargrove.”
She shook her head. “Only wanted you. I only want you.”
“Oh sweetheart,” he says softly, taking his fingers out of her, causing her to groan at the sudden loss of contact. “I wish I believed that,” he says, shaking his head. She frowned at his words, still dazed and confused at the fact he left her high and dry.
She decided to push right back at his smugness.
“Maybe I should. If you’re only going to leave me high and dry. I’ll let him finish your job.”
Steve’s eyes darkened at her words, causing him to turn off the water behind her, then grabbing both of her thighs to wrap around his hips. He walked them out to his bedroom, slamming her body onto his bed as he towered over her figure.
“You and that mouth of yours are going to get you in trouble, honey.”
He spread her legs open, biting his lip as he tried to muster his groan, but failing miserably.
“And here I was going to be nice and give you my tongue,” he tuts, before grabbing his dick and sliding it through her folds. “But after that little stunt you pulled, I’m not feeling so nice anymore.”
With that, Steve slams all the way into her. The pair both let out moans at the feeling, Y/N grabbing his hair in one hand while the other scratched down his back. Steve began to pump in and out of her fast and hard, lips and tongue busying themselves with her breasts as they bounced with every thrust.
“Steve, please,” she whimpers at his pace. He looks up at her through his lashes, seeing how she is biting her lip to keep from moaning louder. He releases her left nipple with a pop and leans down to kiss her hard.
“Maybe if you fix that attitude of yours, I’ll take my time,” he groans into her mouth, capturing her moans in his own. “Fuck you the way I’ve been dying to. Nice and slow to show you how in love I am with you. You’d love that wouldn’t you?”
Y/N’s hand grips his hair to pull his head back to make him fully look at her. “Please, baby,” she moans out breathlessly, causing Steve to groan. She clenches around him tight, causing him to stutter his movements. Steve soon begins to slow down slightly, still hitting that spot inside of her that she loved oh so much. Her grip loosened on his head, both hands going to grab the headboard behind her as her back arched. Steve looked down at her in amazement, mouth open as he moaned out her name.
“So fucking pretty, fuck,” he pants, taking her slower as his gaze falls to where they’re connected. He sees her hips grinding up to meet his own, making him bite his lip and grab them to meet his own with each thrust. “You’re fucking mine. Not Hargrove’s. I don’t share. Especially not when it comes to you.”
Y/N can feel the tightness in her stomach getting closer and closer with every thrust, causing her to look back at Steve who is so focused on watching him thrust in and out of her.
“Steve I’m-”
“I know, I can feel it. Let go whenever, sweetheart. I’ve got you.”
It didn’t take much for her after that, clenching and sputtering around him with a loud moan that followed with his name. Steve came shortly after, placing his lips over her own as his hips stuttered against her pelvis. When their lips broke apart, Steve’s head immediately went into her neck, kissing at her collarbone a few times as they lay there breathless.
Y/N’s hand trailed from his shoulders, up into his hair. She didn’t miss how his body broke out into goosebumps from her touch. His breathing slowed moments later, his now softened cock still inside of her. She could feel him twitching again, hardening as she clenched around him each time he twitched. “Steve,” she moans softly, gripping his hair as she feels his tongue and teeth biting at the skin along her chest.
“I need more,” he groans out against her breasts, taking one nipple into his mouth. She arches into his mouth more at the feeling. His hands pushed down her hips as she started to nonchalantly grind up against his hips, letting his own hips slowly thrust and grind into her. “Gonna go all night. I might just need to have you like this forever,” he moans into her nipple, before pulling away with a pop. Y/N grabs his head and pulls his lips back down to hers, his thrusts hard but slow. Moans getting louder between them both as Steve hit that one spot inside her that made her toes curl.
Before Steve could react, Y/N had tightened her grip on him with her legs, turning them over with him still inside of her. She took his hands from her thighs and laced them with hers, pressing them into the mattress beside his head.
Her eyes looking into his with such adoration and want in them. She began to grind into him, moans leaving her mouth as she bit her lip from being too loud. Steve looked up at her mesmerized, mouth agape as he takes in everything about how she looked on top of him.
“You look so fucking beautiful like this,” he sighs, watching her throw her head back she grinded and bounced on him.
She let go of his hands, bringing hers to lean back on his thighs as she worked her way on him. Steve’s hands immediately went to the crevice where her hips and thighs met. He gripped them in a bruising hold, guiding her every move as he met his hips with hers. “Fuck Steve,” she moans out, not missing the way he hit that spot inside her once again.
“Nobody will ever get to see you like this, Never again,” he moans as he lets one hand slithering up her front, going to grip her neck in a tight enough hold for it to go to her head. Her eyes rolled to the back of her head at the feeling. “Not even Hargrove. This is mine.”
“Always has been,” she sighs while looking back down into his eyes. Their highs were coming closer than they did the first time, Steve pulling her down by her neck to meet her with a sloppy kiss.
Both of their movements became faster and faster as the pit in their stomachs got tighter and tighter. “Let go baby. I’m right behind you,” Steve breathes out against her lips, her nodding against him before her hips stutter and stilled as she reaches high. Steve took over and thrusted up into her through both of their highs as Y/N fell forward onto his chest. She wrapped her arms around his neck, nails running through his hair. His hands trailing up and down her back as they lay there breathlessly. “This is gonna sting a bit,” he said first, before slowly pulling out of her. They both let out a loud hiss, Y/N followed with a slight whimper at the emptiness as she gripped his hair lightly.
“You okay?” he hums against her, and she nods lightly. He chuckles. “We should probably clean up soon.”
She hums. “Soon. Just not yet,” she breathes out softly against his chest.
“Oh no, I’m basking in this as long as I can,” he chuckles softly. She smiles against his chest at his words. “I’ve got you, and I will not be letting you go anytime soon.”
“So you like me?” she jokes, making him grab her jaw softly to look up at him. He looked at her like she had two heads.
“I think we both know I’m way past liking you,” he admits, making her eyes soften at his words. His thumb caressed her skin softly. “It only took me how many years to come to my senses.”
“It took me being friends with Hargrove for you to come to your senses,” she shot, making him roll his eyes.
“Whatever,” he laughs, making her snort. “He’s not gonna let up on this, you know. He will be giving you shit till the end of time for taking so long.”
Steve eyes her. “He really knew before I did? Ouch.”
She smacked his chest softly. “He figured it out, I didn’t have to say a word.”
“Well, I still don’t like how flirty he is with you. So he better knock that off,” he says slowly. “I’ll make sure of it.”
“How will you do that?”
“Oh, honey we’ve got all night. I’ll make sure he knows to keep his hands off.”
Saw ur recent Joe Keery fic and here i deliver an idea i had in mind, I know Halloween is over and all but, Joe reacting to his gf wearing/dressing up as the characters he has played as (ex: Steve,Kurt,Gator,Keys, etc) like they just wanna dress up as the character he played as just to get an reaction from him or something. Like, they dress up as scoops ahoy!steve cuz they saw a costume of it in a shop and went like "oh! I wanna try hehe" complete wig and all LMAO anyways yeah! Sorry i yapped a bit too much whoops-
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જ⁀➴ ♡ Cosplay of My Heart
જ⁀➴ ♡ Joe Keery x Reader
Summary: You ambush your boyfriend with a week of living cosplay's of his filmography. He's officially banning you from his IMDb page.
જ⁀➴ ♡ Fluffy/Comedy!
A/N: this request was adorableeeeeee, so much fun to write, lowkey Joe's just terrified you know his characters better than him.
Word Count: 2,650
The door to your apartment swung open with the metallic clink of keys hitting the bowl, followed by the familiar shuffle of Joe kicking off his sneakers. "Babe?" His voice carried that slightly raspy, end-of-day tiredness that you loved. "I'm hom - "
The word died in his throat like a phone call dropping mid-sentence.
He stood frozen in the entryway, one hand still gripping the doorframe, the other suspended in the air mid-gesture. His mouth hung open, a perfect 'O' of disbelief, and you could practically see the synapses in his brain misfiring as he tried to process the visual information assaulting his retinas.
You stood in the kitchen doorway, hip cocked against the frame, wearing the full Scoops Ahoy atrocity: the high-waisted blue shorts that stopped at an aggressively unflattering length, the striped shirt that practically screamed I work for minimum wage and I have opinions about sprinkles, and - crowning achievement of your scheme - the wig.
