melameeeeee

in one week--space between the changing future

My dreams have also been very vivid. Very clear paths to my physical life. Hints that people are coming. It feels like portals are opening. Twice two guides have told me to own this. “This is not something you are into, it’s who you ARE.” Thank you sleep.

i’m so thankful for the people who have been spontaneously and pre meditatively coming into my life.  It’s isolating following this path and not having people who I 100% know understand these experiences, so to meet others who do is very important. It’s a sigh of relief. It helps propel me ahead. It helps to understand that my path is an agreement that I have made with my higher self. This path will not be easy but I am here whole heartedly. I am here to do work. I am here to grow more than I understand. It’s also a reminder that myself, my guides, won’t let me fall into the status quo. There’s more work to be done than that. The slumber of going to work, eating, coming home to zone out, sleeping, and doing it all again isn’t enough anymore. It was never enough, but now it’s just not an option. I’m honoring this time so much. This whole past winter I have felt void of sexuality, of beauty. That’s okay. My skin issues, this hair, are not real, but they are real lessons that have helped me to listen to my body. I have learned that to follow my path I need to be in agreement with this body. To be in agreement means more than to accept. It means to honor and listen. It means that I have to be honest with myself and my habits, and really know if they are serving me. I must be a conduit for Spirit and that means I must ritually clear my energy field and my body. I must listen to my needs for time to myself, for quietness, and meditation.  Admitting to myself that this will not be the easiest journey was the best thing I could do.