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I was originally going to make this longer but I thought leaving it there would give more angst effect. Let me know if there’s any mistakes!

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You had met Chan when you were 11. You felt a sense of safeness with him, like he could protect you from anything. And he always did.

Whenever you needed someone Chan would be there, always by your side. He was there through all your ups and downs, there when the only person you had left was him.

You couldn’t pinpoint the moment you fell for Chan, perhaps the love was always there. But you did know you were in deep, you knew happy endings didn’t exist and you knew someone would get hurt in the end. So you never told him.

You thought maybe dating other people would help, it never did. The relationships never lasted long as you never truly loved them. Chan would be there to comfort you after breakups, he would never know that him being there made it worse. It made your heart ache.

Once you had both left school Chan found someone. Someone he loved. It tore you apart but you had learnt to deal with the pain. You’d hoped it would be short lived just like your relationships. It wasn’t. Once Chan told you he planned proposing you felt a sense of unimaginable pain. You’d managed to smile through the hurt and congratulate the couple.

You had managed it through the whole ceremony without breaking down, you couldn’t manage to stay for the after party though. You felt so broken it made you sick to your stomach. You had text Chan apologising for leaving as you felt sick, ran home and cried your heart out.

Since then you had slowly distanced yourself from Chan, he didn’t need the burden of you any more. After several months he gave up trying to contact you, you didn’t expect it to hurt so much as you had inflicted this upon yourself.

You had moved on somewhat, two years later. You’d occasionally see something that reminded you of him and your heart would ache. You’d tried your hand at dating again but nobody was him, it was useless. You had failed at making friends, failed at keeping a job and failed at living a life. But, you’d survived. You were managing. That was until your phone rang from an unknown number.

“Hello?” Your throat was hoarse from not having spoke for a while.

“Y/N? Is that you?” Your heart dropped. You felt an all too familiar feeling in your gut as you heard that voice again. This couldn’t be happening, not now you had made all this progress.

“Ch-chan?” You managed out, your voice giving up on you. You held back tears as best you could, you couldn’t let him know how this effected you.

“Yeah, it’s Chan” you wondered what it was he wanted. “Listen, could you meet me? I mean, not right now obviously, like, this week?”

Your lack of response made him speak up again.

“It’s fine if you don’t want to, I just- I wanted to see you” he wanted to see you. God this man had no idea how much he was breaking you right now.

“I think I’m free tomorrow” why were you doing this to yourself. You could’ve said no and never seen him again. But your heart yearned to see him, and before you knew it you had agreed.

That night you tossed and turned, replaying the conversation with Chan over and over. Your heart was racing thinking about seeing him again. Was he still married? Was he happy with them? You didn’t know, you didn’t know whether you wanted to know.

After dragging yourself out of bed and trying your best to make somewhat of an effort, you started walking towards yours and Chans meeting place. You felt sick to your stomach and you couldn’t control the butterflies you were feeling. The nervousness was really getting to you, your even legs began to wobble.

You eventually made it to the place Chan wanted to meet, a couple minutes early. You sat down on the park bench and tried to relax. You noticed that it wasn’t too busy around and that the place Chan had picked was pretty secluded. You were too busy looking at the landscape you hadn’t even noticed someone approaching.

“Y/N?” Your heart dropped to your feet at the sudden voice.

“Yeah?” You replied, too scared to look at the familiar face you’d grown to love. You felt him sit next to you on the bench and he sighed.

“You probably want to know why I wanted to see you, right?” You finally turned to look at him as he spoke, he was still as gorgeous as you had remembered. You nodded at his question.

“Well” he paused to sigh. “I’m moving away. Far away from here. And I guess I just wanted a proper goodbye, before I leave and probably never see you again”

“Oh” was all you replied. Chan furrowed his eyebrows at you.

“Was there something I did that made you push me away?” He suddenly asked. “It’s just, you left without a reason” you had left without a reason, you couldn’t blame Chan for wondering why.

