organic chem is my meditation.

when im reading a fic and they randomly shit on my beautiful perfect wife who does no wrong 💔💔 (she's terrible. the worst. ever.)

One of the most tragic things about the book that both the show and movie go against, is that after Eleanor’s death, all the other characters continue on with their lives with no mention of her. It feels like a callback to the scene where Eleanor believes Theo and Luke are following and talking about her only to find out they’re not. Dr Montague publishes his book and it fails. Theo returns to her partner and they reconcile. Her sister cares more about the car than she does about Eleanor. Eleanor desperately wanted to be loved and to belong and to have an impact on other lives but when she is unable to have it in life, she seeks for it in death. Yet the novel ends as it begins; whatever walks there walks alone. There is no beauty or satisfaction in her death; it does not allow her belonging or companionship and she does not impact Hill House or its former inhabitants in any meaningful way.

shirley jackson i would have been there for you and also i would have killed your husband and your mom. i would have taken you on a writer’s retreat in upstate new york. i would have cooked you nice dinners and babysat your kids so you could write