Not a cheap Halloween store knockoff. This was a work of art. The brunette wings swept up from your temples in a gravity-defying arc that seemed to challenge the laws of physics, the hairspray creating a helmet so rigid it looked like it could deflect bullets. It sat slightly askew on your head, giving you the appearance of a disturbed seagull that had crash-landed into a Duluth trading post.
Joe's satchel slipped from his shoulder, hitting the floor with a dull thud that neither of you acknowledged.
His eyes - those unfairly long-lashed, expressive brown eyes - performed a complicated dance: widening, squinting, widening again, then darting down to your shorts and back up to the architectural nightmare on your head. A muscle jumped in his jaw. His Adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed hard, twice.
"Is that - " His voice cracked like a pubescent teenager's, shooting up an octave he hadn't accessed since Stranger Things Season Two. He pointed with a trembling finger, his hand hovering at chest height like he was afraid to get too close. "Is that my hair? Where did you - how did you - " He looked wildly around the room as if searching for hidden cameras, or perhaps a time machine that had transported him back to 1985. "We're in January!"
You struck a pose, double finger-guns aimed directly at his sternum. "Ahoy there, sailor. Interested in a triple-decker sundae? Or perhaps... my digits?"
Joe's mouth opened. Closed. Opened again. No sound emerged - just a breathy, astonished wheeze.
He took one unsteady step forward, then stopped, his hand coming up to cover his mouth. His shoulders started to shake. You could see the laugh building in his chest like a tidal wave, pressing against the dam of his disbelief until it burst free in a snort that he immediately tried to smother behind his palm.
"You're wearing the shorts," he observed, his voice coming out muffled and stratospheric. He dragged his hand down his face, stretching his cheek out of shape, eyes still fixed on your legs. "The short shorts." His voice cracked on the second 'short,' breaking into a higher register entirely.
"They chafe a little," you admitted, tugging at the hem. "But fashion is pain, Joseph. Now, do you want to check out my boat, or are you just going to stand there looking like your brain blue-screened?"
He looked at you - really looked at you - and you could see the exact moment horror tipped over into delirious amusement. His eyes crinkled at the corners, crow's feet deepening, and his mouth twisted into a expression caught halfway between agony and adoration. He bent at the waist, hands on his knees, wheezing.
"You know," he gasped, looking up at you with watery eyes, "half my therapy... is about that hair." He straightened slowly, still breathing hard, and walked toward you with the careful steps of a man approaching a wild animal. "I moved mountains to escape that hair. I spent three years growing it out, then hacking off a good chunk of it off and dying it blonde and then finally apologising to my reflection. And here you are..." He reached out, his fingers hovering millimeters from the synthetic blond strands, his touch gentle and reverent and terrified. "...wearing it in my kitchen."
"Correction," you said, tossing an invisible scoop. "I'm wearing it in our kitchen. And I think intimacy means sharing trauma, don't you?"
"That's not - " He wheezed again, doubling over, his forehead nearly touching your shoulder. When he looked up, his face was flushed pink across the cheekbones, his pupils blown wide with mirth. "Oh my god. The hat." He reached up and flicked the brim of the paper sailor hat, which wobbled precariously. "You're wearing the hat. You look like a cast member from a lost episode of The Love Boat that got banned for being too emotionally damaging."
"Thank you. I was going for 'transcendent.'"
He crossed the remaining distance in two long strides, his hands coming up to cup your face - careful, so careful not to disturb the wig, as if touching it might summon some ghost of Hawkins past. His thumbs stroked your cheekbones, his touch warm and slightly calloused, and you could feel the suppressed laughter vibrating through his chest where it pressed against yours.
"I hate this," he said softly, his voice dropping to that lower register that always made your stomach flip. His eyes searched yours, dancing with mischief. "I hate this so much. I'm horrified. I'm traumatised." He leaned in, his nose brushing your temple, and whispered, "I'm possibly aroused, and I need to reevaluate that later in a safe space with professionals."
"So... you like it?"
"Adore it," he groaned, the sound rumbling from deep in his chest. He pressed his forehead against yours, his breath warm and smelling faintly of the peppermint gum he always chewed. "You're unhinged. Completely unhinged." He kissed you then - soft, sweet, lingering - and when he pulled back, he was grinning, his hair falling into his eyes. "Take it off before I have flashbacks to the heat stroke."
"Mm, no." You stepped back, executing a twirl that sent the wig shifting a full three seconds after your body stopped moving, like it was operating on a delayed feed. "This is just the beginning."
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Two days later, the front door clicked open with its usual snick, followed by the sound of Joe humming something under his breath - some jingle from a commercial, off-key and content.
He rounded the corner into the living room and stopped so fast his sneakers squeaked against the hardwood.
You stood by the window, backlit by the afternoon sun, holding a bright green toy water gun. The hoodie you wore was a patchwork of ride-share logos - Lyft pink and Uber black clashing violently across fabric that looked like it had been sourced from a clearance bin at a gas station. The wig had been restyled, less poofy to emphasize the faintly unhinged look in your widened eyes.
Joe's phone slipped from his hand.
It hit the carpet with a muted thwap, and he didn't even blink.
"Kurt?" he guessed, his voice a strangled whisper. He took a step backward, hitting the wall, and leaned against it for support. His chest was heaving slightly, his mouth working silently as he catalogued the details - the vacant expression, the slightly parted lips, the thousand-yard stare you were aiming out the window.
"I need five stars, Joe," you said in a flat, affectless monotone, turning your head toward him with the slow, mechanical movement of a malfunctioning robot. Your eyes were too wide, unblinking. "Give me five stars or I'll drive us both off the cliff of customer satisfaction."
Joe's hand flew to his mouth, his fingers pressing hard against his lips as his shoulders began to shake. He slid down the wall until he was crouching on the floor, his knees pulled up, his free hand gripping his hair at the crown. He looked up at you through his fingers, his eyes wet and gleaming, and made a sound like a teakettle boiling over - high-pitched, breathless, broken.
"Where did you even - " He had to stop, dragging in a ragged breath that hitched in the middle. "Thrift store? You went to a thrift store and came back looking like you're about to explain cryptocurrency to me at a red light?"
You pointed to the plastic toy camera duct-taped to your chest. "It's tracking my every movement. Just like my paranoia."
"Okay, first," Joe wheezed, dragging himself up the wall using the doorframe for leverage. He stood there swaying, his face flushed a deep crimson, his eyes darting between your face and the logos on your chest. "First of all, the irony of you wearing this while not knowing how to parallel park is sending me into orbit." He took a wobbly step forward. "Second, you look terrified. Kurt always looked like he was one bad review away from faking his own death. You’ve got the eyes. You’ve got the twitch."
"I'm method acting," you whispered, leaning into his personal space. "I'm currently experiencing a low tip percentage and an existential crisis about the gig economy. Do you have any water? I don't trust the tap. The government."
Joe made a wounded noise, bending forward until his forehead rested on your shoulder. His whole body was vibrating with suppressed laughter, his hands coming up to grip your waist as if grounding himself. "Take the wig off, babe," he gasped, his voice muffled against your collarbone. "I think it's cutting off circulation to your trauma centers."
"Not until you admit you love me more than Steve Harrington loves hair products."
"That's a low bar and you know it!" He lifted his head, his face inches from yours, his eyes streaming tears that he wasn't bothering to wipe away. His grin was wild, unguarded, younger somehow. "You're a lunatic. I brought you coffee and you're cosplaying my nervous breakdown."
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By the third costume, Joe had developed a tell - a specific twitch in his left eyelid that spasmed every time he walked through the door, bracing for impact.
He walked in humming, keys jingling, and immediately froze.
The apartment was dim, lit only by the glow of your laptop screen. You stood in the center of the room, bathed in blue light, wearing a short sleeve button down over a basic tee, and your hair - your real hair, thank god - had been arranged in Keys' sweet, earnest middle-part, falling in soft waves around your face.
You pushed up the fake glasses on your nose and smiled - a small, tentative, devastatingly sincere expression that was so purely Keys that Joe physically recoiled, his hand flying to his chest like he'd been shot.
"Mr. Keery," you said, your voice gentle, precise, carrying that slight lilt of someone who spent more time with code than people. "I've calculated the probability of you loving me, and it's... one hundred percent."
Joe's mouth fell open. He took a step back, then forward, then spun in a complete circle in the entryway, his hands gesturing wildly at nothing.