“It’s nothing Chan” Chans face morphed from confused to angry within seconds.

“If it’s nothing then why did you leave!” His loud voice made you jump. His face softened slightly before asking more gently this time, “if it was nothing why did you leave me Y/N?”

You both sat in silence, you not knowing what to reply and Chan waiting for an answer.

“I’m not sure” you finally answered.

“You’re a bad liar you know” you knew.

“I-“ you started, but couldn’t find the words to finish. You didn’t have to as Chan spoke up.

“Were you in love... with me?” Were. You still are. You had no idea how to respond to the question Chan had posed, instead sitting in silence for a while. You sighed before looking him in the eyes.

“I never stood a chance, did I?”

Chans eyes softened before saying,

You woke up for the fifth night in a row due to a nightmare. you were getting pretty sick of the lack of sleep you were getting due to reoccurring nightmares. You looked over at the time and sighed, deciding instead of trying to sleep again, you would go and get a snack.

As you dragged your heavy feet to the kitchen, you suddenly heard something behind you and yelped. The culprit started giggling, you turned around to see Jeongin stood next to his dropped phone. As Jeongin saw your scared face, covered with dried tears, he stopped laughing.

“Wait, are you okay?” As soon as he said that you burst out crying, running into your friends arms.

Jeongin wasn’t really one for physical affection, but he knew right now you needed him. He snaked him arms around your waist and rested his head upon yours. He left you to cry for a moment until you had calmed down enough.

“Want to watch a movie?” He never knew what to say in these situations but a movie didn’t sound too bad right about now. You nodded and he pulled you over to the sofa. He turned on the TV and put on one of your favourite movies.

You cuddled into your friend, taking advantage of this limited time affection. Surprisingly, he accepted your love with no complaints. You could get used to this.

Within the first few minutes of the movie you had fallen asleep on Jeongin. He stared at you fondly before carefully picking you up and taking you to your room. He gently placed you on your bed and pulled the blankets over you.

He watched you for a short while before gently kissing your forehead and leaving you to rest.

“Have you finished it yet?” Your tutor, Seungmin, spoke up from the opposite end of your bed.

“I can’t do it” you huffed. You threw your work on your bed and pouted.

“Come on Y/N, it’s not that hard! I just taught you this!” Seungmin, tired of your childish outbursts, picked up your work to see how far you had gotten.

“You haven’t even start-“ Seungmin suddenly stopped as his eyes found a small drawing at the bottom of the page. “What’s this?”

“What’s what?” You asked looking up. Seungmin turned the paper and pointed out what had grabbed his attention.

On the page in the midst of other scribbles was a small heart with the letter ‘S’ written inside. You hadn’t realised you’d drawn that. You were just aimlessly drawing, not paying much attention.

As soon as you saw it your face flushed red, scrambling to think of an excuse.

“It’s a heart?” You hadn’t meant for it to sound like a question.

“What does the S stand for?” oh sh-

“Studying!” Seungmin burst out laughing at your response, only making you more embarrassed.

“You love studying?” He managed out in between giggles.

“Stop laughing!” Seungmin laughed even harder after seeing you pout. Eventually, he stopped laughing and looked at you seriously before asking,

This is pretty fluffy I’ll warn you lol. There is a teeny bit of suggestiveness but not big enough to label this as suggestive. Please point out if I made any mistakes! Enjoy!

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Your boyfriend Jisung had previously suggested on a date (in your favourite coffee shop) that he had wanted you to visit him in the studio. So you two would finally have some time alone. His band mates didn’t even know about your relationship yet. Sure they knew you were friends, perhaps they had even noticed the huge crush you had on eachother. But due to their dating ban, you hadn’t told a soul.

So here you were outside the back of the JYP building, waiting for him to sneak you in.

“pst Y/N” you giggled at Jisung, mocking how secret he was trying to be by gently tiptoeing to where he was stood by the door. Jisung rolled his eyes. Taking your hand in his, he pulled you into the building and guided you around the halls.

