Lady Chattertale

now it's 3am, my "situationship" mainly ignored me, i drank 6+ klopfer and a hugo, at the beginning i had a lil secret breakdown, but 𝜗𝜚 its good

the ppl were si sweet, even if i we weren't that clise befire, i got sweet letters, we danced a lil, talked a lil, ate a lil, and everyone said they loved my party

i basically got invited to 2 bdays alr (3.4. + 6.9. trm i think?) by my bbf / brother (feels older but is a lil younger) and a club bday of my vacay bestie from 5 years ago

then there is the alvaro soler concert too

Act as if you were a time traveler.

Now you are young again.

You had a loving husband/wife before.

That husband/wife is your “crush”.

Even though you don’t talk or date yet,

you know the loving husband/wife that they are.

You feel more comfortable talking to them.

You are a lovely person around them.

Try to impress them a little.

Smiling, holding eye contact, or talking to them isn’t hard.

It is only natural.

Their presence calms you.

After all you know they love you.

You aren’t afraid to show affection.

Not too much, because you are only their *classmate* yet,

and you would never want to make your sweet husband/wife uncomfortable.

After all, they don’t know, that you are their wife/husband yet.

Only what feels natural.

You start acting calmer and authentically.

You’re confident.

You know they will always have your back.

After all, they are your husband/wife.

You take more care of yourself.

You want them to perceive you like their spouse,

even if they don’t know it yet, after all.

You are a calmer, kinder, more polished, glowing, confident, authentic, happier version of yourself.

You are the best version of yourself now.

They (your husband/wife) bring out the best in you.

You are thriving.

Other people feel the shift in energy too.

You naturally attract more people and their kindness.

You make friends, you thrive, and when the time has come…

You husband/wife will know that it’s you.

Who makes the first move?

We don’t know.

All we know is that:

A) You’re thriving.

B) Everything will be all right, you’re married, after all.

C) They love you, after all.

(And making the first move won’t be that hard anymore since their presence calms you instead of giving you nervous butterflies.)

(If someone made you a really romantic love confession/ asked you out like in a novel - with flowers, diy and cake - you probably wouldn’t reject them, even if you haven’t caught feelings for that person until now… you’re catching them now, for sure.)

I texted him about Spanish class today. I wasn’t there. He hasn’t responded yet (I know he’s on his iPad/iPhone 24/7).

But I felt SO COMFORTABLE sending that text OMG!

I also had way less social anxiety today and a lot of positive interactions with classmates of mine.

In PE we do couple dances rn, and Em offered to dance with me, but none of us knew the new DiscoFox steps, so I danced with Di and taught her the few moves I knew, it was so fun and even tho we talk like once a month I always feel like not a minute passed.

Then I danced with Ev and taught her the DiscoFox, her hands were hot and sweaty, and I was a little concerned, but then I asked her, and apparently that’s a chronic illness, and then the conversation started to roll. She is a sweet person, really, and I’m so glad I invited her to my bday, in spite of her being good friends with the-Karen-no-not-the-actual-Karen-but-acts-like-a-Karen-girl from our class.

Then I danced with Em and J, and J taught us the Waltz. It was fun.

Then I noticed Ya standing alone, and I thought like NO YA CANT BE ALONE SHES SO COOL WHY IS SHE ALONE??

And then I taught her the Waltz - the one I had just learned HAHAHA - and it was so fun. The talking and the dancing.

Then then the teacher Mr. Me danced with the other teacher to show the Waltz Ya was like “Mr. Me is so hot.” And I was like “Real”. I hope he didn’t hear us, but he acted normal, so I don’t think he did.

Then 2 other girls showed Em, J, and me the ChaChaCha and I understood it really quickly so I showed Em and J, who still were a little confused. The other teacher told us that we shouldn’t jump but instead make steps and move our hips, since this is a Latin dance and stuff, she couldn’t really show the hip movement, since she couldn’t do it (she told us).

Since I’m a proud Latina and regularly go to Zumba, it was pretty easy for me. The others kept jumping tho…ugh. I didn’t say anything tho, I’m don’t seek unnecessary conflict. The I paired up with Di, she was jumping too, she didn’t like the ChaChaCha. She liked DiscoFox way better.

Even Lu talked kindly to me. I think she likes me, but she is rude to everyone. I told her I loved all the new dances - she didn’t of course. But then I didn’t say anything anymore bc I thought she didn’t rlly wanna talk. She said “But good thing that you like the dances” and went a away. (BUT LIKE AFTER A MINUTE OF SILENCE). This is very kind, if you consider her usual personality.

Before geography I talked to Ma, Lu, Es, Ju, La and while in class I talked to all of them too, but I also exchanged a few sentences with Moto, Ni, and Ca. Even Mr. Oz seemed less bored by the things I said in class.

Then I talked to Li, Em and Es in Math class. That wasn’t such a high anymore, but it was totally acceptable, especially my convo with Li.

Now I’m tired, ma is back home, I was looking forward to have the living room and kitchen to myself but now she is working there and I still have to find a dress for my Marie Antoinette Costume, make a blood choker, bake a cake and decorate it pretty with “let them eat cake”, dance in the living room to loud music, play DTI, go to the gym maybe.