"Why do you look good in this?" he demanded, his voice cracking on the last word. He advanced on you with the urgency of a man confronting a paradox, his eyes wide and desperate. "This is Keys. Keys is wholesome. Keys is pure. He wears linen shirts cares about fiber content!" He reached out and grabbed the sleeve of your shirt, rubbing the material between his fingers, his expression crumbling into disbelief. "You look wholesome. I can see why I - I mean... this is disturbing how good this looks on you!"
"Do you want me to stay in character?" you asked, tilting your head in that specific, bird-like manner, your eyes wide and earnest behind invisible frames. "I can talk about programming and the beauty of existential awareness in artificial intelli - "
"Stop!" He grabbed your waist and hauled you flush against him, pressing his face into the crook of your neck. He was shaking his head back and forth, his breath hot against your skin, laughing and groaning in equal measure. "You're a menace. A complete menace who clearly has too much access to my filmography and my wardrobe." He pulled back just enough to look down at you, his expression softening into something awe-struck and achingly tender. His thumb came up to trace your cheekbone, his touch reverent. "I'm going to have to start hiding my scripts so you don't show up dressed as Gator next."
You went very still.
Joe lifted his head, suspicion blooming across his face like a slow-motion explosion. "No."
"Define 'no.'"
"No."
"But I already bought the MMA shorts!"
"NO!" He picked you up then, lifting you clean off your feet, the cardigan bunching between his fingers as he spun you around. His laughter rang out, bright and uninhibited, echoing off the apartment walls. "Absolutely not! I'm drawing a line! The line is drawn!"
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Twenty minutes later, you were both sprawled on the couch, you back in your own sweatpants and t-shirt, your head in his lap. Joe was scrolling through the photos on his phone - dozens of them, capturing each costume in mortifying detail - occasionally breaking into fresh giggles that made his stomach muscles jump under your cheek.
"I'm keeping these," he declared, his voice rich with satisfaction. He turned the screen to show you a particularly horrific shot of the Scoops Ahoy wig sliding slowly off your head mid-pose. "Blackmail material. If I ever need to feel better about my career choices, I'll look at my girlfriend dressed like a deranged ice cream man having a stroke."
"You love it," you said, burrowing closer, your hand resting on his chest where his heart beat steady and fast.
His thumb paused on the screen. He looked down at you, and the amusement in his eyes shifted - softened - into something deeper. The laughter faded from his mouth, but not his eyes; they remained crinkled at the corners, warm and fond and fixed entirely on you.
"I do," he admitted quietly. His free hand came up to brush hair back from your forehead, his fingers lingering, tracing the shell of your ear. "You're insane. Completely bonkers. The fact that you know these characters - the way you captured Kurt's dead-eyed paranoia, or Keys' earnest little head-tilt..." He shook his head, marveling. "You see me. Not just... not just the actor, or the hair, or whatever. You see the work. You see the dumb parts and the serious parts and you..." His voice thickened slightly. "You dress up like them to make me laugh. You embarrass yourself in synthetic wigs just to see me lose my mind for ten minutes."
He leaned down, his lips brushing your forehead, then your temple, then the corner of your mouth. "That's... that's pretty special, weirdo," he whispered.
"So you'll let me do Gator?" you asked, looking up at him through your lashes.
His laugh burst out, surprised and delighted. He dropped the phone, cupping your face with both hands, his nose wrinkling. "I'm changing the locks. I'm changing my name. I'm moving to a remote cabin in Vermont."
You grinned, reaching up to boop his nose. "Worth it."
"Absolutely," he agreed, pulling you up for a proper kiss - slow and sweet and smiling against your mouth. "But if you ever wear the Scoops Ahoy outfit to a red carpet, we’re having a very serious conversation about couples therapy and possibly a conservatorship."
"Deal," you said. "But I'm keeping the wig."
"I figured," he sighed, resigned and delighted and utterly in love, his arms tightening around you like he never planned to let go. "God help me, I figured."
Summary: You get a bit more than you bargained for when Steve picks the movie for your movie night.
Pairing: Steve Harrington x Reader
WC: 3.4K+
Tags: MDNI, smut, female!reader, established relationship, pornography, (m)masturbation, dirty talk, very subtle degradation, kinda sub and bratty steve if you squint
The piercing ring of the telephone filled your living room, pulling you from the pages of your book.
“Hello?” You say into the receiver, a film of annoyance coating your voice.
“Woah, hey babe it’s only me,” chuckled the voice through the phone, “sorry, is this a bad time?”
“Oh hey Steve,” you sigh contently into the phone at the sound of his voice, “no, no, I was just reading ‘is all. What’s up?”
“Well, I was calling to see if you had any plans tonight but obviously you’re very busy with your book.” Steve’s voice dripped with flirtatious sarcasm.
“I think I can pull myself away, depending on what you have in mind.” Your tone matched his.
“I’ve gotta close here but I thought I could swing by your place after work. I’ll bring a movie, some snacks and you know, some condoms.” Steve listed casually. “Does that sound better than your book?”
“Hmm I don’t know, it’s a pretty good book.” You twirled the telephone cord around your fingers as you spoke. You imagined Steve doing the same on the other end of the call.
“Maybe I can sweeten the deal…” You could hear the smirk in his voice. “We can do that thing you liked that we tried out last week?” Steve’s voice lowered to a sensual whisper, suddenly hyper aware that he was in the very public setting of Family Video, multiple groups of people milling around the shelves on a busy Saturday afternoon.
Your thighs involuntarily pressed together at the memory he was referencing. You opened your mouth to speak but were silenced by another voice coming through the phone.
“Hey lover boy! Save your dirty talk for later, we have customers.” Robin’s distinctive, friendly bullying echoed in the background. You pictured the scene in your mind, Steve was no doubt blushing the shade of a ripe tomato. You stifled a giggle.
“Uh okay I gotta go but I’ll be there around 9 see you later princess I love you bye.” Steve said all in one breath as he quickly hung up the phone. He didn’t care that he couldn’t stay on the line to hear you say ‘I love you too’, he knew you’d whisper it to yourself as you lingered the phone to your ear–and you did.
The rest of the day you tried to be a normal functioning person but your thoughts easily distracted you. Wondering what Steve was doing at that very moment.
Wondering if he was wondering what you were doing at that moment too.
Wondering about the things he would do to you later.
He filled every wrinkle of your brain. Every nerve in your body.
Nine fifteen. You had showered and changed into some comfy clothes. A t-shirt stolen from Steve’s draw that he had at your place and a pair of pyjama shorts. You thought it easier to forgo the underwear underneath. You didn’t feel like you had to put on some elaborate outfit to impress Steve, he liked you in any form but mostly whatever made you feel comfortable.
You were in the middle of draping some blankets over the couch when his usual knock rapped at your door.
Steve stood in your doorway still wearing his Family Video vest from work, with a tight polo shirt underneath it, tucked into his light wash jeans that stretch over his hips just right. His face lit up at the sight of you. He scooped you into an embrace as he entered the warmth of your apartment.
“Honey, I’m home.” He said into your neck as he held you. He loved to role play like a married couple. Like it was the most natural thing in the world that he would marry you some day.
You smiled against his chest as you clutched at the back of his vest, breathing in the scent of his cologne that he obviously just applied in the car to cover the smell of the video store carpet he had been surrounded by all day.
His hand came to cradle the back of your head, signalling you to attach to his lips. You both sighed into each others mouths like you had been aching for it all day, which you were.
“So what did you bring?” You pulled yourself from him just enough to be able to speak.
Steve held up the plastic bag in his hand.
“Take a look.”
You rummaged through the bag, it was filled with bags of chips, packs of candy and a box of condoms. You found a video tape at the bottom and pulled it out to inspect Steve’s movie choice.
“What the hell is this?”
You held up the video tape like it was contaminated. You looked over the cover. A woman in a skimpy outfit with her breasts unnaturally pushed up, pressed against a shirtless man who looked like he was on steroids. The title read Teacher’s Pet.
“It’s a movie.” Steve said nonchalantly.
“It’s porn.”
“It’s still a movie.”
“Steve, you really want to watch porn together?”
Steve chuckled as if you had asked a silly question.
“Not like that.” His arms came to rest on your shoulders. “We can like make fun of it, it’s probably so terrible, it’ll be funny.”
You looked at him with a sceptical expression. He looked back at you with those big brown eyes, the ones that always got him exactly what he wanted.
