Metrovert

@cheezbot 

@cheezbot 

Was it a nightmare

Or

Was it a dream

True

It was everything like before

But that's it

When I woke up

Everything has changed

I stop trying to have expectation

But I guess the idea

Or the hope I had

For that dream to be a reality

Is just a dream

Or was it a nightmare

I don't want anyone to be lonely

And I don't want to make them worry

So I just make the best

Trying to make everything a joke

To lighten up the mood

To make them see that I'm strong for them

For them

For them to open up and let it all out

Because I know the feeling of loneliness

Not knowing

If there's anyone for you out there

I always think myself is like a drive thru

A counter perhaps

For people to go and talk

I'll listen

I do enjoy listening to people

It puts a sight on how people

Are actually living

But...

When I close shop for the day

That's when the idea

Of going home alone

Going home without no one

Thinking whether he's okay or not?

That's just a new level of lonely

I may be beating myself up for this

And hurting myself too much

But I guess

I want to be there for people

Even when I know

The idea of them being there for me

Is just a dream

Because

At the end of the day I believe

You are alone in this world

You live life

And one day you just die

Leaving this world behind

For the world after

Am I depress

Would they understand me

Would they see me how

I want them to see me

Would anyone be there for me

When I'm truly down

And not because of trivial matters

At this point

I'm tired

Tired of trying my best to please everyone

I let go a lot

But it doesnt feel like myself

So I held on

Trying to help

Everyone along the way

But I just cant handle

All of it

I just had to let some go

I know this is a jerk move

But I just cant anymore

Whatever I do

It wont be enough for all of you

I never find myself

To be someone

That manage to make someone happy

Or that my existence itself

Is just a small binary

Compared to others

Whatever I do

I feel different

Even though

I'm wearing the same shirt

I view differently

Even though

I'm not wearing any spectacles

I think differently

Even though

I never had a revelation

It's true

Change can happen

Anytime anyday and anywhere

But change doesnt happen without a reason

It happens

When we are adapting

To our current circumstance

Or the ocassional heartbreaks

But

Its a mechanism to protect us

She is the most beautiful person

She is the funniest person

Except that is she lame most of the time

She can be a bit clumsy

But I don't mind

Because we are both alike

She is smart

Nothing that she can't understand

Even when I speak nonsense

She is bright and cheerful

Guess the best part about her?

She makes me smile

Even without trying

We going to make this work

That's my promise

I hope you can do the same

I'll be waiting

For you

Wherever you are dear

But till then

I won't go and look for you

I will make myself a better person

For you and to the people that matters

And be a better servant to God

Till then

Ever feel tired

Of pretending to be happy

Cause I am

I wish

That I can

Still be sad

But I can't

And I have to fake it

Tilll I make it

To the point

Of happiness

Till then

Why am I still sad

I don't have the answer to that

I don't know

When I'll stop being sad

But until then

I have to move forward

Two months since Summer started

And I feel less affected

"Less"

The emotions still come and haunt me

But less

I can see clearly the picture

Nothing seems real

It feels like everything

Will go back

To normal this coming September

But that's far from the truth

Far from the obvious

I'm just gonna pray

That nothing will hurt me

And that I can survive

Whatever upbringing

First foremost

I would appreciate it

If you didnt send me anything

And

Would just leave me alone

If you are reading this

Then this is my reply to you

My closure

Is when you decided to leave my life

And I really don't care what your justification

Because that doesnt matter to me

What matters and hurt me the most

Was mostly

Because you lied

You lied to me about your feelings

And betrayed my trust

I don't really care about your feelings fading

But you said

We can work it out

But you gave up

You didnt put any effort

It was all me

I shouldve been more careful

And wiser

But I don't resent you

Not at all

Its your happiness

I hope you're happy with that someone

And don't think about me

I beg you

We imagine

This perfect date

We imagine

This perfect scene

We imagine

This perfect moment

We imagine

This perfect gesture

We imagine

This person

That will always be there for us

Will always stay no matter what

Maybe we are not imagining it

Maybe deep down

The closest word to what we are feeling

Is

Hope

Hoping that those imaginations

Of ours

For one fine day

We can

Finally able to say

We did it

Have you ever felt

That the songs you listen

Every lyrics

Embodies the very essence

Of someone

That you never met before

But you know that

With each loving moments

You experince listening

To a hopeless romantic song

Would only lead you closer

To the person?

It such

A weird feeling

But I believe

In God

That person is near

That one person

Who will be a part of my future plan

Is near

And I should wait patiently

For my turn

Of happiness

Till then

Never knew

That this song would be the start

And the end of us

Till this day

This song brings back so many memories

The first song I ever

Shared with someone

Now

Instead of All We Know

It becomes

You deserved better

You have something better in store

Better

The keyword has been better

But how can you know

Which one is better

Deserving

Up until yesterday

I never felt like

I was worth it

To love but to only be left

Cold and dry

Thinking to myself

I never deserve all those

And all of you keep saying

I deserve better