reapplied to college, but I'm too embarrassed to post about it to my main socials in case I don't get in, so I'm quietly posting about it on my dead tumblr bc my heart is pounding
Wow this website looks so different than it did when I used to frequent it. Ummm I got in, and I'm finishing up my second week back! Hurray! I mostly only post little life updates on here because it feels more like a little private diary than anything else at this point. But yeah! I'm starting school again after my massive breakdown I had in like 2019/2020. It's crazy, because I totally took a break from reading, writing, and music, pretty much all of the things that made me feel like me for the last 5 years or so bc it all stressed me out so much. So I went from being super depressed from being overwhelmed by my passions, to being depressed because I was no longer passionate about anything. However, I've had about 5 years to pick up the pieces, examine them, and hold close the ones that mean the most to me. I still don't have any big dreams to accomplish or anything to really show for the growth I've experienced within myself for the last few years I've been "in hiding", but I'm ready to get out of this funk and take the steps to figure out what I want the rest of my life to look like.
I don't think I have many mutuals on here anymore, if any, but If you read through this whole thing, thank you sm, you're so sweet :')
I only have like a month left! I'm making pretty good grades, I feel like i've gotten back in the swing of writing more scholarly pieces, and I've only cried about school like twice! Turns out, school was only part of the reason for my crash out! When classes and work are the only things I have to deal with, life is pretty manageable (with the right meds).However, some other stuff happened in my personal life, and things are starting to feel a lot like they did the first time around. But it's okay. Well, It's not. But it will be. Now I know!
3 weeks until i graduate!!!