“C’mon, if you don’t like it just tell me and we’ll turn it off, okay?”
“Fine.” You said with a squint in your eyes. “Go put the tape in, I’ll get us some drinks.”
Steve gave you a peck to the cheek as he took the tape and bag from you and stumbled over to the VCR, taking off vest and shoes on the way.
You returned to the living room with a beer for Steve and a glass of wine for yourself, placing them on the coffee table as you watched Steve crouch in front of the TV.
“Ready?” He turned to you for your consent.
You simply nodded and patted the spot on the couch next to you. You settled into his side as he pulled you close, your legs curled up next to you as his arm wrapped around you to rest his hand on your hip.
The TV came to life through the static, the speaker blaring the most painfully sexy but un-sexy, 70s jazz. You giggled, maybe Steve was right, this might be funny. You grabbed a handful of chips to munch on as you tried to decipher the plot that began to unfold.
“Is he like, her professor or something?” You mumbled through a mouthful of chips.
“Looks like it.” Steve replied.
“But they look the same age.”
“I don’t think you’re really supposed to think too much about it.”
Suddenly, loud moans filled the room as the couple on the screen started having sex against the wall in what looked like a school corridor.
“Woah, I wasn’t expecting that.” You said with a laugh.
“You weren’t expecting the porn stars to have sex?” Steve had more of a matter of fact tone.
You gave Steve a light hit on his chest causing him to furrow his brow as he turned his head to you. You kept facing forwards toward the TV.
“I mean yeah, obviously they’re going to at some point, but where’s the build up, the foreplay, the passion.” You gestured wildly at the screen as you spoke, emphasising your words.
“I’ll make sure to get a porno with a more engaging plot next time.” Steve half joked.
“Next time?” Your head whipped around to face Steve, he was back to looking at the TV, a mischievous smile across lips.
You two continued watching the events progress in front of you. It was pretty non-stop, different positions, locations. The whole time you rambled on about how things didn’t make sense or wouldn’t actually feel good in real life. Even complaining about how unflattering the lighting was. As you kept talking you realised it had been a while since Steve had spoken, which for him was quite unusual.
“Steve?” You turned your face to look at him.
“Hm?” He hummed in response. His eyes stayed fixed on the screen.
And that’s when you noticed it. The way his chest was rapidly rising and falling, his skin slightly flushed, hand gripping the arm of the sofa.
“Oh my god this is turning you on!” You accused.
“Nuh uh.” Steve childishly protested like he had just been caught stealing the last cookie.
“I know you Steve, I know when you’re turned on.”
He finally turned his head to look at you and you noticed how wide his pupils had gotten.
“Okay so what?” Steve retorted. “There’s people fucking right in front of me, of course I’m gonna be turned on.” His voice cracked a little as he raised it slightly.
“But it’s just so…” You scrunched up your face, searching for the right word. “Gross.”
“Since when are you grossed out by sex?”
“This is not real sex! It’s so over the top and fake and it’s literally just close ups of this girls vagina getting rammed.”
“Don’t act like you don’t love to watch me do the same to you.”
Your breath hitched, surprised at his words.
“That’s different Steve. That’s you and me. Not some jacked up random people who are paid to fuck each other.” Your voiced raised at the end, a little annoyed.
The room continued to fill with over the top moans, mostly from the woman. Steve’s eyes kept glancing back between you and the TV, like he didn’t want to miss a second of the dirty video or of you.
Your eyes scanned his body again, this time you noticed more of the growing buldge in his jeans. You couldn’t lie, you were now also very turned on. Not because of the porn but Steve’s response to it. He always looked so good when he was horny.
You didn’t want to let him think the situation had affected you in a similar way. You wanted to see how far you could push him.
You stood up from the couch, planting yourself firmly in front of Steve’s eye-line to the TV, situated between his widely out stretched thighs.
“If you like it so much, show me.” You said, your voice holding strong and composed.
“What?”
“Show me how much you’re enjoying this god awful porn and touch yourself.”
Steve opened his mouth as if to say something but all that came out was a soft whine. He was stunned, sure you could be a little bossy in the bedroom sometimes but never like this. You standing over him with an almost disappointed look on your face made heat rise throughout Steve’s body. Whether that was from embarrassment or something else, he wasn’t really sure.
You raised your eyebrows at him as if to say ‘go on’ but he remained completely frozen in place, unsure if this was some kind of trap.
“Are you being serious right now?” Steve said breathlessly.
You crossed your arms over your chest and shifted your weight on to one foot, popping your hip out.
“Dead serious.”
You held his gaze as he looked up at you. His hand slowly moved to palm himself through his jeans, he bit down on his lip at the feeling of slight relief.
You moved out the way of the TV. His eyes followed you across the room as he rubbed over the hardening crotch of his jeans. You sat in the arm chair that faced the couch. You could no longer see the screen from your angle, only Steve.
“Ah ah ah,” you scolded him, “don’t look at me, look at the screen.”
“C’mon baby don’t be like that.” Steve pleaded.
You gave him another stern look, gesturing with your head in the direction of the TV. He didn’t know how you were able to remain so composed while he was quickly becoming a writhing mess.
“Fuck.” Steve whispered, mostly to himself.
He undid his belt and unbuttoned his jeans to shove his hand in between his jeans and his boxers, giving him a better angle to stroke himself. Steve did have a bit of an attitude sometimes but he usually did what he was told. So there he was, hand down his pants, eyes glued to the obscene images, the feeling of your stare on him like hot lasers burning his skin.
You got up momentarily and Steve moaned softly thinking your were approaching him, but you just leant over to reach for your glass of wine on the coffee table. You sat back in your chair, making yourself comfortable. You took a sip from your cold glass, your eyes not leaving the movement of his hand for a second.
“What about you?” Steve breathed out his words making them only just audible over the load moans from the tiny TV speakers.
“What about me?” You replied, like it wasn’t obvious what he was asking.
“Aren’t you gonna–ugh–touch yourself too?”
“Nope.” You said, emphasising the ‘p’ and taking another sip of your wine. “I’m not into that gross stuff like you are.” You lied. Steve knew you were lying. You were currently demanding he get himself off all the while demeaning him for his sexual desires. It took every ounce of self control inside you not to match his hand movements with your own.
Steve moaned at your soft degradation of him before it turned into a slight chuckle.
“Oh honey, I just know you’re fucking soaked right now.”
He glanced over at you, not long enough for you to scold him, but long enough to see the flush that had coloured your skin. You held back a laboured breath as you bit into your lip. He knew you too well.
Steve was still pretty much just teasing himself through his boxers. You took a few deep breaths to steady yourself before speaking again. Steve was beginning to pathetically whimper, he needed more, you wanted him to have it.
“Go on Steve, show me how you fist your cock.” Your voice sounded a little bit annoyed, you were getting impatient at how long it was taking him to make actual skin to skin contact with himself.
Steve didn’t even realise he was waiting for your permission until you granted it. He scrambled to take off his jeans. He pushed them down his legs, lifting his thighs off the cushions and kicking his trousers off completely. He pushed his underwear down enough to release himself from their confines. He drew in a breath as the cold air hit the heat of his length.
You watched as he spat in his palm and wet his dick all over. His large fingers gripped around his thickness. You felt heat pool deep within you.
“Agh, shit!” He moaned your name along with a few expletives as his hand slowly moved up and down his ever hardening cock. He settled further back into the couch cushions, head thrown over the back as he picked up a little speed.
Before he got too lost in the feeling of his own touch, you snapped your fingers, drawing his attention back to you. He lifted his head, his eyes immediately drawn to your’s like magnets. He never stopped the movement of his hand as his dark, pleading eyes bored into yours.
“Tell me what’s going on.” Your voice slightly horse as you lost a bit of your composure. Steve gave you a confused look, too lost in himself, and you, to comprehend what you were asking. “In the video Steve. Tell me what they’re doing to each other.”
“Oh–ugh–umm.” Steve slowed down his movements to a lazy stroke so he was able to form actual sentences. He turned his head back towards the screen. “They uh, the girl is bent over this desk and–oh fuck–“ Steve interrupted himself as his hips involuntarily thrusted up into his fist.
“And what Stevie?” You encouraged, voice softer now.
“God he’s fucking her so good and–ah–deep, fuck.”
He sped up like he was trying to match the rhythm of the performers. His shirt had scrunched up to reveal the trail of hair that ran down from his chest all the way to where he fucked himself.