On the way to the studio you had to hide around corners several times to avoid being caught, it was quite thrilling if you were being honest. You had heard the voices of Chan and Changbin along the way, which made you have to change route, having to go the longer way so you wouldn’t be confronted.

Eventually you both made it to the studio without being caught. Sitting down in a chair in the room you let out a breath you didn’t realise you were holding in.

“That was scary” you giggled, looking at your boyfriend who had a very accomplished look on his face.

“Tell me about it” he huffed as he sat in the chair next to you, in front of what seemed to be a mixing board. You looked over at your boyfriend who had started flicking through things on his computer screen and became curious.

“What are you looking for Ji?” You questioned.

Your boyfriend gave you a knowing look and continued with his quest. You didn’t quite understand anything he was looking at, you figured that they were demo songs by the way they were labelled. This perked your interest, what could he possibly be showing you? Would he give you a preview of his bands new song? You hadn’t a clue.

Jisung made a small “ah ha” noise and you assumed he’d found what he was looking for. He reached for the earbuds that were strewn in front of you and placed them into each of your ears.

He quickly glanced over at your confused face before pressing the play button.

A soft tune started to play in your ears and you closed your eyes to focus on the melody. Soon, Jisungs voice began to fill your ears:

Fell on the earth I’m an alien on this earth

Feels like I don’t fit in anywhere

No matter how hard I tried to smile I feel so lonely

An alien that got mixed with the earth people

I tried to speak my voice but no one hears me

After a couple of minutes, the song ended. You hadn’t realised you had started to cry until Jisung reached out to wipe away your tears.

“Holy- Jisung, that was amazing” Jisung beamed at you as he pulled you out of your chair and onto his lap.

“Did you really like it? I was worried you wouldn’t” he held onto your waist and stared into your eyes with all the love in the world.

“Ji, I loved it” you could see the whole universe in his eyes as you spoke those words.

“You mean it?” You nodded at him, smiling.

Jisung pulled you in for the most intense hug you think you’ve ever felt. You could barely breathe but you were enjoying his embrace too much to let go.

After a short while he pulled you away and stared into your eyes lovingly.

“I love you” he muttered.

You two had never said the big L word to each other before, your heart was hammering in your chest. You two had been together for around 5 months now, that’s if you don’t include the 3 months you were both oblivious to each others crush.

You had always struggled telling people you loved them, even if they meant the world to you. Love was a big word and you were never one to throw it around unmeaningly. Growing up you would never tell your partners that you loved them back, which had always ended in a break up and many tears on your behalf.

But this time it was different. It was the boy who would go out of his way to make you laugh when you felt down. It was the boy who always brings you your favourite snacks when you feel unwell. It was the boy who would hold you tight as you cry into his shoulder. It was the boy who would kiss your scars and tell you you’re beautiful. It was the boy who would make all of your insecurities disappear. It was the boy who meant the world to you. It was your boy. It was Han Jisung.

Maybe that was why you had no problem reciprocating his words.

“I love you too”

After you spoke those words his lips crashed into yours. This hasn’t been like the other kisses you shared, this had been so much more passionate. You could feel the love through this kiss and you never wanted it to end.

You had never felt so much love from someone before and it was overwhelming. You loved Jisung more than you could put into words and you were confident he felt the same.

His hands had roamed from your waist to your rear as the kiss became even more intense. You were so fixated on Jisung that you hadn’t even noticed the door open and someone enter.

“What the-“

You jumped back in shock, Jisung stopping you from falling off the chair. Chan was stood in the doorway, mouth hanging open.

“What is it chan?” You saw Changbin appear behind Chan, his face morphing into one of shock after noticing you two.

“It’s not what it looks like!” Jisung stood up, placing you back on the chair, waving his hands frantically.

“Sure it isn’t, loverboy” Changbins smirked, eying you both up and down.

a list of some writers who’s work I love!!!

