ミサキの世界

Pick a topic you like, and that's what you're going to read about. Set a minimum word count, and read until you get to it. Start small. Smart easy. First try, it might actually be agonizing.

That's it for the day. Just hit the word count.

Next day, read to the word count again. Read something new! It will be easier today.

And easier the next.

On top of being scammed, receiving accurate medical treatment relies on you knowing how to do your own research, and too many doctors take illiterate patients less seriously.

If you become a victim of a crime or are accused of a crime, you need to be able to read the papers a cop or lawyer puts in front of you. They can happily take advantage of your ignorance if you give them a chance.

This list goes on! Landlords, real estate agents, accountants, car mechanics, bankers, phone companies, customer service, contractors, childcare workers, e.g. any other human you rely on just to live your life will expect you to be literate and capable of making smart decisions. It is not their job to supplement your ignorance. It is not any well-meaning individual's job to make sure you paid attention in the same classes they did. And most of them know this and will not wait for you to figure things out.

You can change your whole life whenever you want

Be who you want to be

Do what you want to do

You can lose it all a million times and gain it all back whenever you decide

Disrespected you

Cheated

Was abusive in any way

Lied constantly

Made empty promises

Ignored your needs

Took you for granted

Only wanted you when it was easy

Your discipline

Your character

Your values

Your goals

Your perspective

Your self esteem

Your presence

Your self respect

Your intelligence

Your integrity

I made eye contact

with a man holding a sign

on the side of a busy street.

I smiled at him

as he made his way over to my car.

He asked if I had any change.

I unfortunately do not carry cash.

I apologized and told him such.

I do have water though. Do you want some water?

"oh yes please." He nodded.

Can I give you more than one?

He nodded again and thanked me.

The light turned green

as I clumsily opened my case of water.

He raised up his hand to the cars behind me.

No one honked.

They patiently waited

as our exchange played out.

I handed him one.

Then another.

"Thank you so much!" He began to turn away.

Do you want another one? Just in case, for later?

He nodded again and thanked me.

I drove back into the area I wanted to work.

It is no secret that I am struggling.

It is no secret that we all are.

One day soon,

I might be in the same position as that man.

You might be too.

It's free to be kind.

Do what you can when you can.

We shouldn't have to beg

for our basic needs to be met.

It's a shame we do.

I wish I could do so much more for that man.

I'm grateful I could still help.

We all deserve kindness and peace.

We all deserve water

and something to eat.

Written by AprilFool 🐸

Not everyone in your life deserves permanent access to you. And this isn’t about judging people, it’s about being honest with yourself. Pay attention to how your body feels around the people you spend time with

Ask yourself:

Do I feel calm or tense around them?

Do I feel at peace after being with them?

Do I feel confident around them?

Do I feel supported without having to explain myself?

Do I feel emotionally safe with them?

Do they respect my boundaries?

Do they really listen to me?

Do they respect me even when we disagree?

Do they celebrate my growth?

Do I feel like myself around them?

Do I hide parts of myself to keep the connection?

Do we share the same core values?

Do they want me to grow, or stay the same?

Do I feel energized or drained after spending time with them?

Do I feel grounded or overwhelmed after talking to them?

Do I trust them with my feelings?

Do I constantly make excuses for them?

Do they bring clarity or confusion into my life?

Do they approach me with curiosity, not judgment?

Do they take responsibility for their actions?

Do they respect my time and priorities?

Not “this hurts right now,” but “this is it, and nothing comes after.”

The nervous system decides the story is over.

One thing that can help is keeping a list.

Not a gratitude list. Not a “silver linings” exercise. Not something meant to cheer you up.

Just a document with a name like: Things that felt final but weren’t.

Every time you spiral, you add to it. Without editing or reframing.

Things like:

The moment you were sure you had ruined everything forever

The relationship loss that felt like it erased who you were

The rejection that seemed to confirm every fear you have about yourself

The time you didn’t get the job you wanted

The time you were convinced you would never feel safe or steady again

Later, when your body is calmer, you can read old entries.

And something can become clear. You survived. You’re still here.

Not because it didn’t devastate you. Not because it “worked out” neatly. But because even when your emotions told you the ending had arrived, time kept moving.

This list can be helpful evidence. It can be evidence that emotions can feel absolute without being permanent. Evidence that intensity does not equal truth. Evidence that things carry on even when they feel they can’t.

You can add notes later if you want. Not to invalidate the pain, but to add context.

Example: I didn’t get the job (but I did get another one and meet an amazing friend there).

And if you need to hear it today:

You survived all of that.

You don’t have to know how this current situation resolves.