Madamn

I know hardly anyone will read this but that is fine. I just need to journal my feelings anonymously somewhere. I feel flat, like a flat tire. I feel hopeless. I've felt somewhat hopeless for a year. I had passions and I'm not really passionate about much anymore. I lost someone close to my heart a year ago. They're still alive as far as I know but I had to let them go. I loved them with every fibre of my being and I was devastated. Now, I guess I feel 'okay' or better than I used to feel, but I think part of me is numb. I don't write from the same well of emotion and feeling that I used to. I feel broken by life. I am tired and low on money. I have low energy mentally to complete projects I used to enjoy. I feel kind of dead inside. No charisma. No enthusiasm to dance, to go anywhere. I'm scared I'll never feel like my old self again. What can I even do with myself.