Thoughts of me.....

A year and a half ago I went to the dermatologist to look at a mole that had appeared out of nowhere about a year before that.  When he saw it he was majorly concerned and it was immediately removed that day.  I had suspected it was cancerous before I even entered the doctors office but I had put it off for a year out of fear.  The small surgery sucked.  It was extremely painful with a lot of stitches and bruising.  A week later I went back and sat down in the office to get my results.  I was alone and scared because deep down, I knew.  He told me it was cancer.  He said they got all of it out but that they were going to go back in and do a second, more invasive, surgery to remove a larger area around it, just as a precaution.  I had a small panic attack because I knew how painful it was the first time.  I asked him what the chance was that it had spread and he said the chance was very slim but they really have no way of knowing 100%.  As soon as the first set of stitches healed, I went in for my second surgery. It sucked.  For weeks I had bruising down my entire calf and it was painful to even put on jeans.  I now have a healthy 6 inch scar down my calf.  

Today I went for a re-check.  I haven't been back since the last time, even though that's not smart.  I noticed a mole appeared below my right boob and I was freaked out.  The other dr checked me over completely and decided to remove the mole I was concerned about.  She said it was NOT cancerous but had the potential to become cancerous if it were to burn.  This was a quick procedure this time, no stitches, no bleeding...just a bandaid and sent on my way.  I am happy to say that I have been cleared, cancer free, for 6 more months :) I cried when I got in my car...out of happiness of course.  I knew that if I had to go through what I went through last time I would have a melt down.  Here's the kicker....the dr. I saw today was a different dr than the one who removed the melanoma last time.  This dr said to me "I looked over your charts and I see you had a major surgery about a year and a half ago.  You're a lucky woman."....confused a little, I asked her why she said that...she responded..."What you had wasn't a minor thing. We remove moles every day without stitches or surgery.  Yours was much more severe.  If you would have waited 6 more months to come in, it would have been too deep and it would have spread. There's nothing we could have done here."........My stomach dropped.  I've done a lot of research and asked a lot of questions and once you get skin cancer, and it spreads to other organs, you're screwed.   So to think that if I wouldn't have been checked, I might not be here right now...well that was a kick in the ass.  

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