miksthoughts

2023, you started so great and it feels like I was flying, and I landed on a garden with all these flowers but I woke up and it was just a dream.

2022, you are the growing room. But did I ever grew now that you’re almost through?

I need to be aware of a lot of things. There is a lot of growing left to do.

I need to talk to myself. I need to let myself know how I hate this version of her this year. She tried to heal but she keeps hurting herself anyways. She lies to herself, it's as if it's not gonna hurt.

The wind, the rain and this coffee shop.

It's either I feel too much or feel nothing at all. But today, I'm heavily feeling so much.

So I guess despite of it all, I still carry so much respect for yah. 'Coz really, I do. And you know, I love you still, I love you that I was willing to let go of all the memories we had. I know that this is all non sense for yah, but Idc. I did my best. I was thinking you realized that you don't deserve a piece of love I gave you. So you went and walk away before serious gets serious. You know what I mean? Before I fuckin give you all of me. All of me.

Nasa point ako ng buhay ko na ayoko ng maniwala sa kahit anong sasabihin nila, from I love you to wala na? From broken walls to 10 feet walls.

Or am i thinking too much like i usually do?