Wessaherondale

Make the decisions you can live with.

Are you horny or do you just need to pee?

I’m doing really well. But I forget it in the moment I go back to my old habits the minute I’m triggered and there’s an opportunity in front of me I’m working on it but I don’t have ideas of how to handle this how to eat less sugar when the opportunities in front of me.

One of the great mysteries of the world is how my bra gets fuzzs on the inside.?!

I love smooth legs. Yet I feel guilty because society pressures us into them and I want to be an example for young girls to do what is best for themselves. It can be time consuming and pricy to have smooth legs. I admire and can jealous of the girls that seem to always have smooth legs with no hair. I get mad cuz I think they do it for the boys and society pressures. I don’t think I learned to shave well and starting as a young girl I didn’t realize how once you start it is very hard to stop. I am not against shaving or waxing I just think we put the pressure on girls to young. It is such a weird mix of emotions I go through. I seek out people to follow who embrace their natural state to help normalize it for myself. It has helped me a lot but I still have a ways to go. I want to be sexy in guys eyes but also supporting the way the media pressures us and tells us we are disgusting and unfeminine for our hair is a delicate balance of staying in integrity with myself. If I am focusing too much I take a step back and if I pushing myself too hard to shave I step back. I try to come back to my center. I am whole and complete. I am sexy and bring the sensual energy and I am magnetic. I am Gods child and made in perfection. I do what works for ME! What you do doesn’t matter as long as it is for you. Good men support you for being you and that looks sexy. I also always feel bad because I don’t support the ultra feminism hating on men or saying we can look anyway and they should like us but that is what it feels like I am doing when I say certain things. Like I said it is a delicate balance I am learning to balance. Hope this makes sense.

When I have something to say and I don’t want to say it to someone I know and I’m not ready yet I say it here being honest is so important. I’ve been thinking about therapy yeah I don’t know aTherapist who could get my world. I know I need more support physically and to pull myself up more. I’m afraid that I’ll fall under the pressure of who I am living into. I know fear is the mind killer, it’s OK to be afraid but at the same time fear just tears things down. My inner child and me want more playfulness, less productivity focused work. I feel like I’ll miss all my great opportunities if I’m late and miss all the people that are on my tribe if I don’t show up and get my work done. I need more structure in my life I’ve learned that lesson already have the benefits of it. I feel very supported by my spirit guides and love. I just don’t want to do it the hard way, I want to get it right the first time. I just remember knowing that if took lorrie Ladd years to leave a toxic relationship. That’s not the goal obviously I know feeling low now will pass. An emotion is energy moving through me and this isn’t permanent. When I’m low, sad, scared and disappointed with life my spirit team lift me up. I know they have lessons they’re teaching me and I’m afraid I miss them in this state. I know I need to make time for my dreams, to schedule it. I really am noticing that I want to deny myself and I’m doing my best. Like I really want to. thanks for listening. Honesty is key

Write down what you are looking for in an apartment that would be perfect. Do the same for the town. It’s important to know both. What you are looking for doesn’t have to be all physical attributes, it can be energetic or an experience you want to have there.

I realized today and I’m often choosing between being on time and doing some thing for my beauty like putting on lotion and putting on my eyebrows. I realize I normally choose beauty as an important thing in my routine because I’m afraid of the loss of love and afraid of ridicule from other women. Too often we put such emphasis on how we look, that it’s our job to be presentable and if you have dry skin then you’re not. But I’m outside every day and it gets dry pretty quickly and sometimes I don’t have time in my routine to put on lotion. I am all for femininity and looking our best and feeling great but I shouldn’t expect judgment and a lack of love an appreciation for who I am from other women and men but mainly women. I am normalizing loving yourself in all your looks and showing how the best you can on that day!!

So short back story I am creative and love expressing my creativity. I am working on taking action on my ideas instead of letting them slip by me. Recently the idea of college started to interest me out of the blue. I am all for following my intuition but first I am in the process of discovering what appeals to me about the idea of college. I am doing this so I am consciously aware of my desire and reasons. This will help me categorize and know what to look for in a college. It will also help me decipher if my interest in it is in the right place. So far I know I am interested in the structure of college because it will give me many opportunities to express myself-my art, by essays and clubs. It is the opportunities that interest me. This makes sense but looking at it deeper, I realized I want it because in my own life I am not taking all the opportunities to express myself. In my previous post I talk about my realization I rub my eyes-a physical action that corresponds to the nitpicking I am doing about the idea I just had. I talk myself out of it and move on which sucks. The appeal of college is I will have to express myself because it is a school assignment. This deeper reason was partly guiding my interest in college. By realizing this I am more empowered in my life now and in my journey of possibly going to college. I just realized all this in the shower of course, so I stopped the eye rubbing and critical thoughts in the tracks and wrote this post.

I am releasing some old tickets to sports games and roller skating. I held on to them as a representation of my interest and active pursuit of sports. I needed them at the time as a physical representation because I didn’t feel very sporty, even though I know I can be. Growing up I didn’t experience much of the world seeing that I am sporty. I have moved past this and am proud to say I do not need a physical representation to represent and prove that I am sporty. I know myself, my truth and my sporty nature.

Do something crazy, do something new do something bold and it will inspire you. Break the cages that shackle you, how you move in your life will change. New steps lead to new paths!