To The One Who Will Love Me Next
First of all, thank you. Thank you for existing. I appreciate you being out there, somewhere in this world. It's so not given after everything I've been through. Yes, this is a subtle hint that I am carrying quite a heavy baggage with me - don't say I didn't warn you. I made some mistakes in the past and you'll probably know all about them, but it's important that you know that they do not define me and who I am. I am exactly everything you'll see before your eyes. "We're always learning in this life," as I always say.
There are a few other things that might be important for you to know...
You will probably realize rather quickly that I am used to being the big spoon, and I really do enjoy this title, but there may be situations in which I will let you go in the middle of the night and turn to the other side, just because I might start to feel less comfortable, and if I don't change position the blood flow might stop in one of those loving arms that will be wrapping you. If you wake up, please feel free to claim my title. It will surprise me and warm me up on the inside in a way that I can not explain. I really like hugs, in general. Just so you know.
My confidence has grown a lot recently because I've been working on it a lot and I've really taken time to take care of myself, and even though I'm not really looking for approvals from anyone anymore, I won't deny - a good word will always be on point. I'm very uplifting in my nature, and I often forget what it's like when it's the other way around. Thank you in advance. Again, this too will not be taken for granted.
If there is something I learned from my mother it’s to worry, so when I ask you to tell me that you have arrived safely to places, do not get angry with me. It comes from a good place, from the bottom of my heart.
I like to break away sometimes and get lost in thoughts, to just think about life. To go out to the street, listen to music, go see the sunrise / sunset and take a sit at some isolated spot - preferably by the sea - to look at the sky, the waves, the people passing by. I'm a very sociable and loving person, but I also love and enjoy my alone time.
It's important for me that you know that I'll always want to be there for you, but I won't always be able to. You'll be a very important part of my life, but you can not be everything. You will be part of my definition of "everything". I will not allow myself to lose myself again, and there may be certain "growing pains" in an attempt to find balance, being an all-in kind of person by nature. I'm gonna need us to work on it together. I'm gonna need us to want to understand each other, to contain each other, to empower each other. I'm gonna need for our communication to be open and honest. That even when we fight, we will end each fight with a smile, with laughter and with love. With insights that we can implement later on.
It is very important for me that you know that no matter what happens between us, I will always appreciate you, and I will always want to know that you exist somewhere in this world. And if for some reason you can not stay, do not worry about it - I'll completely understand that, as it's just another part of life.
But it is very important for me to ask,
That you keep the door open as you go,
For the one who will love me next.
Thank you in advance for everything you will teach me.
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