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jawline

cheekbones

collarbones

getting piggyback rides

people being able to lift you

being able to share clothes

boys will finally look at me

the lack of face fat will make my nose look skinnier and my eyes/lips look bigger

not being embarrassed to go shopping with my friends

being able to wear makeup and cute clothes without looking like a failure that’s trying too hard

finally suiting my height so i’ll be seen as short and cute instead of stubby and chubby

being prettier than all the other girls in my family

sex

not being scared of yearly doctor’s appointments

bikinis

crop tops

shorts

form fitting clothing in general

jewelry finally looking cute instead of awkward on me

rings fitting without looking like they’re stuck

shaving taking half the time

showers overall being less stressful

being able to look in a mirror

finally being one of the pretty ones at school

being hot by the time i get to college

the idea of people wanting to see me naked

being fucked instead of killed in fuck marry kill for once

or even just married

anything but killed honestly

being able to eat in front of people without looking like a fat pig

people thinking i’m cutely awkward when i’m uncoordinated and bad at sports instead of thinking i’m a lazy fat bitch

getting genuine compliments instead of desperate straight-up-lie compliments girls say to you to be nice when you compliment them

people finally wanting to be my friend instead of being ashamed to be near the ugly fat bitch

finally knowing my clothing size

not getting marks on my stomach from my jeans being too tight

being able to be in photos without looking ugly and disgusting

skinny hands

nail polish actually looking good on me bc my hands won’t be gross looking

going into dressing rooms with friends

not being embarrassed of telling my friends my bra size bc the band number won’t be fucking huge

not looking noticeably bulky when i wear baggy clothes

-your lowest weight is other peoples highest.

-people never noticing that you don’t eat due to your weight.

-ACTUALLY being medically fat, not just feeling fat.

-having legitimate problems working out (knees can’t handle all the weight, asthma, etc)

-”you probably shouldn’t eat that, should you?” when taking your first bite of a remotely unhealthy food in MONTHS.

-losing over 70lbs and still not be close to ‘thin’.

-thinner anas looking down on you because you’re not skinny enough. (actually happened)

-thinner anas telling you to ‘stop starving yourself’ or ‘turn back before you get sick’ when you’ve actually been doing this longer than them.

-MORE SIDE EFFECTS!

-being petty and offended when people half your size call themselves fat in front of you, well knowing you weigh twice as much as them. (this is a personal problem but still)

-actually being happy to be at a NORMAL weight for once. 

-”MY BMI IS FINALLY UNDER 25!”

-lower chances of actually hitting your ugw because your body literally can’t lose more.

-LOOSE SKIN. L O T S OF IT. 

-knowing you’ve lost more than most of the fellow anas, but not being able to talk about it because your cw isn’t low enough just yet.

so shoutout to all the bigger people with anorexic tendencies, because they deserve way more. because they’ve gone through this pain for so long without enough recognition. because within the ana community, they’re often not even acknowledged. because THEY ARE VALID TOO.