“You wanna fuck me like that?” You asked just as casually as you’d ask what he wanted for dinner. Your flippant tone somehow more of a turn on than a sultry one. Like you weren’t even fazed by what you were doing to him.
“Yes, god yes! You know I do.” Steve let out and strangled groan like he was begging you to let him spilt you open right there on the coffee table. “I wish I had a tape of you like this.” He continued, Steve seemed to always start rambling whenever he was close. “A tape of me fucking you, you take my cock so good baby, I’d watch that shit all fucking day.”
His words were the thing that broke you. You spread your legs and tilted your pelvis to show him the damp patch that had gathered in your shorts.
“Steve…” Your once level voice was now just a shaken whisper. If Steve’s ears weren’t so tuned in to the sound of his name from your throat, it would have been drowned out by the slapping of skin that emanated from both Steve and the TV.
He turned his gaze to meet your eyes and they flickered over your body like he was trying to take in every inch of the vision of you all at once.
“Would you do that for me, let me film us make love?”
Make love. You repeated those words in your head as you inhaled a deep breath. Steve Harrington, at his core, was still a hopeless romantic.
You simply nodded. Your heart racing. You felt every pulse of your heartbeat gush blood throughout your body.
Steve drew out a loud moan showing you how close he was, you barely even registered the ones coming from the TV anymore. He was frantic. Breathing heaving and short. Hips thrusting quick and hard into his fist. His other hand gripped the arm rest, his knuckles glowing bright white.
You just watched. Even though you were aching, you were frozen in place, mesmerised. The image was so filthy yet so beautiful. Steve totally lost in himself, in his thoughts of you and letting you bare witness to it. You didn’t want to draw any attention away from him by seeking your own release.
“Let go for me Stevie.” Now it was your turn to beg. “I want to see you come.”
Steve wasted no time succumbing to your wishes. The sound of your needy voice opened the flood gates. His short breaths turned to whimpers as his hips halted and fell to the plush sofa. His hand continued to work himself tiredly through his release. Spilling himself over his stomach, wetting the hair that dances across his tummy like delicate brush strokes. His head hung heavy over the back of the couch, his eyes tightly shut. His entire body glistened with sweat and other substances, illuminated by the glow of the TV.
And then he looked at you.
He looked at you with a familiar look. A look he reserved only for you. Only for moments like these where you both held on to the invisible string connecting your hearts. Your breathing matched his as it began to slow, chests rising and falling in unison. Your eyes locked on each other, as if the other would disappear the moment you looked away.
Steve held on to your gaze as he leant forward, reaching for his, no doubt now lukewarm, beer bottle on the table in front of him. He took a series of long gulps to quench the thirst he had worked up. Still, his eyes never left yours.
He stood from the couch, took off his dampened shirt and removed his boxers, leaving him completely naked in the middle of your living room. You followed his stare as he rounded the coffee table and leant down to turn off the TV, abruptly cutting off what sounded like the final climax.
He stopped in front of you where you sat, both hands on his hips. A small smirk grew on his face.
“You are so dead.” Steve shook his head at you as he spoke.
You leapt out of the chair running away from him. You let an out a high pitched shriek as you narrowly evaded his grasp and he started chasing you down the hall to the bedroom.
You were in for a long night.
A/N: Sooo I may already have started writing a part 2 for this if anyone is interested???? Thanks for reading <3
summary: While "King" Steve wanders the halls of Hawkins High with your broken bracelet in his pocket, you’re seeking an escape from your father’s violence, trading one hell for another by entering the Hawkins woods, the same place that took your mother and Will Byres went missing.
warnings: angst, mention of death, trauma, abuse, alcoholism, slut-shaming (towards reader), bullying, injuries, blood, hints of sexual abuse, parental death and domestic violence.
It started simple. A quick turn of his head as you passed him in the hallway. You were always focused on other things though, busy with your own life and problems. It was a bubble he’d never broken into before, you were untouchable, unbothered and disinterested by him, like he didn’t exist in your world.
He didn’t fault you for it, although Steve Harrington was too arrogant and cocky most of the time, he was self aware enough to know that sort of thing didn’t interest you in the slightest. The popularity, the way-too-loud parties his crowd of people went to. Acting like they were rebelling by doing everything every suburban teenager does.
Drinking, smoking, having sex, pretending to be interesting. It was exhausting to witness, let alone live it.
Steve knew that, knew the hangovers weren’t fun, that coughing in a room full of second hand smoke was bad for his health, that the shows of intimacy between two people that wouldn't otherwise pay attention to each other were meaningless, that laughing way too loud at jokes that weren’t funny killed the soul.
Steve Harrington knew. He knew it was bullshit and that popularity titles wouldn’t mean anything when the diplomas were handed out and everyone moved on from being stupid teenagers, into less stupid college students.
The future however, hadn't caught up to him yet. Steve ´The King’ Harrington, could remain sitting comfortably on his throne of self-importance and pretend that his ruling would last forever.
He knew it wouldn't, that time is a fleeting thing and the clock was ticking, deducting second after second of the remaining time he had to be known, noticed and cared for, even if only superficially.
You didn’t pretend to be above it all, being part of the social food chain was a given and you had always existed at the bottom of it. Not a freak by any means, you didn’t care for d&d, rebellion against authority or any other sort of corny movement amongst the students of Hawkins High.
You were at the very bottom. The Slut.
Used by everyone, loved by no one.
Perhaps care wasn’t the word you’d use to describe your feelings about the social perceptionpeople had of you. It was more like annoyance at the humiliation that was casted over you, at being known for something that wasn’t even true. Not entirely at least.
Not in the way they thought to be true.
You were well aware that the truth didn’t matter in the ecosystem of Hawkins High. It was all about appearances, to portrait yourself as something worth it of attention, the type of attention that saved you from being an outcast to the entire student population.
The truth was you had underestimated how much people cared about the skeletons others had hidden in their closet. You thought, — naively so — that they wouldn’t care about yours.
You had been invisible almost all throughout middle school. Always in your own little world because back then it didn’t really matter to be relevant, there were a lot of kids like you, who wouldn’t bother anyone and keep to themselves.
Being introverted and tired by the turmoil of a family life that nobody spoke to the other about, there wasn’t an understanding of how bad or good one had it. Well, until your mom died, then you understood everyone lived bastly different lives.
So it wasn’t a shock when eight grade rolled around and everyone seemed to suddenly belong to something. Choosing a trait about themselves and running with it as their main personality, the thing everyone had to know them for.
Playing basketball, being rich, having straight A’s, being pretty, being dumb, being a freak, being a party animal — which was just being a glorified alcoholic — or seemingly the worst one could possibly be in the small, pretentious town of Hawkins, Indiana.
The Slut.
You woke up with a headache, eyebrows furrowed in discomfort the second you felt the sunlight peak through your window and shine brightly into your face. The taste of cheap vodka and orange juice still lingering in your mouth, completely nauseating.
Perhaps you shouldn’t have drank yourself to sleep, again. But the fight with your dad had been good enough reason to want to lose consciousness even if it came with the consequence of feeling like shit on a monday morning.
He was probably still asleep on the couch, you could hear the sound of the TV still on, being interrupted every few seconds by snores. He too, had decided that getting drunk was better than dealing with you.
That was his nightly routine after all, screaming at you because of whatever bullshit reason he could find, and if he didn’t find any, then…whatever happened next wouldn’t leave your mind for days.
You tried not to think about what would happen later tonight. Instead, you simply got up and got ready for school, because no matter how shitty Hawkins High was, it was still better than being trapped between the four walls you called home with your dad.
Getting ready was done in silence, or as silently as you could because the stupid floor of the trailer you lived in made an agonizing sound every time you stepped on it.
Taunting you.
After a routine of carefulness and fear of waking up your own appointed hell, you grabbed your backpack and car keys before slipping out through your window without making any noise. The action was so engraved in your bones that you could do it in your sleep.
The drive towards school was the first and only time of peace you would probably get for the rest of the day. Between the snarky remarks girls made about you in the hallways and the math test you had to take during 2nd period, you had already decided this would be a shitty day.
Steve Harrington on the other hand? He had decided today would be a great day the second his car rolled into the school’s parking lot and saw yours already parked in the space furthest away from the entrance.
Odd, he thought.
Although he had never bothered to check where you parked before. Maybe this was normal for you, seeking the extra exercise for whatever reason a girl like you might have to walk such a deceptively long distance.