*some blogs contain mature work

@jl-micasea

@hanflix

@luvknow

@missskzbiased

@jeonqqin

@chaninfused

@wildernessuntothemselves

@maaaaaatryoshka0325

@maatryoshkaa

all of my work is gender neutral unless stated otherwise

f=fluff, a=angst, s=suggestive

chan

never stood a chance. a

minho

[01:24] f,s

changbin

cutie. f

hyunjin

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jisung

my boy. f

felix

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seungmin

[21:28] f

jeongin

welcome to my page:) I’m millie, but you can call me lee!!!

I write short stories & timestamps for stray kids members:)

I go by she/her pronouns:3

I live in the UK:]

I ult stray kids and ateez!!!

I’m planning on coming back and writing after my lengthy break lol. I have time to actually be active now so I’ll try my best to post as often as I can! I will take requests for drabbles/timestamps :) please look forward to my work!!!

Happy Changbin Day! <3

Sorry the start is poorly written:/ feedback would be lovely! Also I’m trying to keep my works gender neutral so please point out if I make a mistake!!!!!

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You’d had a crush on the guy at your favourite coffee shop for a good few weeks now, ever since he got a job there. There was just something about him that drew you to him. Maybe it was his adorable giggle or perhaps the way he’d always draw a little something next to your name on your cup. Either way he was hot.

Today wasn’t any different to other days, you’d finished for the day and were walking towards the coffee place. A part of you always anticipated seeing Changbin there (you had learnt his name from his badge) as he worked there every week day, around this time. But this time he wasn’t there, you thought it to be a little strange that he wasn’t here.

You felt slightly disappointed you wouldn’t see him today but there was always tomorrow right? Wrong. He wasn’t there the whole week, this slightly worried you but you carried on anyway.

It was now Friday and you were silently praying Changbin would be back today, if not next week at least. As you pushed through the cafe door you peered at the counter where he would usually be, sighing when you didn’t see him.

“Looking for someone?” You heard a familiar voice call from behind you.

“N-no” you spoke turning around and seeing no other than your crush.

“What you looking around for then?” He giggled, oh god he giggled. You stood there wide eyed a blush adorning your cheeks.

“I um I was- just looking for where to sit!” You thought that aught to be a good reason, no way you were saying you were looking for him.

“Really? You always sit in the same spot over there” Changbin pointed to where you usually sat, oh man he had you.

“I wanted a change I guess” you shrugged looking away so you wouldn’t give yourself away, you were an awful liar. Hopefully Changbin didn’t see through you.

“Whatever you say cutie” Changbin smirked walking over to the staff room and disappearing.

cutie. Changbin had just called you cutie. You stood there dumbfounded not moving a muscle, a dark shade of red kissed along your cheeks. How could you talk to him now without loosing it?

“Are you gonna buy something or just stand there?” You heard from the counter, followed by another giggle. Changbin had reappeared with his apron on, adorning his name badge.

You gathered the courage to turn around and walk up to the counter, trying to keep your composure, you leant your arm on the table and looked up at Changbin.

“I’ll let you pick my order today” wow you hadn’t stuttered, you made a mental note to congratulate yourself later.

“How about a milkshake? you look like you need something cold and sweet” Changbin teased looking down to your shaking hands on the desk in front of him.

“Can I have strawberry please” you said removing your hands off the desk to hide your nervousness.

“Of course cutie” Changbin smirked again, holding out his hand for you to give him the money.

You went to sit down in your usual seat, forgetting your previous lie, and what led for Changbin to being over your order like usual. After a couple minutes he came over with your drink and... a note?

Before you could question it both were in front of you, Changbin quickly scurrying away. You looked over at your drink and your eyes widened, he hadn’t written your name as usual, instead it read ‘cutie ♡’.

Blushing you moved over to read the little note. It had a number on it and underneath it read ‘text me... if you want’. Giggling at his note you looked over to Changbin who was watching intently from over the counter.

You pulled out your phone from your pocket and put his number into your phone, saving his contact with a heart. Smirking you started to type a text to him.