✨️just your dumb & annoying background character✨️

My mum's boss (also family friend so I know her a bit) just sent me two articles and podcasts about children who got parentified and had to grow up too fast and whoes parents wouldn't let them go and I'm like wtf why would you send me this out of the blue??

I thought I hated romance books, but turns out I just didn't care for straight romance

Everyone's always right in everything and I'm wrong all the time

Also they know how I was in therapy a couple years ago and got diagnosed with depression and was suspected to have a personality disorder (also got the ed diagnoses but they don't know that) and whenever it gets brought up that I have depression or anxiety or something they go "no you don't, you're just overdramatic or overreacting" and they've been telling me this since I was 5.... and that's why I have trouble showing emotions and validating my own feelings, dad, thanks

How the fuck do I love my body when at least once a day when my mum sees me she looks me up and down and makes comments about weight loss, fitness, calorie counting, how she can help me since she's "an expert" in weight loss now, ect... she buys me smaller sized clothes so when they don't fit she can go "well, this was their largest size"

I'm an idiot, I'm not normal, I shouldn't be allowed to exist. I'd pay for someone to kill me

What the fuck is my body changing for? I'm in my twenties, the only change that should be happening is my prefrontal cortex to finish developing, not suddenly have allergies and puffy eyes in the morning when I never had those before

One thing I was worried about when getting my upper lobe piercings was how I'm gonna sleep afterwards. I'm an absolute side sleeper, I hate sleeping on my back and sleeping with the neck pillow (with my ears in the hole of it) was uncomfortable and it still is. I barely got any sleep the first night, I woke up a lot bc I was so uncomfortable. Fortunately I'm getting used to it (tho i still don't like sleeping like this) and the second night I slept a bit better