He didn’t bother to think about it for more than a moment. Instead, he grabbed his backpack and jogged towards the entrance of the school, not before noticing a somewhat familiar — and now broken— bracelet laying on the floor next to the trash.
He picked it up and analyzed it for a few seconds. At first he thought it was from some kid who had gotten bullied and it fell to the floor but no, a few more seconds of staring at the piece of jewelry and he already knew who it belonged to by the infamous initials engraved in the back of the heart shaped charm.
Without giving it even a second thought, he shoved the bracelet into the left front pocket of his washed blue jeans. He would return it, obviously. He wasn’t that much of an asshole, he knew it probably meant a lot to you.
That’s why he planned on returning it when he had the chance to.
The walk from your car all the way to your locker was made in the same hurry you always moved with. Not late by any means, just trying to avoid the same assholes that always had some sort of comment to make about you.
Your routine didn’t help though, because they still found their way in front of your locker, leaning against it like they owned the place. Theirs to stand there and block you from taking out your History textbook.
Still, it didn’t really mean much other than a quick snarky comment and insults that had lost their edge the first week of Shophomore year. It had gotten old pretty quickly, now three months later it just felt stupid to stand there and listen to them spew the same nonsense.
“Wow, Skanks these days don’t even make an effort to look good” Carol Perkins said in that snarky way she spoke to everyone. Chewing gum in the obnoxious way she always did no matter what time of the day it was.
Disgusting.
Melissa Driscoll just laughed beside her. All of them did, because god forbid they have a genuine reaction of their own and not just copy each other.
“Don’t say that Carol, you look really good” You replied with a fake smile plastered on your lips pushing her to the side — with not even half of the strength you wished you had used — to gain access to your locker.
Luckily Tommy was nowhere to be seen, otherwise you weren’t sure what would’ve happened to you.
Carol scoffed as one of the girls beside her, Jessica Murwood pretended she was going to hit you but ultimately didn’t. She wasn’t going to risk detention for a petty fight she hadn’t even started.
So much for loyalty, you thought.
“Are we done here? because I have much better things to do than help your self-steem” You added with a venomous tone.
Taking out the History book you never even ended up using during class before shutting your locker with more force than needed, just for the pleasure of startling them.
“What the hell is your problem?” Melissa said with barely concealed anger in her tone, her eyebrows so furrowed it made her look much older. She would clearly need botox in 5 years if she didn’t want to look fifty while being twenty.
You didn’t bother to respond this time, instead you just turned around and started walking towards class just as the bell rang announcing the start of first period.
Great. You would be late for class thanks to Carol and her stupid friends who seemed occupied muttering insults about you between each other. Hopefully they choked in their venom, Hawkins High could do with a few less bitchy students.
Unbeknownst to you, Steve Harrington had witnessed the whole conversation, not intentionally of course. He wasn’t a stalker or anything like that, he was just passing by when he heard your voice and out of curiosity stood nearby to hear you.
He had your bracelet after all and that seemed like a good enough reason to hear what you were talking about. Because what if you thought Carol had stolen it when in reality he had it? He would have to speak up and give it to you.
Not because he cared about you, but Carol Perkins was the girlfriend of Tommy H. and he didn’t want his friend’s girlfriend to get detention over something so stupid. He owed loyalty to her, not you.
Or that’s what he told himself, that he wasn’t paying attention to you because he didn’t want to make your social reputation more miserable than it already was, although he wasn’t that terrible of a person to make that happen either way.
Clearly you could defend yourself though, so Steve felt no need to do anything other than laugh at the way Carol and the other girls didn’t respond with something quick enough to you that would hurt your feelings the same way you had hurt theirs.
It went miserably.
During first period Mr. Brown had made an example out of your tardiness by making you go get a tardy slip from the main office. Where the secretary looked at you with a face of disdain before taking her sweet time filling out the paper with your information.
Clearly she had a problem with you. Because when Heather Holloway walked in with that fake innocent look in her face and saying she needed a tardy slip filled out, the secretary looked at her with a motherly expression and responded in a much better tone.
Then you had a math test in second period. You had studied, spending all your free time doing the exercises the teacher said that she would put on the test. Clearly she had lied, because the second you sat down and saw the questions on the paper, you knew that you wouldn’t get a good grade in the slightest.
Now it’s lunch time and you have nothing to eat nor money to buy food, so sitting in hunger in the middle of the school field drawing on your notebook is all you can do to pass the time.
It isn’t that bad. I mean sure, your stomach kind of aches because of how empty it is and your wallet is basically begging you to go pick up an extra shift at Fair Mart so you can afford lunch next week, but other than the embarrassing reality you are living right now, everything is perfectly fine.
“hey” you hear a voice say, a pair of clearly worn in black boots coming into your view making you look up, immediately reconizing the person in front of you.
Jonathan Byers.
“I need your help with something” he says, his face holding a certain sort of worry that told you something is terribly wrong, specially since he is asking you for help.
“hey…what do you need my help with?” you ask him, closing your notebook to hide what you were drawing moments ago.
“my brother Will, he’s missing in the woods” Jonathan starts, clearly uncomfortable “I need help with his poster so I can put it up…and with everything else” he takes a deep breath, the camera hanging from his neck following the movement from his chest.
“yeah…I can help you” You reply simply, tone softer than the one you first had answered him with.
You and Jonathan have always been kind of close since neither of you has had any friends since Freshman year, there’s this sort of alliance where you sometimes hang out to not be so lonely, or do group projects together in the classes you share.
Alright. Will is missing, that’s something really serious but you aren’t sure how right it is to get yourself involved, specially since the last time you even talked to the kid was more than a year ago.
You weren’t about to deny him any help though.
“Do you remember what he was wearing the last time you saw him?” you ask him, a strange feeling of doom traveling down your spine, goosebumps rising on the nape of your neck.
Strange.
If you were honest right now, you had to admit that you can’t fully understand why Jonathan is asking you for help. Sure, he is in need of support because having his little brother be lost in the woods is a terrifying concept but that still doesn’t cover it for you.
Not that you believe he has a secret agenda or anything, that would be a horrible assumption to make about someone who is nothing but kind to you. I mean, you even enjoy his company every time he graces you with it, which isn’t often at all.
This is different though, extremely so. Because seeking help from you, who has almost half the town against your very existence because of a reputation that stuck more than anything had ever stuck before, makes you very much useless in any sort if serious situation.
Perhaps he thinks you might understand, that with your mother having died in the very same woods under somewhat similar circumstances makes you somehow more understanding of his situation. That rings true.
You can put yourself into the worn in black boots of his situation and feel the fear travel all throughout your body like it did all those years ago, when you hoped your mother had gotten fed up with your father’s abuse and just ran away from home.
Jonathan’s voice snaps you out of your sudden trance “are you alright?” he asks you, his eyebrows furrowed once more at your sudden strange behaviour.
“You don’t have to help if you don’t want to” His tone betrays the neutrality he tries to portrait through his facial expression, he sounds utterly broken at the conclusion that formed in his mind about you not wanting to help him.
“I do!” you exclaim to stop him from deciding he actually doesn’t need nor wants your help in this situation “I do want to help” you say with a calmer tone, shoving your notebook inside of your backpack before standing up.
“I’ll help you with the poster and putting it up around the city” You announce to him, offering to do more than you could probably afford to, already calculating how many shifts at your job you were renouncing to.
“really?” Jonathan says, surprised about how much you were willing to do for him.
He doesn’t say it out loud, not that he has to for you to know what he’s thinking. But he wasn’t all that sure you would agree to even help with the poster. He is acutely aware of your reputation, of the things you’ve done and the things people claim you have done even if there’s no proof.
He’s also not immune to the popular opinions and rumours – no matter how much he claims to be above them – he’s heard about you. in fact, he has fallen in the trap of believing what was being said more than once.
Jonathan wants to believe this wont blow up on his face later on, that maybe this could be a shifting point in your social reputation, for the better obviously. Something he shouldn’t even be worried about right now because his brother is missing, but he is worried, always is.
Maybe it is the way you’re both stuck in the same situation. No friends, continuously antagonized by the population of Hawkins High and somehow being forced to feel bad about it. like the fault is yours and not theirs for being so judgemental about people just trying to survive and not sink even further into the poverty line that you´ve been tethering since childhood.
“Yeah, I also know the woods pretty well so I can help look” You offer even more, because the more you think about Will out there, probably scared out of his mind, freezing and hungry, the more you remember what your mom must’ve felt in her last moments.
