!!RED!!RED!!RED

i didn't expect it to actually bother me but my ex changed her pfp to one of my favorite characters and like ??? can you not get your selfhood all over saber fate i like saber fate i identify with saber fate

i smell like you now :(

I wish i could just eat without eating

great idea girl taze yourself in the leg before an 8 hour shift at the standing up factory

fuck i cant even make myself throw up i cant do this

ive lost a friend now. she said some nonspecific bs that knowing me reinforced patterns she didn't like. all this because i told her not to call me strong or brave. this is the same girl who last time i saw her i told i couldn't have sex anymore and she kept touching me all over anyways. and shes always made comments about my body that make me uncomfortable.

today was a bad one. someone said they liked my face that i was beautiful. They said my nose my mouth my eyes. It hurt so bad knowing your hands werr all over it

maybe i just need to hurt myself really bad

how can you say you love me and then never come back?? i dont understand this feels like its genuinely breaking my brain how could you?

I hate being home alone bc i have to think about not eating

the feeling of wanting someone to be proud of you but knowing theyre never coming back. the feelings bleed into each other. the dreams

never coming back hurts so much to experience esp after so much i promise im not disappearing. you should've been honest

fuck it i need it im using this account again

ily words that mean i love you a computer screaming can anyone still here me just wanna be okay again. find a way to be someone else for a minute. ily can i try the name emily and not go to hell?

gods at this point i wish i could have been born in different model. Not in a trans way but i wish i had straight hair and a cute little face. i wish i was confident and always knew the right thing to say. i wish the nightmares would stop