Miss K Does Life

I don’t get the gift itself until mid-July (a visit with highland cows!!!)

But honestly, I would have been happy with the card. He’s not particularly effusive with his words but he found the right ones this time and it was exactly what I needed.

There’s been so much happening in our lives, and I’m probably going in for maintenance treatment next week and him finding the words to tell me how much he loves me is everything.

It’s been really useful, especially when I have appointments with my GP and psychologist.

This morning’s test has humbled me. I know that I’ve been on a slow decline but ‘tis perhaps a little worse than I realised.

It’s Tuesday.

If it was up to me, I’d toss pretty much everything.

Alas, there are two of us.

Complains about cavities, buys ice cream.

If you live with mental illness, adhd or any kind of chronic illness that makes self care difficult, please hear me when I say take care of your teeth.

Can’t shower for a few days? Eh, you can smell a bit or use wipes etc.

Struggle to do dishes? Use paper plates. Or load the dishwasher until it’s completely full, and use from it once it’s washed.

But your teeth? Pain. Expense. Possibility of having them pulled. Shame in your smile. Constantly noticing something “different” because of the way you run your tongue around your mouth. Changes to the way your safe/comfort foods.

And although I’ve not looked into it in great detail, it can lead to heart disease and so on.

We’re supposed to be going to the football tonight but every part of my body is screaming at me that it’s a bad idea.

It’s also Moomba and Grand Prix weekend.

And with everything that’s happening all over the world, I don’t feel safe. It’s like, if anything was going to happen here, this would be the weekend.

But also, I can’t live my life in fear.

I don’t know what to do. I have to decide by 12.

B is backing me either way.

And then suddenly out of nowhere you have a thought, or a word comes to mind that you probably wouldn’t have thought of if you were talking to someone. To the point where you have to google it to make sure you had it right.

Anyway… I’m watching a movie and was thinking how it’s not necessarily very “good” but it is a story about the homogenisation of Hollywood beauty standards.

In what world would I say the word homogenisation confidently in conversation? I wouldn’t.