You don’t want that destiny for Will Byres.
Jonathan lets out the breath he wasn’t aware he had been holding all this time, nodding at your words with a new but somewhat small sense of hope.
You want to feel some of the hope that begins to plague his eyes at the prospect of having higher chances of finding Will with your help but you had never worn naivety well, or at all if you were completely honest with yourself.
Instead you simply decide to indulge in the statistics of people found alive who have gone missing in the woods, which although is a small number, it still is bigger than cero and that is enough for you to decide that Will would become part of that statistic.
“yeah…that would be great” Jonathan finally relaxes.
His next thought is a cruel one, he’s very much ashamed of thinking it the second it formulates in his mind but – and yet again he feels terrible about it – it’s his true sentiment right now and he knows that if you could hear it, you would be okay with the cruelty of it.
You’d be okay with the cruelty that comes with the fact he feels a lot better having you go through this with him because you know how it feels, the emptiness in the new found silence that plagues the house when a person it’s missing from it.
The pain of having your heart tear ever so slightly with every second that passes without knowing if they are safe or not. The doubt of how not knowing how this situation will end, if with a sentimental reunion, or a casket you couldn’t afford without sacrifing your college savings.
Jonathan is glad that your heart breaks alongside his, because he isn’t sure if he could survive this if it was any other way.
Entering the building of Hawkins High never gets easier, it always feels like walking down towards hell’s gate and asking to be let in, like it’s a choice and not an obligation for you to enter this place.
If you had it your way you wouldn’t even graduate high school. You would be content with leaving right now, with only freshman year complete and three months of sophomore year to show for yourself, because there truly is no point in accomplish anything in Hawkins.
“How many copies of the poster do you have?” You ask jonathan as he begins to put up Will’s missing poster on the bulletin board, the contrast between the description of what Will was wearing the last time he was seen and the happy thanksgiving messages felt somewhat nauseating to look at.
“almost three hundred, why?” Jonathan responds without looking at you, his eyes darting across the board trying to find push pins that weren’t holding up anything to use them.
“Oh, it’s just that when I was looking for my mom-” you stopped talking for a seconds, the sentence leaving your mouth made you feel horrible in a way you hadn’t experienced in almost two years.
It was better not to think about it. “What i mean is that if you want Hawkins to be filled with posters you’ll need about six hundred copies” You rearrange the phrase so that mentioning your mom again is left out of the conversation.
“I’m talking every damn street having at least one poster in it” You pick up a push pin that wasn’t holding anything before handing it to Jonathan with a small smile.
“That would cost like 60 bucks and I don’t have that much money” Jonathan answers with a tone that snuffs out whatever attempt at lighting up the mood you had made with your last comment.
You think for a second, trying to come up with a solution to a problem that wasn’t solvable in the slightest in the short span of a few hours. Then an idea came to your mind.
“In my job at Fair Mart they pay me minimum wage, so three dollars and thirty-five cents an hour, 60 bucks devided by that is basically 18 hours of work which is the max amount of hours I can work during the week” You say rapidly, hands moving somewhat frantically as you try to make what you are about to offer something sane.
“I can ask my boss to pay me in advance for next week so we can pay for the copies and put them around town” The words leave your mouth and it’s like in that very moment every one in the hallways chooses to fall into a deafening silence.
Jonathan turns to face you with an expression that is unreadable but just as he is about to speak, his eyes look behind you, making you turn around to see what stopped him from what you would probably assumed was going to be a speech about how he didn’t want to take your money.
“Hey…” Nancy mumbles ackwardly without even so much as looking at you “I wanted to say, you know, um…I’m sorry about everything” She looks behind her and you follow her gaze until it lands on the one group of people you hate the most.
Carol Perkins, Steve Harrington and Tommy H. The only half decent person being Barb who you hadn’t talked to since eight grade, when she started crying when someone lied and told her your mom was found dead in the woods that were close to her home.
The look of clear amusement and mocking that Tommy’s eyes hold as he waves at you is something that should be enough to send him to jail for the rest of his life. But what’s worse than the clearly faux empathy he shows you is the way that Steve Harrington just decides to ignore the situation in it’s entirety and looks away.
You don’t bother to see what expression Carol or Barb are wearing. You didn’t care what they thought or felt about all of this or really anything at all.
“Everyone’s thinking about you” Nancy continuous speaking and you cannot help but scoff at her words, she’s clearly lying to save the face of her new friend because your reaction makes her eyes snap towards you for a second, like she can’t believe you’re indirectly calling out her bullshit before turning to look at Jonathan again.
“It sucks” she adds, her eyebrows raising ever so slightly.
“Yeah” Jonathan repies with a harsh tone. He doesn’t like the pity words, the way Nancy speaks like this is happening to a kid she has no relation to just because Steve Harrington and his horrible friends are standing a few feet away, using this conversation like a show made for their amusement.
She seems to pick up on it though, quickly adding onto her words with something of actual sustenance and not just vague bullshit “I’m sure he’s fine…he’s a smart kid” her tone begins to soften. Then the school bell starts ringing.
Nancy takes a few steps back mentioning a chemistry test, her gaze shifts between you and Jonathan “Good luck” she says, nodding at you with an expression you know is hiding a small simmering level of annoyance, walking towards Steve Harrington before they all walk down the hallway towards class.
Not until she is out of your eyesight you turn towards Jonathan, frustration clear as day on both of your expressions “What was that?” you mutter with a raised eyebrows, crossing your arms over your chest.
He simply shrugs before turning towards the exit and walking out.
What. The. Fuck.
You don’t bother finding Jonathan after he suddenly left, he clearly didn’t want your company after the weird interaction you two had with Nancy Wheeler, who seemed very determined to preserve her good social image instead of actually caring about Will being missing and how that affects Jonathan.
You couldn’t really judge her for it though. If you had the social reputation she does, the money, the friends, the grades, the family. Just one tiny thing that she has, you would also do anything to keep it in your life, even if it meant acting like douchebag sometimes.
Then again, you don’t have any of that so hating her feels reasonable.
You don’t hate her though, or it doesn’t feel like it at least. It’s just that comparing your life with hers makes it very clear to you that some people are born with everything to succeed in the world, while others have to fight for the scraps of goodness that people throw at them out of pity.
The difference is laughable, and God do people laugh about it whenever they can. Pointing out the torn up clothes you wear, the way your jeans are your mothers and the jacket that clearly isn’t your size is your father’s.
Because you have never owned anything, always borrowing, begging, groveling for scraps of warmth and love nobody wants to give you. Nancy Wheeler doesn’t struggle like you do, she doesn’t debate every month between keeping the heating on or having food on the fridge.
She has the privilege of a fridge full food, a warm house, parents that care for her not out of obligation but because it’s a given. She is so surrounded by love and stability that it’s impossible to picture her living any other way.
She has everything a person like you could ever want and she doesn’t even know it.
You’re jealous of how her existence has value, how she is aware of it and doesn’t pretend otherwise. The confidence she has when she claims a space in conversations, the way she knows what to do and say every time.
She is the type of girl with a fate sealed in gold.
It’s infuriating how she owns everything she touches, how the money she has and the reputation she has make her something desirable.
The second you step through the door it becomes very evident the way this night will end.
Your dad is sitting on the couch with a bottle of whiskey empty and laying on the cushion beside him, the small living room is dirty, so disgustingly dirty. There’s plates of food on the coffee table that you were almost sure had been there for more than a week.
Cigarettes butts are scattered all over the floor surrounding him, like the idea of getting up and looking for the ashtray that is in the kitchen counter never crossed his mind, which it probably was the truth, you didn’t want to think about it though.
He’s looking at you and you wish his stare was cold and detached as it usually is when he decides to deal with you. But your father is drunk, so very drunk and his eyes hold nothing but rage and depravation.
It transforms you into who you truly are at heart.
Behind the mask of maturity hides a terrified fourteen year old girl who has never been anything but prey to the people meant to care for her.
“You’re late” Your dad says, voice rough and low. His legs spreading apart, his right hand grabbing his chin while his elbow is pressed against the armrest, but what he’s holding in his other hands is what takes away your breath.
His leather belt, resting perfectly still on his lap, his fist holding the objet in place like it will try and run away from him. You think that if the objects in the house came to life, they would indeed run away from him.
“I’m sorry, sir” A trained response falls from your lips, big doe eyes glassy and breath strained with a fear that you can never fully shake off.
He isn’t a forgiving man, you know it better than anyone else, even more than your mother who had only been able to escape this hell in a casket.
You wish you could trade places with her sometimes, she knew how to deal with him when he got like this, when the brutality of his punches turned into something deviant, unnatural, inmoral, inhumane.
Pretty little bird trapped in a cage, wings clipped so you won’t be able to fly away.
“You don’t seem very sorry to me” He rasps out, sending the coffee table towards you and hitting your legs with one powerful kick.
The pain is there before you can register his action, it takes your breath away in one swift motion and forces a primitive reaction out of you, crouching as your body curls into itself to cover your vital organs from him.
The tears follow soon after, tiny broken little sobs falling from your lips as you keep your head down, so afraid of looking up at him because you know the moment you do everything will come crashing down on you.
“I want my mommy” You don’t recognize your voice as the words escape you. It sounds so… so small and innocent, like your four year old self had come out from the valllies of your mind to request the only thing that could cure you.
Save you.
But you cannot put out a fire with prayers to a dead God, begging for your mother won’t do any good and yet, you still beg.
Maybe because your life depends on it, because you don’t want to grow up into the shape your father tries to beat you into taking, or maybe the reason is nothing but the pure instinct of survival.
“What did you say?” Angry, he sounds so angry.
This time the pains steals your breath away, it’s sharp, sudden and excruciating in a way you had never experienced. Your ears ringing loudly as your head throbs in pain, the crown of your head it feels extremely warm, the pain is born from there and it travels down your neck into your spine.
Only when your ears stop ringing and the house falls into an uncomfortable silence do you hear the sound of something dripping. It confuses you because you know the faucet is shut and the one in the bathroom doesn’t work.
The you notice it, droplets of crismon red falling to the floor with a steady rhythm, broken glass and the missing empty whiskey bottle that sat next to your father a few seconds ago.
It takes a few more seconds of focusing and processing till you connect the dots before you’re lifting your hand and touching the crown of your head before moving your hand into your line of vision.
Blood.
“See what you made me do?” Your father speaks one more, his voice holds less anger but much more annoyance. He knows he took it too far this time, that this violence is dangerous not only for your health but also for his freedom.
He knows he can´t do much more tonight, not if he doesn’t want to leave marks that you can’t excuse with clumsiness and back luck. Instead he gets up and moves towards you, steps heavy against the creaky floor that does nothing but cry beneath his weight.
He moves the coffee table to the side and crouches in front of you, form this close you can smell the alcohol and nicotine that sticks to him like tree sap to a childs hand, unforgiving, unmoving and so very overwhelming.
His hands grabs a hold of your chin and tills your head upwards, forcing eye contact even though you can’t see anything through the tears that fall from your eyes. Ever so slowly he wipes them away, so softly it almost makes everything that happened before feel like a hazy dream.
“Why do you make me do this to you?” He whispers, fingers digging sofly into your face, holding you in place like you might attack him back if he doens’t remind you what he has done and will do to you if you try to fight him on this.
Somewhere between the dull ache of his nails digging into your cheek and the warmth of his hand against your skin, you find the love he feels for you. It is a small and ugly thing, full of teeth and resentment, it does nothing but scream into the abyss of the space between hate and comfort it hides in.
You could scream at him, escape this mess with a punch to his face and nothing but the clothes on your back to start a new life, and it feels like the correct choice to make every time you find yourself crouched and trying to protect the most fragile parts of your being.
But your father can be so sweet, so caring and loving despite his anger, his addictions, his depravation…that the thought of ever harming him back seems insane, like a betrayal of the biggest degree, because when he shows his love it makes everything he’s ever done wrong turn into ash and be blown away by a soft summer breeze.
How could you ever harm him?
“I’m sorry, dad.” You whisper quietly against his hands, eyes tightly closed to pretend this is nothing but love, instead of sinister manipulation and torture.
You are sorry about everything, and in between that ache of apologeticness that hides between your ribcage, you cannot help but feel the most sorry for yourself.
The awareness of deserving something even just slightly better than this is very much there, in the front of your mind every waking moment, but what can you do about it? there’s nothing out there for you. At least in here, trapped between the four walls of a burning house, you can feel the heat against your skin and pretend is the warmth of a loving home.
You don’t believe for a second that the apology is enough to appease him, but there’s nothing else you can mutter that will come even close to save you from the fate that awaits.
Your father takes a deep breath and his hand tightens his grip, it’s painful and dominating in a way that everything else in your mind leaves you, everything except fear.
“You never learn” He stars speaking, jaw clenched by the sheer amount of anger his body is made of “You never listen to the shit i tell you to do and then act like a fucking victim when i teach you a lesson” his nail dig dipper into your skin the marks already forming and already deciding they won’t fade until days later.
“This is your fault, everything that I’m about to do is your fault” With those final words he lets go of your face and stands up.
Then his hands latches to your hair with a violent and forceful grip, it makes the wound on your head bleed once more, the pain so strong it feels like your wound has been set on fire. He doesn’t care about it, that much is obvious with the way his fingers tighten when you squirm.
But the panic starts to really set in when your father starts dragging you across the floor as he begins walking towards….
No. No, Anything but that.
Your hands move by instinct, grabbing at anything that is close to you, the coffee table, the wall, the carpet. Anything that will anchor you into place and stop him from trapping you in that room because there truly are fates worse than death and that is one of them.
You scream so hard that your throat hurts, the horror of knowing what would happen once your father got you into the room and closed the door making you try and crawl away, the adrenaline numbing the pain of his grip on your hair.
Then a thought comes into your mind, a horrible yet brilliant one.
The broken glass pieces laying on the floor getting your attention as you waste precious seconds measuring the consequences of your actions. There isn’t much time to think though, a rough tug to your hair as your father continues to force you down the hallways reminds you of it.
It makes you pick one of the largest pieces of glass you can reach in panic before stabbing it directly into your father’s leg with strength that is born from fear alone.
His rage is quickly snuffed out bt the hot white pain that runs through his body, it forces him to let go of your hair and fall to the floor with a pained groan, his hands coming to clutch the wound to try and stop the bleeding.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry dad” You say repeatedly as you stand up with shaky legs, grabbing your backpack from it’s place by the front door and running out without thinking twice about your fathers screams.
The first that pops into your mind is to take your car and drive, leave this place forever and mever look back at what you would be leaving behind.
The idea doesn’t last very long, no matter how tempting it is to simply escape.
You know that it would be easy for him to find you and that’s the only thing that you don’t want.
Your father, albeit alcoholic, violent and depraved towards you, knows that the life he forced upon you inside of the trailer isn't one he can talk or make true outside of it.
That's why he has friends, why his cop friends in Indianapolis still mention his ex-girlfriend from high school and what she is up to, like your dad still has a claim in her.
Like if he says the word, they'll drag that poor woman to Hawkins and hand her to your father without a question.
You know the only real plan you can pull off is to walk into the woods, and get lost there for a few days.
Runaway teenage girls have never been a worry to the Hawkins police. Even more so, nobody that knows your name would want to help find you either.
That's why it doesn't scare you the moment your feet enter the woods.
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Summary:
You are Hawkins High’s resident "Golden Girl"—beautiful, brilliant, and destined for medical school. While you never asked for the popularity that follows you, you carry it with a quiet, unshakable confidence, spending your time helping others and noticing the subtle truths everyone else ignores. You don’t hate Steve Harrington; you simply refuse to be another one of his distractions, giving him exactly the weight he deserves and nothing more. Behind your perfect exterior, you carry your own private struggles, but your focus remains on the future. Over the years, Steve finds himself constantly pulled back to you, forced to face the only person who sees through his act and challenges him to be the man he’s afraid to become.
Masterlist:
Season 1:
Chapter 1: The Vanishing Of Will Byers
Chapter 2: The Tutor
Chapter 3: A Better Taste In Nightmares
Chapter 4: Friends?
Chapter 5: Stand By Me
Chapter 6: Asshole
Chapter 7: The King Is Dead
Chapter 8: The Weight We Share
Season 2:
Chapter 9: The Mess Behind The Curtain
Chapter 10: I Love You, Scarface
Chapter 11: Got Drunk On You
Chapter 12: We Can't Be Friends
Chapter 13: Bad Chem
Chapter 14: The Weight of You
Chapter 15: Half a Breath Away
Chapter 16: Close the Gate
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